This is my first attempt at any sort of fanfic! I've been obsessed with Ness and Jakes untold story and I coudln't sleep one night and this just poured out of me! I don't know if I'm going to continue but please review and let me know!
Our neverending forever.
Chapter 1. Changes
"Is there something wrong with me mom?"I sighed, sitting down at the end of couch.
"Of course not Ness, why would you ask such a thing?" Mom murmured as she ran her cool fingers up and down my cheek.
"It certainly feels like there's something wrong with me. I've never felt so alone." I nearly whispered, looking down and my fisted hands.
The last few weeks had been dreadful, I had just turned 6, technically speaking, I was full grown, my body had finally caught up with the rest me, I probably looked about 18, give or take a year or two. I had a wonderful day with my family, but my time with Jake was nothing short of great. Before, he was always around me, always holding my hand, stroking my hair, embracing me with his warm strong arms, but now, just getting him to sit beside me on the sofa, or even look at me, was like pulling teeth. He must of finally come to his senses and realized that I was a horrible creature who shouldn't even be here.
"You're far from alone love, we're not going anywhere." My father nearly sung as he wrapped his icy hands around my shoulders. I looked up into his golden eyes, and felt the moisture in my own. I loved them all so much, but the pain I was feeling now, the rejection from Jacob was eating me alive.
"I know, I just miss him so much." I couldn't help but the tears leak over the edge. I felt right when I was with Jake. Like I belonged with him, but I guess he didn't feel the same way, and he never would. I had to get that through my head, before I ran myself into the ground.
"Im sure he's just very busy, with all the new members to the pack, he'll come around." Dad smiled touching his fingers to my cheek, wiping the wetness that lingered there. I lifted one side of my mouth for his benefit and nodded my head slightly, I hated to cause my parents pain, I'd much rather suffer in silence.
The next morning I was surprised to hear my phone ring. It's not like I had any friends that I texted every minute of the day. And my family never bothered to text when they could whisper to me from across the house and I would hear. I rolled over stretching out my arms and legs and lazily picked my phone up from the nightstand, my heart nearly jumping from my chest when I saw the name. My fingers couldn't answer it fast enough.
"Hello?" I said breathlessly, hoping this wasn't some sick dream.
"Hey Ness." His voice swirled around in my head, making me dizzy, and a little weak in the knees.
"Hey Jake, oh I'm so glad you called, I miss you so much!" I yelled, hoping he wouldn't hang up
He laughed his throaty laugh, sending shiver down my spine. I felt a familiar heat come to my cheeks. It felt like forever since it made an appearance.
"Do you mind if I come over after my run, we need to talk." he murmured his voice somehow sounding strained. I was afraid to answer, afraid to agree. All I could think of was that he was going to break our friendship off, say he couldn't be my friend and that I wasn't good for him.
"Of course whenever you want! I just want to see you!" I sighed, my voice shaking slighty.
"Great, I will be there in a bit, see you soon." The line went dead before I could even reply. my heart sank a bit in my chest, but I sprang from my bead and got into the shower.
When I returned I look through my closet finding something comfy but pretty. If this was the last time I was going to see him, I was going to make sure I looked great. Maybe it would change his mind. I slipped on a black skirt that came to the middle of my thighs, it was tight, too tight, dad wouldn't be happy, and a purple blouse that showed just enough cleavage. I popped on some mascara just to frame my eyes and ran a brush through my long curly locks. I gave myself the once over when I heard my dad downstairs.
"Ness you've got company." he sighed, as his fingers started to run across the ivory keys of our piano. Filling the entire house with his beautiful music.
I nearly fell, throwing myself down the stairs, knocking hard into Uncle Emmet on my way out the door.
"Where's the fire?" he mumbled, confused. I ignored everyone and waited on the steps.
He emerged a second later, his beautiful face was hard looking, maybe even a little scared underneath, this frightened me immensely. He looked up to meet my gaze, waving me forward and he walked back into the greenery behind him. I followed close, scared that he was going to phase and disappear from me. We had been walking for sometime, I was getting frustrated. I couldn't take the silence anymore.
"Whatever you have to say just go ahead and say it. I can't handle these mind games anymore Jacob." I murmured, my eyes filling with wetness, as I squeezed my hands into fists at my sides.
He looked up and pain touched his features.
"It seems I have a lot to apologize for Ness, just let me explain." He said coming a bit closer to me. It took everything I had not to reach out and pull him to me. To tell him how much I loved him and wanted him to be mine, and that he was never going to leave me. But I stood there, wrapping my arms around myself, trying to ignore the anger and sadness bubbling inside me.
"I never wanted it to be like this Ness, never for one second. Seeing you hurt, seeing you cry, it kills me, I've never felt such a pain. But you have to know, I had to do it. I had to lie, but I'm coming clean now because I will never hurt you again." He stopped for a moment to take in a deep breath. I stared into his deep eyes, it felt like I was looking into his very soul, it made strange heart beat even faster, my blood boil in my cheeks. I loved him so much.
