I guess really thinking about it, our love was doomed. It wouldn't have worked out because it wasn't meant to be. If Eddie didn't do what he did we still wouldn't end up together. I believe in destiny. We just must not be destined to be together. Sometimes I just wonder about the breakup. It all just happened so quickly. I didn't really even have time to process what was going on until it was all over.

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly

Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall

Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Once I came to the sudden realization of all the event that had happened I was in a drought. I missed him. I wanted to go knock on his door and be with him. He never left my mind. I tried going on dates with other guys, but Eddie would always pop into my head. He was the best. The way I felt around him. It was just amazing being with him and loving.

Losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

But loving him was red

Loving him was red

The first time we kissed it was like magic. It was the most amazing feeling. I just never wanted it to end. That was the one face I could never get out of my head. I mean his eyes were just those deep chocolate eyes. The way his dimples appeared when he smiled. That's face I didn't want to get out of my head.

Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you

Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song

I try to remember out best times, but it's not like we always got along. We did have fights. Some of them were really bad too. I mean it's not like he ever hit me or anything. It was just real emotional scarring for both of us at some point. The best part was always making up tough. I mean the make- up sex was mind blowing. Our love for each other just made it that much better. We just clicked. I fell head over heals for him. I mean I loved him more than I ever thought was possible.

Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer

Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

When it ended I could be in a room full of people and still feel so alone. Gosh I missed him. I just always wanted to cry. I couldn't ever get him out of my head. Him and his mesmerizing eyes well let's just say he had me under his spell. The thrill of being with him was just endless. The butterflies never went away with him, and I think that just made me love him even more.

Losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

But loving him was red

Oh, red

Burning red

Those memories frequently appear in my head. Our conversations echo in my head. I keep pushing myself to move on. I push myself to stop loving him. I push myself on dates with other people. It never works. Even though all these years have passed he somehow still has me under his spell. He's a charmer alright. He made me feel special. He made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. I was living in a fairytale.

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes

Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go

But moving on from him is impossible

When I still see it all in my head

Burning red

Loving him was red

Losing was really tough. It tore me up emotionally. It was like I was there in a room, but I was completely lost. I couldn't carry on a conversation longer than one minute. I felt desperate. I really missed him. I wanted to be with him. I would just start driving to his place. I would sit in the parking lot for hours debating whether I should go in or not. The logical answer was always no. Of course being in that parking lot brought back memories, so I just missed him even more. It's like I could un-do anything that happened. He was still everywhere to me. Everything reminded me of him. I would turn on the radio and hear him singing. How could I forget him when everyone knows who he is? It's hard enough with just getting over him but when everyone talks about him it just makes it harder. That's not why I can't get over him though. It's the fact that our love was just passionate. We connected emotionally, intellectually, and spiritually. Our relationship was romantic, thrilling, and just loving. It was just amazing having that connection with someone.

Oh, losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

'Cause loving him was red

Yeah, yeah, red

We're burning red

He's always there. He always will be. I can't forget him. Even if I wanted to I couldn't forget him. He was someone I formed a bond with. He was someone I really got to know and love. You can not just loose your feelings over night, but now those feelings have subsided some. They may dwindle even more, but they will never completely go away. I will always love Eddie Duran.

And that's why he's spinnin' 'round in my head

Comes back to me, burning red

Yeah, yeah

I replay things over and over thinking things I could have done to prevent our break up. I could have tried to convince him we could trust each-other. I could have just tried to make him feel more comfortable. All in all there is nothing I could have done. It was his choice. He made the wrong one. He loved me just so in the end he could ruin it all.

His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

*BASED OFF OF THE SONG RED BY TAYLOR SWIFT.