Chapter 2

I sat there in a bench as if waiting for someone who will never come . As much as it hurts i assumed that he will be here , sitting beside me and watching the view just like the old times. I closed my eyes and imagined him. His beautiful eyes , and his smile , that boy that i want to be mine . I pulled out my phone plug the earphones and played the songs randomly and finally i heard the song Teardrops On My Guitar sung by Taylor Swift, I somewhat relate to the first stanza

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about,
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Yah that's right , whenever i see him i faked a smile so he wont see .He's all that i need and the very person which is the main reason for me to come back here. And now he has that Kaoru and i bet she's so perfect ,not like me who just left him. As i am thinking of it a tear want to fall out of my cheeks

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

Everytime he jokes i would laugh as if there is nothing wrong , i felt my heart stabbed a million times when he said that Kaoru is her girlfriend , that stupid jerk Tadashi. He did not even know that back in california he is the one that i would always think before i sleep ,i am always wondering if also thinks of me but now the answer has been told. My tears flowed on my cheeks and i heard someone on the other side of the tree whre i sat .I noticed that the city light were now as bright as before . I muttered chorus and sang it with all of my heart

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

As i sang it my tears kept falling and falling and i cant control it it is my heart's will to cry and cry when someone stood in front of me and gave me a handkerchief . It was Tadashi. I pleaded for my tears to stop but they wont. So i held for his handkerchief and stood with my head facing the ground.

"why,are you crying?"he said . "That would probably be the stupidest question, Idiot Tadashi"I said trying to sound brave at all. "Akira, answer me , why? Bear Lady "he fist could've landed his face but i hesitated and i said " it is not right for me to hit you, when there is someone who replaced me on your heart. You know Tadashi, I still love you . I always loved you " i said . "So that's Akira , I 've been lying to myself if i said that i did not like you, But i have Kaoru now and i cant afford to lose her or to cause her pain"he said . As he said that, "okay" i said that hoping that my voice sounded not hurt. And I ran away , and to my surprise i saw my car with my driver . I did not have that much time to wonder why he is here I just jumped on to the car and there I sobbed quietly.I noticed that i must've clicked the pause button of my phone and i clicked play

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Eventhough he has Kaoru now .. how i wish it should have been me instead of her...I always wonder to myself ..why do i still keep on loving him?

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

So from now on i will be alone ... I just have to wish him to be that is what he wants ,I'll support him even I know everytime they will be with each other my heart will just keep on breaking.

I stepped out of the car and rushed to my room , I kept on crying on what seems like hours .

~ The Next Day~

The SA is invited to participate and help in the Kokusen School's Festival . (A/N: courtesy special a Ep. 17) Hikari is soooooooooo looking forward to that . Then i heard my phone ring and i excused to them to answer it. It was dad who is calling me.


Akira: Hello , Dad ?

Akira's Father: my daughter, i want you to attend a marriage interview

Akira: huh?

Akira's Father: there is no someone , right ?

Akira: yes , father . When will I met him?

Akira's Father : It will be tomorrow morning. I'm sorry my daughter if you have to do it , but don't worry i am your father and if you are not yet prepared for such you can cancel anytime.

Akira: Dont worry father, i will do it

Akira's Father: okay, bye

And i hunged up . This will be a good oppurtunity to forget him. Who can it be? Who is that guy?

Eventhough i'm also depressed because there is no one in this heart of mine but him, I tried to be happy . I go back to my seat and sat there quietly.

"hey, akira . Are you okay ?"asked tadashi as if nothing happened .

"You idiot! Its because of you!" i wanted to say that to when he realized i am so not going to answer him . He placed his face right in front of him that made me blush a little.

"you , Idiot! I am very okay !" i used my famous uppercut to him as i said that.

"owwwww, okay,okay "he said

You are the idiotest idot that i know. You still had the guts to face me as if you have no Kaoru in your life! Hmmph. That is what the voice in my mind said

" okay, let me discuss the preparations ."said sakura which might have been here when i talked to my dad