A/N: Hello there! Well I know everyone has done a series 3 with Rose and now I guess it's my turn as well. I'm planning on putting a new twist on things and I really hope you enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who or anything related. That all goes to the BBC. *Some lines below are borrowed from the episode Doomsday. Credit for those lines goes to their respective writers.*
The Doctor watched in horror as Rose let go of her magna clamp so reach the lever. He held his breath until he heard the computer announce. "Online and locked." Only now the suction of the Void was even stronger and he could see Rose's fingers slipping.
"Rose, hold on! Hold on!" he screamed as loud as he could.
She was trying. Oh she was trying so hard, but the pull of the Void was just too much. Rose Tyler could not hold on any longer. She tried with all of her might to keep her fingers wrapped around the lever, but the suction was too much for her. She slipped. The look on the Doctor's face was one that Rose knew would haunt her for the rest of her life. Even if that life was cut short by the Void, she thought it would probably follow her there. She kept her eyes locked on the Doctor's for as long as she could, willing him to know what she wanted to say to him so badly, "I love you."
She took a deep breath and finally closed her eyes. Excepting her fate as she drew nearer to the opening of the Void. But before she knew it, the wind around her died down. As she collided with the floor she heard the computer say, "Systems closed."
"Rose!" the Doctor shouted as he let go of his clamp and ran towards the crumpled form of his companion. "Rose, are you alright? Answer me, Rose. Please!" He looked her over, and nothing appeared to be broken but she still had her eyes closed. Finally he saw them twitch beneath her lids before opening, "You're alive!" he grinned at her.
"Can't get rid of me," Rose smiled back, weakly. "Did we win?"
On those words the Doctor frowned, "Yeah. I'm sorry, Rose. You'll never see your mother again."
Rose shrugged as the Doctor helped her sit up. "Never say never ever."
"Stop it, Doctor. I made my choice. You may think I don't know what that choice means, but I do. I love my mum and yeah, I'll miss her. Everyday. But like I told you once before, 'everyone leaves home in the end.' This was my time. I understand and fully except the consequences. I'm never gonna leave you. Are you planning on leaving me?" she looked at him thoughtfully.
The Doctor grabbed her hand. "No. Not you."
"Good. Now that that's settled, let's go home."
"Home?" the Doctor asked as he helped her stand.
"The TARDIS," Rose clarified.
"Right... home," The Doctor smiled.
Once back inside the TARDIS, Rose sat gingerly on the jump seat and watched as the Doctor directed them away from Canary Wharf and into the Vortex. She knew in her heart that she had made the right decision, but she was still nervous about what this would mean for her and the Doctor.
The Doctor knew Rose was staring at him, and he had no idea what she was thinking. Part of him was thrilled she had chosen to stay with him. He had meant it when he said he would never leave her, but that didn't make the thought of losing her any easier. He was so afraid she would eventually come to regret her decision. Like it or not though, she was stuck with him. At least for the time being. And that meant that it was time to be a bit domestic. "Rose?"
"Um," he began rubbing the back of his neck nervously, "I know this might be hard and we can certainly wait for as long as you'd like, but we should probably head back to the Powell Estate and tie up some loose ends."
She inhaled sharply. "Oh. I... I hadn't thought of that. Course though... we really should do that." She hopped off her seat. "Right then! No time like the present!" She said with false cheer.
The Doctor knew she was faking her smile but chose not to say anything and instead decided to play along, "Rose! We're in a time machine. Anytime is the present!"
"I would really just like to get it done. Please?" she asked quietly.
The Doctor nodded and set the coordinates for her's and Jackie's flat. He decided to park inside so they would have to carry anything to far. "Right then, here we are. Three days after the battle," he said once they landed.
Rose took a deep breath before exiting the ship. Never before had her flat felt so empty. It's not like Rose had never been there without her mum. Obviously she had been alone there countless times. But somehow, knowing that Jackie Tyler will never step foot inside that front door, or go into the kitchen to make her nightly cup of tea again, made everything about the place feel wrong. Rose shivered slightly and was immediately grateful when the Doctor slipped his hand in her's.
"Alright?" he asked.
Rose nodded her head. "S' just strange, that's all. I don't even know where to begin."
"Do you want to keep the flat?"
"Seems kind of silly to keep it if it'll just stay empty... but still..."
