Chapter 6B - Sorry for the wait guys but since I stopped writing in revision season well it's taken me a while to get back on track.
However thank you for sticking with me and as ever…enjoy J
At around 2 pm when the birds had gone to sleep and the owls had awoken, Alice came into my room.
"I had a vision…you spoke to her didn't you?"
I sighed, knowing I couldn't escape her forever.
What did she say?
"She believes that I regret saving her."
I growled, not holding back. Alice's hands went up and she rolled her eyes.
All I meant was that you had to done something to make her think that.
"You mean like ignore her for 6 weeks." I looked at her deadpanned.
"So what now?"
"I don't know. Do you see anything?"
"You know I don't."
"Alice, remember when you first met Jasper and your world lit up - well imagine having that spark of life suddenly ripped away from you and held just out of reach."
That's how you feel?
I nodded. "I want to see her again. It's weird but I miss her."
"You said you didn't…" love her.
"And I don't but you were right. I can't stay away."
A vision suddenly hit her. Alice looked at me.
"I didn't decide that."
"No but your unconscious mind did."
"We don't have conscious minds Alice - we're dead."
Just go, you have a little under 5 hours.
I stood up, walked over, kissed Alice on the cheek then turned ran and jumped through my still open doors into the dark forest.
The Swans house was easy to find but I paused on the edge of the forest listening for signs of life. All I heard were snores and heavy breathing.
I ran across the space that separated the trees from their home and quietly scaled the side of the house to a window, through the material I could see a purple bed sheet.
Slowly I pulled myself up, lifted an arm to push the wooden window frame up - it was stiff from not being open in how many years but finally there was a large enough gap for me to fit through. I promised myself I'd bring oil the next time I visited then paused for a second as I realised what I'd just thought.
There was no wind tonight so the curtains didn't blow madly around as I stepped through them. Her scent however was overwhelming - it was in my nose, in my mouth and even in my head. I swallowed the venom and looked to my right.
In the single bed lay a figure, I couldn't see her face but I knew it was Bella from the wild curls that were spread across the pillow.
I stepped quietly over to the other side of the room being careful of any creaky wooden floorboards and I could finally see her.
That's when it happened.
I was paralysed as binding fire flew up my body, I closed my eyes allowing it to take over. I could feel my heart beating in my chest for the first time in over a hundred years, it felt bigger, heavier. Suddenly I was floating in the air and light was shattered through every cell of my being. I felt alive as if I had veins and blood running through my body. If I jumped I believed I'd land on the moon then return quickly to my love.
I opened my eyes.
I hadn't moved, hadn't floated in the air, light hadn't evaded my cells. But I wasn't the same man I had been before. Everything now was dedicated to the human lying in the bed. She was my existence and I could suddenly see reason for it - it was all for her. I would do anything for her, bend the world just to see her smile. I would protect her from everything and give her only the best because that's all she deserved - my sleeping angel.
I couldn't look away from her beauty, she was perfect in every sense.
Now I understood why Romeo killed himself after he found Juliet dead, I understood how Rosalie had enough strength to carry Emmett all the way home to Carlisle. I understood why Jasper had been so scared and angry at my reckless behaviour because it was his protection for Alice.
Though I was standing barely two feet from the side of her bed - I missed her. Desperation flooded through me as all I wanted to do was touch her but I was afraid.
I was scared that I couldn't control myself, that if I touched even a hair on her beautiful head I'd crush her skull by accident. No, I definitely needed to be careful.
"Isabella Swan, I love you." And from this moment I always would till forever.
I had the chance now to explore, I wanted to know everything about the girl I now deeply loved. I started with the open closet door, peeking inside I grimaced. Alice would have a fit if she saw this, Bella's closet contained few essentials - a jumper, two jackets, four pairs of jeans, around a dozen tops and a raincoat. On the floor lined up were a pair of wellington boots, two pairs of sneakers and walking boots. Her school bag was stashed on the floor and a book on one of the very empty shelves. Bella was definitely a minimal person.
"Edward." I spun around, my heart flying to my mouth as I panicked that she'd found me. However she whispered my name again, her hand twitched and I relaxed continuing my observation.
In her room there was a pin board filled with several different pictures and drawings and the top of her dresser held more books, a CD player and headphones.
The next four hours passed and I simply watched her sleep, Bella was peaceful tonight. It took me longer than it should have to realise that the girl talked in her sleep, a few more times she said my name, my stomach tightening each time. My name was whispered not screamed and that something that gave me hope - maybe this would work out, maybe I wouldn't kill her by accident.
I could see now that this was how it was supposed to go, if I ever got a chance to be with Bella we would live happily for a few short years before her time was up (I flinched at the thought) then I would pay a visit to Italy but until then I would embrace and cherish every moment. If Bella didn't choose me then which was the more healthy route for her, I would leave to allow her to live her life in peace.
Through the curtains I could see the light change, it grew a slight shade lighter informing me that my time was up. Before sliding the window open again I gave one last look at the sleeping form.
Back in the trees I knew I needed to hunt, Friday would be too late. Already it was act of my protection for her by not allowing myself to be hungry, it would allow me a better chance of not attacking her. I ran through the forest at my fastest speed feeling exhilarated. Three deer and a panther later, I was full and the light of the day filtered through the trees creating God Rays.
