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A/N: Some things are spot on with the book other things with the movie, and some things have been changed for the plot, Ps. Be prepared to laugh, well I hope you enjoy my unique sense of humor, haha. ENJOY!
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results.
Back to the Past
When he entered the classroom I immediately found myself drawn to him again. But I couldn't pick him NO! I was on a mission, I had to change things. This was my last chance, I couldn't screw it up again. But his messy bronze hair, that crooked smile, those beautiful coal black eyes. No Bella, remember how it turned out. Remember what your fate would be with him? No do-over's this time remember? I couldn't help remember that fateful day the reason why I started this journey in the first place, the journey to a natural path…
"You imprinted on my daughter?" I was speechless, I was drowning in a red haze of rage. I wanted to tear him to pieces. I wanted to end him right here, I couldn't believe he betrayed me like this.
"Bella, you know I can't control it. I didn't mean to imprint on Nessie." He said sadly.
"You nicknamed my baby after the loch ness monster?" That sent me over the edge, the dam broke then. I didn't want to hear Jake's sorry excuses. I pushed him hard into a tree, he slammed hard against it, Blood started tricking down his face, but I was too mad to care about him getting hurt. His wolfy senses would heal him anyway.
This wasn't how it was supposed to be! He was supposed to be with me. I realized that when I was pregnant, I was meant to be with Jacob Black. I was meant to take the natural path, I had just been too blinded to see it.
Every since I had woken up and realized I was a vampire my life had changed, and not for the better. Waking up my life had become one big disappointment after another. The realization hit me as plain as day, I was still in love with Jacob, in my vampire body I felt no love toward Edward, well maybe love like a brother. Why hadn't I listened to Jake when he told me to take the natural path. We were so beautiful together, as easy as breathing, my best friend, my heart beat, my sun, my everything. I had ran away from true love, natural love. I was just a stupid teenager I hadn't known exactly what I wanted out of life, and Edward being over a hundred years old should have known how easily teens can change their minds. Thinking back it was kind of gross that I was in a relationship with such an old man. I had started having doubts and Edward knew this, I wanted to go to college, and experience life before the change. I didn't know if the change was what I wanted anymore, but getting pregnant had changed things. I was sucked into the world of vampire beauty, glittering in the sun, the perfection, everything about Edward had sucked me in. If he had of looked like Count Dracula I doubt I would have been interested. Shallow much? I know. I know.
I didn't blame Edward though, there was no one to blame. But me. My stupid choices lead me here. Lead me to this heartache, and disappointment. Now that I was more mature, and more experienced I saw myself for what I had truly had been.
Stupid ass, obsessed, infatuated, Bella Swan Cullen. Ugh, I still couldn't believe I agreed to get married, even when I didn't agree with the union. Another thing that his vampire goodness persuaded me into. he basically blackmailed me into marrying him, and I fell for it. Now in my new vampire body it was all quite clear just what a dumb ass I had been, and just what his persuasion had done to me. When he would look at me with those honey golden brown eyes, he had me right in the palm of his hand, I was pawn and he could make me do whatever he wanted.
And now waking up I realized that MY Jake, my my my Jake had imprinted on my daughter. NO! This was wrong, sick, twisted. Jake was mine, ALL MINE! I was feeling more than rage, the green eyed monster was clouding up my damn vision. I was jealous of my daughter? What the hell? Something had to be done about this.
But it was too late, far too late. I made my choice, I chose Edward. I made the wrong choice.
Why? Oh Why?
Here I was, abusing my best friend for something he couldn't control. Poor Jake. I was taking all my frustrations out on him, when it was me who was at fault. If I had of chosen him in the first place none of this would have ever happened.
I was a low down vampire bitch, but I couldn't stop myself, I kept pushing him.
I wished I had of picked Jacob and the natural path. I wished I didn't have to give up my family to become one of them, I wished that I could have the life that I envisioned on the mountain top where it all changed, when I realized I was truly in love with my best friend, Jacob black. That day he took Edward's place in my heart.
