What seems like the right thing to do could also be the hardest thing you have ever done in your life. -Unknown
How am I supposed to tell him? He would just think I was messing with him. Anyways, I would have to tell him, I couldn't just run away in my senior year. Plus I never want to leave Ezra, he's the love of my life, and I would never think of hurting him. He was coming back for two hours to get some more clothes, and to see me. But, unfortunately he was coming when it was school hours. I had to see him, so I had to bunk off. Right. Yeah. I have to tell him that I'm pregnant. Even if it meant god knows what. I wasn't paying attention in my Physics class; I was wondering what I should say, without looking like a complete ass. The bell rang, signaling for lunch, or for me, telling the man I loved the most in the world that I was pregnant. I couldn't believe it, that I, Aria Montgomery was pregnant. I was so careful, I was on the pill. I walked out of school, biting my nails, something I only do when I need to tell something to Ezra. I walked to my car and got in. Once I had got to Ezra's apartment, I was relieved that Ezra wasn't there yet.
I walked into his apartment, and lay on his bed. It smelt like him, and I had been coming here everyday, just to get away from everything. It's hard to do that when you're pregnant. I hadn't told anyone, not even Spencer, Hanna or Emily. I wanted Ezra to be the first to know. He had to be. I had to tell him, even if he slapped me in the face, he would know. He walked in, and I shot up from the bed, and went over to the door.
"Hi." Ezra said as he kissed me on the lips, his lips lingering there for no more than five seconds. I smiled, a way of saying hi, without saying it.
"Listen, we need to talk!" I said, I needed to get this over with now. So, I took his hand and lead him to the couch.
"Is everything alright?"
"Okay, so I'm just going to come out and say it. Ezra, I'm pregnant!" He laughed, and that's what hurt me, not the glare from his eyes, or the frown on his mouth. It was his joke laugh.
"Aria now's not the time to be messing around!"
"Who says I'm messing around?" I stood up from the couch, not able to look into his mocking eyes.
"I have a seven year old son, who I just met, and now you're saying you're pregnant and its just plain bull."
"I am pregnant Ezra!" I screamed that at him, I was fuming mad, that if I was a cartoon you could actually see me blowing smoke out of my ears.
"I thought this relationship was real, but to you it's just a joke! And you're just being a selfish bitch." He had gotten up from the couch, I knew how to get back at him, and I knew the perfect way, but those words, they stung. More than when Ezra had broken up with me. No one had called me a bitch apart from -A, but I couldn't believe that HIM of all people would call me one.
"Well, the thing is Ezra," I got my handbag, opened it and pulled out a pregnancy test. Tears were streaming down my face, at the thought of having to do this alone. "If you're pregnant you need proof, and that proof is a positive pregnancy stick, and here's your damn proof!" I threw the pregnancy stick at him, and stormed out the apartment, not looking back. I had to tell the girls. I got into my car, and drove off.
Aria threw the homemade pregnancy test at me, and then stormed out of my apartment. She slammed the door, causing some books to fall. I looked at the white stick. A plus, she was pregnant. How could I be such a jerk, insisting that she wasn't pregnant? And how could I have called her a selfish bitch. I was kicking myself for saying that. But she fricin was pregnant. I ran as fast as I could out of my apartment building to get to the street. But, I knew that she had just driven away from me in more ways than one.
SOS, Meet me by the swings xxx
I had sent the girls a text, asking them to meet me, at our usual place. The girls were there first, and when they saw me, they came rushing over. They pulled me into a hug, as they noticed my tear stained face. New ones started falling, from my eyes, as reality became more real.
"I need to tell you something." I said, but you could barely hear it, as it was muffled.
"What is it?" Han asked, sounding worried.
"Whatever it is we are here for you." Em said, holding my hand as we all pulled away from the hug and made our way to the swings.
"Thanks guys, I went to Ezra's and I think we broke up."
"What, why!" Spencer half shouted.
"Because, he didn't believe I was pregnant." I looked at the ground, waiting for their comments, but none came, they just hugged me and pulled me tight. I was grateful, I needed this.
"Why, didn't he believe you hon?" Han asked me, they all had shocked looks on their faces.
"I don't know, I honestly don't. I threw the pregnancy test in his face, and stormed off, and I texted you guys."
"Um, okay since you're telling, I might as well." Spence said, I wondered why she hadn't given me a lecture.
"And, uh you're telling us what?" I asked.
"That I'm pregnant as well. I haven't seen or heard from Toby. I was going to tell him on our anniversary, but then he, and I figured I would have to tell you sometime so, here it is."
"Well, we're gonna get through this Spence!" I know we will." I said to try and calm her down. We hugged each other until Hanna accidentally said something.