"Tell you what, why don't I go get us some chips, while you think about what you want to do. Alright?"
Rose smiled. "Sounds great. I didn't even realize I was hungry!"
When the Doctor returned an hour later, he was in a much more somber mood then when he left. But Rose didn't notice at first and jumped up to greet him. "I was thinking about it, Doctor, there really is no point in me keeping this place. My home is with you on the TAR...DIS..." she faded out as she saw the look on his face.
"I stopped on the way to getting chips," he told her quietly as she sat back down, "I found out that you, your mum, and Mickey were all on the list of the dead. I reported that you had been found so you're now listed as alive, but I didn't know what to do about Jackie and Mickey," he placed the food down and sat next to her on the couch. "I'm so sorry, Rose. If you want we'll go and take them off right now. We'll say they've gone on an extended holiday or something like that."
Rose just shook her head. "No. Cause then people will expect to hear from them, friends, the little family we have, they'll never believe mum just up and left. And eventually Mickey's friends will ask about him too. It's probably best to leave them on the list."
"Are you sure, Rose?" he moved to sit closer.
She rested her head on his shoulder. "Yeah."
"Right then. So you don't want to keep the flat either?"
"No. My home is the TARDIS now."
The Doctor smiled and rested his head on top of her's. "For as long as you want it to be."
"For forever," Rose corrected.
The Doctor just nodded his head in agreement. He knew she meant it now, but what about 10 years from now when she wanted to settle down in a proper house, with carpets and mortgages and a husband and kids. That's the one adventure he could never have. He could give her all of time and space but he couldn't give her that.
The next week passed in a blur as Rose sorted through her's and her mum's belongings, deciding what should be kept, donated, or trashed. Thankfully, the Doctor remained by her side the entire time which surprised Rose a bit. She would have that he would have gone spare, finding the whole situation a bit too "domestic." She knew he was concerned about her though. She might not be as brilliant as the Doctor, but she wasn't completely thick. He was constantly watching her, waiting for her to crumble. It was almost like he wanted her to have a break down. But Rose had promised herself that she would remain strong and would not cry. She chose this life. She chose to stay with him and she would not make him feel guilty with her tears.
Of course it didn't help that a couple of days later Mo and Bev showed up and insisted on having a funeral for both Jackie and Mickey. Rose agreed as long as she didn't have to plan it, however she did insist on saying a few words. She didn't want some random person up there sobbing away cause they thought her mum and Mickey were dead. They are not dead.
The Doctor was worried about Rose. He had not seen her shed a single tear. He tried talking to her about it but she would always change the subject. He knew what she was doing. She was trying to put on a brave face for him so he wouldn't feel guilty. The fact that she felt such a strong need to protect him made him feel even guiltier though. And now they were sitting in the front pew of a little chapel at a funeral for Jackie and Mickey, and all Rose could do was stare ahead stoically.
Rose hated this. All she wanted to do was go home. Home to the TARDIS. She wanted to tell all these people that they were crying for no reason. And now she had to sit in a stuffy chapel, wearing stuffy black and white dress while everyone frowned at her for not being more emotional.
"And now let us invite Rose Tyler up, who would like to say a few words about her mother Jackie Tyler and friend, Michael Smith," the reverend said, gesturing to Rose.
With a gentle squeeze to the Doctor's hand, Rose picked up her notes on what she wanted to say, walked to the front, and addressed the crowd. "Mickey Smith was my best friend. I've known him my entire life. We went through everything together. Life... death... dating," she paused to smile at the small chuckle she heard from her friends from her youth, "He got me through some really tough times. He was always there for me, even when I wasn't for him. The last time I saw him, I got to see what an amazing and brave man he turned out to be. He was absolutely brilliant. No longer the tin dog. I was lucky to have him in my life and I will miss him every day." Rose stopped to flip over her paper and then began reading, "My mum," she cleared her throat, "My mum is... was... um..."
It was hitting her, the Doctor realized. Her mum was really gone and it was just now hitting her. Her hands were shaking and he could see her blinking, trying to clear the tears out of her eyes so she could read her notes. He saw her look up and make eye contact and he knew that look. Her whispers from their previous Christmas echoed through his mind. "Help me."
