Hey there, I know you weren't expecting an update from this story ever again as I have officially proclaimed it finished, but there is something I want to share, and as this story has the most viewers I wanted as many people as possible to read it.

We live in a shitty world full of people who will put you down and make you feel like you aren't worth anything. Some of you may have stopped reading already thinking this doesn't apply to you. Maybe you aren't someone who is depressed, has socially anxiety, is suicidal, has trouble at home, has trouble at work, has trouble with life, but let me tell you there will come a time when you will feel your absolute worst, and that is the time when you need to think of chapter twenty seven of He Paints The Color Red, the unexpected chapter where Serenity Ma Sogni tells you that you are worth it.

Every single person who reads this is worth it, every person who doesn't read it is worth it. Atheist, Catholic, Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Gay, Straight, Bi, A-sexual, Republican, Democrat, American, Canadian, German, Japanese- I mean holy hell there are a lot of different, special, amazing people out there and you are listening to the ones that tell you that you are not worth it?

I am reaching out to those who think they have no other options in life, and that there is no way out. Darkness is out there, undoubtedly, most of you have already felt it, it is infectious and torturous and sometimes it feels like you cannot escape it but you can because there is light somewhere if you try to find it, and it will seem like you are drowning and scared and no one is there to help you but there is always help out there.

If you have social anxiety, the first step to getting better is making one friend, then making two, then three, and it is hard, I know, I have it, it feels like someone is repeatedly stabbing you when you are talking to people but there are ways for it to get better.

Those of you with depression, I have been there. It is an awful, sick feeling with nothing but despair and a dank darkness to revel in because darkness is safe and darkness is somewhere so hard to get out of, but if you think of the world, and how much it has to offer maybe your darkness will get a little lighter. There are 7 billion people on this earth and not one of them deserves to feel worthless, or frightened, repressed, and tortured because of who they are and who they were born to be.

People wont accept who you are. Your parents might not accept who you are. Your friends might not accept who you are, but you have to know that their views are narrow, they might never be able to love you to the full extent or even at all but that does not mean you are unlovable, it means they couldn't love enough. Out of these 7 billion people there has to be at least one that loves you. And you found at least one already, I promise, you are reading her words right now.

Suicide is something I have never considered, but I know how fucking hard it is to see point in life at all. There are people working day and night to help keep people alive and all you have to do is call them to see that they care. People care, and are willing to help. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

If you ever feel like you are alone or trapped in the world, depressed, lonely or just want to talk a little, please PM, email me, contact me in any way. I will always respond in any way I can because there is always another chance for you to be happy and there is always love for you if you know where to look.



Here are some self help websites and hotlines:


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Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453**

UK Helplines:Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info .uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice):0300 466 6463 legal .uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help .uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline .uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info .uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight