When Len's older sister took me to the side, I thought that she was just going to have a simple conversation with me. What I wasn't expecting was that I vanished from the feet up, staring at her smirk with wide eyes. Her mouth opened and the words, "have fun," flew from her lips, right before my vision turned black and I fell into an endless void. There was no light, just darkness. It didn't matter if I opened my eyes or closed them; either way, nothing was in my line of sight. I wasn't even sure which direction I was falling in, my body felt like it was suspended in mid-air. Was I right-side up? Upside-down? Sideways? Who the fuck knew. All I knew was that I was terrified and I wasn't even sure if I was shaking or not.
After suffering in silence for a while, a loud voice boomed through the emptiness, startling me. "Kaito Shion?" Meekly, I nodded, wondering why this person was here, talking to me. "Friends with Len?" That time I didn't nod, but somehow he still knew. "Were you aware of the consequences with being friends with a guardian spirit?"
There was a problem with me being friends with Len? He was harmless! Just a little teenage boy that looked so much younger than me—even if he was about three hundred sixty four years old—and controlled powers over everything like it was nothing. "You have vanished from the human world."
"Vanished?!" I cried, my voice hoarse and breaking. "Wait, what do you mean vanished?!" I tried floating around in order to find the voice, but as before, it was dark everywhere. "What about my family? Oliver, and Auntie? What are they gonna do? If I fucking disappear from the face of the earth, how are they gonna take it?"
"You should have thought of that before you began speaking with a guardian." With that, his voice trailed off and I found myself once again alone. I clenched my fists and cried out, my tears finally spilling from my eyes.
Why was I so alone all of a sudden?
I sat up in my bed, my neck coated in beads of sweat, and my breathing was labored. I remembered Len's sister leading me to a nearby area away from Len and then I found myself talking to that really loud voice. I ran a hand down my face and glanced out the window. The moon was full tonight, and it illuminated my room. I threw my covers off and walked over to the window, sitting on the little ledge that was there. I leaned my head against the glass, sighing deeply. I turned back into my dark room, right to my drawers.
Without anyone knowing, I actually did relapse. Ever since I've been going through things, I've decided that I needed something to calm my nerves. I managed to get some sort of drugs brought here without Auntie finding out about it, but I vowed to only use them for emergencies. The last time I saw Len, I admit I had done a few drugs, and didn't freshen up, but I doubt that he noticed. He was worrying about his sister. Which I wouldn't blame him for. I shook my head and looked back at the moon. As much as my withdrawal symptoms were acting up, I refused to let them get the best of me.
I closed my eyes for a split second; it was apparently enough for Len to fly up to my window and look right at me with his blue eyes. I stared at him, and felt my heart clench. I knew I had hurt him without honestly wanting to. But at the same time, it was his sister's fault. She stared me right in the damn eye with a smirk clearly written on her face; she was waiting for this to happen. She wanted Len to be broken on the inside just because he wasn't as successful. Without me saying anything, the blond flew into my room through the window, the melancholy look on his face making me look away.
"Kaito," he said carefully, reaching out to touch me, as if he thought that I couldn't see him. "Are you okay?" I refused to move my head. "I know you can see me." He got closer and put his hand on my cheek. "See? I can touch you. Look at me. Talk to me."
"We can't hang out," I simply said. When he looked at me with his saddened gaze, I gulped, loudly. "I was told by...something or someone to not hang around you anymore for my safety."
"Let me guess," Len said, placing his hands on his hips. "Father told you not to."
"Father?" Who was that?
"He's the leader of the spirit guardians, along with Mother. They pretty much gave birth to me and Rin and every other spirit guardian that exists in this world." The blond folded his arms over his chest now, not exactly glaring at me, but he pointed the look in my direction. I tried not to flinch, although I probably did anyway. Len's once playful blue eyes were dark and scary, proving that he was the mighty spirit that he really was. "He wants to get rid of me since he knows that I haven't been having too much of an easy time lately."
"And getting rid of me can make everything better," I said plainly.
"I can't do that!" he countered, clenching his fists at his sides, making his knuckles become paler than they usually were. "You're the first person to believe in me in a very long time, Kaito. I can't afford to lose you anytime soon."
I felt my anger rise to my face, making my cheeks stain a red. "Don't you understand? I was threatened to be killed and all you can think about is yourself! What am I supposed to do about my family? Or my friends? If your Father will be taking me away from this planet, that's fine, but I'd rather see you care about me more than you do yourself!"
His palm collided with my cheek, sending me down to the ground and causing a sharp sting. I winced as I felt the heated skin, glaring in his direction. Len had the audacity to hit me of all things. I ground my teeth against each other and stared up at the spirit, watching as his emotions flew across his face. Anxiety, anger, sadness, worry and finally, fear. "Get out," I growled. "Get the fuck out of my house, and never come back!"
He flinched, and drew back, going by my window. Before he flew off, without looking back over his shoulder or turning around, he whispered, "I love you..."
I reached my hand out to catch him, the shock burning through my system, but he was already gone. I had stopped believing.
I wanted to update this at my house, but my laptop decided that working is not an option and won't turn on. So I'm stuck with the school computer. If I don't fix my laptop by three weeks, I'm fucked because that's when summer vacation starts. *sob*
Len confessed some feelings? What could this lead to? And Kaito doesn't believe anymore?
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