One gun, one person, one bullet and one second were all it took to change Beca's world forever. Beca never knew how precious life was until she was staring it in the face. In the blink of an eye her whole world changed. In the blink of an eye she came to the realization that you can't waste your life being scared to take chances. You need to be brave and live each day to the fullest because in the end if you don't, one day you might not have the chance to and as quickly as life starts, it can end.
"Jesse," was the last thing Beca screamed and Violet's loud screech was the last thing she heard before everything went black. Sweat was dripping off her body as she cried endless tears.
"Beca wake up." Chloe shook her girlfriend from the deep sleep she was captured in. Beca jolted up and looked around the room. It was dark, but not as dark as it had been when she and Chloe were trapped in Violet's basement. "You were dreaming babe," Chloe frowned.
Beca let out a shaky breath and wiped the sweat off her forehead. She looked over at her girlfriend as tears slowly streaked down her cheeks.
"You were dreaming of that night again, weren't you?" Chloe wrapped an arm around her girlfriend's waist and pulled her tightly into her embrace.
"Yeah," Beca whispered as she replayed the events in her head that had taken place in her dream and that night. "Why won't it stop Chlo? It's been a month; I just want to stop reliving that night. I want to stop seeing her face. I want to stop seeing Jesse getting…" Beca trailed off not being able to speak the words.
Chloe quickly pulled Beca's face into her chest and softly ran her hand through her hair as Beca cried.
"I know you want it to stop Beca, but we both went through a very traumatizing time. That's not just something you can get over in the span of one month, it takes time." Chloe calmly whispered as she continued attempting to calm the other woman down. Beca wiped the tears from her eyes and sucked back a deep breath, finally relaxing into her girlfriend.
"I know. I just miss Jesse. I haven't heard his voice in a month; I haven't seen his face or heard his lame jokes. I never thought that was something I'd miss so much." Chloe kissed the top of Beca's head.
"I know Beca, I know." Chloe slowly guided Beca back into a lying position and held her closely. "I'm sorry you had to go through all of this."
"It's not your fault Chlo, it's mine. That's the worst part. It's my fault all of this happened, it's my fault I haven't seen my best friend in a month and it's my fault I'm getting the nightmares." Beca frowned as she turned to face the other woman. "I can't help but think how if I would have just taken your advice, how if I would have just listened to you and how it was a bad idea we wouldn't have had to go through all that we went through." Chloe cupped Beca's cheek and slowly connected their lips.
Kissing Beca was something Chloe had promised herself to always do since that night. She realized how short life was and swore to herself she'd never go a day again without making sure Beca knew how much she meant to her. Chloe pulled back and stroked Beca's cheek with her thumb.
"I know it feels like what happened is your fault but it's not. It's Violet's fault. Yes, you were the one who went to meet her, but in all fairness you did take precautions. It's not your fault she turned out to be crazy. I know it feels like you're never going to be able to forgive yourself but I just want you to think of what kind of person Jesse is, do you think wherever he is he hasn't forgiven you by now? If I know what kind of guy Jesse is, then I know he blames none of what happened on you and neither should you." Chloe gave her girlfriend a sad smile as she stared into her deep blue orbs.
"Thank you Chloe, I really appreciate it."
"You're welcome," Chloe replied.
"No. I really mean it. I really appreciate everything you do Chloe, everything about you I appreciate. It wasn't until I almost lost you that I really saw how much I needed you. I always knew deep down inside, but never wanted to come to terms with it. I never wanted to come to terms with ever needing anyone but I don't care to admit it now. I need you Chloe Beale, I always have and I always will." Beca grabbed Chloe's hand and intertwined their fingers.
"Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. I love you Beca, you don't ever need to worry about losing me. Now let's get some sleep okay?" Chloe kissed her girlfriend once again and smiled.
"I love you too Chloe." Beca turned her body once again and nestled herself into Chloe. The other woman wrapped her arm around Beca's waist and held her tightly, making them both feel safe and eventually drifting back to sleep.
Beca and Chloe both woke up the next morning to a loud knocking on their door. The DJ looked over at her roommate's bed and saw she was nowhere to be found. She looked at the time and read "9am."
"Kimmy Jin probably forgot her keys," Beca yawned. She slowly got up from her bed and threw some pants on before making her way to answering whoever was knocking. When she opened the door her eyes grew two sizes as she stared at the one person she did not expect to see.
"Jesse," Beca choked. She immediately ran and grabbed her best friend into a hug. "Oh my god I can't believe it's you," she cried.
"It's me Beca," Jesse rubbed Beca's back as he squeezed her tightly.
"I…I thought you were never coming back. You disappeared for a month without a word and…" Beca started to cry. "And I thought you hated me and never wanted to see me again." Jesse quickly shook his head and pulled back from the hug so he could look into Beca's eyes.
