Author's Notes: Well, here we are at the end of this one. I had a lot of fun writing it and it brought me out of a month long writers block back in March, which was exactly what I had needed. I hope that all of you guys have enjoyed reading this even if you've never left a review. I appreciate you reading my stories (not just this one but all of them) and I always love reading your reviews. If it weren't for a great group of readers and reviewers in this fandom, I wouldn't continue to post my stories so thanks for that, guys :D
(Six Weeks Later...)
Buffy's been sleeping for the last two hours and I'm standing outside the nursery, looking through the glass down at our daughter. Our daughter. She doesn't have a name yet, but she will before we leave the hospital. I can't believe it. I'm still in a bit of shock. She's really here.
Buffy went into labour in the middle of the night. She woke me up and she was freaking out, thinking she was gonna have the baby in our bed. I managed to keep my cool for both our sakes, got her dressed and in the car, got Leah over to Dawn and Xander's place before I drove like a freaking maniac to the nearest hospital.
Seventeen hours later, Buffy finally had the baby. It was rough all day, watching how much pain she was in, even after the doctor's gave her an epidural. I didn't leave her side, not once and if I wasn't a slayer, she probably would've broken my hand a few times with how hard she squeezed it during her contractions.
"She's beautiful," Xander says as he stands at my side. "She looks like you."
"Yeah?" I smile at that. I can't take my eyes off of her. "You think so?"
"I do. She looks a little like Buffy too, but she has your hair, your nose and your dimples."
"Yeah," I smile again and turn to look at him. "Did Willow and Kennedy take LJ home?"
"They just left," he replies with a nod. "Dawn and I are gonna head out soon too. Just wanted to come let you know Buffy is awake and asking for you."
"It's be one helluva crazy day, huh?"
"Been an even crazier year," Xander chuckles. "Bet you didn't see this coming."
"Not in a million years."
Xander puts his arm around my shoulders and gives me a little squeeze. "I'm happy you're here, Faith. I haven't seen Buffy this happy in a long time. She deserves to be happy."
"She does and I'm gonna make sure she stays happy, no matter what it takes."
"Who would've thought," Xander muses and I roll my eyes, just knowing what he's gonna say next. "You're something else, Faith. You're everything I thought you weren't. I don't think she's ever loved anyone quite the way she loves you."
"Ya getting all sappy on me, Xan?" I laugh and playfully punch him in the stomach. "But thanks, man. I never thought things would turn out this way when I first showed up here, you know? Wouldn't change anything for the world. Buffy is my world, so is LJ and the baby. You guys are too."
"Xander?" Dawn calls out from down the hallway. "We're going now! And Faith? Buffy is asking for you!"
"I'll be right there," I call out and I laugh at Xander as he clutches at his stomach. "Oh come on, man, I didn't hit you that hard."
"Hard enough," he squeaks out.
I laugh and head down the hallway to Buffy's room. After saying goodbye to Dawn and Xander, I slip into the room. It's dimly lit, the light over the bed is on the lowest setting and all the other lights are off. I pull up a chair next to the bed and Buffy reaches out for me. I take her hand in mine and lean in for a soft, sweet kiss.
"How ya feeling, B?"
"Sore and tired," she replies with a half smile. "How is she?"
"Sleeping in the nursery."
"Oh. The uh, the nurse said she'll be bringing the baby in here soon for her first feeding."
"You know we can't keep calling her 'the baby', B. She needs a name sooner or later."
"I know," Buffy says with a slight frown. I lean in to kiss her again and she smiles. "I was thinking of names and I kind of like Mackenzie."
"Kenzie," I try the name on my lips. "I like it. She looks like a Mackenzie. How did ya come up with that name?"
"I don't know, it just came to me."
"I like it, B."
"What about a middle name?" I ask her and she shrugs.
"Does she really need one? I mean you don't even have one."
"I do actually."
I chuckle and nod my head. "It's Marie. Lame, I know."
"It's not lame," Buffy says softly. "It's cute. Faith Marie Lehane."
I roll my eyes and laugh as she says it again, silently this time. She's such a dork. We don't talk much for a little while, sharing the odd kiss here and there. I can't stop smiling either. I don't remember ever being so happy and feeling it in every part of my heart and soul. When the nurse brings the baby in the room a little while later, I let go of Buffy's hand and watch as the nurse places the baby in Buffy's arms.
