This was written a while ago (like months ago) so I didn't re-write or really look over it. So I'm sorry if it sucks.
Thank you all for being so patient.
Disclaimer: I do not own The Host, just the plot line. I do not own any of the songs used in here either (credit to Paramore and Ke$ha)
Playlist: Stay The Night - Zedd ft. Hayley Williams (my bestie. Can't wait to see her, Jeremy (the dad to be) and Taylor on a few of their shows on the PARATOUR near LA where I live, so all of the california shows, Toronto, Seattle. Can't wait)
I threw myself into Jared's arms and started silently crying. I couldn't let him know I was crying. The only thing I wanted in this world was to be held by him. Reality finally hit and all I wanted to do was sob. He couldn't leave me now. I would be so broken without him. And so would Jamie. I couldn't believe he was doing this, and he was leaving in a matter of minutes. His arms wrapped tightly around my shoulders, he was tense, like he knew I had realized it was almost time. I felt so empty, even though he was holding me. I knew it was because I dreaded the weeks that I had to go through without Jared. I finally let it all out. I started sobbing and he heard me. "I knew that was what your face was about." He whispered.
I knew I had made a face, it probably looked like I was about to cry. I suddenly just felt angry. I backed up and I punched him in the stomach, it hurt my hand so much but I felt better. I started to stomp towards the entrance of the cave. But I fell to my knees and just started sobbing all over again. I didn't know what was going on around me. I swore I heard Wanda call for me. I felt Jared's arms wrap around me and pick me up. I sobbed into his shoulder, and suddenly didn't feel the rain. The only thing that was keeping my face wet was my tears. I heard Sharon's voice "Jared? Is Melanie okay?"
"I don't know." He whispered.
"Its cause I'm leaving soon. Don't worry about it. I'm going to take her to our room.
"Okay." I felt her hand stroke my hair "love you Mel."
A couple minutes later I didn't feel Jared's arms around me, and I felt a bed underneath me. I shot up and screamed "Jared?" I could barely see cause my eyes were filled with tears.
"Hey hey, I'm right here." He lightly chuckled and grabbed me into his arms. I had stopped crying and I was about to wipe my eyes but he did it for me. I felt stupid for breaking down. I didn't even want to look him in the eye. I opened my eyes and everything was clear. It was a bit dark in our room but I could see Jared. His face full of sadness, I felt terrible for doing this to him. "Sorry." I whispered.
"Don't be." He smiled.
"When are you leaving?" My voice cracked and I held back the tears.
"I've got a while. Wanda told me we'd leave a little bit later. She wants to see Ian for a little while longer." He held my face in his hands.
At this moment he looked at me like I was so fragile. Like he had to watch what he said or did cause it might snap me in half. "Can we pretend I didn't just break down?"
"Its forgotten." He said, but it didn't seem like he meant it.
"They're all still playing soccer." I then realized the rain had stopped.
"Okay. We need to get him before you leave." I smiled.
"I know. I have to say bye to my lil man." He chuckled. He still seemed like he was scared to say something or do something bad.
He still had his hands on my face. I covered his hands with mine and smiled "could you at least act like it didn't happen?"
"Sorry. You just look so broken." He frowned.
I wasn't going to lie to him "I feel broken."
"Please don't say that." He pleaded.
"I'm not going to sit here and lie to you about being fine when I honestly feel like I'm dying inside." I raised my voice a little.
"I don't want you to lie to me. But when you say stuff like that it makes me feel like a terrible person."
"You're not a terrible person." I almost laughed at his remark.
"I feel like one." He grumbled.
"Why do you feel like a terrible person?"
"Because I'm leaving you and Jamie. And you're hurting cause of my stupid actions."
"They're not stupid actions. You're getting things we all need to survive. That's a smart action."
"Not when I'm leaving my loved ones behind."
"We'll go next time. Really Jared, we understand that you need to go."
"Of course. We've understood since the beginning. We just are upset that we have to be without our favorite person for 3 weeks." I smiled reassuringly.
"Really." I whispered.
"I love you." He kissed me soft and short.
"You're such a worrier." I chuckled and playfully punched him.
"Oh ha ha. Its good to worry about the ones you love." He laughed. "And don't punch me jerk." He joked around and pinched me on my forearm.
I gasped at the pain "ouch! Don't do that!"
"What are you going to do about it huh?" He was messing around with me and I was going to get him for it.
"Pinch me again and I'll punch you so hard." I said sternly.
He inched his fingers towards my arm. He got a centimeter away from my arm and clamped his fingers down. It seriously hurt "Jared that freaking hurt!" I decided not to punch him but shove him. I did it with so much force that I achieved my goal and knocked him off the bed. He landed on his ass with a thud and looked up at me shocked. We both started laughing. For some reason it was hilarious to us. We laughed so hard our stomachs hurt and we could barely breathe.
"Hate to interrupt this adorable moment but.." Wanda interrupted us. She looked downright sad. "Are you ready?" She barely said, obviously upset.
