A/N: Hello everyone! I want to thank EVERYONE who has read this story! Ya'll have been the most amazing readers and I'm soooo glad ya'll enjoyed my first fanfic. It most definitely won't be my last. Alas this is officially the last chapter for A Professor's Secret. BUT there will be a sequel, look out for A Werewolf's Secret! I plan to start working on it soon, I already have the plot in mind! Hope ya'll check it out. Also if anyone is interested I have another fanfic out called A Professor's Scandal and it centers around Snape and Lisa Scherrel during sorcerer's stone.
I don't know how things change so drastically so fast. I don't know. I don't understand. It's like I was never meant to be happy. It's like I'm given a teasing sample of what happiness is only to have it ripped away from me. The year was coming to an end and these last couple of months have been the most amazing of my life. I'm so in love with him. I can't stand being without him and have been staying with him every night, save the nights of his transformation, though I send him out prepared and go to tend to him in the mornings after.
He's fantastic. He even helped Lilian and I go visit Lockhart. It was the most amazing thing to see Lilian so damn happy! I've never seen her smile so big! Lockhart didn't quiet remember her, though he did keep complimenting her and was very obviously taken with her. It was enough for her. She decided that she was going to become a healer so that she may be with him and dedicate herself to bringing him back. I was so happy for her.
Then there was my plans. I planned to take a summer away with Remus. Somewhere far, romantic and adventurous. Just be with him. Then we'd return to hogwarts and I'd continue to study as his assistance, and we'd no longer have to hide! It was the stuff of fantasies but for the first time it seemed that these fantasies had a chance at reality.
Of course nothing turns out as planned. So many things have unraveled. Firstly I met Sirius Black. Something I never thought I'd say but I did and found that I was kinda brainwashed into a pointless fear. Although he and my father had different political views they actually conducted business together constantly, he seemed to be quiet fond of my father and explained to me his theory of what might have happened. That opened up a whole new curiosity in me. If what he told me was possible, then part of me wanted to look into it more. Also it turns out he was innocent of killing all those muggles and it was really all that rat looking bastard. Sirius was able to escape though and has promised me should I ever need anything I would just need to contact him.
And then the worst thing of all. Remus had not been able to take his potion that night and transformed out on the lose. Word got out and basically my world and plans were just turned upside down a few hours ago when he informed me that he wouldn't be returning next year. I was devastated. I had no idea how to react. But I hugged him and told him I'd follow anywhere and support him through whatever. It was his next words that destroyed me.
"I don't want you to come with me." he had said and I felt myself go numb. I was still embracing him but not out of wanting to but simply because I couldn't move.
Finally I had pushed myself off of him, not bothering to hide the tears streaming down my face. "What do you mean?" I asked.
"I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to do. I can't take you with me." he said without the slightest hint of pain. It was as if that decision didn't bother him at all.
"I don't care. I just want to be with you. We can go anywhere, do anything. I love you. I don't care about the job anymore! I don't care about disappointing my family. I don't care about anything except being with you. Don't you understand?!"
"I'm sorry Roxanna." were the last words he said to me before he left. Now I sat here, my bags all packed, as I just stared out the window replaying the whole thing. Crying and crying and crying, I'm surprised my tears haven't all dried out.
"Roxanna." Lilian says softly as she enters the dorm. "Roxanna we have to go soon, the train will be taking off."
I look up at her and nod. Though the moment I stand up I'm overcome with a wave of nausea. I run to a trash can and let out whatever I had eaten the previous night for I had not eaten at all today. I stand up breathing heavily. When I met Lilian's eyes she was giving me the most shocked and knowing expression. It only took me a moment to get to what she must of been thinking.
"No. No." I shook my head. "It can't be."
"Come here." she said and pulled me to a corner, making sure to lock the dorm door. She pulled out her wand. "I had to do this for Lucas' sister once."
"What are you doing?" I asked as she pointed her wand at my stomach.
"If this glows pink, it means you're pregnant. If it glows blue it means you aren't." she answered.
My eyes widened and my heart began to race.
"Are you ready?" she asked.
I nodded slowly, a million thoughts rushing through my mind. She waved her wand and instantly there was a pink glow illuminating before us. I'm having a baby. Remus' baby.