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Silence… The air was still and the temperature was just right. Not too cold and not too warm. There was no wind. The earth seemed to be at a standstill. Almost as if someone took a picture and that's what it always had to be like.
Neither of us moved or breathed scared to react and break this peaceful harmony. The earth stood at attention waiting for us to show a sign of life before proceeding as well. I wanted to move, but I didn't know how to.
How could I respond to seeing Sasuke of all people? It could be anyone else and I would be happy. I'm not mad… but I'm not over the moon either. I don't know how to feel. I don't know what I want to do with this unrevealed part of my life.
I let out a breath as Sasuke walked towards me with a mask over his face. I could not read what he was thinking at all. It was the usual detachment he showed me. A soft gentle breeze tenderly brushed our hair to the side as a cloud covered half the sun. The darkness loomed over me, but with each step Sasuke took, more light came through the clouds. The light followed Sasuke until he came to me and it consumed us both.
I want to run away. I want to pretend none of this happened. I want to go back and talk to my raven, not Sasuke. As Sasuke makes a move, I flinch away with my eyes closed. I open them up again as I realized all he did was sit down.
We sat there in silence, not wanting to break the delicate atmosphere of our meeting. I couldn't say anything. I didn't want to say anything. I didn't know what to say.
"Naruto… I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for the past twelve years of your life," Sasuke apologized with a hushed voice as he studied my cerulean eyes.
My brain immediately short circuited and all sense went out the window. "What the hell are you talking about? You cannot simply say sorry! You can't mess up my entire life and say 'sorry'! I'm not going to forgive you anytime soon so you can forget all about it! I don't need your fucking kindness, teme! I don't even know why you started all this bullshit! I fucking hate you! I hate you! Why did you do this to me? Why me?" I roared appalled with his bullshit.
My hands fisted ready to beat the crap out of him if he even tried to spew out nonsense. He better make me believe that he's sorry or I swear I'll punch him so hard…
I felt my heart broke as a single tear fell down Sasuke's pale cheek as he searched deep into my eyes. "I'm so sorry. I've really messed up. I don't even know how to explain it. I was so childish when I was younger. I am still kind of childish. On the first day of first grade, I spotted you in a big group of kids. I was jealous of your confidence. I was so drawn back because everyone compared me to my older brother. I really wanted to be your friend, but instead of being nice to you, I was cruel. All I wanted was your attention, but I realized later that I wanted to be your friend. I didn't even try to be your friend, because by that time you already hated me… Naruto, you saw how I was on the chat. Please, just give me a chance. Will you be my friend?"
My throat constricted as Sasuke's desperate voice rang through my entire being. I felt his throbbing pain as I looked into his eyes. I could finally identify the emotion that was behind his eyes. It was sorrow. He always detached his feelings from his eyes not because he looked down on me. No, it was because it was painful for him to be so cruel.
I want to give him a chance. I really do, but when is enough? When do I call it quits? When do I finally say no? I went through so many years of pain, so why does Sasuke get a second chance? He could have avoided all this pain if he manned up.
"Sasuke, I get it, but I just don't know if I can forgive you. You caused so much pain in my life. I want to be your friend. I really do, but why should I? Why should I just forget all the awful things you did to me? I hurt so much, Sasuke. I really hate you. I'm not one to hold grudges, but the things you did will always be in my heart. You can't erase the past no matter what you do," I growl with obvious sadness, but there was also a hint of guilt because I couldn't forgive him.
"Naruto… I… I can't erase the past, but I can write the future. I want to make amazing memories with you, so maybe you can replace those cruel memories. You don't have to erase them, but just accept that isn't who I am. I may not be good at showing my feelings, but everything I said on the chat are my true feelings. I love my brother, even though he's insane. I think you're really funny even if I never laughed at any of your jokes. I really hate losing, but I try to act cool. I think you're really amazing at basketball even though you just tried out this year. I don't get along with my father at all. I really want to be your friend."
By the end of his speech, I didn't know what to do. Half of me wants to give him a chance, but the other half wants to walk away and never talk to him again. Please give me a sign on what to do. I don't know how to respond to such openness from my biggest rival. I gasped as tears dropped onto my fists. Not realizing I still had my hands clenched, I opened them and the flood gate as more tears gushed out.
