So erm I'm not really dealing with this very well and some of the others are starting to think I've lost it or something. And you know what? They're right I have lost it because I have lost you. Damn you! You just had to go and sacrifice yourself for the greater good didn't you? But I guess you wouldn't have been you if you hadn't and that's what I love about you.

It's been months since the final assault on Earth and we've won. Yet without you here guiding us it sure as hell doesn't feel like a victory. I wish you could see this, I mean everyone pulled together to build the crucible and now people just don't want to go their separate ways.

The strangers you met and gathered became more than a team, we became a family. Your family. So without you the heart of our little family it's not the same but we cling to each other because we know it's what you would have wanted.

God I miss you so much that it still aches with your passing.

I still keep expecting to just turn up one day, just like you did back on Horizon. I'm still hoping you got out of there alive somehow and maybe got lost somewhere in space and are still finding your way home back to me.

I can't accept the fact that you're not here with us anymore. I mean I went through that once when the first Normandy went down and I never really got over you so I'm not sure I can survive going it a second time. You are everything to me and I don't think anyone can fill the void that you left behind.

Why Juliet? Why does your name hurt so much when I used to love saying it like a prayer? Why was it you that didn't make it and not me?

You knew didn't you? That you weren't coming back when you made a dash for the beam to gain access to the Citadel. You looked me straight in the eyes as Liara and Garrus half carried half dragged me onto the Normandy and said you will always love me.

'I'll see you tomorrow.' Those were the last words you spoke to me and you knew that you weren't! How could you have lied to me like that? In our final moments and that's how we left it.

I miss you Juliet Shepard and I just want you to know that I love you more than anything.