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First, of all let me apologize for the delayed updates. Things have been hectic around my house. I complete in two contests … where I wrote six one shots. I started a new WIP that has been calling to me for a couple of months, and completed it. My father had a heart attack that sent me spinning for a couple of days until they found out what had happened. Things are still up in the air about him at the moment. Rest assured that I will finish this story one way or another.

Thanks to my beta(s) on this chapter: dannibags, piesmom

This chapter will find Bella going on her date with Riley. A heavy decision with Edward and another fan fiction read. Going home to learn that one of your best friends will no longer be around. Actually, this chapter should take us to the first moments they step foot at Harvard.

Chapter 4

Bad Days, Clarity, and Going Home


Today was going to be a shitty day … Jake was still sick from his adventures last night and had a headache the size of Texas, according to him. I didn't want to be here when Bella left for her date with Riley.

I didn't like the fact that things got so carried away last night, only for her to be off with someone else today. Hell, it pissed me off. Couldn't she see? I was standing right in front of her this whole time and still she kept passing me over for someone else.

I spent the majority of the day hanging out on the beach, and every woman that came up to me, I quickly snubbed. I didn't want them. The woman I wanted was on a date with some other prick that would break her heart in the end.

I knew I wasn't giving Riley much. Hell, I didn't even know him, but I was concerned that with him going to Harvard like Bella and myself that we would be seeing him again. I just knew it. Someone like Bella, you didn't just meet once and forget. She didn't know it, but she was pretty unforgettable.

Pacing the floor in the condo was the best option I had when she didn't come home for dinner. I wanted to call her, but worried that she would be mad if I ruined her time with Riley. I was two seconds away from calling the police when I heard her giggling outside the door.

Stepping closer to the door was the only option I had to make sure that she didn't planning on seeing him again. Of course, I wouldn't be able to change her mind if she decided. I had my ear so close to the door, and when she opened it, I straightened up before she could notice what I had been doing.

She walked straight into me. She didn't even look up.

"Where have you been?" I asked.

"With Riley … you knew that," she said stepping back away from me.

"You could have called and let me know you were running late."

"I didn't know I was running late … did we have a date or something I wasn't aware of?" she asked hateful.

"No, but something could have happened. What if he had taken you and murdered you?"

"Thanks for the concern, but he didn't and here I am. You could have called to check yourself … if you were so worried."

She was driving me crazy; why wouldn't I worry? She was with a stranger to both her and us. We didn't know what he would do with her. Hell, girls had gone on spring break before and never came back home. So sue me for being concerned.

"I entertained the idea of calling, but didn't want to ruin your date. So, forgive me for not being rude."

I had thought about calling her, but didn't want to ruin her date. But, why hadn't I called to ruin her date?

"What's your problem?" she asked.

"My problem? You really want to know what my problem is?" I asked.

I was getting more pissed by the minute.

"Yes," she said with her hands on her hips.

"I love you, okay … that's my problem. I love you and don't want to see you with other men. I care about you and want you for myself. Happy now?" I asked.

I looked up at her and she looked like a deer caught in headlights. She didn't move a muscle, and I don't even think she blinked. I wanted her to say something to acknowledge my feelings in some way. I wanted her to say that she loved me too or something, anything. When I had stood there long enough, I finally had enough waiting for her to do something. I was pissed and stormed out of the condo. If she wasn't going to acknowledge me, I was going out.

I wondered into the first bar on the strip and drank my sorrows. I couldn't believe that she didn't have any feelings for me at all. That was apparent by her lack of emotions.

I stumble into the condo sometime during the night. I stopped by her door as I passed her room. I felt like pushing her door open and going in there to kiss the shit out of her. How could she not have feelings for me? I finally stumbled to my room and dropped face first on my bed. I didn't bother to take off my clothes. Hell, I was just lucky to be home.

The last three days in Cancun were the worst. She ignored me for the first day, which was great because I felt like ignoring her. She had hurt my feelings with not having something to say about my admission.