I guess I got my answer. Flinching, I backed away as Sasuke reached his hand out to wipe away my tears. Instead of letting him do it, I slapped his hand away and looked away. "Sorry Sasuke… I will give you a chance maybe. I can't think clearly. I know you're sorry and I know you're sad, but I can't forgive you so readily. I want too. I really want too, but I just can't. I'll try to be your friend, but it'll take me some time to adjust to it."
I looked away not wanting to see those eyes. They want me to forgive, but I know it's not right. "Alright, I can take that Naruto. I can't expect you to change at all, but do know that I'm changing for the better. I swear I'll be better. Please understand that I won't change completely. I won't become a saint, but I won't be cruel to you. I'm mean to the core, but I still have friends that actually like me for who I am. I'm mean sometimes, but they get that I'm just bad at showing my feelings," he whispered softly.
Nodding, I understood that he couldn't change everything about himself. Then he wouldn't be Sasuke. I guess I would be fine if he wasn't cruel like before. "That's fine, Sasuke. It would be enough if you only tried. Another one's effort goes straight to my heart. Maybe I'll forgive you someday," I encouraged with a small smile. Maybe, we can actually be friends. Never did the thought of friendship with Sasuke ever cross my mind.
"Alright, how about we eat together as planned?" Sasuke asked taking out his lunch from his bag. I nodded as I opened up my own lunch. Ahhh, I love my ramen!
"So Sasuke, I listened to that song you recommended yesterday and it was awesome! Nico touches the Wall is so remarkable! I listened to it nonstop yesterday, but I forgot to sync it to my iPod, so I don't have the song on it. It's so frustrating listening to other songs on my iPod when I want to listen to that song," I ranted with a pout on my face.
Chuckling, Sasuke suggested, "I have the song on my iPod, so we can listen to it together for the remainder of the lunch period." Sasuke took out his iPod after my enthusiastic nodding.
I took one earphone as Sasuke moved to sit next to me with our backs against the fence. A grin stretched itself on my lips as my right ear exploded with the fantastic tune. "Oh Sasuke, how did Suigetsu do at the swim meet against that one dude? I forgot to ask about it," I chatted nonchalantly as I took a slurp of my ramen.
"Hn, he did well," Sasuke shrugged teasingly not telling me the results. I could so see the smirk playing on his lips as he gave me a side glance.
I couldn't help but take the bait with a pout, "Teme, did he win or not? Stop teasing me with this anticipation!" I growled not happy with Sasuke's playful mood. Ugh, I don't know if I like this bastard playing with me over his cruel words. I guess this is better, but it's so damn annoying! He's so fucking mysterious and smug!
"Don't get so worked up, dobe. He won. It was really close. I'll show you the video footage sometime. Even if you don't know much about swimming, you'll love it," Sasuke answers with a fond smile.
"Oh! Speaking of cameras kind of, my mom wanted me to take a picture with my online friend. She was just as excited as I was, ah ha," I laugh nervously as I take out my phone. "Can I take a picture of us?"
"Uh, sure," Sasuke agreed with a shrug of his shoulder. He was stiff as he scouted closer to me so we could take the photo. I smiled brightly as I leaned closer to Sasuke so we could both fit in the camera screen.
I sent the picture to my mom saying it's me and my online buddy. I put my phone away not wanting to see her response until after my departure with Sasuke. I don't want him to see anything negative if my mom were to say something mean.
"Do you seriously eat ramen every single day? I thought you were over exaggerating," Sasuke noted as he looked at me with an eyebrow raised.
"Of course, I would usually eat more than one bowl, but it's difficult to travel with more than one bowl, so I get very little at lunch. Do you want to try some?" I insisted with my eyes sparkling. I love sharing my favorite food with others around me.
"Hn," Sasuke responds looking at my chop sticks.
Ginning, I took some in my chop sticks and slowly raised it. "Be careful, it's kind of hot," I warned as I blew on it to cool it down before raising it too Sasuke's mouth. I smiled brightly as Sasuke took it into his mouth. I awaited his reaction with eyes big in anticipation.
"Hn," he answered with that taunting smirk barely showing on his lips.
"Teme, that's not even a word! Give me a fucking yes or no! Was it great or was it just fine? Tell me something!" I growl obviously not happy with his half assed answer.
