Hey guys! I hope you still remember me lol. I'm so sorry for my little hiatus. Not only have I been really busy over the past few months, but I keep on having writer's block too! It's horrible.
But anyways, consider this chapter as my apology because I think you'll like it *winks*
"Stop freaking out."
"I am not," I snapped.
Hotaru raised an eyebrow at me.
"Okay, maybe I am. But come on! Do I really have to do this?"
She glared at me. "Yes. Now come on."
I sighed, and reluctantly followed Hotaru into the lingerie store. After I told her of my weekend plans, she insisted that we go finally go on that shopping trip. Having some money saved from my job, I agreed. But I had no idea thst we would go lingerie shopping. I already had decent underwear in my wardrobe, thank you very much.
"What's your size again?"
Hotaru sighed impatiently. "Your bra size. What is it?"
I shot her a look. "Well that department isn't really my forte."
"Why am I doing this again?" I asked, following Hotaru around the store.
"Because you are going to spend a whole weekend with Natsume. In the same hotel room. It's pretty obvious what's going to happen."
I blinked at her. "Just because we're sleeping in the same room, doesn't mean we're going to have sex."
Saying those words out loud, I still couldn't convince myself. As much as I'd want to do that with Natsume, I really felt clueless. I mean, I've watched a pretty good amount of movies and read all types of descriptive books, but I wouldn't know what to actually do when it finally happens. And besides, he already told me he'd be on his best behavior. But the question was, would I be?
Hotaru just rolled her eyes at me. "Yeah right." She then picked something out from the rack and showed it to me. It was a pink, satin nightgown that was padded at the chest, and sheer at the stomach all the way down.
"No fucking way," I said.
"Oh come on! You're going to look hot in this! No way Natsume could resist you."
The thought of seducing Natsume in that nightgown brought an intense flush to my cheeks. Jesus, what was I twelve?
"I've never even worn lingerie before."
"Like it matters. Just try it on, and I'm going to pick more for you. My treat."
"No, I'm not going to hear it. Just be a good little Mikan and try on all the lingerie I'll give you, okay?"
I had no other say in that because she shot me a death glare, before she sprinted around the shop.
After about an hour, Hotaru purchased me four pairs of lingerie, including the pink nightgown, which actually didn't look bad on me. The other three were bras and panties, but were all lacy and sexy numbers. I was sure the lady at the counter noticed my extensive blushing.
"Are you sure you don't want me to pay for it?" I asked, once we finally left the store.
"Yes. Just repay me by actually sleeping with him."
I smacked her arm. This was going to be a long weekend.
Saturday finally came, and Natsume along with Aoi, picked me up at my house. My parents had no idea about the sleeping arrangements, but they did have a short talk with Natsume. Which, whatever it was about, I really didn't want to know.
I was still in the bathroom, deciding whether or not I should wear the purple lingerie Hotaru bought me. This one had black lace and definitely screamed sexy. I was already dressed earlier with a nice pair of clean underwear, but then Hotaru texted me a few minutes before Natsume arrived that I should wear the purple one. I knew I wanted to lose the V card already but I was still nervous. Nope, you are not going to overthink this. You are going to just let it happen.
"Oh fuck it," I muttered, as I slipped on the bra and underwear.
I put back on my clothes earlier, which was a plain white dress and I added a thin brown belt around it. I ran my fingers through my hair quickly, then took a deep breath before I went downstairs.
"Hey Mikan!" Aoi greeted me with a hug.
"Hey yourself," I replied, ruffling her hair. I looked around the room for Natsume who was leaning by the doorway, grinning at me. He looked gorgeous as always, even in a white button-up shirt and khakis.
"Oh honey, you look fantastic," Mom commented, entering the living room.
"Thanks." Little did she know what I had on underneath...
"You ready to go?" Natsume said, walking towards me.
"Yep. You guys can go ahead to the car. I'll be there in a minute."
He nodded, then kissed me on the cheek. "Come on, Aoi."
I grabbed my bag from the couch, and turned to my mom. "I'll be home Monday. Try not to have too much fun without me."
She smiled, then put on a serious expression. "Don't forget what we talked about, okay? About using protection..."
"Mom!" I turned around and saw Natsume had just closed the door behind him. Oh my God. He obviously heard what my mother had to say.
"Mikan, I'm serious. I mean, it's a whole weekend. A lot could happen."
"His parents are going to be there," I said. Like it mattered, but I didn't really need my mom knowing my detailed weekend plans.
"Still. It's always good to be safe."
"Okay, Mom. I think this conversation is over. I'm going now. Love you."
She kissed me on the cheek. "Love you too. Be safe, okay?"
"Yes, Mom. Say bye to Dad for me. Where is he anyway?"
"Grocery store, and don't forget what I said, okay?"
"Okay," I said, my hand already on the doorknob. "See you Monday!"
I finally got in Natsume's truck, with Aoi in the backseat. And as predicted, he was laughing at me.
