A/N: I just love how passionate you all are about this story, especially with your hate on Cole, saying you want to hit him with a bus, it's all beyond me. You guys rock. I love it. Enjoy this next chapter. And as always thank you for your love and support of this story.
"Wake up sleepyhead." Cole said, leaving trails of kisses down her bare shoulder. She still had her tank top on from the previous night, but she hated how it gave him access to her shoulder. She did want to be with him, but she was far from ready from having sex with him again.
"What time is it?" She breathed in confusion
"Nine thirty, " Cole told her, as he wrapped his arms around her from behind and rested his chin on her shoulder to take in the moment.
"I should get to work."
"It's Sunday." He responded, leaving her to feel like an idiot
"Right, sorry I forgot. " Ana said, shifting so that she faced Cole, and gently brought her lips to his.
"I like this, it feels right." Cole murmured against her lips.
"It feels more than right, Cole thank you, for everything you've done for me. Standing by me through this all, being here when I hurt you so badly. I can't tell you just how much that meant to me. You're my miracle. " Ana confided in him, she was purely grateful for everything he'd for her. And if she lived a thousand years, she'd never know how to repay him.
"Ana, please, don't thank me. I was there for you because I wanted to be, not because I had to. I know I've said this a million times and I don't expect you to say it back, it's going to take time, but I love you and that's the reason I can be here, with you even though you were in love with another man, I wanted to help you, baby, I wanted to be there for you, I wanted to hold you while you cried, listen to you while you talked, wipe your tears away, I wanted it all and I still do. I love you beyond what word can say and that will never change." Cole confessed in a low voice in hopes that it wouldn't scare her off.
"I care about you too, Cole, you're a wonderful man and I'm so lucky to have you here with me. "
"Enough talking." Cole demanded, and rolled on top of her and began to trail kisses down her neck.
She kissed him back at first, feeling just as heated as he was, but as he began to slide his fingers up her shirt, she instantly felt all her emotions surface. She couldn't do this. She wasn't ready. She couldn't do this, not yet.
"Cole, please stop." She begged him as he felt his way to her breasts, but the minute she asked, he pulled away.
"What's wrong?" He asked, bringing his eyebrows together in confusion.
"I can't do this, I'm not ready, I know we've had sex before, when we were together before, but Cole right now I'm just not ready go back there. I'm so sorry." She cried, feeling horrible about what she was doing to him, she scooted from under him and sat on the edge of the bed, putting as much distance between the two of them as she possibly could.
"Hey, stop Ana. I understand, you have no reason to be upset. I get it, and I'm not angry, I just want you to be honest with me. You don't have to ever feel like you have to be sorry for something you're not ready to do. I totally understand. " Cole informed her forming a grip on her shoulder, so she'd turn to face him
"Are you sure? You're not angry? "She questioned, wondering how he could possibly be okay with her not wanting sex, it was important in any relationship, wasn't it?
"I'm not, not in the slightest bit. I learned at a very young age that when you love someone, you put their needs before your own and Ana, It's clear that you're upset, and I would never want to feel like I was forcing you into this. Don't be upset for not wanting to have sex, we have plenty of time for that, don't think I'll be mad because of this. Why don't you get dressed, and shower, and I'll go make you some breakfast. " Cole suggested . All he wanted was to take care of her, and it seemed he was failing at that in every way.
"Okay. " She sniffled, as she felt Cole place a kiss upon her forehead and vanish from the room.
It didn't take her long to shower and dress but when she did she felt better. She had no idea what caused her to break down the way she did, but she knew that she needed to stop being one foot in and one foot out, it wasn't fair, not to her or Cole. He deserved more, he deserved her all and that's exactly what she was going to give him. She owed him that. God, she was just a horrible person, and even more of a horrible girlfriend. She should just walk away and let him be happy, right? Sighting Ana went to the bed and collapsed, she just needed time to think about what was next. Every time she thought she was going to be okay, she'd get a setback and right now is what almost sex with Cole.
"You okay?" Cole's voice came through the room
"I'm fine, listen, maybe I should go home, I love being here with you, but it's clear that I wasn't ready to spend the night yet. I'm so sorry." She apologized yet again for how she was acting.
"You need to apologize for how you feel, and I'm not going to let you feel bad about something that is very understandable." Cole told her with confidence. Why would he let her? She didn't want to sleep with him that was fine, he wasn't' going to push her to do. If it happened, it needed to be mutual on both parts.
