Author's Notes / FAQ

Version 1 - dated: 29/12/13

Contents

1. Acknowledgements

2. What will happen to Driven?

3. Will there be a sequel/series?

4. There's alot of...gay... in this fanfic- any particular reason?

5. Speaking of which... submissive / dominant themes? *cough*

6. The way you wrote John was a bit more unusual... what was your reasoning for focusing on the PTSD aspect?

7. What is your writing process?

8. Are you writing anything original?

9. Any advice for new writers?

10. Favourite music to write to?


1. Acknowledgements

Well, this has to be the hardest thing to start with ofcourse! I'd like to give a shout out to all my tumblr followers that gave me real-time support, encouragement and just generally kept me sane throughout the whole process. Special dedication goes to the wonderful Vikulee/Godiva33 who kept me going on a near daily basis, practically from the beginning. Really one of the kindest people I've met through the fandom! Also a big thank you to justonelasttrick and alasse-m who did some beautiful fanart for the story, and gave me some wonderful motivational feedback.

And ofcourse I can't forget the main lifeblood of this story - the followers/favers/kudos/comment and review-givers that really made this story a success (in my eyes atleast!), across both where it was first released, and then on into Archive Of Our Own. I've tried to thank everyone that has favourited my work by sending a message where available, but I might have missed a few of you, and I am definitely still catching up on the commenting system on Ao3, so I apologise for that.

This fanfic went from three shoddy chapters that I uploaded (after daring myself that I didn't have the balls to do it) to a 130,000 word beast that I have yet to wrangle into submission - but I'm getting there thanks to all of you! I still can't believe it! Thank you so much :)


2. What will happen to Driven?

Well, for those that haven't been following my self-conscious bitching and whining the whole time- Driven is still a work in progress even though it is technically complete! Because I'm far too precious and embarrassed to get myself a Beta (and thank you to all those who have offered, I'm hugely flattered that you would bother!), there are ofcourse typos and mismatched sentences in a few places. Also, I'd say the first six chapters also make me cringe hugely in some places, so I am planning to re-write some parts and bulk out others. But don't panic! I know some of you were concerned any edits would change the development of the story, but I'm really not going to be re-writing any plot points or bringing characters in from nowhere... I'm going to be editing because it is my writing style that has changed, not the story.

To explain myself a bit better, this is the first story I have ever completed. Like ever ever. I've always written a chapter here, a bit of dialogue there, short stories years ago, but nothing of this magnitude or personal importance. But the very nature of releasing something that is written chapter to chapter, meant that I plowed ahead rather than having any real opportunity to look back. I dare say some of you readers know the story better than me because you've had the opportunity to read right through (and have even done it a few times you mad bastards hahah). I reached about chapter ten when I realised 'Fuck I need to actually make a proper plot now.' I literally had NO IDEA I was going to develop the craziness with Moran and the assassins and Will etc etc.

Basically whilst I do not consider myself a good writer by any standard, I still want to improve the story because I think certain 'skills' got better through the later chapters, and I want to give a more even experience. So please don't panic :)

That's why I'd really encourage you to contact me regarding any problems you might see with the story - I might be able to explain them, or it might be something I need to fix, or address in another time - just message me! I don't bite :D


3. Will there be a sequel/series?

Okay I'll just quietly ignore the screaming fangirl inside of me who was delighted to hear that people actually wanted a sequel, and I can say with confidence that YES I have wanted to do a sequel since about chapter 16, when I realised that I wouldn't get everything covered in Driven that I potential thought I'd be able to.

So yes, I want to do a sequel, but I'm being cautious about it- I haven't yet found a plot idea that I want to string through it, and although the 'no planning' rule seemed to work out okay for Driven, I think it's too much of a risk to try that method again for the sequel and just hope it works out. I'd hate to start something and have to abandon it.

Some of you are aware that I've also had alot of wrist problems with carpal tunnel and tendonitis, for which I've been having physiotherapy, and whilst things are going great now, it will do me good to have a bit of a break and not to throw myself into something as demanding as Driven has been.

Watch this space I guess!


4. There's alot of...gay... in this fanfic- any particular reason?

Okay I don't know why you'd skip to the author's notes if you hadn't read the whole thing, but if you don't want to read my analysis of the relationship details, then I'd skip this part!