The Doctor stood and lead her back to the pew before taking her place in the front of the chapel. He quickly scanned her notes before speaking, "Jackie Tyler. The first time I met her was interesting to say the least. The second time I saw her, she slapped me," he paused as the entire chapel burst into laughter, "And the last time I saw her she kissed me," once again the chapel erupted in laughs, "She was tough as nails. She was strong and independent and wasn't afraid to speak her mind. She raised the most wonderful, fantastic, and beautiful daughter. All by herself. And twice she helped save the world. Once with a big yellow truck and the other time with her tea. Now that might seem like nonsense to you, but it's the truth. Jackie Tyler, defender of Earth. And I know wherever she is right now, she's probably sitting with Pete and Mickey, force feeding them her shepherd's pie and nattering on about the latest gossip she heard about you lot. Wherever she is," he stopped to look at Rose, "I'm sure she is very happy. And very proud of her Rose."
As the service was ending Rose leaned in to whisper to the Doctor, "Everyone's gonna want to talk to me Doctor. I... can't do it. Please, can we sneak out?"
The Doctor nodded his head in agreement. "See that side door over there? When everyone stands up quickly slip through there." The Doctor's plan worked and fifteen minutes they were safely back in her now empty flat at the Powell Estate.
"Well that's everything. Ready?" Rose asked as she entered the TARDIS.
"Are you sure you don't want to stop by the reception, Rose?"
"I'm sure... I just can't. I can't, Doctor. My mum isn't dead and I just want to shout it at everyone!" Rose proclaimed as she fell to her knees and finally, finally began to cry. "I must be the most horrible daughter ever! I just left her! I left her and I'll never see her again but I don't regret the decision I made! That must make me the worst daughter ever. You said she would be proud but she must be so upset with me!"
The Doctor quickly made his way to her and scooped her up, so she could cry against his chest. "You are not horrible, Rose Tyler. Do you understand me? You are so brilliant. These emotions you're showing, only prove that to me even more. I promise you, Rose, Jackie is not upset with you. I'm sure she misses you too but I know how proud she is of you and how much she loves you." Rose had no response as she continued to cry. It was thirty minutes later, when a final shudder ran through her, that he realized that she had fallen asleep. As quietly as he could, he stood and carried her to her room.
After he gently laid her on her bed, he slipped off the black flats she had been wearing. He felt bad that she had to sleep in the black and white dress she had worn to the funeral, but felt that the act of undressing her was a bit too intimate for him. He didn't have much self control when he was around Rose and if she were to wake during the process of undressing, she might see the evidence of his lack of control... And wouldn't that be embarrassing.
As he made his way back to the control room, he started thinking about Jackie. He hoped she was happy and that Pete had been open to her. She deserved the best, Jackie Tyler. And there's something he never thought he would hear himself say! But it was true. They may have had there differences at times but the Doctor couldn't help but admire that loud, brash woman. He wished he could give Rose the chance to say a proper goodbye... but what if he could? Surely there had to be some cracks left in the universe. They couldn't have all sealed yet... if he could just find the right one, he might be able to give Rose her chance!
An hour later he raced back into Rose's room and was shaking her awake. He felt guilty that she hadn't got that much sleep but he needed her up and about as soon as possible. The crack he found wasn't very large and wouldn't last long at all. "Rose! Rose! Come on!"
"Wha?... What's wrong?" she said as she tried to blink the sleep away.
"Nothing's wrong, Rose, but I need you to wake up and get ready. I found a way you could talk to your mum one last time. But the opportunity won't last long so meet me in the control room in fifteen minutes!" With that he ran back out of the room.
Rose didn't even have time to think about what he meant. How in the world would she get a message across the Void? She grimaced as she look in the mirror. There was no time for a shower, but she was able to wash her face and apply some makeup. She looked in her wardrobe for something to wear. Hanging at the front, was a very dark blue, leather jacket. It reminded Rose of her first Doctor's jacket. His armor, she used to call it. Maybe the TARDIS realized that today she would need some armor of her own. At that thought, Rose heard a gentle hum in the back of her mind. Thanks, Rose whispered back mentally.
As Rose made her way into the control room, she found the Doctor sitting in the jump seat with his eyes closed. "You alright, Doctor?"
He opened his eyes and smiled. "Oh yes! Just calling your mother."
"You were what?"