"Have you two decided on a name yet?" The nurse asks softly, smiling as she looks over at me and then back at Buffy.
"Mackenzie," Buffy replies and the baby coos in her arms. "You like that, baby girl?"
"It's a wonderful name," the nurse smiles and she moves to help Buffy with her gown.
I can't take my eyes off Kenzie, the nurses voice fading as she instructs Buffy on how to breastfeed. Kenzie's eyes are closed and her tiny little hand is reaching out. I reach out for her and she wraps her tiny little fingers around my index finger and grips tight. I smile at her and she opens her eyes and it looks like she's staring right at me. I pry her fingers off mine and settle back in the chair, watching as Buffy moves Kenzie to her right breast.
"If you need me, I'll be just down the hall," the nurse says with a smile before she leaves us alone in the room, shutting the door behind her.
"She's strong," Buffy whispers as she stares down at her. "And hungry too."
"She's amazing, B."
"I can't wait to take her home."
"Me neither. Can't believe we're really a family now."
"We were already a family, Faith."
"I know, B, but having Kenzie here, kinda makes it official now, you know?"
Buffy nods and looks back down at her, smiling affectionately and her eyes are full of love for the baby in her arms. After she's finished feeding her, she hands the baby to me carefully. I cradle her in my arms, watching as she quickly falls asleep.
"She looks like you," Buffy whispers. "She's almost a splitting image of you."
"Then we're in trouble when she gets older."
"Oh yeah. We really are."
I gently trace my fingers over Kenzie's face, feeling how soft and warm her skin is. I lightly trace over the soft hair that just barely covers her head. It's dark, almost black, but not quite and it has the slightest bit of a curl in the spots where it's a little bit longer.
"Welcome to the world, Kenzie," I whisper to her. "It might be a pretty messed up world, but we're here to protect ya, make sure ya grow up nice and strong and know how to fight the things that go bump in the night. You got two mom's who are gonna love you forever and a big sister waiting at home for you that already loves you more than anything else in the world."
"And don't forget a Grandpa Giles," Giles says as he walks into the room carrying a bouquet of flowers and a stuffed pink bear. "Hello, Buffy. Faith."
"Giles!" Buffy smiles as he walks over to her and she wraps her arms around him, hugging him tight. "You didn't have to come!"
"Are you daft? Of course I had to come. As soon as Willow contacted me, I got on the next available flight out. How are you feeling?"
"Very sore and tired, but wonderful."
Giles smiles and he comes around to where I'm sitting. He stares at Kenzie and his eyes fill up with tears in an instant. "She's beautiful," he whispers. "What is her name?"
"Mackenzie," I reply.
"Faith is already calling her Kenzie," Buffy chuckles. "Probably trying to figure out how she can shorten her name up even more."
"May I?" Giles asks and I nod, handing her to him and I get up from the chair so he can sit down. "She looks just like you, Faith."
I smile and sit on the bed beside Buffy. I wrap my arm around her shoulders as she leans into me. We just sit here for a little while, watching as Giles holds Kenzie, not once taking his eyes off of her. It feels like time is kinda standing still and I almost don't want this moment to end. It does though when the nurse comes back in to take Kenzie back to the nursery so she can sleep for a few hours before her next feeding.
Giles and I head down to the cafeteria so Buffy can get a couple hours of sleep as well. The kitchen is closed, but there's a couple of vending machines and a coffee machine. I get myself a cup of coffee, keeping it black while Giles decides on what chocolate bar he wants to get out of the machine. I sit at one of the tables by the window and he joins me a few minutes later with a bag of Doritos and a package of salted peanuts.
"I've decided to return for a couple of months," Giles says and he slides the bag of Doritos over to me. "With the baby here now, I do not expect Buffy to be working for the next couple of months. I don't want that responsibility to fall on your shoulders either."
"I can handle it."
"I'd much rather you focus on your regular classes, on Buffy, on Mackenzie and Leah. Family is important, Faith. It should always come first, even before your duties as a slayer."
