"Her… Dom? What does that mean?" Ok… I'm so confused. I obviously knew he was either a sadist or enjoyed being a Dom to people, but I'm getting the feeling her wasn't just a Dom to girlfriends.
"It means she used to submit to me… sexually. In that room." I stayed quiet. Very quiet. I guess it wasn't that real until now. It was just a room he had… that scared me a little. I guess now I'm realising this is something he does with women. "Ana say something, please." He walked a few steps towards me… like I was a frightened bird. I stayed still. He slowly edged closer.
"I guess it wasn't that real until now." I whispered.
"Real?" he asked cautiously.
"Yeah, I mean. It was just a room until now. Now this is something you do… with women that live next to you."
"Baby, yeah I was a Dom, but that doesn't mean that I want that with you…"
"You don't? I mean…" I took a deep breath. "Do you not like me like that?"
His eyes went wide. "What? No! No! I just meant that that's all I had with her… with you it's more."
"How did you meet her? Did you just ask her to get on her knees for you?" He smiled slightly.
"Not exactly. We met through a mutual friend. Elena. She actually recommended this house for me when I was looking. She knew about it because her and Leila were friends."
"I think I need a drink." This is a lot to process. I turned around and walked into the kitchen, hearing his footsteps quietly behind me. I grabbed his wine glass that was sitting on the counter, and gulped it down quickly.
"Wow, Ana. Take it easy." He placed his hand on my arm. "I thought you meant water."
"I did… the wine looked better." He took the glass out of my hand, and placed it in the sink.
"Tell me what to do…"
"I mean… do you want me to take you home?"
"No I'm ok. I'm not mad I promise. I guess I'm just trying to digest it." I smiled slightly at him. Walking into him arms, hugging him tightly. "I'm sorry, I know I'm being weird with all this. It's just hard to imagine this kind of sexual preference when my experience with normal sex is fairly limited."
He laughed, his chest rumbling. "Yeah I guess your past boyfriends weren't that adventurous. Missionary is amazing when it's all you know how to do."
"I wouldn't know." I said, squeezing my eyes shut. This is it. I'm about to tell my Dom boyfriend / teacher I'm a virgin.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, I've never done it."
"What? Missionary? How is that possible. Everyone starts with it." He laughed.
I pulled away from his chest just enough to look up into his eyes. I can't believe how scared I am at what his reaction might be. Will he hate me? Take it like I've been straight up lying to him? Maybe call it quits with us? Why wouldn't he? I mean, I've no experience what so ever… not even with foreplay. Yet here he is doing God knows what with God knows how many women.
"No… I mean… I've never… um…" I looked away, down at my feet.
"You mean… you're a virgin?" He asked, surprise clear in his voice. Stressing the last word.
Still looking down, I started tugging on my lip with my teeth. God, I can feel my hands sweating, my breathing accelerating and my mind running away with the possibilities of how he's about to react. Maybe I should save him the trouble and just leave. Yup, that sounds like a plan.
I shrugged out of his arms and walked around him, out the kitchen door, across the hall and put my hand on the front door handle.
"Ana, where are you going? Ana!" He called out behind me. His hand on my shoulder as I went to take my first step out of the door. "What are you doing? What just happened?"
With my head still down, I turned towards him. "I figured I'd save you the trouble of telling me to leave." I mumbled.
"Why would I ask you to leave? Ana, come back in and we will talk about it." He gently pulled me back inside the door. Ushering me into the sitting room, pulling me down onto the couch beside him. "Ana, talk to me. Why did you try and walk out like that?"
"Why would you want me? I'm a virgin and your whole life is about being a Dom. You said it yourself, you expected to sleep with me the day we met. I really like you but I can't say to you that I'm ready to have sex any time soon."
He covered my hands with his to steady them. I didn't realise until now that I was nervously picking at my cuticles. "Ana, baby. It's ok. This isn't a bad thing. In fact, I'm happy you aren't one of those high school girls that sleep with the first footballer to come along. I mean yeah, I was definitely surprised, but not angry." He smiled a million-watt smile. "I wouldn't expect you to just come out and say it the second we met, and we can wait as long as you want."
He got up and walked over to the TV. "Now what movie do you want to watch?"
This man is amazing! I would never have expected that kind of reaction. Damn… I'm in trouble here.
A virgin? I didn't see that one coming. I like her… a lot. But being a Dom is all I know. I don't do hearts and flowers. I have never wanted to… but now I have this beautiful women sleeping on my sofa with her head rested in my lap, and I feel like I would jump in front of a bullet for her. God, what is she doing to me? I don't understand this.
