shoulders raise and fall and a single whimper escape past his lips.
"I didn't want to leave." He sobbed quietly against me.
I chuckled dryly. "Then don't."

Warning: Mentions of self harm.

Dean's POV

Once Cas had calmed down I took him into the bathroom to help clean out his cuts. He was reluctant to but eventually followed me.

I soon learned that he didnt have any fresh or healing cuts anywhere other that just his arms thankfully.
Once I was done I took his hand and led us back into my room. We both laid back on the bed, facing each other our hands still entwined.
"I can't believe that you're here, right now." I whispered staring into his impossibly blue eyes. He smiled.
"I thought I'd never see you again." I said, my brows pulling together.
"I didn't either." He said in that adorable gravely voice of his.
"I'm glad you're here." I smiled again but wider this time. He chuckled softly.
"Me too." With that he pulled forward slightly and pecked me softly on the lips almost shyly.
His lips were soft and chapped and his stubble tickled against mine.
He pulled away and smiled at me once again but I wanted more. I leaned forward, pressed our lips together again but this time with more need. I ran my hands up his body and tangled them into his hair while his hands explored my exposed chest.
We started moving more in sync. I darted my tongue out and ran it across his lower lip. He let out a low moan and happily obliged. I felt my lower abdomen tighten at the sound. I rolled my hips forward creating friction between us causing him to yelp into the kiss.
We battled dominance, our tongues dancing. After a few more tries I gave in and let Cas take control.
His hot tongue explored all over my mouth while I let out a low moan that seemed to shake us both.
I felt him smile into the kiss as he ran his slim tongue across the roof and bottom of my mouth, over my gums and my teeth. We finally pulled away to catch our breath.
"You have a lot more muscle now." he stared at my abs and chest in disbelief, almost like he had wanted to say that all night.
I felt my cheeks heat up, suddenly embarrassed.
I latched back onto him and trailed little nips and kisses down his jawline to his neck trying to forget what he had just said.
He let out a breathy giggle.
I started pinching and pulling at his skin trying to find his sensitive spot with my teeth. Once I found one I thought to be satisfying enough I bit down hard leaving a dark possessive mark.
"Dean!" He squeaked in surprise. "Sorry" I mumbled licking away the little bit of blood that had appeared.
While I was working on his neck he swiftly pulled my pants off leaving me in nothing but my boxers.
I push my hands underneath his thin v-neck shirt and brought it over his head, happy to explore the new found area. My hands wandered and so did my mouth.
He had more scars than before but there were 3 huge criss crosses that really stood out. I trailed over them with soft little kisses.
I stopped and looked up at him. His eyes were filled with lust and adoration as he watched me work.
"You have to promise me Cas." I started in a low, deep voice. He cocked his head to the side.
"You have to promise to never do this again, never harm yourself ever again. Please?" I begged slightly looking up at him painfully.
He swallowed harshly before nodding his head "I promise Dean." I shot him a bright smile before I continued down.
Once I made it to his waist, I straddled him and my hands landed the waist band to his track pants.
A painful looking bulge raised the fabric up, trying to escape and find release.
I stopped and looked up at him with a questioning gaze. His eyes held so much trust and admiration it nearly took my breath away. How could he be that trusting towards me? Me? The man who nearly punched him and then left him to rot for four months.
"You sure you want to do this?" I asked softly. He nodded in anticipation.
"Wait, Cas, are you sure you're fine with this? When we first met you were scared shitless that you were going to go to hell just for kissing me, this- this is a little more than kissing." I chuckled nervously.
To be honest I was the one terrified of taking this next step. Sure I've had sex with tons of girls but never once with a guy, and all the girls I had been with I felt little to nothing for them. But, with Cas it was different. Cas was my whole world and I was in love with him. I was almost hoping he'd say he wasn't ready because if I fucked this up to then it would change everything.
He made a face and let out an annoyed huff "Dean," he nagged, "I've already committed one of the biggest sins in the bible, I'm already going to hell, so why not live a little, now please just fuck me!" He begged.
I let out another nervous chuckle and hooked my fingers under both his boxers and tack pants, in one fast swipe I pulled them both off.
I heard him let out a harsh gasp as the cold air hit his hard cock.
I lowered my head down slowly and lick away the pre cum dripping out of the tip of his painful looking dick, figuring I was doing the right thing.
"Dean!" He yelped loudly. I smirked, liking the response I got before slowly lowering my mouth more. He bucked his hips making his cock sink deeper into my mouth. I caught his hips before he choked me and held him down.
"Dean! I am so sorry!" He squeaked trying to jump up. I grunted in response, holding him down and started to duck down more and suck in, in an almost teasing manner, gaining more and more confidence.
I jerked and come back up fast with a soft 'pop' making us both moan loudly. He tangle his hand into my hair leading me up and down.
I brought my hand up and start massaging his balls making him call out my name.
I let my tongue swill around his length as I bobbed up once more.
"Dean! I'm so close!" He cried out flushing a deep red rolling his hips again making me hold him down.
Soon his warm seed exploded into my mouth with a loud cry of pleasure. I was taken by surprised and choked a little but soon recuperated and swallowed.
I licked my lips getting rid of the salty residue. I raised myself up and collapsed beside Castiel on the pillow, facing him. I suddenly felt very exhausted.
I lazily slung one of my arms around his waist and pulled him in close. I pulled the blanket over us and snuggled into his neck.
"Did- did you just eat my cum!?" Cas asked horrified. I let out a laugh. "That's disgusting." he said snarling his lip up making me laugh harder.
After a few minutes of a peaceful silence Cas spoke up.
"Hey Dean?" He murmured apprehensively. I grunted snuggling in even closer just wanting to sleep.
"I-I love you." He whispered.
My tired eyes shot open and looked at him. A thousand different emotions seemed to play on his face all at once. A blissful smile broke out on to my face once I released he wasn't joking. "I love you too Cas." With that I nuzzled my way back into his neck and pulled him closer before drifting off into the best sleep I've ever had.

So thats it, thats the end of it my lovelies! Thank you for staying with the story this long and thank you for all the support it got! I never thought it would get more than 3 reviews! I love you all so much!

Okay so a few things I would like to say!
First of all, sorry for the smut, never written it before so I thought I'd give it a go. I hope you guys liked it, I don't really think I did lol.

SORRY FOR THE LONG ASS WAIT. I had a really bad week this week and I had really really bad writers block.

If you guys want me to re-write a chapter in a certain persons POV PLEASE I am begging you let me know and I will totally do it! I take requests and a huge thing I should add is~

Keep your eyes open for a sequel in a about a month when I get off school! I really love this story and I am totally into doing a squeal if you guys would like!

The last question EVER for this story is, is there any ties I didnt tie up? If I were to write a squeal what would you like to see in it? Would you read it?