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I was just about to fall asleep when I heard the unmistakable sounds of someone coming in through my bedroom window. I didn't even have to turn over to know who it was.
"Go away, Edward. I don't want to talk to you tonight."
"Bella, please. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." he said as he sat down on the edge of my bed.
I sighed and rolled over to face him. "Why, Edward? Why did you bring her? And why didn't you tell me about her?"
"Bella, I'm so sorry. I was so wrong, I'm sorry I didn't realize sooner." he said as he grabbed my hand.
"What, Edward? What are you talking about?"
He gently pulled on my hand; pulling me up into a sitting position. He reached out with his other hand and gently brushed it down the side of my face, before fisting it in the back of my hair.
"I should have realized that you were the only one for me." he murmured before leaning in and brushing his lips softly against mine.
"Edward, oh Edward." I gasped before pulling him into me and pressing my lips firmly against his.
Edward groaned as I ran my tongue over his bottom lip and he eagerly returned the gesture. He pulled me closer to him as the kiss grew more heated and hands began to wander. Everywhere he touched I felt as if my body was coming to life, feeling things as I had never felt before. My want and need for him growing and spreading like wildfire.
"God, Bella, how couldn't I see it?" he moaned against my neck as he placed soft kisses on my overheated skin. "I love you. I love you so much." He gently pushed me against the pillow, until I was laying on my back. He smiled down at me, before kissing my lips softly once more.
"Oh, Edward, I love you too." I breathed.
"Bella? Bells… you okay?" Edward asked.
Is he kidding me? Am I okay? I'm more than okay! I'm freaking brilliant!
"Bells, wake up!" Edward laughed shaking me, "Bells!"
I opened my eyes to see Edward staring down at me with a playful smile on his face. I grinned back at him before pulling him back down on top of me and kissing him fiercely. I was a bit confused when he tensed up at first, but it only took him a few seconds before he was returning the kiss with enthusiasm. Somewhere in the back of my mind as I came out of the fog of sleep, I realized I was no longer dreaming. This was really happening.
"Bella, oh, Bella... I never thought..."
His hand slowly started caressing up the bare skin of my stomach as he broke off the kiss and kissed down my jaw line to my neck. I gasped and slipped my hands up the back of his shirt, running my hands along his chiseled back.
"Edward, please!" I moaned, not really knowing what I was asking for.
Edward suddenly froze and jumped back off the bed as if he had been burned.
"Oh my God! Bella, I'm so sorry, I don't know what came over me!"
Ouch! Way to make a girl feel good there Edward.
I took a deep breath, "No, it's okay, Edward. I know you would never purposely kiss me like that. I'm the one who's sorry. I started it."
I sniffed as I pulled the blanket up tighter around me.
"Oh no, Bells, I didn't mean it like that." he said softly as he sat down beside me and grabbed one of my hands, "I gotta admit, that was pretty damned hot." he chuckled.
I felt a renewed sense of hope and my body tingled with excitement, "Really?"
He smiled at me, leaned in and kissed my forehead, "Really."
I felt the blush creep up into my cheeks, "Thanks."
He smiled at me again as he squeezed my hand, "Bells, I wanted to talk to you about what happened tonight."
Oh no. Here we go.
"Okay. I'm still pretty pissed at you though." I mumbled.
He smiled sadly, "Understandable. I deserve it."
"Glad you see things my way." I giggled.
"Seriously, Bells, I'm sorry I couldn't tell her 'no' when she asked to come. I was going to introduce you to her soon, I just wasn't sure where things were going with us yet."
I chewed on my bottom lip as I nodded, staring down at my comforter. Maybe he still didn't know where things were going. Maybe I still have a shot, especially after that hot kiss we just shared.
"Can I ask you a question though?" I asked still not looking at him.
"Why didn't you tell me about her at all? I mean, you've been dating her for three weeks, Edward! We've never kept secrets from each other like that."
"What? Dating for three weeks? Where did you get that idea?"
Now I looked up at him in shock. His brow was furrowed as if he were confused.
"Alice said you guys had been hanging out and talking since practices started three weeks ago."
He huffed in frustration, "Well, yeah we've been talking I guess. But, we weren't dating. We all went together and got ice cream and shit after practices, but it wasn't a date. At least I didn't consider it a date. As far as I'm concerned tonight was our first date."
