For Cheeky's Weekly Drabble Competition on HPFC: Bonus level. Write a freeverse about Narcissa Black-Malfoy, Theo Nott, or James Sirius Potter. You must use three of the following prompts: change, long, swirl, juxtaposed, blessed, damage, gasping, illusion, choice, red.

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Your world is

r

e

d.

stained.

stained by the blood of the people you couldn't save

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oh, don't kid yourself, Theodore

you didn't just not save them

you killed them

and their blood is redredred on your hands

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you wake up screaming all too often.

wake up gasping

your lungs crying out for air

your heart crying out for them.

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oh, don't kid yourself, Theodore

crying for them doesn't save them

it doesn't erase your guilt

doesn't erase the redred blood on your hands

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you try to make amends.

you become an Auror

try to fix things

try to save people.

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oh, don't kid yourself, Theodore

you can't undo the damage you've done

no matter what you do now

the stain doesn't just go away

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T

H

R

E

E

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three people.

you killed three people.

three people are dead because of you.

three people are gone, just done, because of what you've done.

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you don't kid yourself, do you, Theodore?

you know they're gone forever

and you know

it's

all

your

fault.

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their faces haunt you

every wakingsleepingconscious moment

you never knew their names

(and maybe that hurts the most of all)

but you will never forget their faces.

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you don't kid yourself, do you, Theodore?

you are haunted, tainted, crippled

you will never be who you were

and your hands will never lose their redred stain

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forever can't make up for what you've done.

not if you had a hundred forevers.

or a thousand forevers.

some things cannot be mended.

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you don't kid yourself, do you, Theodore?

your hands are stained redredred

and that is never going to change.