"It'll be nice having you around again," I say with a smile. "We all missed ya. Andrew probably missed ya the most."
"That is very likely," Giles chuckles.
We talk a little bit about how things are going for him in Scotland. Before I know it, we've been talking for almost two hours and it's wicked late. After I say goodbye to Giles, I head back up to Buffy's room.
She's sitting in the bed with Kenzie and the nurse is standing next to her, talking quietly. She has a few forms in her hands and when she sees me, she hands them to me, telling me to fill them out when I get a moment. I look down at them and they're forms for Kenzie's birth certificate, most of it already filled out other than her first name.
"You feed her yet?" I ask Buffy and she nods. "You wanna get some sleep?"
I take Kenzie from her and sit down in the chair. She's fussing a little bit, but she quickly settles down once I kiss her forehead. Buffy is fast asleep in no time and I just sit here holding on to Kenzie, staring at her beautiful little face.
My life feels complete now and I've still got a long ways to go. At least I truly have something to live for-other than Buffy. I've got to live for this little girl in my arms and the one that's waiting at home.
Family. Man, I never realized how it felt to be a family until now. It's fucking unreal and amazing, that's for sure.
(One Year Later...)
"Faith!" Buffy yells from the kitchen. "Is Kenzie dressed yet? Everyone is starting to show up!"
"Working on it, B!" I yell back and I look down at Kenzie. She's sitting in the middle of the den wearing only a diaper. Her brown hair is a mess and she's sucking on her hand, her eyes firmly locked on the TV. "Come on, Kenz, we gotta get dressed. It's your birthday, baby girl!"
She grunts and I roll my eyes. Oh yeah, she's definitely a mini-me and she's proving that fact every day now. I turn off the TV and she pulls her hand out of her mouth and pouts, tears filling her eyes. I scoop her up and kiss over her belly, making her laugh.
This past year has been fucking insane. A lot of sleepless nights, a lot of stressful days, but it's all worth it. Every last bit is worth it. The first few months were the hardest. Kenzie turned out to be a very fussy baby shortly after we brought her home from the hospital. She woke up at all hours of the night, wanting to be fed. Buffy ended up weaning her off the breast milk within a month, too tired to take it anymore. That led to me being the one who got up most of the time in the middle of the night to feed her.
But it's the little moments that are the best things that life has to offer. From the first time Kenzie smiled, the first time she laughed, the day she learned how to crawl quickly turned into the day she learned how to stand up on her own which was followed quickly by her running, not walking. Even when her first tooth came in, it was one of those moments that made those sleepless nights worth every second.
It's hard to believe it's been a year since she came into this world. Leah is a great big sister, always helping whenever she can, always wanting to play with her. She's great with Kenzie, gentle too. Sometimes when the two of them are playing, I just sit back and watch them. Leah is already trying to teach Kenzie how to talk and she hasn't given up on trying to get Kenzie's first word to be LJ.
Things can't be better with me and Buffy. I don't know how it's possible to be more in love with her than ever before. Every day that passes, my love for her grows stronger, deeper. She's my everything. My whole world. We haven't even talked about getting married, but I'd wait forever to marry her.
There are days we're so busy with the kids, with classes, that the only time we have alone is at night when we're in bed. I don't mind though 'cause the sex, way hotter than it's ever been. How is that possible? I have no idea, but damn is it worth going all day without seeing her most days. And last night? Fucking incredible. I'm surprised we didn't wake the kids up since she got a bit too loud.
"Faith!" Buffy yells just as I carry Kenzie into her bedroom.
"We'll be right down, B!"
I hear her sigh in annoyance and the chatter of the guests as they arrive. I put Kenzie in her crib and pick up the cute little pink dress Buffy picked out for her to wear earlier. I make a face and hold it up for her to see.
"What do ya think, Kenz?" She pouts and shakes her head no. "That's what I thought," I laugh and I head for the closet and search through what seems like hundreds of different outfits until I find a pair of jeans and a dark pink t-shirt. "Much better?" I ask her as I hold the clothes out and she squeals happily. "I think so too, Kenz."
I get her dressed quickly and brush out her messy hair. She starts to get squirmy when I try to put her shoes on and I give up, figuring there's no point since she'll just pull them off the first chance she gets, just like she does every time.
I head downstairs carrying Kenzie on my hip. She squeals happily when she sees Dawn once I walk into the kitchen and I hand her off before she tries to squirm out of my arms.
"Faith, why isn't she wearing her outfit I picked out?" Buffy frowns and she hands me a cold beer before taking a sip of the glass of wine she's holding. "Faith?"
"She didn't like it."
"She's one. She doesn't know what she likes."
"B, she ain't a girly girl," I say quietly. "You know that and yet ya still try dressing her in frilly little dresses she hates. She's happier in pants and a t-shirt."
Buffy sighs and I put my arm around her shoulders. "It can't hurt to try to get her to appreciate a cute dress, can it?"
"If I were you, I'd just give up on the whole dress thing," I chuckle and I kiss her cheek as Giles walks in the back door. "Yo, Giles. When did you get here?"
"A short while ago," he replies and he places the biggest box I've seen on the kitchen table with the rest of Kenzie's gifts. "I would've been here much sooner, but I got held up at customs. Would you believe those buggers wanted to open Kenzie's gift?"
"Can't blame them," I chuckle. "Grab a beer and meet us out back?" I say to him as Buffy starts tugging on my hand, pulling me towards the back door.
The backyard is decked out for Kenzie's party. Balloons and streamers hanging off the trees, picnic tables full of food and about forty guests, most of which are students at the school that occasionally babysit Leah and Kenzie if no one else is available. Kenzie is with Dawn and Xander and they're sitting at one of the tables, all three of them laughing. Willow and Kennedy are at the table with them, smiling and laughing along, but they're lost in their own little world too.
Buffy pulls me over to the table to join them and I sit down first, knowing she wants to sit on my lap despite the fact there's plenty of room for her to sit next to me. I smile at her and she leans in for a sweet kiss, one that lingers a little before she pulls back.
"Mmm," she smiles at me and leans in for another kiss, this time keeping it short and sweet.
"You two are disgusting," Dawn laughs. "Always touching each other, always kissing and cuddling. It's so cute that it's disgusting."
"Thank you for your input, Dawn," Buffy glares and she laughs, unable to keep that serious look on her face for long. "Don't you just love being disgusting, Faith?"
"Oh yeah," I grin.
I look around the yard at the guests. Everyone is having fun, some are eating the finger food we'd put out, and some are playing with Leah in the bouncy castle I ordered for the party. Kenzie is happy too, playing peek a boo with Xander and holding one hand over her right eye the whole time. Giles comes out of the house with a small glass in his hand and I know he's found the scotch I made sure I had just for him.
We spent the afternoon outside and once the presents were opened, mostly by Leah since Kenzie couldn't quite figure out how to rip the paper, Buffy and I brought out the cake which was promptly destroyed by Kenzie's hands as soon as it was placed on the table in front of her. Andrew was upset about it since he "slaved" over the cake all night last night, but he got over it when Kenzie held out a cake covered hand to him and smiled.
Now that everyone has left and the girls are in bed, Buffy and I are out in the backyard, cleaning up the mess from the party. I put the nearly full garbage bag down and grab my beer off the table and take a couple of swigs. Buffy is busy taking down the streamers from the trees and I can tell by the way she's moving that she's tired. Can't blame her, it's been a wicked long day for all of us.
I walk up behind her and rub her shoulders. I feel her relax the instant I touch her. She drops the streamers she just pulled down and I wrap my arms around her. I kiss her neck, letting my lips linger with each soft kiss I place just under her ear. My hands slip under her dress and move slowly up her bare thighs.
"Faith, we need to finish cleaning up," she whispers but she doesn't stop me as I slip my fingers under her panties. "Baby, come on."
"Been waiting all day to get a moment alone with you, B. You gonna make me wait even longer?"
Buffy sighs out as I slide my fingers over her pussy, getting her nice and wet and ready for me. She can't say no to me, not ever. I've proved that point many times and I never get tired of doing it every single time she tries to push me away. I slide two fingers inside of her and she gasps as she leans back against me and spreads her legs a little wider, giving me more access.
"Oh, Faith," she moans, her hands reaching for my head as I fuck her nice and slow.
The moment is ruined when we both hear Kenzie cry over the baby monitor she brought out here earlier. I slip my fingers out from her panties and out from under her dress. She pouts as she turns to look at me and I quickly kiss it away.
Buffy sighs loudly and heads into the house to check in on Kenzie. I pick up the garbage bag and keep cleaning, stopping to listen to Buffy as she quietly talks to Kenzie, trying to get her to stop crying so she will fall back asleep. I keep working away at getting the yard cleaned up and when I don't hear Kenzie crying or Buffy talking softly to her over the monitor, I know she's gotten Kenzie back to sleep.
I pile the garbage bags at the side of the house, grab my beer and the baby monitor and head inside. I grab a fresh, cold beer out of the fridge and Buffy walks in, looking tired as ever. I place my beer down on the counter and wrap my arms around her.
"Did you get her back to sleep?"
"Yeah," she says into my neck. "I don't think she's feeling too good tonight."
"Must've been all that cake she shoved into her mouth after she punched it out," I chuckle softly and I feel Buffy smile against my neck.
Buffy sighs and I know she wants to continue what I started outside. I slip my hands under her dress and up the backside of her thighs. I lean back and look her in the eyes when I find she's ditched her panties. I growl as I grip her thighs and pull her up. She instantly wraps her legs around me and our lips collide in a heated, fiery kiss.
My head is spinning, my heart is racing and my whole body is buzzing with unrelenting desire and pleasure. When Buffy bites on my lower lip, my clit twitches and I push her up against the counter and slip a hand between her legs. She's soaked. I easily slide two fingers inside her, kissing her deeply to quiet the stream of gasps and moans escaping past her lips.
She leans back on the counter, gripping on to my shoulders as I fuck her nice and hard with my fingers. I push her back a little until her entire weight is on the edge of the counter and I move quickly, kneeling on the floor as I spread her legs and push up the edge of her dress. I slip my fingers out of her and lick each one slowly, my eyes locked on to hers the whole time. I inhale deeply, her arousal like a drug to me as it lingers strongly in the air surrounding me.
I take her left leg and drape it over my shoulder and she leans back a little more when I take her right leg and trail my lips along the soft skin of her inner thigh. I turn my eyes down to her pussy and I growl playfully as I nip at her thigh. I lick over my lips as I near her pussy. I take one long lick and she shudders the instant I move my tongue away from her.
I spread her lips with my fingers and take another long, slow lick, savouring the taste of her. One of her hands goes to the back of my head, pulling me in closer. I lick over her again, dipping the tip of my tongue inside her quivering hole. It almost feels like she's pulling my tongue inside of her as I slide it in nice and deep. I look up at her for a second and she has her eyes shut tight and she's biting her lower lip to keep quiet.
Fuck, she's sexy when she's like this. Hell, I'll never get tired of the sight of her, whether I'm in between her legs or any other time I just look at her.
I give her all that I got, fucking her with my tongue and using my thumb to circle over her hard little clit. Her heels dig into my back as she cums hard and fast. I don't move away as I lick her clean and getting her all worked up all over again. I slowly stand, licking over my lips as she breathes heavily, her skin flushed and sweaty and she has that lazy, satisfied smile curled over her lips.
"Mmm, come here," she moans as she wraps her legs around my waist and pulls me in close. "You are amazing, baby."
"Tell me something I don't already know."
Buffy laughs and I kiss her softly. "How about we go upstairs and I'll return the favour?"
"Like I'll ever say no to that," I smirk and I pick her up off the counter and she slides down to her feet slowly, her eyes locked with mine. "God, I love you so much, Buffy."
"I love you too."
"I wanna show you how much I love you."
"You do. You show me every day," she smiles lovingly. She strokes her fingers over the back of my neck and suddenly I feel weak in the knees, kind of like the way I felt when she first kissed me. "I want to marry you."
"Well, that's the plan, isn't it?"
"I don't want to wait any longer than we already have, Faith. We said we'd wait until after Kenzie was born and it's been a year."
"I'd wait forever to marry you."
"But I don't want to wait forever," she sighs softly. "Faith, I want to be your wife and I don't want to wait any longer. I'd marry you tomorrow if everyone else wasn't expecting us to have this great big wedding."