The second day, she tried a couple of times to talk to me. I would answer her simple questions, but for the most part, I didn't care. I wanted not to care. I didn't know how I was going to live with her if she didn't care anything for me.

On the third day, I gave up completely. I knew if things didn't change with us, there would be no way we would be able to function well enough to live together.

Bella and I talked enough to figure out how we were going to get our things to Cambridge. We planned on renting a U-haul and would come back to the apartment before heading to Cambridge.

We were sitting at the dining room table eating supper after finishing packing the apartment when Jake made his announcement.

"Well, guys I'm afraid that as of tomorrow, the three musketeers while no longer be together," he stated around the pizza he was eating.

"Where are you going?" Bella asked curiously.

"I'm going home first, then Seattle maybe. There are a couple of places there looking for people," he said around another bit of food.

"Will you be there when we leave?" Bella asked.

I looked over at Bella and saw tears building her eyes. I understood why she would be upset. This was the first time in years that we wouldn't all be together. I wondered if she would be the same when I told her I wouldn't live with her if things weren't going in the direction I wanted.

"You can always come to Massachusetts to visit you know," Bella whispered.

"I know and don't cry Bella. I will come and see you guys. Plus, we will be in Forks for a few weeks before you guys have to go," he said.

I sat back and watched the two talk back and forth.

Tomorrow we were flying into Seattle for the two weeks. Then, Bella and I would fly back to New Hampshire to drive to Cambridge where we would only have one week before school started. I needed to figure out where we stood. If she couldn't see herself with me, then I would have to find a place, maybe live in a dorm.

The flight was long, and I was completely worn out by the time we landed. We still have to travel another two hours just to get to Forks. Carlisle was picking us up from the airport and driving us to Forks. The first stop was to take Bella to Charlie's. Maybe the break away from one another would put things into a little better perspective for me.


We had been in Forks for a week when I finally decided to go to Bella's for dinner. I watched her wondering why she couldn't love me back. I knew I was being ridiculous, even Esme said so, but I couldn't help the way I felt inside. She was giving me dirty looks the whole time, which to me confirmed the fact that she never wanted to be with me to begin with.

"So, how was Cancun?" Charlie asked pulling me from my thoughts.

"It was great," she said quickly.

"I know Bella. I was asking Edward."

When he said my name, I looked over at him and swallowed hard. The look he was giving me, I knew he knew something was going on.

"It was fun," I said trying to have very little emotion in my voice.

"Who are you seeing?" Charlie asked looking at Bella.

"Bella, are you seeing any one?" he asked again.

"No," she replied.

My head snapped up in her direction. Hell, I had figured some of the reason she wouldn't reply to my admission was that she had something going with Riley. He was headed to Harvard like us.

The girls headed toward the kitchen to clean up, and Charlie and I went to the living room. Charlie motioned for me to follow him outside. I knew what was going to happen next. He was going to ask me who Bella was really seeing because she had said 'no' and didn't offer up any information to Charlie.

"So, who is she seeing?" he asked.

"Nobody at the moment that I'm aware of," I said confidently.

Yeah, I had admitted my feelings for her, but never did I ask her to be my girlfriend, or if she wanted to date. Nothing. So, why was I so pissed at her?

"What's with the looks Edward? And don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about."

I couldn't hold back any longer, and I knew Charlie would be one of the many hurdles I would have to cross. Bella being the next hurdle in line, and she was going to be tougher than her dad.

"I'm in love with your daughter, Charlie. I have been in love with her for as long as I can remember."

I hung my head and waited for the Charlie to shoot me in the leg or better yet the groin.

What shocked me is Charlie started laughing … rolling on the ground laughing.

"What's so funny? Aren't you ready to kill me?" I asked dumbfounded. This wasn't what I expected out of Charlie especially being he wanted us to keep her away from boys before we left for college.

"You my dear boy are a dumbass."

