Prologue: The Letter

Willow Rosenberg walked through the halls of the dorm building on her way to Tara's room. She needed to talk to Tara to figure out what she was feeling. She didn't want to hurt Tara nor Oz, but she knew the choice was inevitable. Willow closed her eyes as she took a deep breath before knocking on the door. She waited a few seconds for Tara to open the door, but when no response came, she knocked again.

"She's not there," a voice sounded behind Willow causing her to jump. Willow turned to see a brunette with an irritated look in her grey eyes.

"Do you know where she is? Or when she'll be back?" Willow asked, locking her green eyes with the grey of the other girls.

"She's not coming back. Are you Willow?" the girl asked, waiting for Willow to nod before reaching out to grab something and holding it out. "She asked me to give this to you."

Willow took the envelope and looked at it before lifting her eyes to the girl again. "What do you mean she's not coming back? Why?"

The girl shrugged. "She said that would explain everything. Didn't tell me anything except she's leaving and to give this to a redhead named Willow."

Willow frowned as she watched the girl close the door and looked at the envelope in her hands. Clutching it tightly in her hand, Willow walked up the stairs to her room and sat on the bed. Looking at her name on the face of the envelope, Willow recognized Tara's handwriting and quickly opened it.

She pulled out a sheet of paper, neatly folded into thirds. Unfolding the page, Willow stared at the short letter on the page, reading it through multiple times as tears fell down her cheeks.


I have wrote this letter a thousand times the last few days, trying to figure out the best way to say what needs to be said. And this is the only way I can seem to word it without making things worse for you. I have come to the realization that it is wrong of me to stay here making everything harder on you. I know that you love Oz and that he is the one you wish to be with. So I have decided to return home. It's for the best for both of us. You have the man who always held your heart, and I no longer have to fear the secrets I held within myself. My family knows my secrets so I no longer have to fear exposure.

I'm sorry if it's hard to read this, but we both know it's easier then doing this in person. Maybe that's wrong of me, but I don't care. I know I would not be able to say any of this to you without stuttering and I'd like my last goodbye to be said with dignity. I wish you happiness with Oz, for you deserve nothing but happiness. Thank you for showing me what friendship is. Thank you for giving me a chance to share my magick with a powerful witch. You will be extremely powerful one day, Willow.

Well it seems I've written more than what was needed. I'm sorry again if this hurts you, but I needed you to know that I wish you happiness. Don't try to look for me. Have a good life full of love and happiness, Willow. May the Goddess give you her blessings.

With Love,

Willow wiped the tears from her eyes as she tried to let the words settle in her broken heart. She was so surprised that it hurt so much to lose Tara, possibly more than it had hurt when Oz left so long ago. She couldn't believe that she had sat on things so long that Tara had left.

"It's a joke," Willow whispered to herself. "She's just doing this to help me figure things out. She's only going to be gone a few days then she'll knock on my door and prove it's a joke. She can't be gone." Willow knew she was lying to herself, but she also knew she couldn't accept that Tara was gone. She couldn't let Tara be gone.

Disclaimer: I do not own the cast of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I only own original character.

A/N: This is an AU version of what could have happened. Everything before New Moon Rising happened the same way as the show. It is a Willow/Tara story, so if anyone was questioning it, there's your answer. Sorry for any fans of Willow and Oz who got their hopes up reading the summary. I liked them together, but Willow belongs with Tara. Enjoy.