"I know. I just feel like I keep going back and forth one minute I'm all in this, ready to be with you and then I just step back. And I don't mean to but I feel really badly when I do. I care about you Cole, I do want to be with you, I'm just going to need you to bear with me." Ana responded, as he placed a hand over top of hers.
"I'll do whatever you needed me to do, I promise. I'll wait for you as long as I have to, you mean so much to me and I'll forever be here for you. I'm not going to let you go just because of one small thing. "
"Thank you Cole. " Ana smiled, leaning in to kiss him.
"Don't thank me. I made you an omelet, I have to shower, and then we'll figure out what to do the rest of the day, so go eat up." Cole told her and then he vanished into his bathroom. Ana knew she wasn't hungry so rather than go eat, she decided to tidy up for Cole.
She made the bed, straightened the chair to his desk, and when she found a basket of his clothes, she figured he would appreciate her helping him by putting them away. The truth was, she just needed something to do.
The minute she opened his top drawer though, she regretted it. She pulled out a box. Something familiar that she thought she'd never see again. And when she opened it, she knew exactly what it was. It was the box she'd given Christian for his birthday after he asked her to marry him. The box that had given her to him forever.
Christian made it to his one hundred push up before the door to the basement opened. God, did he hate this, he just wanted to be home with his Ana. What was she doing now? Had she moved on? God, he hoped not. She belonged to him. No one else could have her. He worried so much for her and the truth was he just needed to find his way back to her.
"Blowing off some steam?" The dark haired man asked, his brown eyes filled with glee that only made Christian want to deck him as he'd done to him so many times
"What the hell are you doing down here? Come to torture me some more?"
"Oh, Christian, you've got a smart mouth on you." The man told him with a self-righteous smirk
"I'm sure I do."
"I never did like you. Your mother, she loved you, despite everything but I for one, I never liked you. You were a bastard child, I'd hoped that once Ella ended your life, that maybe you wouldn't survive either, hell it never occurred to me that you'd become one of the richest men in the world."
"Funny how that works out, huh? If it's money you want, you can forget it. I'd rather spend the rest of my life down here in this basement then ever give you a dime of my money. Do you get that? Just killed me, Michael, do whatever you have to do but you won't see a dime."
"I don't want your money, I want you to suffer." He said
Christian just stared at him, what could he possibly gain by making him suffer? They hadn't come in cross with each other since he was a child, now all of a sudden he wants vengeance against him, but for what? He could live the rest of his life, but never know. As he stared into the eyes of his mother's pimp, Christian began to wonder what was going through his mind.
"I have to run out now, but this lady is going to take nice and good care of you. " Michael said just as a figure walked in. Elena.
Michael vanished from the room, and left the two alone, Christian felt all the blood in his body begin to boil. Elena? She was a part of this? How could she do this to him, they were friends?
"Now don't you go assuming anything, I'm on your side." She explained with soft eyes
"Really? Because from where I'm standing I'd say you're on theirs." He fought back at her, he'd never felt a betrayed at anyone as he did in this moment.
"Christian, I'm on your side. Listen to me, Michael isn't the only one involved. Of course you know that you've seen the other man. But the thing you don't know, is Linc is involved. When he told me his plan, I knew I had to go along with not because I want you here, or away from Ana, because I want to help you. I'm going to get you out here, I promise. Taylor knows. There is always someone here though, she we're just working out your rescue. He's decided not to involve the cops, apparently Michael has people on the inside, so you just have to hold on longer."
"Linc? Why is he doing this? Because our affair?"
"That was years ago, I was a messed up kid. God, he could have beat the hell out of me, not steal my life from me. " Christian almost yelled in rage. He was angry and he knew that the minute he got out of here, he was going to get vengeance on all three men involved. He was going to destroy them in a way that they'd never forget.
And for the doctor who'd helped them, he was going to make sure he could never practice medicine again. He was getting his life back, he was hopeful for that.
"She's a mess." Elena explained, the last thing she was going to do was tell him she was with someone else. It shouldn't come from her. She may not like Ana, but she cared a great deal about Christian and that was something she valued. And the truth needed to come from Ana.
"God, I miss her."
"She misses you too."
"I need to get out of here. "Christian stated, wanting to rush to Ana
"Soon. Taylor promised that it would all go down tonight. "
"Thank fucking God. I need to be home with my girl." Christian told her then collapsed on the cot and sighed in relief. By the end of the night, he'd be with the woman he loved.