"I imprinted on you Renesmee. I love you. I always have loved you and I'm sorry I didn't tell you. If you don't want me that way, I won't hold it against you, you just deserved to know, you deserve better then me, I just want you to be safe, to be happy." he sighed, looking down at his bare feet. My head was spinning, my ears ringing. Did I hear him right? Was I still asleep? Surely this amazing man in front of me didn't want me the way I wanted him? He was too perfect, and I well, I was a freak.
"I knew I was still sleeping." I cried, my hands coming up to my eyes. My mind was so cruel. Sobs bellowed from my mouth, echoing around us. Of course it was a dream.
He nearly ran to me, he hands taking my fingers from my eyes.
"Look at me Ness, this is real, I'm really here and I love you." he breathed, his sweet hot breath touching my nose. I inhaled, tasting it. I missed his scent, his heat. I stared back into this eyes and the realization of what was happening hit me so hard I stumbled back, tripping over a stump. Jake caught me and held me in his arms. I don't know what came over me, but I instinctively reached up, wrapping my arms around his neck and slammed my lips against his. I nearly fainted as our mouths touched, I had dreamed about this for months.
I felt his lips stiffen beneath me, as his hands pulled my face back, his glorious smile just inches from me.
"I guess it's safe to say you forgive me?" he laughed, dragging his thumb over my lips. I couldn't help but smile. Of course he was forgiven. I loved him, and he actually loved me back.
"I've wanted to tell you too, how much I love you, but I just couldn't. I felt you would pull away from me even more."
"You know I had to. I had to wait till you were older Ness, to really explain this to you. I just want you to be happy. And if you'll let me, I'll spend my life making sure you are." he whispered, his head leaning into me. I let it happen, let his soft, warm lips touch mine again. This time soflty. When he pulled back he was glowing. I had never seen him look more beautiful.
"I love you." I said shyly, ducking my head into his shoulder. His arms wound around me, holding me tightly to his bare chest. I inhaled his scent, marveling over how perfect he was.
"You don't know how long I've been waiting to hear that Ness. I love you, more than you will ever know, more than anyone has ever loved another, you are my everything."
My heart was pounding against my chest, I'm sure everyone within a 5 mile radius could hear it. I pulled him closer to me, I was never going to let him go.
Months had passed and my life couldn't have been better. I spent my mornings with my family, and the rest of my time with Jacob. My Jacob.
"You ready to go Ness." Jacob called, heading towards the front door. He was taking me hunting.
"Yup, lets go!" I smiled, running out towards the trees. I heard him phase behind me and I was tempted to look behind me, to see him undressed, but I ignored the thought.
We ran through the thick trees. It felt so good to feel the air on my face, feel the strength flowing through my limbs. Jake was close behind me, he was fast. It only took me a few seconds find my dinner. A small elk, small, but very filling. I tackled him quick, breaking his neck so he would feel no pain from me. I lapped and sucked every drop, feeling euphoric as the hot liquid flowed down my throat.
When I finished I jumped up to find Jake staring at me. Big eyes focused.
"Take a picture, it'll last longer." I teased, dusting off my shorts. "Why don't you phase back, I miss your face."
He disappeared for just a few seconds, then came running over to me, pulling up his tattered jean shorts.
Watching him button them up, pulling them over his perfectly sculpted hips made my mouth water. He was so glorious.
"What are you staring at now?" he laughed, embracing me tightly. Instead of answering, I started running my fingers over his bare chest, slightly dragging my nail down his abs. I felt him shudder under my touch, I looked up to meet his eyes. They were full of adoration, and then I saw the sadness, he was going to stop me. His hands met mine and sighed.
"Ness.." he whispered, shaking his head. We had never gotten very far, sexually speaking. The hottest thing we did was make out a little here and there. He would bring up the whole I don't want to take advantage of you excuse up, and it was getting old. We were soul mates, made for each other and I wasn't having this anymore. I wanted him. Now.
I shook my head back, breaking his grasp, going back to feeling his smooth, hot skin. It felt like woven silk beneath my fingertips. I dipped one of my fingers into the waistband of jeans, wanting so badly to rip them off. His eyes closed for a moment, but he did not stop me.
"Just touch me Jacob, please?" I sighed
To my surprise, he listened, bringing his hands to my hips, to the exposed skin at my wait. I leaned into him, pushing him back against the trunk of a tree.
"Undress me." I whispered into his ear, gnawing at his lobe. I felt him pulling away but I clung to him, looking into his eyes with desperation. "Please Jake.." I projected to him what I wanted. Him peeling away my torn tank top, un-hooking my bra..
He groaned and started to pull the thin fabric off me.
********************* Jacobs POV************************
Did she realize what she was doing to me?! How many times had I fantasized taking her clothes off. And now she was finally asking me. I pulled her top up over her head and marveled at how beautiful she was. Her creamy skin looked white in the moonlight, the way her breasts rose and fell with each breath was something I couldn't look away from.
