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Ritsuka didn't realize his exhaustion until his head hit Soubi's pillow.
Soubi kept his eyes on his sacrifice while he slept. He surely couldn't blame Ritsuka for having sex, especially since it was under the influence of drugs.
His fingers entwined with dark locks. It did hurt to see his head devoid of cat ears by someone else. He surely remained in love with Ritsuka though, and found him no less attractive. The bulge in his pants assured that fact.
It hurt that Ritsuka lost his innocence without consciously deciding to, then again Soubi was familiar with the concept.
Drifting into sleep he thought,
At least she is one of his friends, and cares about him...
Soubi woke hearing Ritsuka's voice. "Yuiko stop talking so fast, did you do what I told you to?... Then why are you still so worried?... Yuiko please stop talking so fast, I'm very tired and have a headache… Yeah we can buy some Aspirin… yeah okay cinnamon buns too… please Yuiko just calm down… I need to eat something, I'll call you in an hour or so and we'll meet at the mall… yeah bye."
He placed his phone on the bedside table then rolled onto his back grumbling, "Worse than a cheerleader, sheesh I lost my ears to her?"
"I can buy what you need"
Ritsuka turned to his fighter "You don't have to Soubi, she and I should at least be responsible that way".
"You should also buy a pregnancy test."
Scrunching his eyes closed Ritsuka replied "Yeah I know... Ugh why did I say yes? I'm such an idiot".
In an attempt to lighten the mood Soubi gently joked. "If you were curious, I could easily show you how to make love".
Grumbling again, "We didn't "make love", it was just sex. Stupid, accidental, drugged up idiot sex."
Though Soubi knew his sacrifice had no feelings for Yuiko, he felt better hearing Ritsuka say so.
"I don't even remember it."
He sat up and Soubi followed, then kissed his cheek.
Ritsuka felt at fault. He knew of Soubi's feelings for him, and although they weren't exactly in a romantic relationship, this all felt wrong. He wasn't even sure if he wanted to be in a romantic relationship with Soubi though. His fighter always kissed him and used those three words, but what did he want? How did he feel?
The accidental event and these thoughts were too much for him. He paused feeling a hand caress his cheek, "You're crying". Pushing Soubi's hand away he responded, "No I'm not".
Turning away, he blinked to shake the specks of liquid from his eyelashes. When it stopped, he turned back he asked "Could I eat here?"
Soubi affectionately answered "Of course, I'll cook whatever you like."
That afternoon, Ritsuka walked into the local shopping mall wearing a hooded sweatshirt. He noticed Yuiko immediately by her arms flailing above her head to signal she was eight feet in front of him. She wore a baseball cap, and looked terribly nervous.
In a hushed voice he said "Yuiko, we'll buy cinnamon buns and a few other things. Just think of it as a regular trip to the mall."
She smiled at the thought, "Can we go to my favorite stores?" He nodded tiredly, "Anywhere you want, come on."
They walked through the doors and up the escalator. First stop was at the back of the mall.
They picked up two sets of ears, along with a pregnancy test. Yuiko's eyes widened at the site of the test, but she said nothing. They didn't use protection, and needed to make sure.
After leaving the dimly lit store, they went into separate bathrooms and put on their disguises.
"It feels weird, did I put them on right?" "Yeah, it looks alright" "Does Yuiko look like herself again?" "Yeah you look like you're supposed to, no one will know" he assured.
She smiled, then turned to see one of her favorite clothing stores. Excitedly she asked "Ritsuka-kun can we go there?"
"Wherever you want, remember? Just nothing too expensive,"
"Don't worry Ritsuka-kun, Yuiko has her allowance, you don't have to buy me aaanything."
He nodded and was pulled to the store...
After being there throughout the course of four hours, Ritsuka was certain he never wanted to set foot in a shopping mall ever again.
They caught the bus, and after she asked three times in a row, he agreed to go to her house.
He soon found himself on her bed again, sitting.
"And then they fall in love and the princess is happy", she told him the entirety of her favorite manga. He feigned interest when she asked if he wanted to read it, now he knew the whole story. "Oh, that sounds cool."
He thought back to what they picked up at the mall. "You should use that thing we bought."