"So, you considered tonight to be a date? It was supposed to be our night, Edward." I pouted.
He frowned, "I know, Bells. And I feel like shit about that."
"You really hurt my feelings you know."
He winced and sucked in a breath, "I'm so sorry, Bells. Really, I am."
I nodded and squeezed his hand.
"Tell you what… let me make it up to you." he said, suddenly sounding excited.
"Okay, what do you have in mind?"
He grinned at me, "How about we spend the day together tomorrow? We could even get the gang together and head down to First Beach. Maybe play some football or something with the guys from the reservation? How does that sound?"
"That sounds great!" I exclaimed as I pulled him into a hug.
He slowly wrapped his arms around me tightly and nuzzled into my neck. The combination of his warm breath and the feel of his lips brushing against my neck sent tingles up my spine. I could feel the warmth spreading through out my body again as his hand came into contact with the bare skin of my side again.
Edward suddenly pulled back clearing his throat as he did, "It's late. I should let you get to sleep. I'll see you in the morning, Bells."
I was disappointed, but I understood, "Okay. See you in the morning then."
He smiled at me as he stood up. He hesitated by the bed for a moment before leaning down and kissing the top of my head, "Goodnight." he whispered.
I sat there stunned and confused as hell as he slipped out the window.
I was shaking so badly I thought I would fall to the ground and not have to climb down. When I got to the bottom, I adjusted myself hoping that Bella hadn't noticed the hard-on I was sporting when I left her room. What the hell had just happened? I went up there to apologize and talk to her. I wanted to beg her forgiveness and tell her what a stupid ass I had been. How did I end up having the hottest make out session of my life with my best damned friend?
I quietly slipped into the house and made my way up to my room undetected. Thankfully, my parents had already gone to bed. I cautiously closed the door to my room and began to strip out of my clothes. Even though I had showered earlier tonight, I now needed a long, cold shower. I nearly yelped when the cold water hit my flesh, helping my uh... 'problem'. I quickly washed off and got out of the shower. I dried off and slipped on a clean pair of boxers before collapsing into my bed.
I groaned out loud as I covered my eyes with my arm. I was beyond confused now. I thought back over everything that had happened tonight. I had kissed two different girls tonight. If I was being honest with myself, I definitely enjoyed one more than the other. Kissing Tanya was nice. Although, I will admit, I wasn't as comfortable with her as I had hoped I would be. She was a nice girl, but I'm not sure if we could really have a future.
Kissing Bella had been a whole different experience. It brought out feelings that I had never experienced. It lit a fire deep inside of me that I wasn't sure I wanted to put out. Things with Bella were easy, I was comfortable with her. But could I pursue that? Did I want to risk ruining my friendship with her if a romantic relationship didn't work out between us? I'm not so sure. Bella is my best friend; and okay I'll admit the fact that she's hot as hell, even though she thinks she's nothing special. And I do love her dearly, but as a friend.
I groaned again as I rolled over in my bed. That's it. I have to make things work with Tanya, or at least give it a good shot. Bella deserves to be with someone who can treat her the way she deserves to be treated and love her the way she deserves to be loved. I say that, but then why did it make my blood run cold when Jacob Black swore to me he would be there to put Bella back together after I broke her heart? Was I breaking her heart? Could she really feel more for me than just friendship?
No. No, Bella and I are friends. That's it. That's all we can be. I can't take the chance of losing her completely if I messed that up. She means too much to me. With my mind made up about what I was going to do, I finally relaxed enough to fall asleep.
I woke up the next morning with a new found outlook about my relationship with Edward. I was more convinced than ever now that we belonged together. There was no denying it after the kiss we shared last night. I felt a smile creep onto my face and a warmth spread throughout me as I thought of our kiss. I wondered if he would kiss me again today. I hoped so. Just the thought of his lips on mine again was making me tingle all over. I smiled as I brought my hand up to my lips, remembering the way it felt to have his soft warm lips pressed against mine.
I decided not to waste any more time in bed, so I got up and jumped into the shower. I stood under the hot water, letting it relax me. I smiled as I shampooed my hair and thought back over last night. It hadn't gone as I had thought it would, but the ending was better than anything I could have imagined. Never would I have thought after Tanya had showed up as his date at the beginning of the night… that it would end with him in my bedroom kissing me.
