Okay, so here it is. My new phan fanfic, and I hope that this is a bit happier than the last one. I hope you like it.
I cuddled closer to my boyfriend, trying to think.
"Dan, what are you thinking? Is something wrong?" Jake asked and I lifted my gaze to him.
"No, I'm just thinking about Phil. He's not himself anymore. He's too quiet", I said to him and he just smiled to me. I knew he didn't understand, why would he? He never understands how important Phil is to me.
"Just forget him. I don't want you to think him when we're together", he said and pulled me closer. I just nodded quietly and rested my head on his shoulder. I should never talk about these things with Jake. He doesn't understand anything about friendships.
I tried to keep myself together. I waited for a while, before I opened the door to my and Dan's flat. I heard noises from the livingroom, so I knew Dan was home and Jake was probably with him. They were always together, and I didn't want to disturb them. I put my jacket on the rack and went in to my room. I sighed quietly and sat down on my bed and took totoro in my hands. I hugged it, trying to hold on my tears. Dan could never see me like this. He had a boyfriend and he was happy, without me.
I took my laptop and decided to look at the comments of my latest video. In an hour, I heard how someone left the flat, and then someone opened the door. I lifted my gaze slowly to the door, and saw Dan standing there.
"What?" I asked and put my laptop away.
"I want to talk to you", he said and sat down next to me on the bed.
"Well actually I wanted to talk to you", I said and Dan looked surprised. "I thought that now that you and Jake are together, you want to be alone. So I have been looking for my own apartment", I said and took my laptop again. I showed to Dan what I had found and he just shook his head.
"No, no, no. I don't want you to move out", he said and took the laptop away from me. I was confused. "I don't want to move in with Jake. Not yet. I still want to live with you, in here. And if I am going to move in with Jake, I move out from here. You can stay here", he said and smiled a bit.
"Oh", I said and my gaze went down.
"And I still want to talk to you", he said and lifted his legs on my bed, trying to sit more comfortable. "Something is wrong, badly. You don't talk to me anymore as much as you did. Is this because I'm dating Jake? Don't you like him?" he asked, but I didn't really want to answer. I layed down on my bed, and trierd to think. "Phil, seriously, tell me what's wrong."
"Nothing. Nothing's wrong. And, yes Jake is nice, i have nothing against Jake", I said in a rush. I didn't want Dan to know anything. He stared at me for a while, probably waiting some kind of explanation, but I didn't have any.
"Nothing? And you think I believe that? Phil, I'm not that stupid", he said. I sat up and looked Dan in the eyes. I couldn't tell him, I just couldn't. "Are you gonna explain me why you are like this?" he asked and I shook my head. "Well then, you come with me in the livingroom and you play spyro with me", he said and stood up pulling me with him.
"Did Jake leave already?" I asked as we went to the livingroom and Dan nodded. "Is he coming here again, tonight?" I asked and Dan nodded again. "Is he staying the night?" I asked and Dan nodded. We sat down on the couch and Dan looked at me again.
"Is it really that bad that I am having a boyfriend?" he asked. I took the remote from the floor and looked at Dan again. "Does it really bother you that much, that you need to move out?"
"No, that's not the reason. I thought you wanted to be alone", I said, but turned my gaze down. I didn't want him to see that I was lying. I wanted to move out, because I didn't want to see how the person that I love, loves someone else.
"Do you think I'm disgusting, just because I'm gay?"
"No, of course not", I said in a rush.
"Then what the hell is bothering you?" he asked, almost yelling. I just shook my head. "Fine, don't tell me."
"I'm gonna go to bed", I said quietly. I didn't like it when Dan yelled at me, even though it was my own fault. I just didn't want to tell him anything, that would brake our frienship. Dan didn't say anything, so I stood up and went in to my room. I fell down on my bed and closed my eyes. I didn't sleep.
After an hour, Dan said that he was going to visit Jake for this night. Then he left, and I started to sob a little.