Please Read! I'm not going to be able to update for a while guys! D: I went back to the doctors and they have put me on some tranquilizers/muscle relaxants for my back. I am spending pretty much the whole day spaced out and most likely asleep. I am hoping to resume updating in the next couple of days. I am so sorry! As to the name game, I have decided that the babys middle name will be Vanessa. So I still need a first name! Post it in the reviews and I will have a look through on monday. Once again I'm sorry guys!
We sat in a kitchen with this hostile cloud looming over our heads. It had been 3 days since me and Cat were at JT's and had discovered what was happening. We haven't really spoken since we came home, mainly because I don't know what to say without pissing her off. I was sat across from her at the breakfast bar, she was poking her cereal around.
"You need to keep your strength up Cat." She said nothing and continued pushing the cereal about, I reached my hand out and went to put it on her arm. She withdrew it and looked towards the window. I rubbed my face with both hands before putting them on the table and sitting back. I couldn't help but shake my head, this was stupid.
"Will you please just speak to me Cat…..We need to come up with some sort of solution." Cat turned around to face and took a deep breath in.
"I don't want to speak to you Vincent; as whatever you have to say will most likely make me angry. I am saying no more."
"So you're not capable of having a calm adult discussion with me then? Do you know what then fine! You can sit there and listen! This child is mine as much as it is your Cat! I can't just sit and watch as you turn into the monster that I am." I got up and walked round to her and kneeling down next to her chair.
"I want our little girl as much as you! All I've wanted from the day we sat down and decided to give this a go, was to have a family with you Cat! I just can't risk you. Please try and see where I'm coming from Cat. Please!"
I was pleading with her; I tried to see some sort of emotion in her face. There was nothing, just blankness. I sat back on my haunches and waited, just staring at her, begging god she would speak to me. She finally did.
"I know; you have no idea though what it feels like to carry a life though Vincent! From day one, you're pretty much in love with them. You feel nothing but excitement; you can't help but want to protect this life. That's why I can't have a termination, I would never be able to justify to myself why I had it. I have to go." I stood up and moved away from her chair, watching her walk round the apartment grabbing her belongings. She stopped at the door turning round to me and smiling.
"I love you Vincent Keller"
"I love you too."
I watched her walk out the door, feeling a little deflated. I can see where she is coming from, I really can! At the end of the day though, sometimes you have to get angry. It's a natural response, but I don't want to sit back and watch her turn. I didn't want to sit back and watch it happen. I drove over to JT's today was my day off and his is well. We needed to sit down and find out how we could manage this.
"Hey JT!" I called walking through the warehouse. As much as I loved living with Catherine, I missed the feel off this place. It felt safe, more so than the apartment it felt to opened and exposed. I know that Muirfield were gone and everything now, but having spent some many years hiding and looking over my shoulder. It's a hard habit to get out of to say the least!
"Sup Vincent. How's Cat?" He mumbled marking his students papers. I took a seat in front of him at the old wooden table.
"Not talking, or doing anything really except from working."
"She probably just doesn't want to get angry and have another attack that's all. She doesn't blame you, if that helps?" I gave him a weak smile.
"Thanks man I appreciate it, but I just want to be able to talk to her. Without worrying about causing another attack. That's actually the main reason I'm here. JT looked up smiling and put his pen down sitting back.
"Funnily enough I have been looking into that." I gave him a curious look, cocking my head slightly to the side.
"Same here. On my way here I was thinking about all the medications we use to stop things such as Depression and anxiety. Then things like sleeping pills that produce melatonin. What about if we could create something that stops, adrenocorticotropic." JT looked at me thoughtfully, you could almost see his thought process.
"We could but we would have to test it out on you and some rats. I would need to steal from the university, just look old times." He smirked I couldn't help but smile either. It was nice I hadn't spent much time with JT since I had moved out. He looked so surprised seeing me packing, he couldn't quite believe it when I told him I was free. I think he was happier than me; he could bring a girl back without having to explain about the extra bed and everything.
"How long do you think it will take to create?"
"Well….It's hard to say if I get everything today we could have a batch ready late tomorrow night. If not, then the beginning of next week; which is about five days away. How long a time frame do we have?"
"What do you mean?"
"When is twinkle toes due?" I couldn't help but chuckle over that.
"December twenty fifth. It's a Christmas baby."
"So it's June second today, so we have six months and twenty three days to solve this." I nodded at JT watching him grab his notebook and beginning to scribble things down.
"Cat's three months gone now isn't she." I nodded again watching scribble something else down.
"So what do you think we will need from the University?"
"Serotonin and lots of it."
I came home late from JT's Catherine was stood in the kitchen cooking. It smelt like chicken stir-fry. I hung my jacket up on the hook before walking over to her. I placed a kiss on the side of her head, she leaned in to me before wrapping her arms around me.
"I'm sorry for being so abrupt this morning."
"It's fine. Don't worry about it; I actually have some news surrounding that subject." Catherine pulled away and gave me a quizzical look I led her over to the table and ushered her to sit down before taking a seat myself.
"Me and JT are developing something to block your anger hormone."
"By dosing you up on serotonin so you will be permanently happy." Catherine sat back in her seat and ummed a little before saying anything.
"Is it safe for both of us?"
"This is where the bad news we are testing that it's safe, have to stay at JT's for a while he's going to be testing it on me and several rats. Mainly because Twinkle toes has my DNA and rat's because they are closest to a human reaction we can get, with out raiding New York zoo and stealing a monkey. So while we're doing the experiments I'll be at his just in case I begin to beast out like I did a few years back. It will be fine though." I gave her a reassuring smile reaching my hand out to her, she gently took it.
"That's fine. But did you just seriously call our kid Twinkle toes?"
"I love you Catherine Chandler." I gave her my dopiest smile, so we didn't have to talk about that. I would have some words with JT his nickname for the baby was rubbing off on me. Catherine sighed smiling back at me squeezing my hand.
"I love you too Vincent Keller"