August 21, 20010
I have been trying to get a hold of you. You wont answer your phone. I understand that you may have moved on with your life. You sister told me about Tonya, but I need to talk to you.
Love you always,
It had been 10 weeks since Edward moved. I missed him so much. I got to talk to Alice and she told me about 2 weeks ago he met this girl Tonya at school and they were dating. She hates her. She thinks she is stuck up and no good for him. I told her that I needed to talk to her brother, but she said that he just wants to move on. He is tired of feeling the pain of leaving me behind.
Two weeks ago my mom took me to the doctor, because I was sick. I was throwing up everything I was eating. She thought at first it was the 24 hour bug, but when the doctor came back in the room and told me that I was pregnant, did an ultrasound and told me that I was 8 weeks along. My mom was so disappointed in me.
"Oh my God, Bella. Who? How? I thought that you were waiting." Renee asked. She was completely shocked as I was.
"The day before Edward left we gave each other the only thing that we could give each other. I am so sorry momma. I didn't want this to happen. I love him."
"He obviously got what he wanted. He hasn't even talked to you since he left. You talk to Alice, but if he loves you he would call you too."
"I know. I was stupid momma. I am so sorry." I placed my head in my hands and started to cry. "I have to tell him mom. I can't hide this from him."
"We will call Esme and Carlisle, after you tell your dad." She reminded me that I still had to tell my father. The hard-hitting attorney, but big bear to his daughter. He is going to be so disappointed in me.
When we got home I went into my fathers office. "Daddy. I am so sorry. I got pregnant. It is Edwards. I didn't mean for this to happen. I love you and I am so so sorry." I blurted out. It was like taking a Band-Aid off.
"Your what? Did you just say that you are pregnant?" He asked calmly. That is the one thing about my dad, Charlie; he was so calm with me. I have only seen him go off on someone harshly once. He was in court. I never wanted to see that side of him.
"Yes daddy." The tears were coming again. "We had sex before he left. We were both virgins. It was stupid, but I still love him and want to keep my baby."
"Bells, you are only 16. How are you going to be a mom? You have school and college. You are still young. You know you can put the baby up for adoption. There are plenty of people who want children, but can't." He was giving me my options. I knew that, but he didn't understand.
"I know daddy, but this baby is part of Edward and I. If I never see him again I want this little part of him. I plan on telling him, but he wont talk to me."
"I will kill him. You have one month to tell him, or I am and he won't like the way that I tell him."
"Yes daddy" I hung my head down and walked out of his office.
I only had two more weeks. I needed to call him again. I needed to talk to him.
Hi, you have reached Edward. You know what to do.
I wanted to scream. Why won't he answer? I tried Alice.
"Hello Bells. What's up?" She asked. She was always in a good mood.
"I hate to do this to you, but is Edward there. I really need to talk to him Alice. It's really important."
"You know I don't want to be in the middle…."
"I know you don't, but I wouldn't ask if it wasn't an emergency." I stopped her.
She took a deep breath. "Edward. You need to talk to her she said its an emergency."
"Fine Alice, I will be right back Tonya."
I could hear him grabbing the phone. "What Bella? I am trying to get on with my life. I love you, but I can't keep doing this."
"I know I wish I could move on, but I have something important to talk to you about. I went to the doctor two weeks ago. I thought I had a bug, but they told me that I was pregnant. I am sorry. You don't have to be part of the baby's life, but my father told me I had to tell you. Thank you for talking to me and go back to your girlfriend. I just hope this time you use protection." I was so calm. I wanted to tell him I love him and I want him to be with me. I would move wherever he was and we could be a family. It was just too much. I hung up the phone.
I walked downstairs to my father's office. "Daddy. He has been told. I told him he didn't have to be part of the baby's life, but I just had to let him know. I am sure Esme or Carlisle will call you. I am so sorry for the problems. I am going to bed." I kissed my daddy and walked upstairs to my room and laid on my bed and for the last time I cried myself to sleep.