I was nearly giddy with anticipation when I stepped out of the shower. I quickly dried off and got dressed. I wanted to make breakfast for Edward. I knew how much he loved my chocolate chip pancakes. I'm in an extra good mood this morning, so he may even get chocolate syrup and whipped cream to go with them. I headed down to the kitchen, placing my Zune on the dock station and filled the kitchen with the sounds of Good Charlotte's "I Don't Wanna Be In Love". I laughed to myself as I danced around mixing up pancake batter thinking I would love to see the look on Tanya's face if she knew how much Edward loved this song.
I was just putting the final pancake on the platter when I felt two very familiar strong arms wrap around me and I felt a tingle of pleasure shoot down my spine.
"Morning, Bells." Edward murmured as he kissed my cheek.
I smiled as I let my head fall back onto his shoulder. Just one simple kiss on my cheek had my whole body tingling. I felt my breathing hitch as I remembered what it felt like to have those same lips kissing me last night. The way it felt to have him kiss my lips, my jaw and my neck… it made me wonder what it would feel like to have those same lips in other places on my body.
"You all right, Bella? You're flushed. You aren't getting sick are you?" he asked sounding concerned.
Damn clueless boy.
I cleared my throat as I turned off the stove, "No, I'm fine. I hope you're hungry."
He grinned as he grabbed the platter from me setting it down on the counter and then pulling me into a hug, "Damn, Bells! You are the perfect woman! I can't believe you made my favorite this morning!"
I wrapped my arms around him in return, biting my bottom lip. Why can't he see how perfect we could be together? It's so effortless with us. We are so comfortable with each other and we know one another better than our own parents know us.
"Well, you know I wouldn't do this for just anybody. Only you, Eddie." I grinned as we grabbed our plates.
He groaned, "Bells, you know you are the only person who I let get away with calling me that."
I laughed, "Yup, it's 'cause you love me."
He laughed shaking his head, "You're crazy."
I grinned at him as I set my plate down on the table and handed him the whipped cream.
"Come on, Edward, you know you think I'm gorgeous."
He laughed shaking his head, "Don't, Bella."
I smiled at him as I got right up in front of him and started dancing, singing "You think I'm gorgeous... You want to kiss me... You want to hug me... You want to love me... You want to smooch me... You want to hug me."
He groaned shaking his head, "Been watching Miss Congeniality again, Bella?"
I giggled as I wrapped my arms around his neck, tilting my head back to look up at him, "Come on, Edward, you know you love it."
"Not as much as I love you, you crazy girl." he smiled kissing my forehead.
I felt my heart jump into my throat and we both froze. Did he just say that he loved me?
"What?" I breathed looking up at him.
His eyes were as big as saucers; he cleared his throat and pinched the bridge of his nose before running his hand through his hair.
"Of course, I love you, you're my best friend. I don't know what I'd do without you."
Oh. Friend. Right. Even though I felt like he had just dumped a bucket of ice water over my head, I grabbed his hand giving it a squeeze.
"Come on, friend, let's eat before it gets cold."
He looked at me for a second, looking like he wanted to say something before he squeezed my hand in return.
"Yeah, I'm starved and this smells killer."
I smiled and thanked him as we sat down at the table. We both ate in silence, except for Edward's moans and hums of pleasure. Just as we were finishing up his cell phone rang. He rolled his eyes and cursed under his breath as he glanced at the caller ID.
"Hey, Tanya." he sighed as he answered his phone.
Now it was my turn to roll my eyes. I stood up from the table grabbing our plates to take to the sink.
"Hang on a sec." he said into the phone. "Bells, I promise I'll only be a minute. You want to go ahead and text Jake and see if they are up for a game of touch football on the beach at noon? Em, Jazz and the girls are in."
"Yeah, sure." I nodded.
Edward groaned as he closed his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose again, "I already told you, Tanya. I'm spending the day with Bella and the gang."
I snickered as I headed into the kitchen, quickly putting or dirty dishes into the dishwasher and grabbing my phone. I quickly typed out a text to Jake asking if they wanted to meet up down at First Beach at noon. He replied quickly with an enthusiastic, "Hell, Yeah!"