"Huh?" I asked.

"I've known for years now. I could see it when you looked at her. I could see it when she was with other boys. Hell, I would be willing to bet the whole town already expected you guys to be married or pregnant."

With his last statement, he sobered up a little.

"Look, I'm glad you finally realized you love her, but, have you told her yet?"

"Yes," I replied with my head down.

"Let me guess, she didn't say it back?"

I nodded. I was already hurt that she hadn't admitted that she had feelings for me too, or that she already loved me. Hell, I would have been happy with … how sweet Edward, but you are going to have to give me some time. However, I got nothing, just a blank stare and a numbed expression on her face.

"She loves you too, never doubt that, but give her time. She hasn't wrapped her mind around it yet. Maybe once you guys get back and drive to Cambridge, she will have it figured out."

He patted my shoulder, walking back into the house. I followed slowly and sat for the remainder of the evening, watching the Mariner's with Charlie. When the game was over, I excused myself. I'd had enough of hanging out, just to see if things had changed. The rest of the week was spent hanging out in La Push with the reservation kids. We hung out in Port Angeles, before we had to leave.

Somewhere during our time together, I finally decided that ignoring her wasn't the best option. I couldn't ignore her totally anyways, not the way I really wanted. She occupied every thought I had. We never talked about what happened in Cancun and somewhere I decided that I would forget how I felt about her and just continue to be her friend because I would rather see her happy with someone else than miserable with me. For the last couple of days in Forks, we were the three musketeers again.

We finally had to leave Forks and begin our new journey in life. Bella and Esme cried, while saying goodbye to everyone.

"She loves you, just give her time," Esme said as she hugged me tight.

"She'll come around, don't give up," Charlie said winking at me.

"Be happy together," Carlisle said hugging me tight like Esme had.

"Work it out … she's a good one," Sue said while hugging me.

Bella narrowed her eyes at me.

Once we boarded the plane, she quickly pulled her iPod out of her bag. She placed the buds in her ears and tuned out the whole world, including me. I watched her for a while, noticing her working her bottom lip with her teeth, and then she fidgeted with different things. Bella was mad about something, and I wondered what the parents had said to her during the hugs. If they said the same things to me as they did her, she probably thought I had told them everything. I had only talk Esme and Charlie, but you know how it goes. Esme tells Carlisle, Charlie tells Sue, and then they impart some kind of knowledge or advice to us kids.

When we landed in New Hampshire, she took off like a bat out of hell and left me standing, gathering my things. I chased after her, but once she hopped into the cab and flipped me off, I knew we were about to figure this whole thing out or end our friendship once and for all.

I watched her cab pull out as mine pulled into our apartment complex. I briefly saw her making her way through the front doors of the building before my cab came to a complete stop. I paid the cabby and got out of the car. I wasn't looking forward to fighting with her, and one way or another, we were going to solve this problem.

"When did you tell everyone?" she asked with her hands on her hips. I hadn't even gotten through the door yet.

"I only told Esme. Carlisle knew because she did. Charlie already had it figured out, and I am assuming that being that Charlie knew, Sue now knows."

"Why are you mad at me?" she asked.

"I'm not mad really. I just expected a little more than you gave me. Tell me, do you have any feelings at all for me?"

She huffed and sat down on the couch.

"Yes," she said defeated.

"How long?" I asked.

I wanted to know how long she wanted me. I walked over to her and sat on the couch beside her.

"A while now … before graduation."

"If we get together, there will never be a situation like graduation. Ever! No matter what," I stated.

"Agreed," she replied.

I was glad she agreed because there was no way she was going to be with another man. I never really wanted things to happen the way they had.

"No more frat parties," she said.

"Agreed, didn't like going anyways," I said.

I never wanted to go to those parties. I went because of Bella or whoever I was dating at the time.

We both sat there for a few minutes, not speaking. I wanted to make us official. I didn't want any more confusion about our relationship.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked.