"Please, take it off Jake, I want you to touch me.." her voice was soft, a whisper. In the back of my mind I knew I should stop, but I couldn't bring myself to deny her anything. I reached behind her and unfastened the clasp, freeing her breasts. When I looked down, my heart sank. She was so beautiful, so perfect and she was mine. I raided my hand and trailed my finger between them and she thrusted herself at me. "Oh Jake.." she moaned, throwing her head back. My shorts suddenly became too tight, as I throbbed.
Before I knew it she was stripping out of her barely there shorts, as she stood in front of me. completely exposing her beautiful body to me. She looked down at my shorts and smiled. She pounced on me, bringing us both to the ground, squeezing her body against mine. Her nipples dragged across my chest making me moan into her mouth as she kissed me.
"I love you so much. Please Jake, make love to me. I want you. Here, now."
Her mouth came down again hard on mine, and I felt her heated core grinding against my own. Her scent was heavy in my nose, my mouth, I wanted to flip her over and fill her. I needed her.
"Ness we can't not here..."
Hurt touched her features, along with sadness, rejection, anger. "Please..."
As if she knew I could never deny anything she wanted, I raised my finger up in motion to tell her to wait a second, grabbing my phone from my pants. Before I could dial, the phone was ringing.
"No they aren't home and they won't be till 2pm tomorrow. You can thank me later. Just please be safe with my niece." Alice chimed. I felt horribly mortified to know she knew my intentions but extremely touched that she cared. I also knew she had a terrible time seeing Ness when she was with me, so she must have been concentrating very hard, she'd probably have a headache.
"Thanks pixie, I'll make it up to you." Her laughed rung in my ears even after she hung up. Ness was looking at me with pure lust in her eyes, she knew she was going to get her way.
When we arrived at the cottage, Ness ran straight for her room, laying down on her bed. She was a goddess, a beautiful goddess that deserved to be worshiped.
"Take me Jake, make love to me, make me yours." she sung, reaching for me. I smiled, stepping out of my shorts. Looking down at her beautiful naked body was something I had pictured for months, ever since she grew into this adult form, something I tried not to think about too often, it was awkward having a hard on constantly.
"Are you ready?"
She nodded her head and I suddenly felt a wave of nervousness hit me. I had never been with anyone before. But it wasn't rocket science. I shouldn't be this nervous, Ness was mine, and I hers, we belonged together. We were made for each other. I propped myself above her, holding my weight with my arms. Her body was flushed, her full pink lips parted, I had never seen anything more beautiful. I pushed her legs apart, as I slowly slid my length inside her. She winced, letting out a small squeak. I instantly froze. Great you idiot, you hurt her.
"No, not its okay I'm fine, just go slowly." she smiled, touching her small fingers to my cheek. Showing me it was suppose to hurt a bit the first time, that she was alright.
"If it still hurts, you tell me right away and we'll stop."
She nodded her head, still smiling, no hint of discomfort on her angelic face. She was so perfect. Being inside her felt so perfect, so right. This is where I belonged, what I had waited for all my life. It was as if our worlds came crashing down on each other, something changed in both of us as I rocked inside of her, making us one, making us whole.
"Oh Jake.." she sighed, her eyes filling with wetness. I knew these tears were tears of joy, of happiness, of love, and I'm sure my face mirrored hers. My heart felt like it was going to leap out of my chest. Looking down at this creature, this gift, that was mine, I felt so loved, so complete that it filled me to my core with pure bliss.
I could feel her muscles clenching around me, pulling me in deeper, inviting me into her warm body, I supressed a groan, she felt even more amazing then I could have ever possibly imagined. Her nails were digging into my shoulder, I felt her break the skin and the mix of pleasure and pain was so intense, I couldn't hold in my moan. Her chocolate eyes lit up, her nostrils flared, of course she smelled the blood. I saw the wicked glint in her eyes as she leaned forward and licked the blood running down my chest, the scrapes had already healed. She growled squeezing me tighter.
"You taste so good.." her voice was a low rumble, incredibly erotic and fierce. She had never looked more sexy then she did right now.
Her body began to quiver and shake beneath me, I knew she was close, so I quickened my pace, hoping to god I could hold on long enough for her to finish, lady first, always the gentleman. I brought my thumb down to her most sensitive spot and she nearly jumped out of the bed, her moan so loud it vibrated through our entwined bodies.
"Oh...oh Jake I love you!" she screamed in her release, convulsing under my weight. I was not far behind her, bringing my lips to hers as I let my warmth flow into her.
I collapsed on the bed beside her, she snuggled into my side, both our bodies slick with sweat. I brushed the hairs back from her face, admiring the lovely flush that touched her cheeks, her lips.
"You are so beautiful, I'm so lucky." I marveled, tangling my fingers with hers. She smiled and touched her mouth to my hand.
"I'm the lucky one, I always have been."