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Chapter Eight: Hating Myself
"I want you," she whispered into his ear, her hot breath tickling him before she nibbled on his ear lobe.
Austin licked his lips and squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself the control he needed to not throw her on the floor and take her right there. "You got me, I'm right here," he said as he guided her hands to run down his chest, feeling him the whole way down.
Ally smirked and took control of her own hands again when she reached his belt buckle, ghosting her fingers up and under his white tee and through the fine trail of hairs that lead like a path down into the waistband of his exposed boxers. His happy trail, she thought. Oh how she wanted to make him happy… Would it be wrong to lick her way down to the prize at the end?
"No," she said quietly. "I mean," she said as she pulled back and looked him in the eyes, her hands popping open the button on his jeans before vigorously pulling the two sides apart, listening as the zipper worked it way down and she grasped him through his boxers. "I want you. Right now."
Austin's mouth dropped open and his eyes fluttered shut as she gripped him, tugging him closer to her and squeezing him with just the right amount of pressure.
Ally's gaze shifted back and forth between both of his eyes once they reopened, her heart thundering in her chest as she awaited his response. She only prayed that he finally understood her meaning and that he wouldn't give her the brush off. She was unsure where all this courage and forwardness was coming from – she had never shown so much in her entire life, and she had also never been more serious, or ready, in her entire life.
She trembled slightly as she backed away from him, trying very hard to hold her ground and not jump his bones as he licked his lips and looked at hers, his eyes much darker than they had been only moments ago. Yeah, she noticed that… and it was making it harder and harder to tear her eyes away from his. She was hot, her face was flushed, her chest rising and falling noticeably as she breathed heavily. Her backside hit the piano and she came to a stop, palming her hands against the wood and looking into his dark chocolate eyes. She wanted him to take her… to be her first once again, that is, if he would allow her to be his.
A wave of heat and dread rippled down the back of Austin's neck into his spine, coming to rest in his gut. He felt like crying. He wanted to… he wanted to take her more than anything in his entire life in that moment… but he hadn't brought any protection. He didn't even own any! It wasn't exactly like he had planned for any of this to happen when he left school Friday afternoon…
He clenched his jaw and shook his head. "I can't," he started.
Ally felt her heart sink to the pit of her stomach. Was this not what he wanted? Every guy in the universe wants sex at the age of seventeen. Instantly she blamed herself. Was there something wrong with her that she wasn't the type guys wanted to sleep with? She gulped. She should have known she wasn't good enough for Austin Moon…
Austin saw the fear in her eyes and instantly regretted his choice of words. He smiled and took a tentative step forward. "I mean," he sighed, "I want to, I do. But… I don't have any… y'know…"
Ally relaxed, and her heart resumed its stormy beat as she looked at him standing before her… his fly opened and his boxers exposed, his shirt pushed up slightly to reveal a tiny bit of his delicious skin to her... She smirked at him and rolled her head, enticing him to come toward her. "You don't need it."
Austin's heart skipped a beat and his eyes lit up. Did she mean…
She licked her lips and nodded at him, giving him all the reassurance he needed. His heart pounded so hard in his chest he thought she might actually be able to see it through his shirt. His eyes glazed over, and his nostrils flared as he smirked back at her.
Austin walked right up to her, pressing his body firmly against hers, listening to her tiny gasp when he raised his hand to move her hair out of her eyes. He studied her face, licking his lips as he looked down at her full, plump, red ones, and leaned forward.
He captured her bottom lip between his two and sucked lightly, moaning when she opened her mouth for him. God, yes! he thought as he smiled and pressed himself into her, gripping her bottom and lifting her, placing her on the piano's edge, pushing her skirt up and not caring about the noises being made by all the disturbed keys he hit with his thighs.
Ally instinctively wrapped her legs around his waist and gasped when she felt his bulge press sweetly against her center, the thin barrier of her panties not doing much to mask her arousal for him… She slipped her fingers under his jacket and pushed it down off of his shoulders, smiling into their kiss when his hands came back up after dropping the jacket to pull her even tighter against him.
She squirmed and whimpered into their deepening kiss, desperate for any amount of friction against her sex. She wanted him; she needed him so badly in that moment. She wasn't sure that even if she wasn't on the pill she'd be able to stop herself. At least in the heat of the moment she had the comfort of knowing that she was in fact protected. Thank you, mother, for not trusting dad to have 'the talk' with me in time!
Part of her wondered when she had become such a little minx, wanting every part of her best friend's body to be pressing against hers and sliding in and out of her own. The other part of her didn't care, and was too caught up in the moment to really stop and think about what she was doing.