Sighing, Sasuke answered with an actual response, "It was fine. Ramen is just not my cup of tea."
Before I could rant on how ramen is the greatest food to ever be made on this earth, the bell rang cutting me off. Pouting, I quickly ate the rest of my ramen and chugged the broth down with a satisfied sigh at the end.
"Hey Naruto… Can I have your number for future reference? Since we're going to try this friendship thing, we should at least be able to contact each other," Sasuke regarded with his usual monotone face.
"Sure," I shrugged as I took out my phone and got to the contact information. We swapped phones and added our information in each other's phones in an awkward silence.
After getting our phones back, we slowly got up so we didn't pull out the ear phones from one of our ears. We both had physics next, so we just silently knew we'd walk together.
We both didn't expect the roof door to swing open almost hitting us. "Naruto, are you alive? Did Sasuke hurt you?" Kiba cried as he dashed onto the roof almost knocking us over. "Oh, you're alright. When you didn't come down, I was so worried."
"What did you think I was going to do, Inuzuka? He was the one going to punch my face in," Sasuke growled obviously offended by Kiba's accusations.
Kiba looked between us at the earphones and responded with a toothy grin. "So…. You guys are friends now?" he asked awkwardly.
"Yeah, now let's get to class. Naruto and I don't want to get our first tardy," Sasuke growls with a small blush on his cheeks. Awww… Sasuke really is human. Walking down the stairs, we met up with Suigetsu and walked to our class.
I guess I can try this friendship thing with Sasuke. It's weird, but I guess I had practice making small talk with him at the café. It'll definitely take time to adjust, but I'm sure we'll make it through. I'm just glad that I'm finally seeing the light out of the tunnel.
By the time basketball rolled around, I was on cloud nine. I can't believe Naruto and I are friends! It took some real convincing, but I made it! Sure I have a lot of work ahead of me, but I have one foot in the doorway. I might even be able to take Naruto's heart on the way.
Calm down Sasuke, one step at a time. I don't need to scare Naruto away when I finally have him in reaching distance. He even fed me today! It was so adorable! I seriously wanted to kiss him right there and then, but of course that would be just wrong.
Who would have thought that Naruto was orange spiral! Now that I think about it, it was so fucking obvious! The orange basketball shoes and everything he said he did over the weekend was exactly what we did together. Oh my god, he knows I'm gay! Wait so is he…
Snapping out of my hazy trance, I changed into my basketball gear and made my way out onto the court. Wait, he lied about not making the team! He made me feel so guilty and I even praised him over the chat. Fuck, that's so embarrassing. We even took our first photo together!
"Take a warm-up run and report back to the middle of the court in 5 minutes to stretch out!" I ordered before blowing my whistle and starting my warm-up jog. I took a chance and jogged a little faster to catch up to Naruto and Kiba. "Hey, guys. Kiba, we're gonna start with a little mini-game and I want you two to be Captains and pick the teams alright? We'll do a five by five, so we'll have to bring up two of the JV players, okay?"
The two nodded and we finished our warm-up jog. We took ten minutes to thoroughly stretch out and warm up our muscles before choosing teams.
"I call Shikamaru!" Kiba yelled with a stupid grin and a jump in the air. I rolled my eyes at the two friends as Kiba slapped the lazy bum's ass.
Laughing, Naruto picked his first choice, "I pick Sasuke-taichou!" I blink surprised, but jog over next to the blonde dobe with a straight face. My heart swells with joy as we high five.
I can't believe this is actually happening. How did I choose Orange-Spiral9 out of every other username there? I must be fucking awesome.
Smirking, I jumped to get the tip off from Kiba and slap it over to Naruto. Landing on the ground, I dash forward with a new found energy.
Thank you so much for understanding, Naruto.
NOTICE: I guess there was some confusion with what I asked on the bottom of last chapter. Do you guys want me to add little snippets of other pairings that would have to do with this story like ItaDei and the blossoming relationship of Kiba and Shika? They would only take up about ¼ of the chapter, maybe a half, but no more than that. There would be chapters also with just Sasu/Naru. There are many pairs I have in mind, so I'm going to put a poll on my profile for you guys to vote what pairs I should put in or not. Thanks for your support!
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