"I never hated you, I just needed time. Can I come in? I'll explain everything." Jesse smiled when he looked inside and saw a very confused Chloe sitting up in Beca's bed. "So you and Chloe are finally an item now, huh?" He laughed when Beca's lightly slapped his arm.
"Shit, I'm sorry did that hurt?"
"No, you're good." Jesse smiled. "It's felt better for a while now." Jesse walked into the dorm room and smiled at Chloe.
"Jesse," Chloe jumped from the bed, not caring she was only in a small shirt and panties. She immediately grabbed him into a hug.
"How are you Chlo? Actually you don't even need to answer, from the look of it I can tell you're doing quite well." He smiled when he saw how confused Chloe was. Beca cleared her throat and rolled her eyes.
"Chloe you may want to put some pants on, and Jesse you may want to look away before you have no eyes left to see with." Jesse laughed at his best friend's threat and turned to face the door. Chloe went red in the face as she quickly found her pants.
"So tell me what happened, where did you go?" Beca sat down on her computer chair. "You can turn around now, she's done changing." Jesse turned to face both women and took a seat on the bed.
"Okay well after Violet shot me I kind of had an epiphany. I just realized how short life can be and I didn't want to waste any more time in waiting to do the things I've always wanted to do. I mean, she could have killed me Beca. She could have killed any of us. So I took all my savings and went backpacking around Europe." Jesse smiled. "I didn't call because I just needed to be alone. I needed to distance myself from this world at Barden and do the things I've always wanted. I went scuba diving, I went bungee jumping and…" Beca cut him off.
"You went bungee jumping?" Beca smirked. "You're terrified of heights!"
"I know, but I've always wanted to try, and now I'm not so terrified." He smiled. "Anyways, I just spent the last month living my life and appreciating being alive, y'know?"
"That's awesome Jesse," Beca smiled. "I can't wait to hear all your stories."
"We should go out for breakfast!" Chloe piped up. "I'll give Bre a call, I know she'll be happy to know you're back," Chloe winked. Jesse smiled and shook his head.
"Sounds good," he replied.
"I need to pee and then we can go." Chloe quickly left for the bathroom leaving both Jesse and Beca.
"So I do have one question since I was gone for so long." Jesse's tone went serious.
"What happened to Violet…or Jane, whatever her name is?" Jesse could see the distress in Beca's face.
"Well, she's getting the help she needs. She's in a psychiatric ward back in Virginia. I'm not too sure how she's doing but her parents email me every once in a while to reassure me she's still locked away." Beca shrugged as she opened up her laptop and clicked on the web browser.
"Well that's good that they're keeping you posted. At least you don't have to spend every second looking behind you." Jesse looked back when he heard the bathroom door open. Chloe walked out and smiled.
"Okay I'm ready to go. Bre sent me a text back and she said to meet her at our room. So we can head over there and then go to the café," Chloe smiled. Jesse nodded and headed over to the door.
"Okay, I'll meet you guys there. I just need to brush my teeth and what not." Beca turned to face both Chloe and Jesse. Chloe walked over to where Beca was sitting and kneeled down.
"Don't keep me waiting too long." She whispered before bringing her lips to her girlfriend's and kissing her deeply. She pulled back and smiled when she heard a tiny whimper escape the other woman's mouth.
"I kept you waiting nearly eight months. I promise to never keep you waiting again," Beca smiled. Chloe gave her girlfriend a quick nod, got up and turned to face Jesse.
"Shall we then? Aubrey is going to be so happy you're back. I didn't tell her, I wanted to surprise her like you did with us." Chloe walked over to Jesse who was holding the door open.
"See you soon." Jesse called out to Beca before shutting the door behind them.
Beca let out a sigh of relief. She was so happy to have her best friend back. She now officially had everything she ever needed. She had Chloe, Jesse and even she and Aubrey were finally starting to get along. She brought her curser to the search bar and typed in "tumblr."
The webpage loaded to her dashboard and she saw she had one new message at the top corner of her screen. Assuming it was just Chloe (because for some reason Chloe felt the need to message her on tumblr rather than just texting her) she clicked on it. Beca's eyes scrolled through the message.
Hey! I've been following you for a while. I always see you posting awesome mixes and I couldn't help but notice you love David Guetta and I do too! I just want you to know that you're my tumblr crush and I'd really love to talk to you! I'm too scared to come off anonymous right now, but maybe one day soon. – Music anon
Beca immediately shook her head. She deleted the message and went to her settings for her blog. She scrolled down to where it said "messages" and unchecked the anonymous box. She hit save and smiled proudly.
If there was one thing she knew for sure it was that she was so over anonymous messages.