Hey guys! Unfortunately, this is the last chapter of the story. I hope you enjoyed it :) My next story will be called Two Hearts, One Soul. It will be a canon story of Ennis and Jack up on Brokeback in 1963.
Later that evening, Ennis was half-dozing in the waiting room when the doctor came looking for him. "Mr Del Mar?" he asked, and Ennis looked up. "The surgery went well; your daughter's on the mend now."
He let out a relieved grin. "Thank you...thanks for takin' care of her." He shook the doctor's hand and the doctor nodded.
"She's out of surgery now but she's still asleep; it's up to you if you want to go on through or wait until she's awake."
"Um...I'll go sit with her in a moment. Need to make some calls first." The doctor left and Ennis pulled his cell phone out; he couldn't wait to tell everybody, especially Jack. Their phone call earlier had lifted his spirits, because Jack was on his way home and willing to work through everything.
He tried Jack's cell phone, but it wasn't his husband who picked up. "Hey, Ennis. It's Lureen."
"Hey, where's Jack?"
"He went to pack, but I made him take a shower before he goes out in public." He could hear the amusement in her voice. "He shouldn't be long. What's goin' on?"
"Junior's out of surgery," Ennis told her, grinning.
"Oh, that's great. I bet Jack's gonna be happy to hear that. I'll tell him as soon as he gets out. Just tryin' to find a flight for him...it ain't lookin' good, I'm afraid. Everythin's either booked or already gone."
"It's okay if he can't get home right away," Ennis said, trying not to feel too disappointed. "She's out of surgery, so there's no rush."
"I'm sure he'd want to be there as soon as possible," Lureen told him. "Don't worry; I'm sure I'll find somethin' soon."
"Yeah. Anyway...get him to call me when he's out of the shower an'...tell him I love him." He could practically see Lureen smirking at this.
"I sure will, Ennis. Talk to you soon, an' give my best to Junior."
"Yeah, you bet." Just as he was hanging up and thinking about calling Amy and Jessica, he heard Darren calling his name; he looked up to see his friend walking towards him.
"I heard the great news; seems like she's gonna be fine," he said to Ennis, smiling as he stopped before him. Ennis nodded.
"Yeah, looks like it. Anyway...I wanted to say thanks for everythin' you did back home. You tried to help her, an' that means a lot to us." He shook Darren's hand.
"You spoke to Jack?" Darren asked, but Ennis shook his head.
"No; he was in the shower when I called. Lureen answered; you know, that friend of ours who lives in New York. She took him in when he went over there."
"Right. I'm sure he'll get here as soon as he can," Darren assured him. "Listen...there's nothing for me to do now, since it's over. I'm gonna head back to Provincetown. Let me know if you need anything for Junior, like...medication or anything."
"Okay. Thanks, Darren." Ennis watched as he left and then dialled Amy's number; the girls should be home by now, he figured.
"Ennis?" asked Amy when she picked the phone up. Jessica looked over at her.
"Junior's out of surgery; she's gonna be okay," he told her, smiling widely. She sighed in relief.
"Oh, thank God. We were so worried...is she awake yet?"
"No, still asleep. But I'm gonna go sit with her in a minute."
"Good. Have you spoken to Jack?"
"Well...it turns out that his phone battery was dead an' he forgot to charge it. Lureen got her message an' told him what was goin' on. He...he called me. Said that he's comin' home an' that he's ready to fix things."
"Really? That's great! Is he sure he's ready?"
"Told me he was," Ennis replied, looking at his wedding ring on his left hand. "I'll be glad to see him again."
"I know. Anyway...we're gonna go and get some sleep soon; I reckon you should try and do the same."
"I'll try. Thanks for everythin', Amy."
"Sure. Bye, Ennis."
"Bye." He hung up and decided that he could now go and see his daughter; she might wake up soon.
When he entered the room that she had been in before, he found that she was still fast asleep. With a smile on his face, he sat by her bed and took her hand, trying not to wake her. About ten minutes later, he saw her deep brown eyes opening. "Daddy?" she asked in a small voice. He stroked her cheek.
"Hey, Junior. How're you feelin'?"