"Yes," she said with a broad smile on her face.

I leaned over and pushed the hair that was hanging down in her face behind her ear. I gently stroked her cheek. I leaned down and placed a gentle, light kiss on her lips.

She reached up and laced her fingers through my hair, pulling my head closer to hers. She ran her tongue along the edge of my lips, asking for permission to kiss me deeper. I opened my mouth, allowing her to slip her tongue into my mouth. She used her tongue to massage my own. Everything she was doing with my mouth was causing other things about my body to react. We pulled apart from the kiss breathless. I looked into her beautiful brown eyes and saw the lust burning below the surface.

"I want you," she whispered.

"I want you, too," I whispered leaning down to capture her lips once again. I wanted to consume her with my kiss, make her feel the same things I was. I wanted her more than anything in the world.

"Take me to bed," she whispered when we finally pulled apart from each to catch our breath.

I didn't hesitate to take her to bed. Hell, I had been dying for weeks on end to be with her in every sense of the word. I wanted to be her boyfriend, her lover, and hopefully one day, her husband. I didn't say anything, and picked her up and carried her to my room. There was no way in hell I was sleeping with her in her room. That room started all this mess, and I wanted us to be somewhere we had never been.

I lowered her to the bed and didn't want to pull away from her. So, I placed my body on top of hers. She quickly wrapped her legs around my waist, pulling my body against hers. I could feel the heat radiating from her core and couldn't wait to have her again.

"Make love to me," she whispered when we broke way from our kiss.

"Gladly," I replied.

I moved my hands down the side of her chest, just barely grazing the curve of her breast. I glided my hand down to the hem of her shirt and slowly pulled it up and over her body. She sat up allowing me to completely remove the shirt, but she didn't lie back down. Instead, she reached down to the hem of my shirt and slowly raised it over my head. Once the shirts were discarded on the floor, she kissed my neck and chest; she ran her fingers down my body to the button of my jeans.

"You first," I said stopping her hands from completely opening my jeans.

I reached down to her jeans to unbutton them. She laid back on the bed and allowed me to unzip her jeans and slowly drag them down her legs. She was all laid out before me in nothing more than her bra and panties. The sight before me was absolutely gorgeous. She was everything and more to me, and seeing her like this now was almost like a dream come true. She moved up and reached to help me out of my jeans, but I stopped her again.

"Just let me look for a minute," I whispered.

She laid back with her brown eyes some much darker than before. I wanted to look at her, to make sure that this was what I thought. That I hadn't fallen asleep on the plane and dreamed everything that was happening. I considered pinching myself just to make sure. I lifted her foot, bringing it to my mouth, placing open mouth kisses on her soles. I slowly worked my way up her calf and used my fingers to tease the insides of her thighs.

"God, you're so beautiful," I said looking her in the eyes.

"You've captivated me for a while now, and I almost can't believe it your here with me," I said.

"I'm here," she cooed reaching up to brush her fingers along my jaw.

I leaned down and kissed her. I wanted her more than life, and the kisses reflected my need for her. She lowered her hands and finished working on my button to my jeans. When she opened my jeans, she used her legs to push down what her hands couldn't reach.

I broke from the kiss for a few minutes to kick my jeans off my legs. When I finally got the chance to enter her, I didn't want to be hindered with my ankles restrained by my jeans. I leaned down and placed soft kisses to her lips. I pulled away before we got carried away. I kissed down her neck and between her breasts. I glided my hands down her stomach and into the waistband of her panties.

I couldn't wait to touch her any longer and slipped my fingers into her panties, heading straight to her clit. I rubbed circles around the swollen nub, feeling it tighten and swell larger the more excited she became. Her hips rose, trying to make my fingers slip into her entrance, but I wasn't ready yet. I leaned down, and placed my lips around her covered nipple and nibbled at the hardened bud.

"Take off my bra," she said.

I was going to reach behind her back, but would have to pull my fingers from her wet core.