I wish I could start over and be the girl that I had been when I first came to Forks. Well not exactly that girl, because she was stupid, I wish I could start over and be the woman I am now, and make the right choice! I would make the right choices this time.
IS ANYONE LISTENING? I WISH I COULD GO BACK TO THE BEGINNING. I used my energy so hard I was afraid my vampire head would explode.
Jacob was just getting to his feet when everything went black.
Light surrounded me and I was suddenly enveloped in it, and then I came to a pitch black room.
"Where am I?" I mumbled looking around, the last thing I remembered was me beating the crap out of Jake. A wave of guilt instantly washed over me. I was just so angry in the moment, I couldn't help myself.
"Hello Bella." a tall bald black man said.
"Hey! You're Morpheus! From the matrix! How'd I get into this movie?" I said confused.
He looked at me like I had grown two heads, "Listen Bell-"
"Where am I?"
"Would you please shut up and give me a chance to explain?"
"You are in a state of limbo, stuck in the middle of death and life-"
"You must not interrupt me again!" He barked loudly his voice seeming to echo, I shut up instantly.
"Now, your power as a vampire was not only exceptional control that kept Jacob from imprinting and Edward from reading your mind. You also had the gift to change that of the past. As in go back to the past and change it."
I was stunned, I couldn't believe it. I could change the past? My vampire power kicked ass!
"You were so unhappy with where your life had turned out you tapped into your power and used all your power up, wanting to return to the past where it all began, when you first arrived back in Forks. Is this what you really want Bella? Do you wish to give up being a vampire having exceptional powers, your husband, your vampire family, including your daughter, for a chance to do it over and start all again."
I looked at him like he was nuts, afraid to speak, fearing one of his loud outbursts again.
"I can hear your thoughts, and you don't have to be afraid to speak."
"Yes, I want to go back to when I first came back to Forks and change everything."
"I see. The choice is yours. However, there are consequences, this time make sure you do it right Isabella, because there will be no more second chances. And remember changing the past will always affect the future in a negative or positive way, no do-over's this time. Your life will be permanent, Do you understand?" His voice was so stern and serious I had to think for a moment.
Take the red pill which was my vampire life, Edward, Renesemee, the whole family. Renesemee, I felt tears prick my eyes thinking about the sweet baby girl I had given birth to, I had given up so much to have that sweet baby, and I really hated to give her up, but I could see little black haried children from my vision on the moutation top with Jake, I wanted those to be my children. I would always love Renesemee though, always. She would always be apart of my heart, even though she would no longer exist.
Or did I take the blue pill, Charlie, Billy, Jacob, my Jacob, the natural path. I had to do it over to just see what would happen. I knew there wouldn't be any do-over's and that scared me because I wanted to get it right this time. But what if I went back and everything changed for the worse? The fear of the unknown had me scared. But Jacob always said we were meant to be, this would prove if he was right, we would always find our love no matter how much things changed.
Picking Jacob I got to keep Charlie, I got to have as many kids as I wanted, I got to learn and grow as a person.
This would be permanent, This would be my life, and there would be no going back. But the unhappiness I had felt in that vampire body, I didn't think there could be anything worse than that feeling, I had to try, and what happened would just happen, I had to do this. I had to take the natural path. This is what my life would be if there were no vampires or magic, I had to do it. I had no other choice.
Everything that happened in the unnatural path lead to doom. Jake imprinting on my baby, the Volturi never stop wanting me and the rest of the family, wondering constantly why I never chose Jacob and the guilt eating away at me, watching Jake and Renesemee start falling in love, I shuddered.
I had to go back, I had to. No other way.
I gulped, "Yes Morpheus sir, I want to go back, I'm positive. I'm taking the blue pill."
He quirked his eyebrow at me, "Any questions?"
