Summary: Paige is everything. Everything to me at least. Paily

Rating: T

Word count: 279

When I look down at her as she sleeps next to me, her brown hair falling into her face, I can't help but feel terrified. I look at her and I see Ally, I see Maya. Sometimes I wonder how my heart ever could have recovered enough to let Paige in. After Maya's death, I promised myself that I would never open my heart to someone again. And, if truth be told, I haven't.

Paige was already in my heart from before Maya's death. Maybe Paige wasn't yet ready to be out, to love me openly, but it never stopped me from loving her back.

Sometimes I feel as if I should break up with her, get her as far away from me as possible, but I know that I never could. I'm too selfish. I couldn't bear it if I somehow lost her to A, and yet at the same time, I know I can't bear to send her away either. She is the only thing keeping my sanity together after everything that has gone on these last few years. She is the only thing that convinces me to get out of bed, to keep struggling and trying and fighting. She is strong and makes me stronger. Paige is everything. Everything to me at least.

"Emily?" she says, her eyes cracking open. She looks up at me and my breath catches, just as it always does. Paige reaches up to cup my cheek in her palm. I lean down and kiss her, burying my fingers in her hair.

"I love you," she says sleepily, laying her head in my lap.

I love her too, but I am scared.