She stirred slightly, and I felt myself stiffen, not wanting to disturb her. She stilled again, curing into a tighter ball.
I'm in trouble… how can I resist her. She's amazingly beautiful, smart and amazing! I looked at my watch. 11:19pm
Anas phone vibrated in her pocket, causing her to slowly open her eyes. She reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone, the word Mom wrote across the screen.
"Shit, what time is it?" She bolted upright.
"Twenty past 11." She hit answer.
"Mom? Yeah I know I'm sorry, I'm at a friends. I know sorry, I fell asleep. One sec." She lowered the phone and covered the mouthpiece. "Could you drop me home?"
"Off course." I nodded.
She lifted the phone to her ear again. "Yeah I can get home. Ok, see you soon mom." She ended the call and rubbed her eyes. "How long was I sleeping?"
"About 2 hours or so. You missed the movie but I didn't have the heart to wake you." I smiled.
"I should get going." I stood and offered my hand. She took it, standing up a little shaky. "I hate the waking up part of sleeping." She giggled.
I brushed a strand of hair away from her face, then gently lifted her chin to look at me. "I love that sound." I lowered my lips to hers, gently brushing them against each other. She tastes amazing. I used my tongue to ask for entrance which she eagerly granted. My tongue snaked into her mouth, and they danced.
I don't know how long we stood there, but slowly we pulled away. She stood with her head still tilted towards me, and her eyes closed. Her lips were swollen and wet. She slowly opened her eyes, tugging on her lips with her teeth.
"Don't. Please. I find it hard enough to not push you against that wall." She blushed and looked away momentarily. "Come. Let me take you home." I grabbed the keys and let her walk out first. I locked the door and turned to walk towards the car. As I got in, I noticed Leila standing by her window. Looking out at us.
What the hell? Who is that? She looks… young. Why would he want her over me?
I need to ask Elena about this. I pulled out my phone, looked up her number and hit call.
She answered after 5 rings. "Leila? Why are you ringing me this late?"
"Elena, good evening. Forgive me for asking but, have you found Christian a new sub?"
"No, he's turned down the last few girls I sent to him. Why?"
"I seen him with a girl today… looks his type but very young, 19 maybe? I just wondered."
"Hmmm. No. Not from me. That's odd. He never sources girls for himself. Unless another Dom asked him to train her? We both know Christian is highly desirable in our world. He does normally ask me to check them out first. Let me look into it."
"Yeah. No problem."
"Leila… just remember he doesn't take kindly to people interfering. He made it clear he was finished with you. Don't make me remind you too." Shit. She's mad.
"Yes ma'am." She hung up without a goodbye. She never was one for small talk.
I'll find out who that little tramp is… maybe just after his money. How would she know though… unless he told her about his wealth outside of the classroom? Hmmm… A lot to find out.
Christian dropped me a few blocks from moms. "Thanks." I smiled, opening the door.
"Ana?" I turned and looked at him. "Thanks for being so understanding about Leila tonight. I know it must be very confusing."
"Maybe we can talk about it sometime?" He smiled tightly. I leaned over and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. "Talk to you later." I got out of the car and walked down the street. He drove past me, giving a small wave as he passed. I smiled and kept walking.
I opened our gate and walked in through the door. "Mom?" I called. She came out from the kitchen.
"Ana, finally. I've been worried."
"Sorry, I forgot to call. I was at…"
"Yeah, yeah a friends." She waved. "You know better Ana. I worry."
I smiled apologetically. "I know Mom. I'm really sorry." I hugged her briefly before turning to go upstairs.
"Don't forget Ana, final maid of honour fitting tomorrow. Only a few days to go!" She giggled before walking back towards the kitchen. I smiled, shaking my head as I continued up the steps.
Mom had a sister… she disappeared when she was 5, my mom was 3. Without a trace. Understandably mom never got over it. That's why she worries so much.
I walked through my bedroom door and threw my bag on the bed. Why am I so tired? I got a quick shower and towel dried my hair, practically throwing myself onto my bed.
My phone buzzed.
Christian Grey 11:59pm
Get in ok? -C
Ana Steele 11:59pm
Yeah. Thanks for a great night. We can do it again, maybe I'll stay awake haha -A
I got up to put my pjs on and brush my hair. Landing on the bed again.
Christian Grey 12:00am
Definitely, talk tomorrow :) night -C
I replied with goodnight and set my alarm for tomorrow. Finally… sleep.