Here she was, constantly telling herself that they needed to have a talk before anything else happened that they would regret, and yet, she was currently de-vesting him of his skin tight white tee and pushing down on his jeans, leaving the material bunched underneath his butt, his engorged member straining against the thin material of his boxers.
Sex was pretty much the furthest you could go with someone… and if they were going to do this there was really no going back. If they were to have their talk when it was all said and done and he decided he just wants to go back to the way things were before, could she do it? Could she really pretend he hadn't become the only thing to flood her mind for the last several days? Could she pretend that she didn't allow, and encourage her best friend to take her virginity from her after only two days of what felt like months of a secret affair?
All chances of having any second thoughts vanished from her mind when Austin's right hand made its way down to her thigh, rubbing and squeezing it with more force than usual, but Ally didn't mind. She liked the way he was handling her then. It made everything feel all the more real, and if she was completely one hundred percent honest with herself, she kind of wanted a bruise or two to remember all this by in the morning, so she knew she wasn't dreaming.
What the hell has gotten into me?
Austin's fingers worked their way down to the inside of her thigh and before she knew it he had pulled her panties aside and started rubbing her clit with the pad of his thumb.
Ally's eyes shot open at the bolt of pleasure that ran through her and she pulled her mouth away from his to let out a rather loud gasp. Austin moved his mouth to her jaw line and held the left side of her neck so she wouldn't pull away from him any more than she already had. Her mouth hung open as she let the tingly sensation course through her in waves. She breathed loudly, unable to hold it in as her body began to overheat. He was driving her wild and they had barely even started yet.
Austin breathed out against her jaw as he left sloppy open mouthed kisses all over her exposed skin. He wanted so badly to mark her again, show everyone she belonged to him. Leave his mark claiming his territory to keep all other guys away from her.
Of course, she never saw it, would never believe it if he told her how many times he'd caught guys checking her out at school or at the store or even at his performances. There was always a guy eyeing her up and she was always left unknowing, completely innocent. Just this once he wanted to do something to make it known that she was his girl, even if only unofficially… for now.
He wouldn't do that again, though. He had already left a nasty looking hickey on her neck from the night before and she had worked hard to cover it up. They were still only seventeen after all, anything more than a hickey would surely have teachers and their parents wondering what was going on. He would never embarrass her like that.
So instead he breathed out his frustration, rubbing his thumb vigorously across her most sensitive area, listening to her breath catching in her throat. He would just commit the noises she makes to memory, and that would have to be enough for him until they figured out what they were doing and where they were going with all of this.
Austin's breathing began to increase as well once she ran her hands up and under his shirt again. He loved the way she seemed to always need her hands on his skin, not squeezing or scratching, just feeling him, as if to make sure he was really there. Her fingertips left goose bumps in their wake, and he shuddered when she dragged her hands all the way down and curled her fingers into the waistband of his boxers.
Ally bit her lip and pulled down on the material, exposing his member to her. Her mouth watered at the sight of it, and she wanted so badly to please him in every way possible. Before she could grasp him, though, he pulled back, stepping away from her as much as she would allow with her one leg still hooked around him.
Austin sucked in a quick breath and grabbed the hem of his own shirt, pulling it up and over his head in one swift motion, messing his hair up even more in the process. Ally's dark eyes looked him up and down appreciatively as he stepped out of his jeans, holding her ankle on the curve of his butt as he did so.
Reaching forward, Austin grabbed fist-fulls of Ally's skirt, tugging each side of it down in turns, pulling the stretchy fabric over the curve of her hips and down off of her body, holding her ankles and directing her feet through the fabric without snagging any of it on her heels.
As soon as the skirt was tossed aside and forgotten he reached for the hem of her top, smirking at the way she instantly raised her arms up so he could easily pull it up and off of her slender body, her breasts bobbing ever so slightly as they came to rest in place once the garment was added to the pile of scattered clothing on the practice room floor.
Ally smirked as she watched Austin handle her in whatever way he wanted. He was clearly getting impatient with the layers, and it was cute watching his face as he stripped her down until she was wearing almost nothing. Her impossibly tiny panties and her high heels were the only thing she was left in as he moved toward her again. She had prepared to hook her leg over his hip again but he suddenly dropped down to his knees in front of her, causing her heart to skip a beat.
Austin placed his hands on the insides of both of her thighs and spread them as wide as they would go without knocking her off of the piano she was currently perched on. Ally sought purchase on the top of the piano, holding herself in place as she was opened up to him. Her heart was racing, beating faster than she ever thought it could as she looked down at him for the second time in two days.