"Better," she replied, nodding slightly. "Not so sick..." He sent up a silent prayer of thanks that she was alright.
"Good. You're gonna have to stay a little while, but they sorted you out."
"Is Jack comin' home?" she asked, and he smiled wider.
"He sure is, darlin'. Called me while you was in surgery...he's on his way home."
"Really?" she asked, and he nodded.
"Yep. He's tryin' to get a flight right now." He saw her eyes shining at him and squeezed her hand. "He'll be home soon enough, honey. He wants to see you."
"I miss him...an' I know you do too, Daddy," she said quietly, and he nodded.
"Yeah. But he's ready to come home...an' he's gonna get better, just like you."
"He promised he'd try," she replied, and he remembered how Jack had indeed promised her to try and get better just like her. Jack would never go back on such a promise.
"He sure did...looks like he's gonna keep it." He kissed her forehead and smiled at her. "You need your sleep, darlin'. You've been through a lot an' Jack won't be here for a while yet. I promise that he'll be here soon."
She nodded and closed her eyes, tired from everything she had been through. At least now she was getting better; that was the main thing. Ennis finally felt as if they were on the right track at last; their family was pulling through the hard times.
"Anything?" Jack asked as he left the bathroom, towelling his hair. Lureen sighed.
"No, nothin' tonight. I checked all flights from the three nearest airports; LaGuardia, Newark and JFK...but no flights to Hyannis until tomorrow mornin'. I checked flights further away an' they're already booked."
Jack sat down beside her and peered at the screen. "Okay...when's the next flight to Hyannis from around here?"
"Tomorrow at seven at JFK," she replied. "By the way...Ennis called." At the look on his face, she grinned. "Junior's out of surgery; she's gonna be okay."
"Thank God," he sighed, sitting back into the chair and rubbing his eyes. "How's he doing?"
"He seems okay...and he wanted me to tell you that he loves you," she said to him, smiling. Jack's cheeks went pink.
"Well...um...he knows I love him too. Anyway, see if you can get me on that flight; I don't care how much it costs. I'm gonna call him."
"Okay." Lureen set about booking a seat for him while he stood up, dialling Ennis's number.
"Jack?" came his husband's voice, and he smiled.
"Hey, bud. Lureen told me the good news; how is she?"
"She woke up just now but I got her to go back to sleep. She needs her rest."
"Good idea. Listen, I'm just trying to get a flight. Lureen says...the next available one isn't until tomorrow at seven. It'd be just over an hour until I get to the hospital..."
"That's okay, Jack," Ennis told him. "At least you found one. You know...Junior was askin' for you when she woke up. I told her you was comin' home an' it seemed to make her happy."
Jack smiled and sat down on the sofa. "I miss both of you, Ennis. Does she remember the promise I made her?"
"She sure does; even brought it up just now. You promised to try an' get better, like her."
"I'm gonna keep to that, Ennis. I swear. Um...Lureen passed on your other message. I love you too, baby." He threw a cushion at Lureen, who had giggled at this.
"Anyway...I'll be home soon. Should be there sometime after eight, I reckon. Can't wait to see you..."
"Me neither. I'll probably be at the hospital; I haven't left since we got here in the ambulance yesterday...been here nearly twelve hours now."
"You ought to sleep," Jack told him. "Junior needs you to be alert when she starts recovering. And I don't want my husband falling asleep when I kiss him after so long away."
Ennis smiled. "Well...can't argue with that. I'll try to sleep, Jack. Um...so...how've you been lately?"
"I'm good," Jack assured him. "Feeling better than I was, and I'm sure now that we can work through this. We just need to stick together and try to not let things get to us." Not caring about Lureen's reaction, he continued, "I love you so much...can't wait to be back with you."
"Yeah...Jack, when you get back...when we get home, how's it gonna be?"
Jack knew what Ennis was asking about. "You mean...sex?" he asked quietly, hoping that Lureen didn't hear that. "Ennis...I've been thinking about the same thing. Wondered if it would be a good idea to go straight back into that after what's happened. But then I figured...maybe it'd be the best thing for us right now. To remember how much we love each other...how good we are together. You know?"