I walked back into the dining room to find Edward rubbing his temples, his cell phone laying on the table.
"What's the matter, buddy? Trouble in paradise?"
"Paradise? More like hell." he mumbled under his breath, "I'm fine, Bells. What did Jake say?"
I frowned as I walked over and rubbed his shoulders, "You sure you're okay, Edward?"
He sighed as he let his head fall back against me. I continued rubbing his shoulders hoping to help relieve some of his tension.
"I will be." he sighed, "Hey, where is your dad?"
"Fishing with Billy. He won't be home till late."
"Awesome, maybe we can get dinner later and catch a late movie or something."
"That sounds great."
We sat around checking out what movies were playing and listening to music until it was time to head out and meet everyone down at the beach. When we arrived at the beach we could see all of the Quileute boys already tossing the ball back and forth on the beach.
"Hey, Bell! About damned time ya'll got here!" Jake bellowed from the beach.
"Impatient are we?" I yelled back.
"Always!" he laughed.
Edward snorted shaking his head and we walked towards the beach. Just as we were stepping into the sand, Emmett's jeep came flying into the parking lot, the sounds of The Notorious B.I.G blaring from the windows.
I could just make out Emmett's attempt to rap along, "I love it when ya call me big poppa." Edward and I were both laughing as he stepped out of his jeep, his hands waving in the air as he sang, "Throw ya hands in the ayer if youse a true playa."
"Don't quit your day job, Em." Rosalie snorted as she stepped out of the jeep.
"Let's get this party started, bitches!" Emmett yelled down to the beach, taunting Paul. He and Paul had a love-hate relationship. They loved to get under each others skin.
"Bring it on, McCarty!" Paul yelled back.
Emmett had a mischievous grin on his face as he pulled his sweatshirt over his head. He glanced over his shoulder back at Jasper who was kissing Alice softly on her forehead, "Let's do this, Whitlock!"
Jasper and Edward both groaned, "Good lord. Here we go." Jasper sighed.
We all started towards the beach when Alice grabbed my arm, "Bella, wait a minute. We want to talk to you."
I rolled my eyes as I slowly turned to face her and Rose, "What's up?"
"We're sorry." Rose mumbled.
"Excuse me? Didn't catch that."
"We are sorry. We weren't trying to keep it from you, or hurt your feelings. We were hoping it would make you confess your feelings to Edward." Alice said squeezing my hand.
"Well, it didn't work now did it?" I grumbled.
"No… and for what it's worth, we really are sorry, Bella. Honestly, I can't stand the fake bitch." Rose spat.
I laughed, "Really? Tell me how ya really feel there, Rosie."
She smiled, "Don't call me Rosie, Belly..."
I laughed, "All right, Rose. Come on, Alley Cat. Let's go kick these guys' butts!"
"You forgive us, Bells?" Alice asked.
I sighed, "Yeah, I'll forgive you. But, honestly, I won't forget so easily. You guys kept this from me. It would have been nice to have some warning."
"It won't happen again. We swear!" Alice said grinning at me.
"Sure, sure." I mumbled.
Five minutes later we all stood facing each other on opposing teams.
Edward, myself, Alice, Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie were on one side.
Jacob, Seth, Paul, Jared, Quil and Embry were on the other. Sam hadn't been able to make it today; he and Emily had already made plans.
"Let's do this!" Paul huffed glaring at Emmett.
"Bring it, bitch." Emmett sneered back.
"Cool it, guys." Jasper chuckled.
Twenty minutes later we were all laughing as Paul and Emmett got a 'little' to rough with each other and ended up rolling in the sand.
"Look out, Bella!" Alice squealed and I turned my head just in time to see the football coming right at my face. I covered my face with my hands, closing my eyes. Before I knew what was happening I felt two very strong arms wrap around me from behind and I was pulled against a very firm body before we rolled onto the ground. I slowly opened my eyes to see Jake grinning down at me.
"You okay there, Bells?"
"Uh, yeah I'm good." I stammered out as I stared up at him.
Damn. When did Jake get so good looking? I have to admit, the feeling of his body on top of mine like this was not at all unpleasant. He was supporting his weight with one hand on each side of me. His left leg was in between my legs and I could feel him pressing against my thigh, as he hovered over me. He grinned as he leaned down and kissed my forehead, before pressing his forehead against mine.
