The wind was harsh. It whipped the blonde's hair back and forth. All shine in her eyes was gone. It was gone for quite some time now. Her bare feet seemed to be attracted to the metal bars. The plain white spaghetti strap dress hung limply from her shoulders. Her hands grasped the balcony so tight her knuckles turned completely white. She hauled herself on top of the balcony, amazed with the sight. The streets 15 stories below were busy: full of cars honking, and people chatting. She prided herself on this singular moment of balance and grace, which she has lacked for the greater part of her life.
She was about to take that step. The last one she would make. Ever. Her heart pounded and tears flowed freely down her cheeks. She was about to take she last glimpse of life and end everything. All the pain and suffering would be gone… as well as all the beauty and joy. As she looked down, right before the step, she couldn't help but think that is a long way down. But she believed she had already reached the bottom and there would never be a way up. No ladder, friend, or fiancée would be here this time to take her hand.
Her phone started to ring. The high-pitched trill was enough to snap her out of her morbid and slightly drug induced trance. She looked down and thought of all the people she would scar if she took that step. All the lives she would ruin, just like hers was. Because at the moment she lacked both a present and a future and the past was merely a dream. It wasn't reality…
Not knowing why, she took a step. Not the step to end her life, to end her suffering. She took a step back on the balcony, to safety. She immediately felt caged and helpless. She moved to her phone and accepted the call. She didn't know why. It was no one she knew, the person's name was not in her phone. All that she saw was a useless set of numbers; numbers with more of a purpose in this world than she had.
Her voice sounded monotone. Dead. "Hello?"
"Serena! Is that you? You know I have been trying to get my agent to find your number but…" The voice was familiar. She only knew one person who harbored such a soothing voice. But he was gone. He left before everything fell apart. However, just entertaining the idea that it was him was enough to send her mind reeling. Back to the times when everything was simple, where she had a goal and a purpose. When she had a present and a future and she was not aware how much the past was just a dream. Her eyes lingered over to the balcony once more.
"Seiya? Is that you?" She hadn't realized she just cut off the man's sentence.
"Odango?" Serena would normally smile at that form of endearment but things had changed; she didn't even know what would be considered normal.
Tears started to slide down Serena's cheeks again, "Yes… It's me. I've missed you. You never called or visited or anything, you just… disappeared."
"I'm sorry Odango. I just have so much to tell you. I didn't mean to not contact you. But you know I figured you had that guy. Man, what's his name, Darien, right?" Seiya's voice was filled with excitement and an underlying sadness.
Serena frowned slightly at the mentioning of that man's name. "Right."
"Listen do you want to meet up some place. You know that pastry café the mall we used to eat at? You want to go there?"
"Sure. What time?" Serena moved from her kitchen, passed her living room and opened the door to her bedroom.
"It's still early so you wanna meet up at 10?" It was a cloudy day. But it seemed like would get better as Serena saw an orange beam of sunlight split the clouds.
"It's a date."
"I will see you there, Odango." Seiya's voice purred.
Serena's eyes wandered to the clock by her bed 8:30. She had time to kill.
Serena sat at the café. She had applied some makeup on, primarily around the eyes so no one could tell she cried. She wore her hair loosely around her shoulders (not in her usual Odango style). The blue dress she wore complimented her eyes perfectly and helped to show off her breasts in a modest way.
Time seemed to slow down as not just Seiya but also Yaten and Taiki walked into the café. They smiled as they walked toward her booth. Composing herself Serena delivered her most convincing smile. The one that said I'm innocent and naïve.
She stood and hugged each of them. She was excited to see them.
The four of them chatted non-stop for quite a while. Yaten and Taiki were excited to see their own crushes, Ami and Minako as well as the other sailor scouts. Seiya was ecstatic about being on Earth and claimed the food here could not be replicated. For a while Serena was almost able to forget about the pain she had been experiencing. Almost. As soon as the starlights left, leaving Serena in front of the café, the smile that had been plastered to her face disappeared in an instant, as if it had never been there.
Everyone was in a circle in Rei's shrine. Darien who would have normally been next to Serena was instead next to Rei. There was enough distance between them none of the other scouts except for Serena would not suspect of them of being together.
Serena started off the meeting with an announcement, "I am happy to say that the starlights have returned to Earth. They are well and intend to remain on Earth from now on unless their home planet is in danger. I will email you all their new numbers and the address that they are staying at so you may contact them yourselves."
There was a murmur of excitement among the sailor scouts. Normally Serena would join in, in their playful conversations. But as mentioned before Serena didn't know what was normal anymore. In a more serious tone, "Though this is exciting news, I fear their arrival may also mean we have a new enemy." This has not been proven yet but be careful." With that Serena stood, signifying the end of this meeting. She was about to walk out when Darien said, "Serena please stay. We need to talk, we haven't talked since…."
Serena whirled around, "Save it Darien. You are not going to regret what you did… what you are doing because you love her. And I would never expect you to regret what has been done because you love her. All I wish you two to do is stay away from me. And please tell the rest of the scouts what has occurred so I don't have to. That is the least you can do for me. "
Serena continued toward the door but one of her hands was claimed by Darien. "Serena we really need to talk."
Without turning around Serena yanked her hand out of the young man's grasp. " I am 24, Darien, a woman. I will not be man handled because I am not giving you the time of day. It will do you best to keep to yourself- Oh I'm sorry- To keep to Rei." She left then.
This response caused the rest of the sailor scouts to look at each other wondering what was wrong with Darien and Serena. But the overwhelming shock was how much Serena had changed from her normal cheerful self.
She was dreaming. It was Crystal Tokyo. Everything was a well, but their was a darkness lingering. Not like when Black moon had influenced the future it was as if the entire planet was mourning something. Serena walked toward the palace. Everything was the same. It was time to explore every room and cranny looking for what was wrong. At this point, Serena had concluded this dream was a prophecy of the future. The irony was that she had no future.
After she had searched every room, she finally came up to the infirmary. Serena listened at the door as she heard worried voices on the other side. She opened the door to see a weak looking Rini lying on an infirmary bed. She was so skinny; Serena could see every bone. The natural sheen in the young girls pink curls was gone and was replaced by dead pink tangles. Serena could only see the labored breath that would be her daughter. As the little girls chest rose and fell harshly and quickly, Serena began to cry.
Her future self was crying too, shaking her head. "I don't know what is wrong. Why can't we help her?"
Serena noticed particularly Darien's response, "What could have caused this? If only I could help…."
Serena saw red she couldn't hold it in any longer, "IT'S YOUR FAULT! YOU BASTARD! YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!" She tried to punch the well-dressed ruler. But her fist went straight through him. The shock sent her reeling.
Serena was awake once more. She glanced toward the balcony. She knew one thing. To help her, someone would have to fall to her level. And she was a long way down.
Hey guys. I just wanted to say hi. This my second fanfic so I'm really excited. Please leave reviews. Also I really wanted to call Serena Usagi but my computer won't let me so I'll just have to stick with Serena. Enjoy!
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