My heart started to ache, and he looked at me asking for approval. I smiled and nodded. We both stood up and followed Wanda to the main hall. Almost everyone was there, waiting to say goodbye. Wanda went right to Ian, saying their goodbyes. Jamie ran up to us and almost knocked Jared down as he plowed into him. They hugged for a minute before Jamie pulled away. He had tears streaming down his face "I'm going to miss you Jared!" He sniffed.
"I'm going to miss you kid. But I'll be back in no time. Will you take my spot and be the man of our room?" Jamie nodded eagerly "okay. Well all you have to do is sleep with Mel at night and protect her okay?"
"Love you Jamie. Please be good and take care of your sister."
"I will I promise. Love you Jared, be safe. Good luck." He went back to the crowd and Uncle Jeb came up to Jared. They shook hands "I'm expecting to see you, Wanda, Kyle and Sonny here in exactly three weeks." He pointed at him.
"Not a day later sir." Jared smiled and went on to say bye to everyone else. Wanda came running towards me. She jumped into my arms. She was crying, which made me surprised I wasn't. "I'm going to miss you so much Sister!"
"Please be careful Wanda. I can't lose you or Jared."
"Of course we will. You won't lose us I promise." She kissed my cheek and went over to Uncle Jeb. I turned towards the crowd to find Jared pushing through everyone, heading towards me. The look on his face was desperation and determination, to get to me. In three long strides he was at my side. He grabbed me into his arms, and my feet no longer touched the ground. I wrapped my arms around his neck, hugging him back. My fingers rested in his hair and I didn't want him to let me go. But he had too, he had to leave. He had to leave me here, a broken mess. Then I thought of Ian, he was in the same situation as me. Maybe we could help each other through it? I felt a little bit relieved, but it wasn't good enough. I needed Jared here, to be okay. He set me down "I'm going to miss you so much." He sighed.
"This is going to be the longest 3 weeks of my life." I whined.
"Same. I don't know what I'm going to do without you and Jamie."
"Like you said, you'll be back in no time." I nodded, not sure if I was trying to convince him or myself that it was okay.
"Promise me one thing."
"Just one." I whispered, I didn't know why I was joking right now.
"Don't do anything reckless. Don't over work yourself. Eat like you always do, just be Melanie. But without me for a couple weeks. I will never forgive myself it I come back and something has happened to you."
"I'll promise you that. If you do one thing for me."
"What would that be?"
"Tell me, again." I didn't need to say what I wanted him to tell me. He already knew.
He grabbed my face in his hands "you and I will not lose each other. I will always find you again. No matter how well you hide I am unstoppable." He said seriously. And I believed him, just like I did every time he said that.
I couldn't help myself, a few tears slid down my cheeks. "Be careful baby."
"I will. I always am." He kissed the top of my head.
"Jared!" We heard Wanda yell "ready?"
Jared turned from me and started walking towards her. I felt more tears fall down my cheek. I felt so empty, so broken and so vulnerable. The rope that connected our hearts stretched even more with every step he took. But before it could snap Jared shouted "wait!" He turned around and ran back to me. "I forgot something." He stopped in front of me and grabbed my drenched face in his shaking hands. He caught me by surprise and without hesitation, tilted his head to the left and pressed his soft, warm lips to mine. My lips were on fire. His touch was fire, his touch was magic. His lips moved against mine and I wound my arms around his neck, propping myself up on my tip toes. Our lips moved frantically against each others. I was overwhelmed with the feeling of desperation. My whole body was numb, and I felt much like I did the first night we met. The second time he kissed me. My body felt numb, and I felt like I was walking on air. His lips left the familiar trail of fire on mine every time he touched them. This was it, this was our goodbye kiss. After this he would leave for 3 weeks. I tasted salty tears, but I realized they weren't mine. I breathed in and out through my nose as he did, so we didn't have to break our beautiful kiss. The seconds that passed went by in slow motion, I got to enjoy these last few moments with him. His lips left mine. And rested his forehead on mine. "I love you so much Melanie Stryder. Don't you ever forget that." I breathed.
"I love you so much Jared Howe. You are my life." I touched my hand to his cheek.
"I'll be back. I promise." He whispered.
"I know. And I'll be here when you get back." I smiled.
His eyes were red and his cheeks were tear stained, "I love you Mel." His forehead was no longer pressed to mine. And his strong hands no longer grasped my wrists.
"I love you." I whispered as he walked backwards, keeping his eyes locked with mine.
He turned around slowly, and walked off with Wanda, Kyle and Sonny. Minutes later, the only think left of Jared was his faint smell and the burning sensation on my lips.
I've been experiencing a terrible terrible case of writers block, and I only have a few chapters written up after this. I'm going to make the story shorter and delete this extra thing that I did where they both dream about each other so I don't have to go into detail about it, chapters after it lol. It's almost over (almost) at least 5-9 chapters await. Again thanks for being so patient, and so encouraging, it really helps as a writer. And I'm sorry for the terrible writing, this was done a while ago…when I was terrible at writing lol. I've definitely improved some;)
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