"You sure you're okay?"
"Yeah, Jake, I'm good, are you okay?"
He grinned down at me before swiftly pecking my lips and jumping up holding out his hand to me. I laid there stunned for a moment, my lips still tingling.
"You sure you are okay there, Bells?" he chuckled.
"Uh, yeah, I uh…"
He laughed again before leaning down and grabbing both of my hands and pulling me up, then wrapping his arms around me.
"I don't think Edward liked that too much." he whispered in my ear.
I glanced off to the side to see Edward standing there with a dark scowl on his face as he glared at us.
"I think he may be a bit jealous." he chuckled in my ear.
His warm breath against my neck sent a shiver down my spine. I gasped as he lightly kissed my neck right below my ear and my head involuntarily fell back, giving him better access. I felt his lips skim over my neck before he chuckled again, as his large warm hands ran up my sides.
"Hey, I thought we were playing football! Not having make-out sessions!" Edward huffed, earning a growl from Jake.
"We will continue this later." Jake whispered before smacking me on my butt, "What's the matter Cullen? Ya jealous?"
"Piss off, Jake." Edward spat.
"Chill out, guys." I grumbled, "Hey, who's that?" I asked as a red VW Bug pulled into the lot.
"Awe, hell." Edward grumbled.
"What? Who is it?" I asked walking up beside him.
"Hi, baby! Sorry, I didn't get here sooner!" Tanya squealed as she stepped out of the car.
"What the hell?" I gasped.
"I don't know, Bells. You heard me; you know I didn't invite her." he groaned.
"Yeah, I know." I sighed.
"Sorry." he mumbled as he headed towards the parking lot.
Alice and Rose rushed over to me as Edward headed towards the lot.
"What is she doing here?" Rose asked.
"Who knows… Edward told her not to come." I shrugged.
We stood there laughing, shaking our heads as Edward helped her through the sand and spread out a blanket for her. She squealed and whined the whole way. She plopped down on the blanket and immediately began ordering Edward around. I sighed as I turned back to face the rest of the group.
"All right, come on, guys! I thought we were playing ball here!"
Seth grinned at me, "All right, B! Let's do this!"
"Let's go, Cullen! Are you done babysitting yet?" Jake taunted.
"Bite me, Black!" Edward retorted.
Jake chuckled as he looked over at me, "Sorry, man, but you're not my type."
Edward scowled as he looked back and forth between me and Jake.
"Whatever." he muttered.
The game was back on and we were all having a good time. Regardless of Tanya's shrieks and squeals every time one of us kicked sand onto her blanket, or one of the "sweaty boys" got to close to her.
"Heads up, B!" Jasper yelled as he passed me the ball.
I took off running down the beach with Jacob laughing hot on my heels, "Gotcha!" he exclaimed as he wrapped my arms around me, spinning me around, causing me to fumble the ball.
"Jake!" I squealed as I spun around to face him.
He grinned down at me and I suddenly realized how close he was. I faintly registered the laughter and scuffling around us as the game once again fell apart and the guys were wrestling around in the sand. Somewhere I could hear Tanya once again scolding Edward about something. It felt nice being in Jake's arms like this. I realized that it wasn't the same as being in Edward's arms. Being in Edward's arms felt right, it felt like home. But being with Jake like this was nice too. He slowly brought one of his hands up, gently brushing my hair back behind my ear.
"Bells, I know you still want him. But do you think you might, even if it's just a little bit, want me too?" he murmured as he traced my bottom lip with his index finger.
I swallowed hard as I looked up at him, "Yeah." I whispered.
He smiled in return, "That's all I needed to hear."
He wrapped one arm around my waist pulling me impossibly closer to him as his other hand found its way to the back of my head. Agonizingly, slowly, he lowered his head and pressed his lips softly to mine. I gasped as his tongue followed the route his finger had taken a moment ago, slowly tracing my bottom lip, before slipping into my mouth. Our lips and tongues moved sensously together, creating warmth that spread throughout my body. I whimpered as his hand slid down, cupping my backside.
"Yo, Ed, heads up man!" I faintly heard Paul call, before I heard a blood curdling scream.
