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HOW CAN YOU FORGET?
"That was the sweetest proposal story I've ever heard, Jasper," Rosalie said after finishing the story of Jasper's marriage proposal to me. I was surprised that she helped me tell it. "You told me that on the day of the accident and that's when I realized that you really love Bella."
Rosalie turned to me, "Bella… I'm so sorry. I… It's just that I don't know you and Al- I'm sorry."
"I understand you, Rosalie. You are protective of your brother and she… she is your best friend." I can't say that girl's name. I just can't.
"I really did that, huh?" Jasper asked smugly.
"Yeah, dude! We were surprised when Bella told us the first time. Never thought you had it in you." That's Emmett. He and Edward are back for a visit again.
"What? I can be sweet," Jasper said defensively.
"Yes you can, Jazzy!" The little pixie just came from nowhere. What the hell?
"What are you guys talking about?" Yup. She even had the decency to ask.
"Alice, really?" Edward asked giving her a stink eye.
Alice walked towards Jasper's bed but has no choice but to stay at the foot of the bed. Both sides are occupied and none of us planned to move.
"What? I just want to know why my Jazzy needs to defend himself for being a sweetheart, that's all."
"Your Jazzy? Little girl, you better watch your mouth. Jasper is a married man."
"Don't have to rub it in, Em!" she replied. "Besides, Jazzy can't remember her and he definitely remembers me so when Jasper is out of the hospital he can just file for divorce."
WHAT. THE. HELL. Did she just really say that? Fuck! I can't breathe.
"He will not do such a thing! He loves her!" Edward exclaimed.
"How can he love someone he doesn't even know?" she countered.
"What made you think that he would want to be with you after what you did?" Emmett raised his voice.
"I will make…" I had to cut Alice off. I had enough of this and no one is getting a divorce!
"Shut up!" I said.
"You can't…" That's the bitch again.
"I. SAID. SHUT. UP." I glared at her. She looked at Jasper and I don't know what she saw there but she didn't speak another word and focused her attention on the floor.
So I continued, "No one is getting a divorce. I will not sign it, Jas, not until you give me chance." I looked at him and I know that he see pleading in my eyes. He has to remember who I am. He needs to give me us a chance. I need to make him remember. I have to…
He hasn't answered yet and he's looking back and forth between Alice and me. He looks at her differently. Not like the way he looks at me when he still knew me but there's something in the way he looks at her. I can't take it so I looked down.
"Jazzy…" Alice began.
"Ali, I have to give my marriage a chance."
"Yes!" Edward whisper-yelled and I think I did the same in my head.
"But, Jazzy, I miss you. I want to spend time with you again. Being away from you is hard. I can't live without you, Jazzy." I looked up to her and she's actually pouting with unshed tears on her eyes. Damn! This woman plays dirty!
"Oh please!" Emmett scoffed. I wanted to gag. What a drama queen!
"Alice Brandon! You are not breaking a marriage! You're not a home wrecker!" Rose said surprised by her friend's determination to get Japer back.
"I am just taking what is mine back, Rose!" Alice actually stomped her foot when she answered Rosalie.
"He is not a thing you know," I told her. "You can't just leave him when you find something better and come back and pick him up again when you get bored. I won't allow you to treat him like that again."
"Who do you think you are? You don't know me!" Alice screeched. Yes, screeched. Can you believe her?
"Alice…" Jasper began but was cut off.
"But we do." A voice said from the door. Mah and Pops opened the door widely and made their way inside the room. Mah is practically killing Alice with her eyes.
"General," Em and Edward greeted Pops with a salute at the same time. Pops saluted back and turned his attention to his wife.
"Why are you here, Alice?" Mah asked.
"I'm visiting Jasper, Mah," she replied not looking at her.
"That's not what it looks like. I would like you to leave please. By the way, you can call me Margaret or Mrs. Whitlock but never call me Mah."
Alice looked over at Jasper with a pleading look but Mah went to Jasper and hugged him.
"Oh, Jasper! I am so happy you're alive!"
Pops went over to them and squeezed Jasper's hand, "Welcome back, son. Sorry we couldn't make it back sooner."
"I'm just glad that guys are here now."
"Jasper…" Mah's sobbing.
"Mah, please don't cry. I'm here. I'm okay."
Unbeknownst to us all Alice slipped out of the room. Thank God!
"Where's my princess?" asked Pops.
Rosalie went to him and gave him a hug. I didn't realize that she was crying. Well, I was, too. I guess the meeting was kind of emotional.
"Bella, dear, come over here," Mah waved me over and hugged me then over to Pops. I chanced a glance at Jasper and the look on his face doesn't surprise me and it hurts so I looked away.
"How are you holding up, sweetheart?"
I just smiled at Pops. I just don't know how to answer that without giving them heartache. They don't know that Jasper doesn't remember who I am.
"What a silly question, John! Of course she's not okay. How can she be when the love of her life almost lost his life and is now lying on a hospital bed?" Mah said and turned to me and gave me a tight squeeze.