Still reading? Okay lets have a look at who we've got with who:

John x Sherlock
Moriarty x Moran
Will x John
Adler x Sherlock

There are also a few other relationships I barely hint at, but that's not relevant for this section. I want to put it out there that I consider myself a straight 28 year old woman, and I've been in a long-term committed relationship for several years. But I also consider myself open-minded, and appreciative of the human form in general- more so than that, I've had a fascination with 'love' and its various forms since I was very young. I will nod in agreement if someone says 'I was born this way' when they talk about their sexuality, but also I will give people a pat on the back if they bravely stand up and say 'I've met this guy/girl and they've changed my mind about a few things.' By that I DON'T mean people just have to meet the right person and they 'mend the error of their sexual ways,' what I mean is that love is often so intense that for some it can transcend sexual orientation 'barriers.' At the end of the day, as long as we are respectful, and no one is hurting anyone (get a safe word guys and gals haha), then whats the big flippin deal- go love each other, be happy.

For those that take an interest in this stuff, I didn't write this story with the intention of making practically every relationship a 'gay' one, because that really isn't what the story is about. It was relevant to my interests, and also needed for the plot development.

And I might add, this wouldn't even be a 'point of interest' if all the couples had been written as straight - am I right?! [OooooooOOOOoooooo snap gurl]

Let's take a look at the list again and you can see my personal interpretation of the characters sexual orientation (but everyone has different opinions ofcourse!:

John (Heteroflexible) x Sherlock (Demisexual)
Moriarty (Bisexual) x Moran (Homosexual)
Will (Bisexual) x John (Heteroflexible)
Adler (Homoflexible - thanks Moffat lol) x Sherlock (Demisexual)

Not so black and white now, huh?

Anyway, I'm not an expert, I always like to learn new things, so hopefully my slapdash interpretations don't offend people. Um... Practice safe sex. Don't do drugs. Next section! Aw fuck-


5. Speaking of which... submissive / dominant themes? *cough*

Come on, look at the way Sherlock constantly muscles in on John - he's a total dom! lol.

Again, I must say, I'm not an expert! Driven and its sexual themes are just my interpretation / headcannon of how their relationship would develop. And I see Johnlock as very much a sub/dom relationship. But that does not mean John is a delicate flower or a sex-slave - despite what some people might tell you, sub/doms can have a very strong and protective bond with each other, which I think should be respected. Submissives often hold the most power when defining the rules because they have to open themselves up to the most vulnerability. There are varying degrees ofcourse - masochistic dominants and humiliation-hungry submissives, but that doesn't fit John/Sherlock for me (that description probably fits Moriarty/Moran better actually in my eyes).

Sherlock just likes to be in control and John likes to give it up for a bit. It's just my fav otp kink okay?! XD

Warning: As always, fiction does not necessarily translate well into reality, so if my fanfic gave you some ideas, be clever about what you do in your own time - do your research and play it safe with someone you trust (and be of legal age for God's sake!). Always use a safeword if you are trying anything a bit kinky, because screaming 'AUBERGINE!' or something will stand out more in a roleplay scenario than 'no!' or 'stop!' will, because your partner might mistake your protests for just being in-character. ALSO never let anyone coerce you into doing anything you don't want to do- it's meant to be fun for both sides, so anyone that offers you anything less can fuck off ;)


6. The way you wrote John was a bit more unusual... what was your reasoning for focusing on the PTSD aspect?

Ah yes, John's post-traumatic-stress-disorder. This is something a considerable number of the fans love to analyse, myself included. The whole scene at the beginning of the series where he's having nightmares, and we see the abandoned un-eaten apple, his stoic face, the limp and the cane etc. Then Sherlock blasts into his world and it's out with the cane and in with the 'lemme feed you up gorgeous' [thinks] well maybe not quite that end part but you get what I'm saying!