Ennis nodded, starting to feel hopeful. "Yeah...maybe you're right. Guess we'll just have to see when we get home. I don't wanna rush you into anythin', Jack."
"That's...real sweet, Ennis," Jack replied, smiling. "But I've got a good feeling about it. I reckon I'm up to it. I miss you, and not just the sex."
Ennis nodded, knowing that he felt the same way. "Same here, Jack." He sighed. "Anyway...think I'm gonna try an' get some sleep now that Junior's okay. Love you, Jack."
"I love you too, Ennis. Sleep well, okay?"
"Yeah, you bet. Night, Jack."
"Night, baby." Jack hung up and looked at the wallpaper on his phone; the photo of him and Ennis during their wedding celebrations. Everything would be okay now.
"You done with whisperin' sweet nothin's?" Lureen asked from her chair, smirking at him. Jack looked at her.
"Hey. I'm finally feeling like myself again after so long, and we're getting back on track. I reckon I'm allowed to be like this."
"Of course. Anyway, I got you the number to call for bookin' the flight. You'd better get to it."
"Okay." He took the piece of paper that she handed him and proceeded to book his seat on the plane. He couldn't wait to be back with his family, but at least he knew that Junior was going to be okay.
Once he'd booked the flight, he bid goodnight to Lureen and headed back to the spare room. As he undressed, he thought of Ennis and their talk about sex. He had the feeling that he would be able to make love with Ennis soon after returning; he needed it and felt as if it would somehow help them to start over. And he was sure that he and Ennis were going to be alright; he would get the help he needed once he was back home with Ennis and Junior.
He thought of the parental rights that Alma had signed over to him, and the adoption papers. Maybe once they were back to normal, he would be able to sign them and make himself Junior's adoptive father. That would be great, and he knew that he wanted to. He was absolutely certain that he could do this.
The last thought he had before going to sleep was what it would be like when he reunited with Ennis; they were definitely going to kiss and embrace as soon as they were in the same space. Anything else...he would have to see about that. But even if they couldn't do it right away, they would be able to eventually. That was a comforting thought.
October 23rd, 2009
Jack felt nervous as the plane came in to land at Hyannis. He couldn't wait to be reunited with Ennis, but he wondered how things would be once they were back together. He tried to tell himself that things would just go as they were meant to, and there was nothing he could do about it.
He wanted to tell Ennis of the plan he'd formulated as an attempt to get his condition under control while they worked things out. He thought it would work and he hoped that Ennis agreed. He had spoken to Ennis that morning just before he'd set off for the airport, telling him that he was on his way. Ennis was clearly tired considering the time it had been, but Jack could tell that he was still looking forward to it.
"Can't wait to be back with you," he said as he waited for the cab. "To...hold you again. I've missed you."
"Missed you too," came a groggy voice; he smiled at the thought of Ennis rubbing sleep from his eyes. "Just...take care while you're on your way, alright?"
"Yep, will do." He hung up after some more sweet words and continued to wait until the cab came, his heart yearning for the man on the other side of the journey.
Now here he was, about to land in his home state and make his way to Ennis; it wouldn't be long now because the hospital was fairly close to the airport.
Leaving the airport was a bit of a blur for him. He grabbed his luggage and stepped outside, looking for transport and spying a cab right in front of him. He couldn't stop thinking about Ennis now that he was so close, and he hoped that nothing had happened to Junior since he'd last spoken to Ennis. That was the last thing they needed now.
He entered the waiting room of the hospital and looked around; Ennis was nowhere to be seen. Figuring that he would be with Junior, Jack went to the reception desk. "Hey, could you tell me which room Alma Del Mar Junior is in, please? I'm her stepfather," he asked, feeling a surge of pride at the title. Maybe one day he would be her adoptive father.
The receptionist directed him to Junior's room and he peered through the window; sure enough, Ennis was by his daughter's side. He knocked and opened the door.
The look on Ennis's face when their eyes met made it all worthwhile to Jack. It was a look that could only be described as pure delight, and he grinned at his husband. "Hey, you."
