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A/N:** IMPORTANT PLEASE READ** I'm not sure where this idea is coming from, but just to let anyone who's wondering know, this is not a cheating fic...I repeat, THIS IS NOT A CHEATING FIC. I've had a couple people review and tear into Edward's ass because they say he's cheating. I don't think I've even hinted toward that.

Thank you so much to MsJily for helping me with this chapter. You are awesome! Thanks to all of you for continuing to read and review!

And just to make sure you all know, what's in italics is flashbacks.


I had been a nervous wreck all day. Leaving that note for Bella and not waiting to get an answer from her was the hardest thing I think I had ever had to do. I was constantly checking my phone all day for text messages or missed calls.

Finally, about an hour ago, I got a text message from Bella agreeing to meet me at the restaurant where we had our first date. I immediately called and confirmed the reservations that I had already made first thing that morning and continued on with my day.

When the end of my shift came I was a nervous ball of energy. I had no idea if she'd even forgive me, but I had to at least try. I walked into the break room and took my coat off, ready to hang it up in my locker.

"Edward, I'm going to need you to stay a few extra hours tonight," my attending, Tanya, said as she walked into the room. I shook my head back and forth and continued getting ready to leave for the night.

"No can do, Tanya. I've already got plans and I absolutely cannot break them," I told her quickly. I turned around to face her and saw she looked amused.

"It wasn't really a request. You either stay tonight or you can kiss any thought of making chief resident good bye. That's just how it is," she said before turning around and walking back out the door. I closed my eyes and let my head fall. She knew that was what I'd been working for through my entire career. Tanya knew I wouldn't leave.

"Son of a bitch," I yelled as I punched the metal locker in front of me. I would have to cancel on her again, but she would understand. Bella knew that I had been working for a shot at Chief Resident the entire time I was at this hospital. She'd understand. She had to.

I grabbed my coat from my locker and slipped it back on, pulling my cell phone out to call her. I tried to call her five times, every time it was sent immediately to voice mail. I was hoping to catch her before she left for the restaurant, but it looked like I hadn't. She was going to be so pissed at me.

Finally, hours later I unlocked the door to our apartment and walked inside. Bella was standing there, a carry-on bag in her hand and her eyes red and puffy. I shut the door behind me and walked closer to her. She hadn't moved from the spot she was in, but had let the bag fall to the floor. I peaked around her and noticed a large pile of clothes sitting on the couch.

"What are you doing, baby?" I asked her as I stopped to stand in front of her. She took a deep breath and rolled her eyes.

"What does it look like I'm doing? This is your shit and I want you out! I can't take this anymore, Edward! Tonight was the last time," she yelled. She walked over to the couch and began throwing clothes at me. I tried to catch a few, but ended up just trying to dodge the pointed ends of the hangers.

"Wait, wait! Bella! Stop!" I yelled at her, grabbing her arms. She had tears streaming down her face, but she was so fucking angry.

"I'm sorry! I couldn't leave tonight. If I would have left I would have ruined my chances at making Chief Resident. You know that's all I've been working toward," I told her, letting go of her arms as she calmed down.

"Oh, of course. God forbid Edward Cullen actually put his girlfriend before his job. What's another promise broken? Nothing at all. I was just left to sit all alone at the restaurant for hours waiting for you!" she yelled.

"I tried to call you! Your phone went straight to voice mail!" I was pacing back and forth now, my hands gripping my hair tightly. I should have known she'd be near her breaking point. I had disappointed her so many times lately and this looked to be the last straw.

"That's not the point, Edward," she said sadly. "You shouldn't have been trying to call. You should have been there tonight, like you said you'd be in the letter this morning." She paused and looked away. I could tell she was trying to regain her composure that she was slowly losing. "You should have been there," she whispered so softly, defeat evident in her voice. The look in her eyes changed and I knew deep down that this was the final straw. My heart started to race as I walked slowly toward her.

"I know and I'm so sorry. I'll make it up to you. I promise," I told her, trying to reach her. She stood up straight and turned to me, the look in her eyes hurt and I honestly didn't think she'd even heard me because she just continued talking.

"Once...just once, I wish you would put me first. I don't think I've ever come first in your mind. Anytime anyone else needs anything, you jump to it. But me, I've never come first for you. Tanya needs you to stay, you stay. You're walking out the hospital door and an emergency is called in, you turn right back around to go and help. You're not the only damn doctor and I know I sound like a mean, unsupportive bitch right now, but damn it Edward, what about me? What about just once letting the doctors who relieve you do the work?" I had no idea where she was getting this nonsense from, but I had to stop it.

"No. No. That's crazy, sweetheart. Of course you come first for me. Look, we'll go away for the weekend together. I'll cut my cell off so we'll have no interruptions," I told her as she shook her head sadly.

"No, Edward. Once weekend isn't going to help the months of let downs. I can't do this anymore," she said, handing me the carry-on bag she dropped on the floor earlier. Her entire body was shaking as she continued to cry.

"I need you to leave. This is it. It's over. We tried, but I can't anymore. Please, don't call me. Don't text me, just leave. Let's not make this any harder than it has to be. I won't call you either, I promise. We can have a clean break," she said, her eyes serious, the look was like a knife to the gut. I couldn't even comprehend a sentence, I just stared at her, too dumbfounded to think. "All your clothes are out here. Please pack them and go," she said quietly before walking into our…her bedroom, and shutting the door.

I slowly lowered myself to the couch as I continued to stare at the door she'd just walked through. What the hell was that? What just happened? Had I really just lost her for good? I looked at the chaos surrounding me, my clothes thrown haphazardly around. It looked like a tornado had been through the living room. I choked out a half laugh, half sob as I realized that's exactly what I had done to both my life and hers…I had caused nothing but pure and utter destruction.

Where had it all gone wrong? When did everything become so damned complicated? We were happy…weren't we? As I stared out the balcony window at the rain now falling, I remembered. We were definitely happy…were being the key word.

"Sob-inducing chick flick or action-packed guy movie?" I asked Bella as she walked into the living room with a huge bowl of popcorn. I had the day off from the hospital and it was pouring down rain outside. We'd decided to have a nice, quiet day inside. Once the race for Chief Resident began I wasn't sure how many of these days we would have. I was definitely taking advantage of the down time.

"Hmmm….," she said as her eyes flicked between the two DVDs I was holding up in front of me. "Action packed, definitely action packed." I smiled at her as I tossed the chick flick to the side.

"I knew I loved you for a reason," I said as I placed the DVD in the player before making myself comfortable on the couch beside her. I put my arm around her as she nuzzled closely to my chest. Raising her head, she placed several kissed up the column of my neck.

"Alright now. Anymore of that and I can guarantee there won't be any movie watching going on," I joked with her. She giggled and hugged me tightly before settling back down to watch the movie. After a few quite moments I heard her speak softly.

"I love you, Edward," she whispered. I turned and kissed the top of her head gently.

"I love you too, baby."

What I wouldn't give to be able to go back to that time; to go back to where I knew we were happy and we'd always be together. Back to the time when I honestly didn't think striving to be chief would cause the one person I love so much pain; when I didn't realize just how much if me it would take away.