Her lips curled into a small smile as she trembled and waited for what he was going to do.
Austin moved his right hand to her center, pulling the crotch of her panties aside once again and dragging his fingers up through her slick folds, elated that he had caused her to be so wet for him already. He glanced up at her and noted that she was trying to hard to keep her eyes on him, but with each swipe of his fingers closer to her clit it became harder and harder for her to do so. He smirked to himself as he twisted his hand and pushed his middle finger into her, curling it upwards as he pulled it back out, watching her mouth form the perfect 'O'. He inserted a second finger, pushing into her with some force, purposely hitting her clit with the pad of his thumb again, leaning in and nipping at the soft flesh of her inner thigh as he fingered her.
Ally moaned when the tips of his callused fingers hit the sweet spot inside of her, but she wanted so much more than that. She wanted to feel him; she wanted his lips on hers when she felt him enter her.
She bit her lip and rolled her head back, finally tangling her fingers into his hair as he kissed up her thigh closer and closer to her sex, finally planting a hard kiss over her opening. He continued to move his fingers in and out of her as his tongue swirled up the sides of her folds and his lips closed over her bundle of nerves, sucking hard and pulling tiny flaps of skin into his mouth. Ally swallowed and let her mouth drop open in a gasp, whimpering as he moved his head back and forth, looking up at her through his eyelashes.
Austin watched her intently, keeping up his pace as he saw her brow furrow in a wave of pleasure as he hummed into her. He wasn't sure where he had exactly learned to do all of this. Some was… well, watching it on his computer at home. A lot was trial and error. Maybe it was creepy the way he kept his eyes on her as he did these things, but he wanted oh-so badly to know what things pleased her and which ones didn't. So far, his studying was paying off, and in only a matter of days he had learned how to touch her to drive her absolutely wild.
Ally was going back and forth so often between biting her lip and dropping her jaw to gasp and moan she thought for sure she was going to bite a hole in her lip or give herself lockjaw. At the moment, though, she could care less. What Austin was doing to her was so incredibly satisfying and so amazingly sexy… she was sure she would combust if she didn't get what she really craved from him soon.
Swallowing hard and looking down at him, her eyes locked with his and she grabbed his face, bringing him up and devouring his mouth with her own. She could taste herself on him, and strangely enough that only turned her on more.
Austin placed both hands on the piano on either side of Ally as he stood and leaned over her, holding himself as steady as possible as she ravaged him from her spot in front of him. Their teeth clicked together as they went at each other with equal vigor. He was harder than he had ever been in his entire life and it was beginning to hurt, he could only hope and pray that she wasn't going to go back on what she said she wanted.
It was a lot to ask of her, he knew that. But she was the one who had said she wanted it, and then told him, without really telling him, that she was protected and they were safe. Still… this was Ally. His best friend… his songwriter… was this really something they should be doing on such a whim?
Austin pulled back, gasping for air and looked at the girl before him. Her hair was messy now, her side braid coming undone from their heated embrace. She wore nothing except her now tattered panties and her high heels. Her cheeks were red as were her lips, the lipstick now worn off from their kisses. Her big russet-brown eyes moved back and forth between his, sparkling as the corners of her mouth turned into a small smile at him. She held his neck with both hands, pulling his face down to hers once again for a softer kiss this time… one that spoke to him.
Ally could see the concern in his eyes. She understood where he was coming from, really she did. But she was never a risk taker. Never had been the one to have the guts to do whatever she wanted whenever she wanted. This was her moment when she knew what she wanted; really knew, and she wasn't going to back down now. She smiled at him and pulled him in for a sweet kiss, one that she tried pouring her emotions into without being too sappy. She wanted him, and she knew he wanted her… so why worry about tomorrow? They would cross that bridge when they came to it. She wanted to enjoy today, and say she had the guts to do what she really desired…
Austin settled as he felt her press her upper body into his, molding herself to him as he ran his hands from her knees up her thighs to rest on her hips once again. He felt her hook her legs around him once again and he knew she was ready. She would have stopped this already if she hadn't been…
Austin reached down and grabbed himself, lining himself up at her entrance. Images of the night before flashed through his mind when he had rubbed his length up and down her folds without entering her, how hot it had been to be face to face with her as she moaned and whimpered. He wanted to feel that again.
He pressed the tip of himself into her and her back straightened, her mouth dropping open slightly as her dark eyes drank him in. Austin pressed his forehead against hers and licked his lips. "You're sure?" his raspy voice finally managed.