"Uh, what about me?" She said. "Crap!"
"What about you?" Emily asked, curious.
"I'm pregnant, I have been meaning to tell Caleb, but he's in Montecito, and it's not something I want to do over the phone."
"Anyway, we ARE gonna get through this, even if it means being named the new school sluts. We will just do what we have been doing all this time, but getting knocked up by your former English teacher, and two of the sketchiest boys in Rosewood, don't look good. But we will get through this, no matter how hard it is, we will get through this." I said looking at Hanna and Spencer.
"You're right Aria, and I will be behind you all, every step of the way." Emily said.
"Thanks, Em!" Han said, we pulled in for another group hug. Hanna's phone bleeped, and that can only mean one thing if we had just told a massive secret, Hanna got her phone out.
"Thanks for the info, I'll give you some in return. Baby weight makes you Hefty, Hanna, and watch out for stretch marks; I hear they're a bitch. –A. My life just keeps getting better and better. I'm gonna be fat again…" Hanna lied back on the ground, but Em cut her off and took her hands in hers, and pulled her from lying on the floor to sitting position.
"Han, you're not gonna get fat."
"Yes, I am!" Hanna replied laying back down, but ended up with Emily pulling her up again.
"Then, you're going to swim with me, and work it off."
"Fine, but once my eyes get puffy, I'm stopping."
"That's fine with me!"
"So, Han! How are you going to tell Caleb."
"Tell me what?" Caleb said, scaring us, sitting down next to Hanna. A huge grin of excitement spread across her face.
"You're back!" Hanna exclaimed, and gave him a kiss on the lips, and moved to sit on his lap.
"Tell me what!" Caleb repeated, confused as ever.
"Han do you want us to stay with you?" Emily asked, but didn't finish her sentence because Hanna nodded. She turned to face Caleb, who had a worried look on his face. A few tears rolled down her cheeks. It was time to tell Caleb.
"Han, what's wrong!" Caleb's eyes getting watery as well, and it made my heart break.
"Um, We're having a baby!"
"Whoa! Are you okay with that!"
"Wait, so you're not mad?"
"How could I be mad at my pregnant girlfriend?" He said laughing, only if Ezra could have reacted like this.
"Because I didn't tell you!"
"I was in Montecito, Han, and I'm guessing you didn't want to say it over the phone."
"I love you so much Caleb."
"I love you too, Han. And I'm gonna be there very step of the way, and we are gonna find a way to make this work." Hanna kissed him passionately, and it took everything inside of me to not 'Awwwwwwwww' at that moment. Hanna pulled away, and remained on his lap.
"Oh, and one more thing, Spence and Aria are pregnant."
"Are you serious?" Caleb said, eyebrows rose, obviously not believing it.
"Yep, and please don't laugh." I said.
"Aria, Why would I laugh?" Caleb replied, obviously confused, again.
"Because, Ezra did." I replied, nervous of what he would say.
"Jees, What a jerk!"
"Tell me about it!"
"Oh, and Spence! Toby texted me, saying he was sorry, and to tell you that." Spencer's head shot up so fast when Caleb had said Toby texted him. "Spence, what's wrong?"
"Better tell you now or never, the reason Toby and I broke up is because I found out who is helping Mona. And that person is Toby. A is Toby."
"Bastard!" Emily shouted, which caused everyone to look at us. She had a sheepish look on her face. A single tear rolled down her face, and she wiped it away quickly. "Sorry, Spence."
"Don't be," I accidentally gasped at the sight of Toby's black motorbike coming over to where we were. They all looked at the black motorcycle pulling up. I didn't think it would be Toby, but the person got off the motorbike, and that person was Toby.
"I'm here. Now what's so important?" Toby asked Spence, all the love had vanished from his eyes, and there was now no emotion in them.
"Sit down!" Spencer gave remote orders to the man she once gave her heart too. He shook his head, and then she stood up, Spence walked up to him. Their faces barely two inches apart. " I think you need to sit down for this!" Spencer looked straight into his eyes, her voice cold and showing no emotion whatsoever. He sat down, not wanting to infuriate the girl he had conned. Spencer sat down a few feet away, but still straight in front of him.
"I'm pregnant, Toby. And I would like you to know that when I have this baby. You won't be a part of his life."
"Why can't I be part of the baby's life, exactly." His voice staying calm, and even. You could see the hurt in his eyes., and the emotion come flooding out, and blocking out the evil.
"You know why, Toby, or should I call you –A."
"I'll give you answers, anything that will let me be part of the baby's life." Toby was pleading, and you could see it, but you could see Spencer was finding it hard.
"Then give me them, right here, right now."
"No, I need to tell you alone." Spencer scoffed at the comment he made.
"Like that would ever happen, and anyways. You betrayed all of us here, so just spit it out, we would all love to hear what you have got to say." It was silent, at first I thought Toby was going to slap Spencer, and I'm pretty sure Spencer did too, but she kept her face like a rock. And it was sending Toby into overdrive.
"What would you like to know?"
"Why would you do this to us!"
"To protect you."
"Protect us from what, more hurt, more pain, more sadness of seeing every single one of your best friends breaking every single day after something catastrophic happens. What did you protect us from Toby?"
"Why on earth would you expect us to believe that, we were never protected, and when I thought I was being protected, it was just a lie, a massive slap in the face."
"Spencer, I was protecting you from more hurt. Because believe it or not, after Ali, Mona was going for you."
"What?" Spencer's face was no longer a rock. I went over and hugged her. She just sat there, staring straight at Toby.
"Look, at first I joined because you all made my life a misery. But, then Emily and I grew close again, and then I started falling in love with you. By then I wanted to quit, but I was in far too deep."
"If you are on the –A team, why did you let me give my virginity up to you, and get naked with you in more ways than one."
"Because I love you, and I know that you still love me."
"How do I know you're not lying? Because Cavaughnah you're one heck of a liar, you made me believe that I could trust you. If you're wondering I didn't tell you about –A it is because I was trying to protect you. You can lie Toby, and we all know it."
"Look me in the eyes, and say I'm a liar." So Spencer looked into his eyes, boring into his soul, and she spoke out the cold, harsh words.
"I once looked into your eyes thinking they were full of love, but I lost myself somewhere in you. I didn't notice the glares or flinches all I notice was how much I thought you loved me. Now all I see in those eyes are betrayal, cold, anger, and violent glares. Nothing of what the blue eyed boy I love used to be."
"You still love me?"
"One more thing, why didn't I get killed." Spencer changed the subject quickly her face turning back to a rock.
"Because, I said I could break you, if you fell for 'the act', but trust me Spence none of this was an act."
"How do I know you're not lying?"
"Because I'm going to be with you every step of the way."
"You have one chance, but if you break it. That's it. You're out."
"That's all I'm asking for." Spencer walked over to Toby and kissed him on the lips, and sat in his lap. There was only one thing on my mind, will Ezra come around. Emily basically read my mind.
"I'm sure he'll come around eventually Aria, Ezra can't stay mad at you for too long."
"How do you know that, he's already got Malcolm and he went back to Delaware, and I'm sure he hates me." I said back
"No he doesn't. This is Fitzy we're talking about, and he will come around, and everyone knows it."
"Knows what?" Toby asked, confused like Caleb was earlier.
"Uh, Han and Aria are pregnant as well." Spencer said, informing Toby.
"Talk about meant to be!"
"Yeah, but he left Maggie, what if he leaves me." I said, turning back to Emily.
"Aria, he didn't leave Maggie, his mother bribed her to go away, and plus Aria it's you, he has risked so much to be with you, and I'm sure he won't throw it away." Spencer said, helping Emily, as she was a loss for words.
"Anyways, how do you think our parents will react." I said, kind of changing the conversation a bit, but not a lot.
"Well, my Mum likes Caleb, so I don't know, but he's already lived with us before, so why not again." Hanna said, thankfully managing to get the subject of Ezra and me.
"Really, I don't think your Mum likes me that much, Han?" Caleb said questioning Hanna.
"She'll come around. If not, you have your own apartment, I'm eighteen and then I guess we'll wing it."
"Well, for starters, I don't know what my parents will do, they're away for most of the time, and then they'll probably kill me, but I'm having this baby." Spencer said, not sure what her parent's reaction would be, because she never spends time with them so she doesn't know them.
"Why don't you stay with me in the loft." Toby offered.
"No hot water, I need bubble baths."
"I already got it fixed."
"Hello Roomie, so Ar what about you're parents. Even though the rest of us girls know the answer." I smiled at how much they knew me, they were completely right, they already knew.
"Well, for starters. Just saying to your parents that you love your former English professor gets them wanting to kill you, and when I tell my dad I got knocked up by Ezra, he will kick me out and then kill Ezra. Then my mum will give me the cold shoulder and hate me. And I'll be living on the streets."
"No, you won't you can live with me, I'm sure my mum won't mind, she loves all you girls." Emily said.
"And me, we've got a got a guest bedroom." Hanna said as well.
"Thanks guys, you don't know how much this means to me." I said pulling them both in for a hug. When we pulled away I saw Ezra's Toyota pull up. "Guess, I'm gonna have to face him sometime." I got up and walked over to his car. I approached when he got out of his car. I could feel that their eyes were on us.
"What do you want?" I asked, hopefully showing the hurt in my voice.
"I came to say I'm sorry." Ezra replied.
"For not believing me, for calling me a bitch, for calling me selfish, for being a jerk" Him calling me a bitch just kept replaying in my mind, but I quickly shook it out.
"For everything, I messed bad, and I understand that you might want to get an abortion." I cut him off.
"Why would I want to get an abortion?" I was staring blankly at his face waiting for an answer.
"Because you're still in High School, and how do you think it will look on the streets. You being knocked up by your old English teacher." I walked towards him, and cupped his face in my hands.
"I love you, and now that I'm eighteen we can do whatever we want to do, and we can't get in trouble. If people can't accept us, then screw them. We have decent people in our life who think we are made for each other and they're right."
"Aria! I'm worried about what your Dad will do to us. I don't want you getting kicked out and being forced to do stuff that you're not allowed to do."
"If I can't live with you, its all sorted, I will live with Emily or Hanna or both. We're gonna have this baby, and you're gonna be there when the baby calls you Daddy. So we're gonna raise this baby right. I don't care if people stop and stare this baby is gonna have a father, and that father will be you, Ezra."
"I love you so much." He leant down and kissed me, it felt so good for him to kiss me again, and that is why I had to do what I had to do.
"Okay, so now, what you're gonna do is you're going to Delaware, and you will come back in one week. Everything will be sorted. We will text each other what has happened, and by the end of that one week, I will be in your apartment waiting for you. Alright."
"I will be here for you, so in one week I will come back, and we will be a family." A few tears rolled down my cheek at the thought of him leaving again, but I knew that he would be back. I kissed him passionately until we both had to come up for air. "Bye Aria!"
"Bye Ezra!" He got into his car, and drove off to Delaware. I turned around, and saw that Hanna, Spencer and Emily were smiling and jumping on the floor, as I came back. I had a smile, even though I was crying.
"So what's going to happen?" Hanna asked, smiling so much that she could be mistaken for crazy.
"He's going to be gone for a week, while I tell my parents, then I will move into his apartment, and then I'll live there. Because I am eighteen, Ezra can't be arrested so now that weight had been lifted of my shoulders." Hanna got up and hugged me, like I had come back from the dead.
"You know we have got to tell our parents now right?" Spencer shouted interrupting the hug.
"Ugh!" Hanna and me said at the same time, which made everyone laugh. Once the laughing settled down, I was the first to break the silence.
"Do you think we should be at everyone's house when we tell our parents."
"Why!" Emily asked.
"Because I'm scared my Dad or Mike will punch me, Mike punched Ezra."
"We will come to your house, when you tell your dad. After all your dad can be scary." Spencer said.
"Han, do you think we should tell your Dad?" Caleb asked looking at his girlfriend who hesitated before speaking.
"No! He walked out of my life, and now when he shows up I will walk out of his." Hanna replied.
"Good, cause that's what I was thinking."
"Spence, how're you going to tell your family!" Hanna said, changing the subject from her Dad.
"A note." Spencer replied.
"Really a note, Spence?" Toby asked, astonished.
"Yeah, but I'm scared of what they will do when the ask who the father is, they
kind of hate you now!"
"And, why do they hate me?"
"Because I was stuck in my room for two weeks, and crying so hard that I threw up for hours on end, and wouldn't eat anything apart from Cookie Dough ice cream, and that I flunked every test I had and had too much alcohol in my system, because I was crying over you, so that's why they hate you." Spencer was looking at her shoes.
"Yeah, but I'm staying right by your side."
"Good, because I don't want you to leave me again."
"Anyway, whose parents will we tell first." Emily said.
"Let's do mine, I want to get it over with." I said, everyone got up, and braced himself or herself for what might come. Hanna and Caleb; Spencer and Toby and Emily and me made our way to my house in our cars. I was shaking so badly I let Em take the wheel.
"Are you alright?" Emily asked me.
"I am so scared, but I have all of you guys by my side, so I will hopefully be ok."
"You will be ok."
"Promise me something, Em."
"You'll be standing by me the whole time."
"Always." The ride to my place was silent, and as we pulled up, Spencer, Toby, Han and Caleb were already there.
"Ready to do this?" Spence asked, as me and Em got out the car.
"Ready as I'll ever be." I replied, trying to smile.
I let us all into my house, and I was surprised to see that my Dad was home this early. He was on the sofa, reading a newspaper. He didn't notice us until I broke the silence.