Ennis stood up and moved forward. "Jack...you're here..." They rushed forward to each other, their bodies colliding in a fierce embrace. Jack held the back of Ennis's shirt in two fistfuls, shaking slightly. His bag had dropped to the floor when Ennis had moved to him, and he could feel the familiar warmth enveloping him once more.
"Baby..." he murmured, closing his eyes. "God, I missed you..."
"Oh, darlin'..." Ennis sighed, rubbing his back. He couldn't believe that Jack was finally back in his arms and held him closer, tears threatening to spill from his eyes. "I'm so sorry...for what happened that night. With Kevin in the bar. I shouldn't have...I should've trusted you. At the time, when I saw you...I didn't, an' that wasn't right."
"Ennis...it's okay. I know why you reacted like that, and I know that you do trust me. I'm sorry for making you think that you couldn't." He pulled his face away so that he could look at Ennis. "You're the only one for me; you know that. Why would I cheat when I have everything I need right here?" He pressed his forehead against Ennis's and thumbed the tears from the brown eyes. "It's okay..."
He watched as Ennis took several deep breaths, trying to compose himself. "I...I'm glad you're back, bud. Been goin' crazy without you."
"I know. But I'm here now and I'm never leaving you again. I swear." Seeing that Junior was still asleep, Jack tugged at his arm. "Come on, let's take a walk." Ennis nodded and allowed Jack to lead him out of the room. As they started walking down the corridor, Jack slipped his hand into Ennis's. He smiled at how they seemed to fit perfectly.
They ended up in the hospital gardens, sitting on a low wall. The sun had risen properly by now and was shining brightly down on them. "Listen...there's something I wanted to talk to you about. It's...about those voices."
Ennis looked at him. "Are they still botherin' you? Lureen said you came up with a plan."
"Yep, and it seems to work. It started that night I slept on the sofa, before going to New York. This voice tried to say things to me, but I just...didn't let it. I think I told it to shut up or something, and that it was my decision to make. And...it just stopped. I kept practicing while I was away and I got better at it. So I'm thinking...we can still start with couples' therapy when we get back; it's okay that I can't see a psychiatrist right away. I've found a way to keep the voices at bay for now, you see?"
Ennis nodded. "Sounds just about crazy enough to work." Jack smiled and rested his head on Ennis's shoulder.
"Yeah. Hey...you haven't greeted me properly yet," he said, rising back up. Ennis smiled and leaned in, pressing his lips to Jack's at last. Love exploded in his heart and he pulled Jack closer, sliding his arms around Jack's waist.
Jack rested his arms over Ennis's shoulders and kissed back, feeling complete for what felt like the first time in months. Everything was going to be okay now. His tongue met Ennis's between them and he sighed, wanting to make the moment last forever.
I love you, and we're never being separated ever again.
They made their way back to Junior's room, still holding hands and kissing. Ennis almost couldn't believe that Jack was really back and that they were okay; it felt very surreal. He wasn't sure yet what might happen between them when they got home, but that was okay. He felt sure that they would be able to work things out.
They paused outside Junior's room, and Jack pulled Ennis close. "Still can't believe this," he murmured, kissing Ennis again.
"Me neither...things are gonna be okay, aren't they?" he asked softly, looking into Jack's eyes.
"Yep," Jack assured him, nodding. "Won't be easy, but we'll figure it out." With one last kiss, they headed into Junior's room, taking their places at her side.
As they were talking softly, Ennis noticed that she was waking up. "Hey, Junior..."
"Daddy?" she asked, looking at him. Then she looked at Jack and saw him smiling at her. "Jack!" she said, reaching out to him. He took her hand and squeezed it.
"Hey honey...I heard that the doctors fixed you up. How're you feeling?"
"Tired," she replied. "But I don't feel sick now." Jack nodded.
"Good. You had us worried."
"Are you stayin'?" she asked, as if fearful that he was about to go away again.
"Yep, staying for good now. We're all gonna be at home soon enough, okay? I love your daddy, and we're gonna work this out. I promised you that I would try and get better, so that's what I'm gonna do."
She smiled at him and nodded. "Good. Daddy missed you...me too."