Ally let out a large breath and suppressed the smile that threatened to bust through at his cuteness. She smiled slightly and nodded, pulling him to her with her legs.
Austin pushed himself slowly into her and she immediately whimpered. He stopped every few centimeters or so to let her adjust. She was so tight, and so hot… nothing he had ever felt before could compare to what it felt like to be inside Ally Dawson. It was the most amazing thing he had ever felt…
Ally gripped Austin's upper arms tighter and tighter the further in he went. He had technically broken her hymen a few nights prior, but nothing could compare to actually having him enter her. He felt massive, and it hurt just a little bit to have him stretch her and enter her so much deeper than his fingers had ever gone. She tried her hardest not to wince, but when she felt him finally fill her to the hilt she couldn't help the tiny look of pain that flashed on her face.
Austin saw her face and stilled, panicking. "Ally, I'm so sorr-"
"Shh…" she shakily-whispered as she covered his mouth with a single finger, her hand trembling as she looked at him through her lust filled gaze. "I want it, remember?"
Austin clenched his jaw and nodded against her forehead, keeping his hips as still as possible as she adjusted to the size and feel of him buried within her. He watched her face as she blinked slowly and studied his face. He studied hers right back, waiting for any kind of sign that she wanted him to continue.
He swallowed hard and pulled his face away from hers, and lifted one hand to brush a stray strand of hair out of her eyes, running the backs of his fingers along the profile of her face as he did so.
Ally found the gesture… sweet… and before she knew it she began to blink rapidly and circle her hips, craving some more friction from the boy stilled within her.
Austin watched as the girl before him suddenly came alive again and started moving before him. He could feel every movement from within her, and the feeling of it was something so indescribably amazing to him. His eyes threatened to flutter shut at the sensations running up his spine.
He was having sex… for the first time ever… and it was with Ally… on a piano! Oh, the irony…
Austin trembled as he pulled back slightly before pushing back in again; listening as Ally gasped in what he hoped was pleasure at the motion. He was experimenting with his movements, figuring out exactly how to move and how hard to push to make her feel good. Nearly everything he did or she did felt good to him, and although they had just started, he was already very much enjoying himself. It wasn't just about him, though, and he wanted to make sure Ally enjoyed as much as she possibly could, given the circumstance…
He wanted, more than anything in the world, to be good for her.
Her eyes were wide, and dark, almost glazed over as she looked into his eyes, the corners of her mouth turning up into a slight smile before her mouth dropped open at the sensation his thrusts caused. The feeling was like nothing she had imagined it to be. She had always thought it would be slimy, and squishy, lots of sliding around, but it was so much more. She could feel the ripples and lumps of his member rubbing along her womanhood, feel the hardness and stiffness of him that made that sinful tingling sensation with each pass. His pelvic bone would hit her own each time he would fill her to the hilt, and the feeling made her circle her hips around to feel as much of him as she could.
Austin swallowed hard when she began to thrust back, the only noises that could be heard in the candlelit room were their bodies slapping together and their heavy breathing, once in a while a whimper or moan out of Ally could be heard. He gripped the skin on her hips with bruising force as he rolled his hips to hers, causing her mouth to drop open once again.
Austin's knees began to tremble. He was already so close, but he refused… absolutely refused to let his climax take over until he knew she was close. He panted as he craned his neck to look behind him, searching for somewhere he could bring her before his legs gave out from under him. Then, like a godsend, he spotted the red chaise lounge chair in the corner by the window.
He turned back to Ally, grabbing her chin with the fingers of his right hand and pulling her to him for a kiss, inhaling through his nose when he felt her wrap her arms around his neck. Perfect… he thought as he then wrapped his arms around her and lifted her up, causing her to squeal and giggle all at once into his kiss. He couldn't help but smile at the cuteness of her, and walked as carefully as he could over to the chair, still buried deep within her.
Ally pulled back from the kiss and let out an audible gasp when Austin suddenly spun on his heels and sat back in the chair, landing her on top of him and causing him to hit her at an even deeper angle. Her hands immediately gripped the back of the chair on either side of Austin's head, his eyes squeezing shut at the pleasure caused by his new deeper angle.
He swallowed hard and forced his eyes back open as he gripped her hips forcefully, never able to get enough of her flesh in his hands. He loved the way she felt on top of him.
Ally sat and adjusted for a brief moment, breathing heavily atop him as he pushed upward into her. She whimpered again and whined his name as he rocked back and forth on him, taking in the feel of his member hitting all the right spots.