"Calling to her. You're going to be able to see and hear her but you can't touch. You'll just be an image and you'll only have a few minutes. I'm sorry.
"Don't be sorry, Doctor." Rose hugged him, "This is more than I thought possible."
The Doctor moved out of their embrace and placed her next to the console, "Here stand right there and you should see her right about... now."
Suddenly they were on a beach. Rose knew that were still in the TARDIS. She could hear the ship's hum all around her but instead of the control room, Rose could only see a dreary beach, with her mum walking towards her. Rose quickly grasped the Doctor's hand and whispered, "Stay with me."
"Rose? Doctor? Where are you?" Jackie called frantically as she moved closer to them.
"We're in the TARDIS, mum." Rose told her with a sad smile.
"There's one tiny little gap in the universe left, just about to close. And it takes a lot of power to send this projection, we're in orbit around a super nova," the Doctor explained further, "burning up a sun just to say goodbye." Rose grasped his hand tighter when she heard him. He hadn't told her that part.
Jackie shook her head as a few tears fell. "You look like a ghost."
"Hold on..." The Doctor pulled out his screwdriver to make their projections stronger.
Jackie turned to Rose when she appeared fully. "Can I hug you?"
"I'm still just image. No touching."
"Well can't you come through properly?" her mother practically shouted.
"The whole thing would fracture. Two universes would collapse," the Doctor supplied for Rose.
"Well who cares about that?" Jackie replied, only half joking.
Rose observed their surroundings. "Where are we, mum?"
"Bloody Norway! That's where."
The Doctor shrugged. "Norway... right..."
"About fifty miles out of Bergen. It's called 'Dårlig Ulv Stranden'."
"Dalek?!" Rose and the Doctor exclaimed together.
"Dårl-IG. It's Norwegian for 'bad'. Apparently it translates as Bad Wolf Bay." Jackie informed the shocked pair.
"We've only got a couple more minutes, mum, and I can't think of what to say!" Rose told her, finally letting her own tears fall.
Jackie laughed, "Me neither!"
The Doctor finally noticed that standing at the jeep parked behind Jackie, was Mickey and Pete. "You've still got Mr. Mickey then? And Pete?"
Jackie nodded and smiled at Rose. "There's four of us now. Me, your dad, Mickey... and the baby."
Rose gasped at Jackie's revelation. "Oh my god, mum! You're pregnant?!"
"Yep. Three months gone. More Tylers on the way! Pete and I got 'remarried' right after I got here. Oh I wanted you there so bad, sweetheart."
"I wish I could have been there too. I had to go to your funeral, mum. Your's and Mickey's."
Jackie looked at the Doctor as he provided an explanation, "You're dead, officially, back home. So many people died that day and you've gone missing. You're on a list of the dead. I'm sorry, Jackie. But look at you! Here you are living a life day after day. That's brilliant."
"And what about you, two? Will we able to do this again? Will I ever see you again?" Jackie hugged herself tighter as she and Rose both began to sob.
The Doctor shook his head. "I'm so sorry," was all the he could say.
"What are you gonna do, Rose?"
"I've got the Doctor and the TARDIS. But I'll always remember you! I'll always be Rose Tyler. I swear!" Rose promised, remembering the conversation she had with her mother before they ended up at Torchwood.
"I know you will be, sweetheart!" Jackie reassured her daughter, "And you, Doctor, take care of my little girl... and yourself."
"I will, Jackie. I promise," he told her solemnly. He could feel gap closing and squeezed Rose's hand to let her know.
Rose got his message and quickly said, "I love you, mum! I love you so much!"
"I love you too, Rose!" was the last thing she heard. When Rose blinked they were back in the control room.
The Doctor hugged Rose close as she openly let her tears fall. After he helped her up onto the jump seat, he turned to move them out of orbit, it was then he noticed there was someone with them in the TARDIS and by the looks of the human figure, it was a woman. "What?!" he exclaimed loudly.
The woman turned and screamed as the Doctor realized the woman was dressed as a bride, "What?!"
"Who are you?" she demanded.
"Where am I?" she said a little louder.
"What's going on, Doctor?" Rose asked as she peered around the console.
Finally the bride yelled out, "What the hell is this place!?"
Rose could only stare in silence as the Doctor once again yelled, "What?!"
Coming Soon: The Runaway Bride.
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