"I missed both of you," he replied, and then decided to say what he had been thinking of during the flight. "Listen...I've come to a decision about something. You remember how your mom gave me her parental rights, so that I could adopt you?" Ennis looked at him, wondering where he was going with this. "Well...I've been thinking about doing it. If that's what you want."
Junior's eyes were wide. "Jack...you mean that you'd be my daddy too?" He nodded.
"Yeah, if that's okay with you. I've been thinking about it."
"Jack...are you sure?" Ennis asked, remembering the problems that Jack used to have with the whole idea; that he'd felt as if he would never be Junior's true parent.
Jack nodded. "When we spoke this morning, you told me that if something were to happen to Junior and you were the one out of town, I wouldn't be able to authorise surgery without adoption papers. I kept thinking about what might happen if that were the case, and it scared me. I don't want something to go wrong because of it, so I've been thinking about making it official." He smiled. "Besides...I wanna do it. We'd be a real family then."
Ennis nudged him to get up. "Come on, over there." They headed to the far side of the room, out of earshot. "Jack...if it's what you want, then that's great. But...you were so resistant to it before. What changed?"
"Well...I did a lot of thinking after you told me what was going on with Junior. I realised how important it was for me to make an effort, because you needed me. I knew that, so I just...I realised that I had to try and do everything I could to make things better. I was scared of signing those papers, and you know that. I still am in a way, but I got to thinking...maybe it would be the best thing right now. Maybe that kind of responsibility is exactly what I need to push me into making an effort. It'll give me a reason to try."
Ennis looked into his eyes, surprised by the change in him after such a short time away. If it was possible, he loved Jack more than ever. Jack was willing to sign those papers because he could see that it was necessary; he wanted to.
"Jack...I dunno what to say, bud," he admitted, looking down at their feet. "If it's really what you want, then you know I don't have a problem with it. I've been hopin' that you'll do it for a while now."
"I know," Jack replied, lifting his chin. "And I'm sorry for all the grief it's caused us. But we're gonna be okay now. I promise." He kissed Ennis a couple of times and pulled him close, seeing the smile on Junior's face as she sat watching them. "I love you," he murmured into Ennis's ear.
"Same to you, darlin'," Ennis replied, squeezing him. When they pulled apart, Ennis sighed. "Um...have you eaten lately?"
"Had some breakfast at Lureen's before I left, and I had some chips on the plane," Jack replied, and Ennis nodded.
"There's a little café down the road, I think. If you wanna have somethin' else." He looked at Junior. "Um..."
"It's okay, Daddy," she said to him, smiling. "I'm still tired anyway...wanna sleep some more." He nodded and went over to her, kissing her forehead.
"We won't be long," he told her, and Jack copied his movement. "See you later."
"Bye, Junior," Jack said to her, wondering what it might be like to adopt her. They left the room, once more hand in hand and feeling light-hearted.
"Reckon you need some fresh air anyway," Jack said to Ennis as they left the hospital. Ennis nodded and stretched.
"Been sat in that chair all night...can't wait to sleep in our bed."
"With me by your side," Jack said to him, eyes sparkling in the sunlight. Ennis blushed and they carried on walking, both of them thinking about the first night they would be spending together. Neither of them were sure when it would be, given that Junior was still here, but they knew that they were looking forward to it. Both of them wanted it to be a night to remember, and they knew it would be because they loved each other. That was all that mattered now, and they knew that they would be okay.
"You ready?" Ennis murmured, looking down into Jack's face. They were back home with Junior, who had been released that afternoon, and were now in bed together. This would be their first time together in a long while, and both were nervous.
Jack nodded, widening his legs. "Yeah...come on." Ennis slowly pushed into him, watching his face. Jack's eyes slid shut as he felt Ennis complete him, the familiar feeling washing over him like a wave. "Oh..."
"Feel okay?" Ennis asked as he worked his way inside Jack, nuzzling his face. He so wanted to do this, but he would stop if Jack asked him to.
"Feels...wonderful," Jack whispered, pulling him closer. "Take me," he breathed into Ennis's ear. "I...I need you, baby."
Ennis obliged him, keeping his initial movement slow and exploratory. He wanted to remember everything about sex with Jack and how they made each other feel in these moments. He planted his mouth on Jack's, pushing his tongue inside where it was met with its mate. They kissed fiercely as they rocked together, hearts pounding and small sounds escaping from them. Ennis heard Jack whimper and broke away in alarm, but the look on Jack's face was not of pain or discomfort; it was of lust. He smiled and kissed his husband's neck, thinking about leaving his mark there.
"God, I love you," Jack groaned. "Wanna be doing this with you...every night of our lives from now on."
"Fine with me," Ennis replied, grunting as he pushed in deeper and faster. "Oh fuck..."
He didn't last much longer; after a few more thrusts he felt himself coming inside Jack, letting out a low groan. Jack felt his muscles clamp up and he too reached his climax, shooting in between them. Ennis slowly sank down onto Jack's chest, sighing and pulling out. His head was spinning, not just from his orgasm but also from the fact that it was real. Jack was truly here with him, and they had just made love. He trembled slightly and Jack wrapped his arms around him.
"It's alright," Jack whispered, stroking his hair. "I know what you're feeling right now."
"Just can't believe it's real..." Ennis murmured, trying to calm down. Jack lifted his chin and made him meet his eyes.
"It is real, Ennis. I'm right here, and we just...well, here's proof," he told him, nodding down at the sticky fluid covering his chest. Ennis was lying right on top of it but he didn't especially care.
"Yeah...I love you, Jack," he replied, leaning up to kiss his other half. When they broke apart, Ennis rolled off him but stayed close, tucking himself up into Jack's embrace.
"Ennis...there's something I've been meaning to tell you, ever since I got back," Jack started, knowing that Ennis needed to hear this. "Nothing bad," he added quickly when he saw the worry in Ennis's eyes. "I just...remember that night before I left, when I slept on the sofa?"
"Yeah," Ennis replied, having a feeling of where this might be going.
"Well...at first I couldn't sleep, so I got up and...I came in here. I figured you were asleep, and...I don't know why, but I walked around to your side and crouched down. I, um..."
"You put your fingers in my hair," Ennis finished quietly, looking at him. Jack blinked. "I was awake, Jack. Just fakin' sleep 'cos I couldn't drop off. I felt you touch my curls."
"Oh...right," Jack replied. "Well, I don't know why I did it."
"I was hopin' it meant that you were thinkin' of stayin'." Ennis's voice was so quiet that Jack immediately knew he'd hurt him. He cupped Ennis's cheek.
"Baby...I'm sorry. But I really did need some space. And it did me good; I've got a clearer head now and I'm sure of what I want." He smiled. "I wanna be with you. I...I wanna adopt Junior and have us all be a family. I want things to get better for us, and they will. I know what we have to do now, and I can't wait to get started."
"Me neither," Ennis replied, running his hand over Jack's sticky and sweaty chest. He didn't mind it in the slightest; it was tangible proof of what they had just done, and that was a good thing. "I swear, Jack...I'm gonna do my bit. I'll...treat you better. Pay more attention to you now that Junior's on the mend. I know you need my help to get better, so I'll be there."
Jack smiled. "Fair enough. And you already are good to me, Ennis. You're the best husband that anybody could ask for, and I love you to bits." He felt Ennis kiss his neck and grinned. "I really enjoyed being with you again...feels like so long since the last time. I know that we weren't really happy over the past few months. Alma's visit didn't help. But I promise...I'm happy now. We're gonna be just fine, you and me."
Ennis felt relieved; he had dreaded losing Jack lately. "Jack...I was scared of losin' you. Don't know what I'd do if you asked me for a..." He couldn't even say the word now without feeling even more scared, and Jack knew it.
"It's alright. I'm never gonna do that; it's not what I want, ever. Even though we've been through some shit lately, I know that I wanna be with you no matter what. I know that this is where I belong, for good. We ought to be together; being without you out in New York felt like I'd...left behind part of my soul. We're only complete when we're together, you know?"
Ennis nodded. "I know. I feel the same way, Jack." He managed to smile up into his husband's face, and Jack returned it. Their hands found each other and clasped together, certain now that their marriage and love was going to last. Two halves of the same soul were always going to find their way back to each other, because the end of the journey was always worth it.