I actually have no personal experience of PTSD, but I do have a history of depression, so some aspects I tried to identify with, and try to portray in the story. The success of that is not for me to judge obviously. I started writing the story, knowing that this modern John wasn't a typical fainter like the original ACD Watson was- and more to the point, he wasn't just going to be able to get over it like the original did. The BBC version of The Reichenbach Fall was just too hauntingly real for me - the very idea of being stood where John was as my best friend hurled himself off a building was quite simply abhorrent. But since I chose to write it generally from his perspective, I had to go there. So this story pretty much started as Reichenfeels therapy for me. And it also enabled me to exorcise some of my own personal demons.

Some of you may already know that I have previously suffered with vasovagal syncope - which is basically the posh name for fainting. I hadn't always suffered with it, but several years ago, I caught a particularly nasty virus and then suddenly I was left with this terrible shut down mechanism every time my blood pressure went a bit funny from nerves. It was at its worse with public speaking, which crippled my confidence for a while. I've had more than enough ambulance rides for a lifetime. Luckily I haven't had an episode in a long time, but I think that's more avoidance and preservation than anything. That feeling...it's pretty terrifying. But I feel like I've achieved something by writing about it - obviously in John's case it's not anxiety that triggers his attacks, but visual stimulus. I wanted to show how conflicted he was, helpless when trying to be strong... it's a pretty horrible feeling to not be able to trust yourself. But it's also possible to get past some things. It can be as much luck, and timing as anything else. But you don't get completely over it all. Things stay with you, and you have to learn to hold on when it gets bad.

Never turn down help is what I would say personally!


7. What is your writing process?

'Process' is a very specific term for something I basically stumbled through! Lol. For this story it was very much suck-it-and-see (no pun intended). But I eventually settled into having a vague idea for the setting of each chapter as it came up - I didn't really get the chance to think too far ahead until the later chapters. Then when I decided who was involved and where, I'd pretty much write out all the main dialogue- literally nothing but speechmarks. After that, it was like colouring in all the gaps. I'd go back and forth to different parts, fleshing it out as I went.

And yes about 90% of the whole story was written on my iPhone 5 using an app called Documents 2, if you can believe that!

I managed to get out a chapter about every ten days I think, excluding a gap of about a month, but it's really all I could fit in around a full time job and health-stuff. I've learnt you definitely have to let yourself write as much as possible- from an idea to whole conversations- I think I heavily abused my a few note-pads at some point as well.

And music, wow music was amazingly inspiring!


8. Are you writing anything original?

I've always been interested in writing, but when it comes to original fiction, I've always got bored or too easily distracted. So no, nothing at the moment. I'm much too happy and cozy in the fanfiction genre. But never say never I guess [shrug].


9. Any advice for new writers?

Write even if you don't think you are good, as it really is practice makes perfect (we can't all be naturally gifted- I know I'm not! - but some things can be trained like a muscle). Look at creative writing exercises, go to the library etc. But when you have produced something, I'd say my top tip is: read it out loud to yourself. There may be some scenes that are truly meant to be read in your head ofcourse (ahem), but reading aloud has helped me fix rhythm problems, fixed awkward sentences and caught most of my spelling errors. Infact for those eagle-eyed readers out there, you can probably spot straight away the chapters where I didn't have time to read all of it aloud as there are more mistakes!

Most of all, have fun with it, give yourself rest breaks, and expect to cringe, laugh and possibly cry at your own works (I'm still doing this lol).


10. Favourite music to write to?

Oooh yeah I listened to alot of music writing about these two. It's a heavily angsty fic overall, so the music definitely matched. Here are some of my fav artists/albums to listen to:

Inception Soundtrack Clair
De Lune by Debussy (piano version)
Lana Del Rey
Florence and the Machine
London Grammar
Adagio for Strings performed by London Philharmonic
Arrival of the Birds by the Cinematic Orchestra
Helios
Sherlock Series 2 Soundtrack
Daddy by Emeli Sande
Medicine by Daughter
Bastille
RY X Berlin


So I guess that's it! Hope I answered most of the questions put to me, but like I've said before, anything you want to talk to me about, please PM/Ask me. Add me on tumblr too: thefarfire.

Also, wiki the Clair De Lune poem if you can- the excerpt from the final chapter is from the second verse :)

As always, it's been a pleasure. Hope you have a Happy New Year, and enjoy season three - see you on the otherside!

- thefarfire xx