Love, Loss and Coffee

Hi everyone, I am new to this whole experience and putting my story out there is nerve wracking but I hope at least some you like it.

The story starts where season 7 left off…

CHAPTER 1

"You did this?" Lorelai looked at Luke in awe

"I just wanted to see you happy" he responded. Lorelai looked at Luke with her sparkling blue eyes and he couldn't resist any longer, he dropped the bag he was holding and took the two steps to reach her, pulled her in close and kissed her. Lorelai took his cue and kissed him back just as passionately. It may have taken them 12 months to make it back to this point but it was worth it. Lorelai's thoughts drifted back through the last year, engaged to the love of her life, split up from him, slept with Christopher, married Chris in Paris, divorced Chris and now back in the arms of Luke the one she wanted all along. It had been a big year, an emotional year, yet somehow it had ended in the best way possible, well almost. Rory was leaving the following day, a whole lot sooner than expected, but she had landed a great job and the Roller coasters would have to wait. It was going to be hard to be away from her daughter but Lorelai knew Rory was following her dreams and that was all that mattered, and know that she had Luke back being in Stars Hollow without Rory would be somewhat easier. Lorelai pulled away from Luke and gazed into his eyes.

"We should be getting back or people will miss us" A cheeky smile lit up her face and Luke took her hand, picked up the bag he had discarded and they walked back to the party together.

The next morning Lorelai and Rory were up early to prepare for Rory's departure. Lorelai grabbed the last of Rory's bags and picked up her keys.

"Come on we have a stop to make!" and with that they were on the road.

Luke had opened the Diner just for them and had started to prepare all their favourite breakfast foods, eggs, bacon, pancakes, the works! The two girls entered and sat at their usual table and enjoyed the mountains of food Luke had dished up. After the meal came the difficult part of saying goodbye.

Lorelai drove Rory to Hartford where she was to catch the bus to New York and that's when it became extremely hard. Lorelai looked at the brown haired blued eyed woman before her.

"I'm going to miss you kid"

Rory couldn't bring herself to look at her mother.

"I'm going to miss you too Mum, really miss you" she shifted in her seat nervously "Mum I'm terrified, I cant do this, what am I am thinking taking on a job this huge, what if I can't do it, what if they don't like my articles, what if they kick me off the tour"

Lorelai grabbed her hand.

"Rory, babe you are going to be great, you will adjust and you will churn out fantastic articles like you always have and they wouldn't have asked you to the job if they didn't think you were capable. Now go get on that bus and kick some Obama Butt." Rory sighed and climbed out of the car followed by her mother and both wrapped each other in a hug.

"I love you Mum" Lorelai squeezed her tightly

"I love you too Kid so much" giving her daughter a nudge "go on now the bus won't wait forever" Rory picked up her duffel bag "ok well..bye"

"Bye hun"

She took a few steps before turning around and throwing her arms around her mother again.

"Ill miss you mum" and with those parting words Rory turned and walked to the bus only looking back once she was settled in her seat.

Lorelai was fighting back the tears as she waved her daughter off. She stood staring unable to move as the bus pulled away and with one last wave Rory was gone and her mother was a mess. She returned to the car and tried to think about what was planned for later that day, but even thinking about Luke couldn't stop the tears from flowing. After a few minutes of blubbering Lorelai pulled herself together and began the drive back to Stars Hollow.

Half an hour later she pulled into her parking spot at the dragonfly and with one last glance at herself, made her way inside to see what the day ahead would entail. Three hours later after dealing with an emotional Sookie (pregnancy and hormones not boding well in the working environment at the moment), the usual Michel banter and an incident in the stables involving Kirk trying, and failing to ride a horse, Lorelai found herself making her way into town for lunch at her usual hangout -Luke's. Not that it had been her usual hangout so much over the past year in fact she had avoided it all costs but once she had found the courage to go back in for a coffee that had changed and now after last night Lorelai had a feeling that she would be spending a lot of time in the comfortable diner.

Luke was busy taking orders and clearing a table for the next patron when the bell jingled signalling a newcomer. He glanced up and his heart skipped a beat when he saw it was Lorelai who had entered, he dashed back to the kitchen to dispose of the plates he was holding and by the time he came out again, Lorelai was sitting at the counter drumming her nails on the bench top. Luke put his hand on hers.

"Hey you" Lorelai smiled at this small show of affection

"Hi"

Luke grabbed the coffee pot and poured a steaming mug of coffee.

"How has your day been? Did Rory get off ok?" At the mention of Rory, Lorelai's eyes glazed over again and as she fought back tears she sighed.

"Yeah Rory was fine, the bus left when it was supposed to so I guess she will be in New York meeting the group she is travelling with now. As for my morning at the inn, well it has been eventful to say the least, Kirk tried to ride our horse and failed"

Luke laughed "Kirk on a horse, oh geez what next?"