Los Angeles was beautiful. I mean, I've been here a few times when I was a kid, but I just felt like this place got better and better. That was why I couldn't help putting my head out the window and feel the wind in my hair, which earned a laugh from Natsume and Aoi imitating me. I always thought it was a corny thing to do whenever I saw it in movies. But now I knew what the fuss was all about.
Natsume was grinning at me once I put my head back in the truck. "Like it?"
"Love," I replied. "It's amazing. Right, Aoi?"
"Defnitely!" she chirped from the backseat. "Natsume, let's come back here, okay?"
"You got it, kiddo."
When we arrived at the hotel, Aoi immediately ran out of the truck and into the lobby. Their parents were waiting for us there. Suddenly, I felt nervous. I knew I met them a few years ago already, but what would their reaction be if they found out I was Natsume's girlfriend?
Natsume gave my hand a squeeze, noticing my tension "It'll be fine," he whispered.
"I know. I love you."
He kissed my hand. "I love you, too. And I just want you to know, that I'm not expecting anything from you this weekend, okay? I don't want you to think that I'm rushing you into something you're not ready for."
I think I nodded, but my attention was already directed Natsume's parents who were now approaching us.
The Hyuugas looked different from the last time I saw them. Long gone were the casual clothing which was now replaced by business attires. Long gone were the constant smiling faces which was now replaced by stoic expressions. Long gone was the warm atmosphere I felt whenever I was around them. Now, I felt uneasy and nervous, which was strange because from what I remember when I was a kid, Natsume's parents were the friendliest parents I knew.
"Mikan," Mrs. Hyuuga said, "so nice to see you again."
I was expecting an embrace, but then she held my shoulders and gave me a light peck on both my cheeks. Natsume's dad just shook my hand. Wow. This was way different than the warm hugs I was used to before.
"I'm really glad to see you again too," I told them. "I hope you're doing well."
"Oh we are, sweetheart," Mrs. Hyuuga said. "How about you? It must be so difficult for you coming back here after what happened to your brother."
At the mention of my brother, it was like a band aid was ripped out of the wound in my heart. I felt Natsume's grip on my hand tighten. "Um, it was hard for me. And it still is. Just not that much anymore."
"Well that's good to hear. It was definitely tragic."
"Yes it is."
"Ah well, onto lighter things. I'd give you time to freshen up first and get settled in to Natsume's and your suite. Then after that, how about an early dinner?"
Mine and Natsume's suite? What kind of mother doesn't bat and eye at the sound of that? "Sounds great."
"Okay, then. I'll see you two later. Come on, Aoi." Aoi gave us a small wave and with that they were gone.
"Well," I said, "your parents are..."
"Horrible?" Natsume said. "Yeah they are."
"Um, I was going to say a little different, but..."
"Look, I'm sorry. This was a terrible idea. I didn't want to make you uncomfortable, but they really wanted to see you again."
"Natsume, it's fine. I'm okay, okay? I want to be here."
He kissed my hand. "Thank you."
I really didn't know what to think when I saw that our hotel room had two beds. Now I knew why Natsume's mom acted so nonchalant about our situation earlier. I felt relieved and at the same time pressured? I don't really know. Natsume on the other hand, acted casually about it.
"So, do you want to use the bathroom first?" He said, putting his suitcase on the bed beside the window.
"Um, sure. Okay."
I immediately went to my own suitcase and very quickly grabbed my bag of toiletries and a change of clothes. Once I closed the bathroom door, I realized how fast my heart was beating.
"Get it together, Sakura," I told myself in the mirror. Why the hell was I so nervous? There were two beds for Christ's sake. And even if there was only one, was it a big deal? Natsume and I were together now. Unlike that time when we slept in a motel room when we got stranded. So why was I acting like some I've never done anything like this before?
I decided to just suck it up (Geez, my pep talks always seemed to take place in bathrooms) and get ready for that dinner. I was glad I brought a slightly formal dress, which was plain red and had an empire waist. I finished my look with a mascara and pink lipstick.
We ended up eating in a French restaurant, which didn't appeal to me at all. I mean, who eats snails anyway? And why do people think that gross, disgusting food are fancy? But I had no choice but to eat it, which made Natsume laugh quietly.
"How could you even eat that? It's disgusting," I whispered, when his parents weren't paying attention.
"It's actually an acquired taste. I got used to it."
"So Mikan," Natsume's mom said, suddenly making me jump in my seat, "how was Tokyo? I heard that was where you moved."
I felt relieved for the sudden distraction from the snails. "Tokyo was wonderful. Although it took some time getting used to the city after growing up by the beach."
"I can't imagine how difficult that was for you. How are your parents doing?"
"They're good. I think they're actually thinking about staying in Malibu permanently." I wasn't actually sure about that last line, but what was the point in going back to Tokyo? We were already getting well-adjusted here. I shot Natsume a sideways glance, and he had a smile plastered on his face.
"Really, Mikan?" Aoi chirped from her seat. "You get to stay here? That's awesome!"
"Well, I'm not entirely sure yet," I said. "But my parents want to renovate the house, so that's something."
"That's good news," Mr. Hyuuga said. "So have you thought about college yet? You're going this fall, right?"