With a blush she said "Okay", and he handed the box to her.
She checked to see if anyone was in the hallway, though her parents weren't due back for hours, then rushed to the bathroom and closed the door. After about six minutes she came out with a huge smile on her face.
He stood and met her at the bedroom doorway. "No?" She happily shook her head. He let out a sigh of relief, "That's very very good."
They sat on her bed. After cheer about the good news faded, Yuiko turned and nervously asked "Ritsuka-kun…"
"Now that we… you know, are we still going to be friends?"
He knew what she meant, and worded his response to ease her fears. "Yeah Yuiko, you were my first friend when I started school here and knew no one."
Their first meeting was not of her design. Her friends coaxed her into asking him all sorts of questions. He reacted rudely, but later apologized.
"I started reading novels after you told me I was stupid. It takes me a while to read the books with more than hmm five hundred pages, but I like it."
He smiled "I'm sorry I was so rude to you back then."
"I was rude to you too, asking all those personal questions before even talking to you. Now that I know you as a friend, one of my best friends, I really like you Ritsuka-kun", she clasped his hand.
He was taken aback by a sense of nervousness that rose to his chest. Not letting go, he looked into her eyes.
"Yuiko I know girls dream of their" he cleared his throat "first time… I'm sorry it wasn't like in fairy tales".
With a slight pout she looked down, "I know this isn't fantasy, but you're right. Yuiko did imagine it differently. I don't even remember."
"Me either…" He then had the guts to speak his mind. "Yuiko, why don't we try again?"
"Try to… but for real this time, without drugs."
Looking around anxiously she asked "But but but Ritsuka-kun we are… we don't have any…"
He removed a pack of condoms from the bag. "I bought these in case. We're past saying that we're too young for drugs or sex, but we're definitely too young for you to become pregnant." The thought of having a child made him extremely uneasy.
"If we do… will that make Yuiko your girlfriend?"
He thought for a moment, picturing the mysterious man who lied and never told him anything he wanted to know. Why shouldn't he be with someone else? Besides, Soubi was his fighter no matter what, and he would still be able to see him.
"Yes you'll be my girlfriend. Do you like the sound of that?"
She smiled broadly "Yuiko does." Then, "So um… how should we do this?"
He slowly pulled her shirt over her head then unhooked her bra. She immediately put her hands over her breasts nervously.
"It's okay Yuiko, you can trust me", he spoke with more calmness than he felt.
She nodded then he pulled his own shirt off, and dropped them on the floor. They stood and individually removed the rest of their clothing.
Heart racing, Ritsuka took her breath away when he pressed their lips together. Both then followed what they heard classmates talk and brag about.
She gasped in pleasure when he rubbed her huge breasts. Seeing his penis again brought redness to her cheeks. She did not close her eyes this time, but watched her hand wrap around the flaccid form, and it grew and hardened in her grasp. A white drop slowly erupted from the tip and she touched it curiously.
Feeling transformed with the rush of hormones, Ritsuka grabbed one of the condoms and pushed her onto the bed. After peeling the wrapping, he rolled the condom over his penis. Gently he pushed the head into her wetness. Yuiko gasped, then moaned. Such sounds changed him even more. He enjoyed the sense of control and satisfaction he felt with each movement.
For hours they explored each other, and realized what all the fuss was about.
As the sun set, he returned home and received the beating he expected "The real Ritsuka would never stay out all night and worry his mom". It wasn't as bad as it would have been if she knew he lost his ears.
Lying in his bed, he glanced at two new text messages from Soubi: "I miss you" and "I love you".
Everything was so different.
Perhaps this is what revenge felt like. He told himself that Soubi was only ordered to love him, he lied all the time and used him, yes used him, as a replacement for his beloved Seimei.
Soubi would remain by his side, even seeing him with Yuiko. They would continue to be involved in spell battles, and he would still be able to talk to Soubi…
Now Yuiko was his girlfriend, and he'd learn to transfer his love to her.
Hope you liked it, please review.
A/N: If you missed it, there were several instances of "peer pressure", as per the title. 1) Yuiko's friends pressured her into buying the drug, 2) She pressured Ritsuka into trying it, 3) Ritsuka pressured her into having sex the second time.