Jacob and I broke apart, both of us panting as he grinned down at me.
"Oh my God! Edward! He broke my nose!" Tanya was screaming.
"What happened?" I laughed looking up at Jake.
He just grinned down at me, "Don't know, don't care."
We both looked over to see Tanya's face covered with her hands, blood trickling out between her fingers.
"God, Ed, man, I'm sorry." Paul was muttering as he paced back and forth by the blanket.
Jake and I looked at each other before sighing and heading over to them. Edward was hovering over her trying to hold a towel up to her face.
"Is she okay?" I asked touching Edward's back.
"She'll be fine." Edward said gruffly without turning to look at me.
"Is there anything I can do?" I asked, "You need me to get an ice pack or something?"
"We are fine. Go back to your boyfriend." Edward huffed without looking at me.
I winced and turned to Jake, I felt like he had slapped me in the face. Jake immediately wrapped his arms around me.
"He's just jealous." he murmured in my ear.
Rose and Alice came up, giving Edward a towel full of ice they had gotten out of the cooler, before coming over to us.
"What happened?" Jake asked Alice.
She giggled as she laid a hand on my back. "Well, Paul threw the ball to Edward." she stopped to giggle again. "But Edward was too busy glaring at the two of you kissing; he didn't realize it in time." she stopped and was giggling again.
Shaking her head, Rose laid a hand on Alice's back, "What the pixie here is trying to say is, that Edward was so insanely jealous watching the two of you together that he didn't see Paul throw the ball and missed catching it. The ball ended up hitting Tanya square in the face."
Jacob snorted shaking his head, trying to hold in his laughter.
"That doesn't make any sense though." I said.
"What do you mean? Which part?" Alice asked.
"Why would Edward be jealous?" I asked confused.
Alice and Rose smiled knowingly, "Because… my dear Bella. I think he's starting to realize just who he really belongs with." Rose said smiling.
"Bells? Can I talk to you for a sec?" I heard Edward say behind me.
I turned to look at him and he looked crushed. It nearly broke my heart.
"Yeah sure." I looked to Jake, Alice and Rose. "I'll be right back."
Edward held a hand out to me, which I grabbed and he pulled me off to the side.
"I'm sorry I snapped at you." he mumbled.
"It's okay. You got a lot going on." I shrugged.
He huffed slightly, "So, you and Jake huh?"
"What? Oh, I don't know."
"It's okay. I understand" he said softly.
"What do you mean you understand?"
He sighed as he ran his hand through his hair, "I don't know, Bells. I don't know what I'm thinking."
"I don't understand, Edward." I said putting my arm around his waist.
"Yeah, that makes two of us." he said wrapping his arms around me giving me a squeeze. "Look, I gotta go take care of Tanya. I'll call you in a while okay?"
I hated the fact that he was leaving once again with her, but given the circumstances I understood.
"Yeah, okay. I understand." I mumbled against his chest.
"Hey, look at me." he said softly.
I looked up at him to see him give me a sad smile, "So, you and Jake? What's up with that?"
I laughed, "I don't know. I'm confused."
He nodded before kissing my forehead, "Yeah, me too, Bells."
I stood there dumb-founded as he walked over to collect Tanya. I watched as he helped her into her car and Rose and Alice helped him gather all of her things. Emmett walked back over to me and handed me Edward's keys.
"He asked that you drive his car home."
Emmett grinned as he mussed my hair, "Don't worry, Bells. Everything will work out."
"I hope so, Emmett." I smiled.
I walked back over to say goodbye to all of the guys. Jacob walked me back over to Edward's car.
"So, can I call ya later, Bells?" he asked grabbing my hand.
Since when does he ask if he can call?
"Yeah, sure, Jake." I said smiling.
"Okay." he said softly as he leaned in and kissed my lips again, "Talk to ya later." he smiled against my lips.
"Yeah, talk to ya later." I brilliantly replied.
He chuckled as he opened the car door for me and I slipped in. I drove home in silence, not even bothering to turn on the radio. I parked in Edward's driveway and just took the keys in with me. I quickly showered and laid down on my bed. I sighed as I thought back over the day's events. I've never been so confused in my life.
So, what did you think? Think Edward is starting to wise up a bit?