Please protect him. Please let him always safe. Please let the glint of joy fills his blue eyes every day. Please let that stupid grin plastered all over his face every time. Please let him come back to me. Please let me see him one more time. Please let me hug and kiss him for one more time. Please let me say I love you to him for one more time. Just one more time. Please let me keep him. I'm begging. Please…

I don't know when it starts, but I always said those kind of words in my head every time he had to leave without me. Every time he looks so peaceful in his sleep. Every time I feel I can't reach him. Every time I'm afraid he'll leave me alone. Every time I realize I love him with all of my heart. Every single time…

It is stupid really. He promises me an always and he always keeps his promises, so an always I would be, but still I can't stop myself being scared. I've seen a lot of deaths and lost a lot of people. I've even lost him and his love once and I believe I'll never get over it. So no one can't blame me being a paranoid, there is too much horror in my life…

My name is Katniss and I'm talking about my husband, Peeta Mellark.

At the beginning it's only the first two sentences, because those are the only things I desperately wanted for him at the time, but as the time goes by it grown longer and differently.

I'm thinking back to the reasons why those kind of words is becoming a mantra that I repeat so often? Maybe because I influenced by what the doctors in thirteen said.

"Repeat the fact about yourself in your head. Simple things at first, like your name, your age, just to make sure you know who you are and not slipping away. Sometime thinking helps you distinguish things you not sure yourself. Keeping your firm and steady."

And before I realized it, my old simple mantra transformed into different forms. Not only simply a mantra about me anymore, but also Peeta, Haymitch and some other people… And with that mantras, I'm capable to live on…


I make it short just for an introduction it's not really a story, just an idea for it.

I never intend it to be a one shot, but that of course depends… cause I won't waste my time on a story that disliked or worse, hated by you. That would be a waste, wouldn't it!?

Oh... how I wish someone would like to know the next chapter, I got so much angst, fluff and maybe... lemon scenario rolling around inside my head. #ChucklingExcitedly

Anyway thanks a lot for coming by and STAY awesome okay!?