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Summary: Once upon a time there was a man, a monkey, several pounds of cheese, some fabric – possibly cotton, a train ticket, 3 rolls of toilet paper, the letter 'A' and a melon. From this emerged the ER FanFiction that you considering or about to read. Enjoy.

Chapter One – You Call This A Beginning?

"You want to know why I said I didn't love you?" Said Abby.

"Yes." Replied Carter.

"But why?"

"I think I have a right to know."

"You think you have a right to know?"

"Can you stop that?"

"Stop what?"

"Rephrasing what I am saying into a question for me to answer."

"Sorry."

"Well…?"

"I don't know. I just said it."

"You must have had your reasons."

"I suppose."

"You suppose? You told me you didn't love me because supposed?" The volume of Carter's voice was higher than he had intended.

Abby responded to this by raising her voice, "Okay, I'll tell you why."

Carter took a seat so that his eyes were at the same level as hers.

"Basically I was scared. I didn't want to lose our friendship. It meant and does mean a lot to me. I don't know what I would do without it." Carter was about to say something. "I know what you are going to say. The risk of losing the friendship is nothing compared to the potential relationship we could have and now do have. But it wasn't a risk I was willing to take, at least at that moment in time."

"But why?"

"I couldn't stop thinking about what would happen if it doesn't work out. Every other relationship I have ever had hasn't worked out. Why would this one be different? What would make this one special?"

With this Carter just smiled at her. He had heard enough. He didn't care anymore why she told him she didn't love him earlier. That was in the past. That didn't matter. What matters is the present and the future. The present was the greatest time in his life and the future only looked better. He grabbed hold all Abby looked deep into her eyes and said, "I love you."

She had heard those three words once before but her reaction this time was completely different. She was filled with an emotion that words such as joy and happiness don't even approach. If there were a heaven this would be hers. She looked back into his eyes and replied, "I love you."

***** [2 minutes earlier] *****

"What do you mean you love me?!?" Carter jumped up from the bench.

"Exactly that."

"You told me you didn't love me."

"I know." Abby looked towards her feet when she said this.

"But you love me now?"

"Yes."

"Are you sure?"

"Very."

Carter began to pace up and down. "I don't know what to do."

"Do you still love me?"

Carter didn't answer the question. He stopped and stood there looking right into her eyes.

Finally he spoke in a quiet voice, "Why did you say you didn't love me earlier?"