"Front," she said.

I was happy that the clasp wasn't in the back; I pushed my fingers back into her awaiting pussy. I kissed down the middle of her breast until I located the clasp on her bra. I slipped my tongue around the clasp and used my lips to work the little clasp apart. I nudge the cups away from her breast, exposing her body to my eyes. The cool air in the room caused her nipples to harden right in front of my eyes. I didn't waste time and placed my lips around her pert buds.

She reached down and grabbed my head, lacing her fingers through my hair and anchoring it to her breasts. She rocked her hips to the rhythm I pulled in and out of her body. She pulled at my hair when my teeth grazed her nipple. I stopped moving my fingers in and out of her warm heat and added pressure to her clit with my thumb. I curled my fingers inside of her and massaged the walls that surrounded me.

"Don't stop," she moaned when I stroked a spot deep inside of her that made her legs twitch.

"Like that?" I asked adding just a little more pressure to her clit.

"Yeah," she breathed.

"Bella, cum for me," I said stroking a little hard within her depths.

She moaned, and I could feel the walls inside of her squeeze tighter around my fingers.

"God baby, please cum for me," I begged.

I rubbed my rock hard cock against her leg. I was so desperate to be inside of her already and playing with her pussy made it worse.

"Talk dirty to me."

"Fuck, you feel so damn tight. I want to cum inside of you baby, but if you don't cum soon, I'm afraid I won't get the chance," I said.

"Yeah," she replied.

"Yeah, I'll cum almost no sooner than I push into your tight little pussy," I moaned.

"Oh God, I'm …. I'm …" she panted.

"Say my name Bella. Tell me who's making you cum," I said picking up the pace of my strokes.

"You are, God … Edward … Oh God, Edward," she screamed as her climax washed over her body.

I removed my fingers from her body and jerked my boxers down. My dick sprang to life, happy to be out of the boxer shorts and closer to her wet pussy.

"Bella, are you still on the pill?" I asked stroking my weeping cock.

"Yeah," she replied a little dazed.

"Can I … not wear …" I began to ask, but I was cut off.

"Fuck me, Edward," she demanded.

I rose up on my knees and pulled her body to mine. I positioned her in my lap, allowing my member to lightly graze the lips of her opening. She left her knees on the mattress. I slowly pushed myself into her body.

"Fuck me, so fucking tight," I moaned.

I didn't move for a couple of minutes, and I tried to concentrate really hard on not coming too soon. I thought about different things, and Charlie with a gun pointed at my dick seemed to work. However, it wasn't enough to take my erection completely away, and it wasn't enough to starve off my climax.

"God, I could cum right now, and I don't even have to move a muscle. That's how fucking good you feel on me," I groaned panted still holding still.

She wiggled around on my cock, making me groan and moan. She pushed me back onto the mattress and used her body to slide up and down my shaft. I was too close, and the way she was riding me, I was going to cum in a matter of minutes. I reached down, grabbed her hips, and thrust wildly into her body.

"I'm going to cum," I grunted thrusting harder than before.

"Me too," she cried.

I reached down and rubbed her clit just as another climax consumed her body. I couldn't speak as my climax washed over my body.

She didn't budge from my chest and collapsed right on top of me. When my body slipped from hers, I pulled the covers over us.

"Bella," I said.


"I love you," I said placing a kiss on her forehead.

"I love you, too," she replied.

I didn't know where we were going in our relationship, but with her laying in my arms upon my chest, I knew I would never be able to let her go. I wanted everything with her, and I wouldn't stop at anything to get it. There was no way I was going to let someone else get between us now with everything we had been through in the last couple of months. I loved her with all my heart, and she had it the moment she walked into Miss Gillespie's kindergarten class.

A/N: All right guys this is the end of the line for this series. I hope you enjoyed. I'm ready to close this story out, and with our couple together which was the ultimate goal with this story I feel like I am done. As always, be kind and show some love.