I shifted uncomfortably in my seat. "Um, I am but I'm not decided yet."
"I see," he replied, before taking a sip of his drink.
I cleared my throat. "Well, enough about me. I'm sure my parents would like to see you two again. Are you available anytime this summer?"
Mrs. Hyuuga laughed like I suggested that we should go bar-hopping for the night. "Oh dear, these days, the world 'available' isn't found in our vocabulary anymore. We were lucky enough to even have a conference here in LA, and let our children come along. Just tell your parents our regards."
I glanced at Natsume once again, and saw his jaw clench. I was sure there was going to be a scene, so I quickly replied, "Oh of course, I truly understand. Your children are very lucky indeed."
I just hoped 'sarcasm' wasn't in their vocabulary either.
"I can't even begin to explain how sorry I am for my parents' behavior."
Natsume and I were at the beach, since the restaurant was only a walking distance from the hotel (which was pretty absurd because we had to use their limo to get to the restaurant), so he and I decided to just take a walk, away from all that tension.
"Seems like the roles are reversed now, huh?" I said, jokingly.
He sighed. "I don't even know how it happened. One minute they were normal parents, then the next thing I knew it was like they were replaced with robots."
"Hey," I said, holding his hand, "I'm sure this all just a phase. They'll revert to their old selves eventually."
"I just feel sorry for Aoi. I was really hesitant on going, but she really wanted to. They'll probably just end up ignoring her because of their conference. But since they're gone all the time, Aoi wants to spend every possible moment with them. Even if they're actually not paying attention to her. She never tells me anything, but it's pretty easy to tell."
"I know this isn't probably going to help, but I just want you to know that if you need me I'm always here, okay? Your battles are my battles too."
We both stopped walking, and Natsume started kissing me. And it wasn't the normal, gentle kisses he usually gave, but more passionate. Our tongues moved in unison slowly as he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer against him until there was no more distance between us. His hands explored my back, one hand clamped at the back of my head, and I thrust my hands into his hair. Then, our lips parted as he began kissing my neck, which led me to moan in response.
"You are so amazing, do you know that?" he whispered against my neck.
I wasn't able to answer, as I was lost in him. I didn't even realize we were still at the beach. It felt like we were the only two people in the world. And suddenly, desire and lust rushed right through me. I didn't know I would feel this much need. I wanted him.
As if reading my mind, Natsume pulled apart from me and I saw that his eyes mirrored mine.
"Should we go..." he started to say.
"Yes," I finished. "Let's go."
Once we got back to our hotel room, Natsume and I practically threw ourselves at each other. He kissed me firmly, as I gripped the back of his neck, pressing my body against his. Natsume pinned me against the wall and started removing my jacket. His hands reaching my hips, he tightened his grip and lifted me up. I gasped as I hooked my legs around his waist, our kisses passionate and hungry. Moments later, Natsume managed to pin me to the bed, as he continued kissing me. When we finally pulled apart, our breathing was heavy and ragged.
"Are you okay with this?" Nastume breathed.
I nodded, still breathless.
"If you want me stop, just say so, okay?"
He started kissing me again, this time slow and deliberate as he started tugging at my dress. I grabbed one of his hands and guided them to the back of my dress, where the zipper was. I had no idea where all this courage was coming from all of a sudden, but this seemed to encourage him more, as he groaned against my neck. Slowly, he unzipped my dress until it went over my feet. Wait, what underwear was I wearing? Oh right, lingerie. The black, lacey ones. Good. He was now kissing my jaw, down my neck, and all the way down to my breasts.
"God, you're so beautiful," he husked.
I made a mental note to thank Hotaru for buying me the lingerie.
It occurred to me that Natsume was still fully clothed, so I lifted up slightly and started unbuttoning his shirt. I expected my hands to be shaking, but they weren't. With Natsume, I just felt so sure. He froze at first, but then he shook off the shirt once they were unbuttoned, and my hands started to explore his bare shoulders and stomach.
Wow, I just realized that this was a lot further from where we usually went. He seemed to realize this too, because he suddenly pulled away, but still hovered over me.
"Mikan," he said, a little breathless, "if you don't want to take things further, it's fine. I'll wait as long as you want. I told you I wanted your first time to be really special. I don't want you to think that the reason why I brought you here is because—"
"Natsume, I love you and I trust you. I don't need someplace fancy for this to be special. Anywhere I'm with you is special. And I really want you."
"I want you too. So bad."
"Then why are we still talking?"
He chuckled. "I have to say, I like this side of you."
No more words were said as he started to remove the remaining pieces of clothing on both us, put on a condom, as our bodies molded into one.
Oh-okay. I'm not really going into detail on that last scene since this is not THAT kind of story, but I'm sure you get the idea :)
So? How'd you guys like it? Were you expecting something more? Honestly, it was really a challenge for me to write those steamy scenes, but I hope I did it some justice *fingers crossed*
Anyway I'd like to let you guys know that I am back on track, which means I'll be updating regularly again. Hopefully. Since I am on spring break! So watch out for updates. Love you guys so much and I'll talk to you soon! Ciao!~ x