Once home, I walked into the main room to find everyone ready.
Where you been bro?
Have a nice night did we?
Huh, hurry up already moron!
I raced upstairs, changed and grabbed my school bag, already desperate to see Bella again. On the way to school, Alice spoke up.
"Do you love her yet?"
"Yes." I wasn't going to deny it now that it had happened. Alice could have her victory.
Rosalie mimed being sick in her head.
"No." Alice pouted. She was determined to get started on her friendship with Bella but knew not to push me too far. It was still early days.
In the parking lot I waited by my car as usual while the others left to go inside. It started raining, drops ran down my face and splattered onto cars. Thirty seconds later I could hear Bella's truck coming up the highway 101. At the entrance of the car park, she spotted my car and parked in the furthest spot possible away from me.
I walked over as she got out instantly dropped her keys into a puddle. Bella reached down to retrieve them but I beat her too it, not allowing the girl to feel the icy water on her skin.
In a casual motion I leaned against the truck. If I'd of been human my heart would have been jumping out my chest but I had to keep calm, I didn't want to scare her off.
Bella stood up, her scent was just as potent has it had been in her room, just less powerful, I breathed it in indulging it.
"How do you do that?"
Good morning to you too.
Bella reached for her key and I dropped it into her hand also not allowing her to feel my icy skin.
"Appear out of thin air."
"Bella," Her name rolled off my tongue in a spoken caress. "It's not my fault if you are exceptionally unobservant."
She frowned at this, staring into my eyes before looking down, water droplets darkened her chocolate locks. I wanted to put my finger under her chin and lift her head up once more but I didn't.
"Why the traffic jam last night?"
"I thought you were supposed to be pretending I don't exist, not irritating me to death." As ever she was on target. I had promised myself to pretend that she didn't exist.
"That was for Tyler's sake, not mine. I had to give him his chance." I laughed remembering her anger from yesterday afternoon.
"You…" There was the same face! I pressed my lips together into a smile to stop myself from really letting it all out.
"And I'm not pretending you don't exist," Not anymore anyway.
"So you are trying to irritate me to death? Since Tyler's van didn't do the job?" Anger ran through me and my smile disappeared in a flash. Could she not see how desperately in love I was with her?
"Bella, you are utterly absurd," I snapped. Bella's face mirrored my anger as she turned and stomped away. My anger was immediately lost. I had no right to it.
"Wait," Bella ignored me but I soon caught up matching my stride with hers.
"I'm sorry, that was rude." No reply.
"I'm not saying it isn't true, but it was rude to say it anyway."
"Why wont you leave me alone?" She mumbled. Because I'm deeply in love with you.
"I wanted to ask you something, but you side tracked me," I chuckled.
"Do you have a multiple personality disorder?"
It seemed that way, now with her. One emotion took over another so easily.
"You're doing it again." I accused playfully.
"Fine then. What do you want to ask?" Bella let out a small sigh.
"I was wondering if, a week from Saturday — you know, the day of the spring dance —"
Bella stopped, spinning around to face me. I laughed at her expression, it was shock and anger all rolled into one.
"Are you trying to be funny?" Yes.
"Will you please allow me to finish?" I asked. Her reply was to bite her bottom lip and close her hands together.
"I heard you say you were going to Seattle that day, and I was wondering if you wanted a ride." This was something I'd thought about during my hunt this morning, how to approach her and how to gain more time with her, each second was precious.
"Do you want a ride to Seattle?"
"Myself, obviously." Who did she think I meant?
"Why?" Because I love you and want to spend forever with you by my side. Instead of saying that I went for a more casual answer.
"Well, I was planning to go to Seattle in the next few weeks, and, to be honest, I'm not sure if your truck can make it."
"My truck works just fine, thank you very much for your concern." Bella turned again and continued walking, I followed like an obedient puppy.
"But can your truck make it there on one tank of gas?"
"I don't see how that is any of your business." She hadn't said no yet. My hope grew.
"The wasting of finite resources is everyone's business."
"Honestly, Edward." My stomach tightened as she said my name.
"I can't keep up with you. I thought you didn't want to be my friend."
"I said it would be better if we weren't friends, not that I didn't want to be." Only I didn't want to be her friend, I wanted more. I wanted her to love me back. I wanted to give her the world but I knew that as soon as Bella found out what I was, she would run away screaming. It was inevitable so I hung on to the every second she gave me now.
"Oh, thanks, now that's all cleared up." I wanted to roll my eyes at her sarcasm.
"It would be more… prudent for you not to be my friend, but I'm tired of trying to stay away from you, Bella."
I couldn't not anymore. Not when I felt this way. Even before I'd begun talking to her again each day it got harder and harder to ignore her, to not ask her what she was thinking.
"Will you go with me to Seattle?" I tried one last time and waited anxiously.
Bella nodded. A yes. She'd said yes to me.
"You really should stay away from me, I'll see you in class." I left her there, turning and walking back into the car park not really sure of where I was going but knowing that my emotions were in overdrive.