"How about this," I say as I start to lead the way out of the kitchen. "Tomorrow we'll sit down and start planning this thing, yeah? Set up a date, the whole nine yards."
"Yeah, but tonight, B? Tonight I don't wanna be thinking about anything else other than showing ya just how much I fucking love you."
Buffy smiles at me, all loving and sweet and I scoop her up in my arms, smiling like the lovesick fool I am right back at her.
Buffy is deliriously happy as she, Willow and Dawn flip through the bridal magazines that are covering the kitchen table. I'm standing by the sink, sipping on a beer and I'm just watching them, mostly Buffy since she's so breathtakingly beautiful when she's happy like this.
I put my beer down on the counter and scoop Kenzie up from the floor where she's been playing with one of the GI Joe dolls Andrew got her for her birthday. She coos and wraps her chubby little arms around my neck and I hug her close. God, I love this kid, I mean how can I not? She's a part of me, literally, and she's also a part of Buffy. I walk over to the table and sit down next to Buffy and she opens up one of the magazines.
"I want the reception to look just like this. Isn't it beautiful, Faith? We could set everything up out in the front of the school."
"It's beautiful, B."
"As for the ceremony, I was thinking of something like this out in the gardens," she says excitedly as she flips to another page. "What do you think, baby?"
"I love it."
"We'll need to get married by the end of the month if we want it to look like this," Buffy continues and I nod my head, smiling at her and not paying attention to the pictures she's showing me. "Faith?"
"Married by the end of the month. Sounds good to me. Do ya think we can pull all this off? End of the month is like two weeks from now."
"With a little magic, we can," Willow grins and I think she's just as excited as Buffy is about this wedding of ours. "So, an actual date. We're gonna need one ASAP since we're gonna have to send out these invitations before tomorrow."
"September 30th sound good to you, baby?" Buffy asks me and I nod my head. She squeals and it makes Kenzie squeal happily too. "Are you excited, Kenzie? Your mommies are finally going to get married!"
"Oh gosh, we have so much to do in two weeks!" Dawn exclaims. "You need to get a dress, Buffy, and Faith-what are you going to wear?"
They don't give me a chance to answer as they start talking about all the little details and all the things they have to get done before the end of the month. Kenzie just stares at me, looking a little confused as she plays with the ends of my hair. She doesn't understand what's going on, but every time Buffy laughs or squeals happily, she does too.
Damn, who would've though my life would've turned out this way, huh? Two years ago I wasn't even close to thinking about putting down roots anywhere, living each day like it was my last without a damn care in the world. I was in Boston when I made the choice to come here and I left Boston, running here to Cleveland 'cause of the demons I'd gone there to face. I feared them. I still do. Don't know if I'll ever be able to stand up to 'em. But that's okay, that's a different part of my life, one that doesn't matter anymore 'cause the life I have now? That's the only one that matters and the only one that always will.
Coming to Cleveland was the best damn decision I ever made in my life. I got a second chance with Buffy and we finally had that friendship we should've formed years ago. Sure I was still pretty messed up, but at least when I got here, I had done a hell of a lot of growing up over the years that I had my head mostly screwed on right that everything started falling into place and actually turning out better than okay.
When it comes to Buffy, I've always been a fool in love. In the past it nearly destroyed me and now? Now it's the best damn thing I could ever ask for-especially knowing she loves me back just as much as I love her. Finally got everything I ever wanted and it only took me six damn years after leaving the gang in LA to realize that sometimes ya just gotta give in and let things happen the way they're meant to instead of trying to force life to go the way ya want it to.
Got the whole rest of my life to look forward to. Got myself a family now and I'm gonna marry Buffy in a few short weeks now. The old Faith wouldn't laughed if someone told her that this was how her life was gonna end up. The old Faith wouldn't have believed she could get everything she ever wanted and have the one person she's ever loved so deeply love her back.
I took a risk coming here, that's for sure, but I'm grateful I made the choice to come here. Look at what it got me. Every damn thing I've always wanted even though I wouldn't have admitted it two years back.
Been a lot of surprises along the way too, but like everything else in my life now, I wouldn't trade the last two years of my life for anything. Except to maybe experience it all over again and again. And I will be, for the rest of my life.