"I have one question, are you god?"
He rolled his eyes, "Get out of my presence immediately!"
Poof! And just like that I got a second chance at life.
My mother drove me to the airport with the windows rolled down. It was seventy-five
degrees in Phoenix, the sky a perfect, cloudless blue. I was wearing my favorite shirt -sleeveless, white eyelet lace; I was wearing it as a farewell gesture. My carry-on item was a parka.
It all hit me like Déjà vu! I remembered this, I had lived this before. I wished a could skip forward past my annoying commentary, I had heard this all before. I wished I could fast forward this part too.
"Bella," my mom said to me -the last thousand times- before I got on the plane. "You don't have to do this."
"I want to go," It wasn't a lie this time, I wanted... I needed, I had to go. I had to change things.
"Tell Charlie I said hi." I knew she was going to say that, after all I had lived this before. This time around was going to be a breeze, I already felt more confident than I ever had in life.
"I will mom." I grinned. "I love you mom."
My mom told me she'd see me soon, and this time around I hoped that was true. She hugged me for a while and then let me go.
I was so anxious on the four hour flight to Forks. It killed me. I was bursting with nervous energy. Finally the plane landed in Port Angeles where my dad picked me up. Last time around I was nervous about the car ride with Charlie but not this time, I loved my dad he had been an amazing dad to me, and this time around I was going to be there for him too. I wouldn't ditch him for an immortal vampire family this time, I was getting ahead of myself that came later, I had to take this one step at a time.
Charlie was waiting for me in his police cruiser and the old awkward Bella Swan would have been embarrassed but I had went through too much in life to be concerned with such a small matter. I ran toward Charlie and gave him a big huge hug.
"I missed you dad." I felt him smile against me.
"I missed you too Bells, its good seeing you kid."
"Good seeing you too," I mumbled against his chest. I felt him try to pull away but I just held on to him tighter. Tears pricked my eyes.
It had been too long since I had seen Charlie, and on top of that I was considering letting him go just so I could live out a silly fantasy and become a damn bloodsucking immortal vampire, what had I been thinking? I missed Charlie, I breathed in deep, as his scent filled my nose. I finally pulled away, and the blush crept onto Charlie's face, but I could tell how happy he was at my advance.
"You look the same Bells, just as pretty as ever," It was my turn to blush.
"Thanks Dad." He wiped the tears away that had fallen on my cheeks, and kissed the top of my forehead.
We got in the car after Charlie put my bags in and we were on our way. I grinned because I knew what he was about to say next.
"I found a car for you," He smiled.
All I could think about was Jacob.
"Oh really? That's great dad! Thank you!" I squealed happily.
"Bells are you, ok? You're not on drugs or anything are you?"
I laughed, "No dad, why?"
"I don't remember you ever being this cheery and outgoing."
"I've changed dad, life will do that to you sometimes, you know?"
"Yes. I know alright." I heard a hint of bitterness in his voice. And I realized how damn selfish I had been. I never really cared about Charlie or how he had to live and be all alone. He never got over my mom. I was too focused on becoming a vampire, I never stopped to care about the people that loved me most. I had been living in a fantasy. I made a mental note in my head to spend as much time with Charlie as possible. I would even watch sports with him If I had to. I didn't want to be selfish anymore.
"So about that care it's a Chevy, I think you'll really like it."
I smiled, "I bet I'll love it dad."
And that was the end of our conversation, the rest of the car ride was enjoyed in peaceful silence, as I looked out the window admiring Forks, and thankful to Morpheus for a second chance. I think he might have been listening to my thoughts because the moment I thought that thunder rumbled loudly. I jumped at the loud sound, and Charlie chuckled.
We finally made it to Charlie's and my heart started hammering in my chest at the beautiful sight before my eyes, finally I felt home seeing him. I felt love, protection, friendship, my heart burst open wide as I looked upon the face I had been yearning to see every since I got a second chance.
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