"Have you been resting well, Bella? I know it's hard but Jasper is recovering fast you should take care of yourself, too. Jas, are you giving you wife a hard time?"
When Jasper did not respond, Pops and Mah turned to him and I looked at my feet. I know what they will see when they look at him. Confusion. He doesn't know that he introduced me to Pops and Mah before he introduced me to his parents and Rosalie.
"Jasper? What's wrong, son?" Pops asked.
"General, you know Bella?"
"Of course he knows Bella, Jas! I know Bella, too. You brought her to us in Texas, remember?"
I can't help the tears that fell. Every time that I am reminded that Jasper can't remember me I break all over again. I love him. So much. How can he not remember? How can he not feel it? How can he not see?
I am sobbing uncontrollably. I can't be here right now. I don't want them to see how much…
"Bella, what's going on?"
"Mah… I… may I please be excused?"
"Oh, sweetheart, please talk to me."
I can't. I don't want to tell them or anyone else that Jasper doesn't remember me because it makes it more real all the time. I don't want to believe it. I want all of this to be a bad dream. I want Jasper to remember me so that I can hug him, kiss him, love him.
"Mah, Pops…" Rose said, "Jasper doesn't know Bella. He can't remember her."
To say that our grandparents are stunned is an understatement. Emmett and Edward tried to explain the situation further. When they were done explaining, Mah cupped Jasper's face and kissed his forehead. She looked into his eyes and said, "You will remember. I know you will remember. She's your soul mate, Jas. There is no way that you'll forget her totally."
Pops hugged me to him and said, "He will remember you, sweetheart, just hang in there." He turned to Jas and said, "We will help you remember, son. You would never forgive us if we let you forget her."
Jasper smiled at Pops and reached out his hands slowly.
All at the same time.
Jasper reached for my hands! He did! He did! He did! I want to jump for joy and hug him but I did my best to stay in place.
"You made my grandparents love you. Heck! You made Mah love you!" We all laughed at that. "I will try, Bella. I promise I will try," he said and squeezed my hands.
Oh thank, God!
"No divorce then?" I asked.
Everything went smoothly after that. We had light conversation not touching the topic that Jasper forgot me. Pops chastised Edward and Emmett for visiting Jasper at the same time and leaving GWGS unmanned. Of course, Pops was only teasing them. He loves those boys as his own grandkids. Mah can't stop touching Jasper. She holds his hands, caressed his cheeks, and squeezes his arms. Jasper is indeed a Ma-Mah's boy. I should know because I've witnessed it firsthand. No one's ever good enough for Mah's Jasper. Thank God I was more than good enough. Her words not mine.
Carlisle and Esme arrived later on with dinner for everyone. As usual, Carlisle did a physical on Jasper and asked him questions. Mah informed Esme about their encounter with Alice. Esme loves Alice and I know that she's hurt about what happened. I can see it in her eyes.
When it was time for the visitors to leave, we said our goodbyes and they promised to come back tomorrow.
I can't wait.
Tomorrow is Jasper's release date.
Tomorrow we will go back home.
I wonder how it will be like.
We may have only stayed at Jasper's penthouse for a few days but it already felt like home.
Will that change knowing that he can't remember me?
Will he let me sleep on our bed?
Shit! If he doesn't what will I do?
I won't think of that now.
"Bella, are you okay?"
I smiled at him, "Yes. I was just … Don't mind me. How 'bout you? Do you need anything before your medication knocks you out?"
He chuckled. Yes he did!
"Water, please, if you don't mind."
"Of course." I grabbed a water bottle from the night stand and handed it to him.
"Would you like to try opening it?"
He took the bottle and successfully opened the cap. He grinned proudly. My man is getting stronger. He handed the water bottle back to me and when I reached for it he grabbed my hand.
"Thank you for taking care of me, Bella."
"You don't have to thank me, Jas. There's nothing I would rather do."
He nodded. "Can you tell me more stories tomorrow when we get home?"
When we get home. That's what he said.
When we get home. Our home. That's what he means, right?
"I'd love to, Cowboy," I smiled at him and he smiled back.
"I really like that nickname."
I felt my cheeks heat up so I turned around and put the water back on the table and head over to the bathroom. I cleaned up and got ready for bed. When I got back Jasper's already dozed off. I went over to him and stole a kiss.
Nope. Not on the cheeks.
Yup. I kissed him on the lips!
I kissed him on the lips! Come to think of it… I didn't steal a kiss from him. He's my man and I can kiss him whenever and wherever I want!
I took one more kiss for good measure and turned around to go to bed. I can't stop smiling.
That stopped me from my track.
Smile all gone.
I walked back over to Jasper slowly.
Please… don't let it be what I thought I heard. Please not her. Not her again.
"Alice, come back…"
I shuddered. How many times can one's heart break? I guess I really did steal those kisses.
Hope you stick with me until the end.