"Tell me about it" Lorelai sipped at her coffee and Luke placed the freshly made burger that Caesar had just bought out in front of her. "You made me a burger, how did you know if that's what I wanted huh Diner Man" Lorelai jested.

Luke simply smirked "You always want a burger."

Half an hour later with a full stomach and two cups of coffee in her Lorelai put some cash on the counter and made to grab her coat so she could get back to the mayhem of the inn, but before she could leave Luke grabbed her arm.

"Can I see you for a moment before you go…upstairs?"

Lorelai smiled "I guess, sure"

Luke slipped his hand into hers "Good, you go up I'll be there in a minute"

The brown haired beauty grabbed her coat and slipped behind the curtain to the staircase that lead up to Luke's apartment. It had been months since she had walked these stairs and it made her slightly nervous walking into his apartment again. She wasn't quite sure what to do so she took a seat at the small dining table and waited, hoping Luke wouldn't be long.

Five minutes passed before the door opened and Luke appeared. He closed the door behind him and made his way to Lorelai at the table. He knew what he wanted and he was determined not to let his nerves get the better of him something he could see his blue eyed girl wasn't having success with. He took a deep breath grabbed Lorelai's hand and pulled her close to him so he could wrap his arms around her. He whispered in her ear "you look beautiful today".

Lorelai pulled away "Luke are you sure about this, us, are you certain you want to be with me, what about April and Anna have you thought about them?"

Luke gazed into her eyes not saying anything before pulling her in and kissing her tenderly at first and then passionately as he could pouring everything he felt for her into it. "Does that answer your question?" he whispered into her ear after he pulled away gently.

"Um yes I think so "responded Lorelai leaning into his chest. After standing there just holding each other for what seemed like hours but was only minutes Luke broke the hug and bought them back to reality.

"I should get back to the diner and " "I should get back to the inn" Lorelai finished. "Can I see you tonight?"

Luke smiled "Call me when you get home and I will come over ok?" Lorelai smiled, reached up and gave her man one last kiss

"I'll call you" she replied, dashing out the door before it became impossible to leave.

Later that evening Lorelai walked through her front door feeling drained and tired. Her afternoon at the inn had been no less manic than the morning and the only reason she had walked out when she did was because she could barely keep her eyes open and Sookie practically forced her out the door. The brown haired beauty stumbled through the house towards the Kitchen she was focused on one thing. Coffee. Lorelai knew if she was going to make it through the evening and actually be awake to see Luke, coffee was needed, pronto. She fumbled with the coffee maker and 5 minutes later was sitting at the table with a steaming mug in her hands. As she sipped at her coffee she noticed Rory's bedroom door ajar and light coming from within, curious to know why the light was on when Rory wasn't home, she left her coffee and peeped into her daughter's room. It had been left immaculate and the light was coming from her bed side lamp that she must have accidently left on. Lorelai wandered over to the bedside table to turn the lamp off when she noticed the envelop e on the bed, it had one word written on it MUM, and it was then that she realised that her daughter had deliberately left the lamp on so that she would find the letter left for her. Lorelai sat on the bed and steeled her self for the emotion that was clearly going to come from reading what ever lay inside, ripped open the envelope and began to read.

"Hi Mom,

By the time you read this I will be well and truly settling into life on the road and you will have realised I left the light on in my room so you would find this! I know how much you wanted to take me all the way to New York today but it would have been too hard to say goodbye there and I knew I had to do this on my own. There is so much I wanted to say to you that you probably would tell me I have said before but I don't care I want to say it again. Thank you. Thankyou for having me and for bringing me up your way and not the traditional Gilmore way. You may have had me young but you didn't let that stop you from being a great mother. My first memories are of the potting shed and the independence inn and the way you made it our home. I know you struggled for a long time with the way Dad acted and him being in and out of our lives but you never let it affect me and protected me for as long as humanly possible from that burden. I love the fact that we are still fiercely protective of each other always. I want you to know that I'm extremely grateful that you gave me the opportunity to get to know my grandparents as hard as it was and still is at times for you to go to their place. Mom maybe you should give Grandma a chance, let her in and just see how it goes, I know you will never have the super close relationship with her that we have but you never know, she might surprise you. I want you to do me a favour ok? Hey don't be making that face I know you are right now hear me out. I want you to be happy and Luke makes you very happy, so don't hold back when it comes to him, I know your scared because of everything you have been through but be in Mom be all in. You are the best mother a girl could ask for and I am where I am today because of you. Never forget that. You are my everything. I Love you to the moon and back. I miss you.

Love Rory xoxo"

Lorelai clasped the paper against her chest as tears streamed down her face. She couldn't hold back the emotions she had been only just keeping in check all day, as she re read the beautiful letter her Rory had written to her the tears turned to sobs that wracked her entire body. She curled herself into a ball on Rory's bed and completely broke down.