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AN: Sorry for my epic fail in responding to your reviews. I do read every one of them.
Thanks to my beta, toocute24. Sally, you are awesome!
I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling. I knew that I needed to get up, but I couldn't force myself to do it. It had been like this for the last month. I didn't want to get out of bed, talk to my friends, or do any work. I'm pretty sure that everyone is or was worried about me, but I just couldn't bring myself to care. The loneliness had crept in slowly and I was blindsided.
My phone buzzed beside me, alerting me to an incoming text. It was probably Rose or Alice; even Emmett and Edward had taken to pestering me. Couldn't they understand that I just wanted to be left alone?
I sighed and rolled over, turning my back to the phone and the window that was shining brightly with the sun. I thought back to what had led me to this point in my life. Ah, yes, my philandering fiancé had cheated on me and then died.
If I really looked back on it, I could see all the signs that Garrett was cheating: broken dates, late business dinners, and no sex. Garrett and I hadn't been intimate in months - he had barely kissed me. I was so in my head and my job that I didn't take the time to look around me and realize that my life was slipping through my fingers.
Sure, I put on a good front when the girls were here, but I was dying inside. I tried for a while, but I reached my breaking point right before New Year's.
I sat at the dining room table at my mother's on Christmas Day, laughing and pretending to have a good time. It was after dessert was served that she started in with the questions.
"So, Izzie, have you thought about dating again? You're not getting any younger."
"MOM!" Emmett yelled.
"No, it's okay, Em." I smiled softly at him before turning back to my mother. "No, Mom, I haven't thought about dating again. Regardless of what was going on in my relationship with Garrett, I was faithful to him. I think that deserves at least some mourning."
"Alright, Sweetheart, you know what is best for you." Renee sighed before tucking back in to her pie. "I just think that you are wasting your life…mourning for a relationship that had been gone longer than you realized."
"Thanks, Mother; I will take your words under advisement." I pushed away from the table and carried my dishes to the kitchen. I looked around me and started cleaning up all of the mess from our dinner, thinking about what my mother had said. It wasn't until I got home that evening that it hit me. I was alone.
I had immediately emailed my boss and requested a leave of absence. Carmen had been very understanding, and I was granted two months off with pay. I had never taken a vacation the entire time that I had been with the publishing company, preferring to save all of my time for our honeymoon - a honeymoon that was apparently never going to happen.
I rolled back over onto my back and stared at the ceiling some more. I closed my eyes as Hedwig's Theme from Harry Potter came from my phone, indicating that Edward was calling me again. I picked it up, and thought for one minute about answering, but finally hit the ignore button and sent it to voicemail.
After our initial email, we had gone back and forth, getting to know each other in the safe way. I had stopped communication in every way, though, not just with him, but with Rose, Alice, Emmett, and the rest of my family.
Too tired to think anymore, I rolled back over and felt the exhaustion run through me before I finally succumbed to sleep.
I heard the buzzing coming from beside me and groaned. I rolled over and grabbed the offending object, flipping it open and answering it. "Hello?"
The sound of his voice had me sitting straight up in bed. "Emmett? What's wrong?"
"I can't find her Rose!" Emmett cried. I was up and out of my bed, flinging clothes into a duffel bag as he explained. "I went to her house this morning because I am sick and tired of her ignoring me. I am worried. When I got here, I had to use my key because she didn't answer when I rang the doorbell. I searched the whole house for her, Rose! She isn't here!"
Before I responded, I hollered for my brother. Disoriented, Jasper appeared in my doorway. Taking in my actions, he ran back to his room, and I heard him slamming drawers as he packed. "Okay, Emmett, calm down. Jasper and I are gonna get on the next available flight and we will help you. She hasn't been answering any of us. I know that Alice and Edward are worried, too."
I disconnected the call and ran out to the living room before going into the kitchen to dispose of all the perishables. I had no idea how long we would be gone, and I didn't want the apartment to stink when we did return. I then called my store and explained to my manager that I was needed out of town, and that she was in charge, but that I could be reached on my cell phone if any problems arose. Angela assured me that things would be fine in my absence. I knew that I had hired her for a reason.
Jasper joined me in the living room and we quickly locked up and sprinted to his car. While he weaved in and out of traffic, I called Alice to bring her up to speed. Instead of reaching her, however, I got her voicemail. "Dammit!" I waited for the tone, then hurriedly explained the situation and begged her to call me.
"What's wrong?" Jasper questioned.
"I forgot that Alice is busy with her fashion show this week."
"Okay, so call Edward. I know that he would jump on a plane," Jasper told me as he reached the exit for the airport.
I picked up my phone and called Edward. He answered after two rings.
"Edward, it's Rosalie."
"What's wrong, Rose?"
I sucked in a breath before I explained. "Emmett went over to Bella's and can't find her. He said that she wasn't in her house. He doesn't know what to do. Have you heard from her?"
"I got a weird text from her yesterday, and I've been calling ever since. Are you flying out to Denver?"
"Yeah, we're at the airport now. Jasper is at the counter trying to get us a flight." I wanted to ask what the text said, but I didn't want to intrude. I knew that Edward was developing feelings for Bella. I had thought that the feeling was mutual until she disappeared off the radar.
"Okay, I'll get some stuff together and see you guys in Denver."
We hung up and I walked up to the counter beside my brother.
"Okay, Sir. I have two tickets aboard Flight 827 non-stop to Denver. You will be departing from Gate 6A, and boarding will begin in half an hour. Did you have any bags to check?" Jasper and I both shook our heads. "Then here are your tickets. Have a pleasant flight and thank you for choosing American Airlines."
Jasper and I took the tickets and sprinted toward our gate. We were lucky that there wasn't a long line to get through security, and we got to our gate just as they made the boarding call. Jasper and I boarded the plane, and after he stowed our duffels, we settled in, not knowing what to expect when we got to Denver.
AN: Where is Bella? Do you think that her depression is well deserved? Leave me your thoughts. Until next time.