Austin clenched his jaw when he heard her say his name. It was all he could do not to blow his load into her right at that moment. He hadn't known it until he heard it, but that was probably the thing he had most wanted to hear from her in all the time he had known Ally. He bit his lip and squeezed hand-fulls of her flesh again. "Ally…" he hissed. "Fuck…"
Ally swallowed hard and increased the pace at which she was riding him. She had never heard him cuss that way before. Normally she found it distasteful and vulgar, but hearing it come from him in this situation… seeing him beneath her with his amazing body, his cock buried deep within her as his face twisted in pleasure… it was the sexiest thing she had ever heard come from his mouth.
She exhaled as she tossed her head back, rolling her hips in a back and forth motion, causing the most delicious sensation to run up her entire spine into the base of her skull… she felt she could do this forever and never tire of it. She pressed herself down onto him and moaned loudly, this had to be the best feeling in the entire world. She could now see why sluts were sluts… if this was a feeling they got addicted to then no wonder they were the way they were. It was absolutely intoxicating…
Austin could feel his climax building up again, and he wanted so badly to let himself go, but she wasn't there yet, and he needed her to cum with him. He wasn't exactly sure why he needed it that way… he just did.
Her panties, though, the tiny scrap of white lace material that were merely pushed to the side, was rubbing raw at his thigh as she rocked back and forth atop him and he needed it gone. It was interfering with his concentration and his patience was running low. Deciding it would be a more pleasant experience for the both of them; he suddenly sat up, his face flush with her chest. Ally gasped a little in surprise, and smiled down at him when he lightly rubbed his lips against the curve of her breast, placing a chaste kiss to both. Suddenly without warning both of his hands made their way to her right hip, and with one quick tug he ripped the waistband of her panties, pulling them completely off her.
She had no words for him. She thought maybe she should scold him, smack him in the arm for ruining one of her prettiest pairs of underwear and tell him he had to buy her new ones, but the truth was she found his sudden manly display of strength to be completely drool worthy, and once the garment was tossed to the side and forgotten, she only rode him harder.
Austin lay back again, relaxing into the chair and thrusting his hips upward to meet hers as she began to bounce up and down on him. He felt one hundred times better now that the abrasive material was gone and all he could feel was her. With that distraction gone, however, it became harder for him to hold off his orgasm, and after only moments of her movements he began to tighten up beneath her and jerk his hips upward.
Ally's mouth fell open as she looked down on him, her hips moving more erratically as she felt the coil in her lower belly tightening. She leaned forward and placed her hands on his pecs, balancing herself as much as possible as she began to spiral out of control. The corners of her eyes twitched as her climax began to take effect, and she found it extremely hard to keep her eyes open so she could drink in the sight of him as her walls began to clamp down on him.
"Yeah," Austin whispered breathlessly when he felt her inner walls fluttering down upon him. He knew she was finally cumming and he breathed out his relief as he let his own orgasm crash down upon him. "Come on, baby…"
His member twitched violently within her and he squeezed her hips with bruising force as he finally let his seed shoot out of him and deep into her womb.
Ally trembled with the aftershocks of her orgasm, and the added low down tickle from him calling her 'baby', both of which were only heightened by the feeling of him releasing himself into her. She rolled her hips and jerked them forward as the tremors lessened, until she could finally sit still atop him and suck in deep gulps of air to try and calm her thundering heart.
Austin lay back in the chaise lounge, covered in a thin sheet of sweat, breathing audibly and gazing up at the amazingly beautiful girl above him. A blissful calm overtook his body when she finally leaned forward and fell slack against him, her head on his chest as he tangled his hand into her hair once again, holding her to him as he worked on coming down from his high. He breathed in her scent, committing it to memory in case anything went south and he never had this opportunity again. He wanted to freeze this moment in time and stay here forever, holding this girl in his arms and never letting the rest of the world come near them.
The reality of the situation made his stomach hurt, however, because he knew that this was just one more night they would have to address when they finally did build up the courage to talk to each other. They needed to sort this – whatever it was – out before things got out of hand and one of them became too attached to the other with no reciprocating feelings. Right then he decided he hated himself for being so selfish and not stopping this before they were able to come clean about their true feelings toward one another. He should have had more self control, and more respect for Ally than to just take her virginity in what was essentially a storage room for her fathers business.
He swallowed the lump in his throat and scowled to himself, furrowing his brow as he ran his fingers through her hair and rubbed his chin lightly on her head.
I should have been better than this for her…
Maybe they already had gone too far… All Austin knew was that, deep down, he didn't want this to be just a one night stand between them…
And that thought scared him.
To Be Continued…
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