Am I going crazy? I've got to be losing my FUCKING mind! Edward, my Edward would never treat me this way. Oh yeah? Explain that to the pain in the back of your neck from his hand gripping your hair. I could feel a bead of sweat slide down my face and I watched Edward lean in and lick it off.
"Edward, what's wrong? If-if my scent is too much for you I can go outside. We can open all the windows to let it air out. I'll get dressed. We don't need to make love anymore if it's too… much for you." I used every ounce of strength I had to keep my voice calm and even. I knew if I showed fear Edward would feel terrible in hindsight. He leaned back and looked at me surprised.
"Love, do you think I'm not in control of my blood lust right now? Sweetheart, I have never been more in control of that side of myself before," he chuckled. "And I would very much like to continue to make love to you. But, I believe I told you I'd rather watch you pleasure yourself at this moment." He released my hair and leaned back on the bed. I could feel myself blush with embarrassment.
"But Edward, I-I've never touched myself that way before. I wou-" he cut me off mid-sentence with a finger to my lips.
"Well love, I suggest you start practicing." I had no idea what the fuck was going on now. Edward had always been so reserved when it came to any kind of sexual acts, now he wants to watch me masturbate? What kind of alternate universe had I stepped in? Am I in an episode of the Twilight Zone? I guess I must have taken too long with my inner dialoguing because all of a sudden I felt Edward's cold hands grip the tops of my shoulders so hard! My God, it hurt! I tried unsuccessfully to stifle a scream.
"Bella, what did I tell you to do? You are always so fucking stubborn and I'm sick of it!" He was yelling at me so loud I felt my body shaking.
"Edward, please tell me what's going on! I'm sorry. I don't mean to be so stubborn. Whatever I did to upset you, just tell me. I swear I won't do it again. Just, please… let my arms go." I whispered with a shaky voice. Please don't let me cry! When Edward finally is back to normal he'll feel bad enough without my tears to make it worse.
"Bella, would you really like to know what you did wrong? It's not a very long list but it is still important." He said as he released my shoulders. I could feel the blood start to circulate again and I knew it would leave bruises. I'd have to remember to wear clothes that cover up my shoulders. "Well first, you are human. The fact that you're human doesn't bother me, but you are a very special human. I have abstained from human blood for so long, yet I still have the urges to kill you. I know I cannot kill you because it would be morally wrong and of course I'd have to live with the heartache of losing you," he said as he looked at me lovingly. "But that does not stifle the urges. I have promised you immortality, yet you have not promised me your whole heart." He looked pained as he said this, meanwhile I looked utterly shocked. What the hell was he talking about?
"Edward, my heart only belongs to you. You know that! It always has, it always will!" He chuckled slightly.
"Bella, I am sharing your heart with Jacob Black. I know you think the fact that you love me more is enough but sadly, it isn't. For that you must be punished." He looked at me and I noticed his eyes were pitch black. "Now, be a good girl and do as I say. I'd like to see you pleasure yourself." He said against the head board. I was still shocked.
"Edward, you're not sharing my heart with anyone! Please, you have to believe me! I don't care about Jake! I married you. I gave myself to you in every way humanly possible. Please, Edward just… think rationally. You need to hunt. Your eyes are black honey." He pinched the bridge of his nose and lid off the bed.
"There's that damn stubbornness rearing its ugly head." The next thing I know I was seeing stars. What the—oh my God! Edward hit me! I was on the floor between the dresser and the bathroom door. He hit me so hard I flew a few feet back. I could smell the blood start to penetrate the air as the tears welled up in my eyes. "However, you're right. I do need to hunt." He came over to me at vampire speed and I cringed when he leaned down to kiss my forehead. "I will see you soon, love." And with that he was gone. I sat on the floor a little longer to process what had just happened. I wiped my eyes and went to Edward's side of the bed. I grabbed his phone from his night stand and dialed a number. It rang about 4 times before he picked up.
"Hello son, how are you?" his musical voice asked. I swallowed loudly.
"Carlisle, it's me, Bella. You have to help me." My voice was so shaky I had no clue how he understood me.
"What is it dear?" He asked concerned. I took a deep breath.
"It's Edward. He's acting strange. I don't know what's wrong with him. I thought my scent was too much but he said it wasn't. He's talking crazy about wanting to kill me and h-he hit me." I felt so bad telling his father these things. Edward is not himself right now and I know how ashamed he would be for the family to find out but I didn't know what else to do. Carlisle took a long time before he spoke again and the tone of his voice was different. It was less concerned and more… clinical, as if he were talking to one of his patients.
"Listen to me very carefully Bella. I want you to erase this call from Edward's phone. You must not tell him you spoke with me or else. I am so sorry you have to go through this Bella. Edward suffered from a few mental illnesses throughout his human life but I thought the venom repaired his mind. I had never seen any of these qualities show up. Do not tell him you spoke with me. We will be there soon." I took a deep breath, relived.
"Okay Carlisle. Thank you. I'll see you soon." I hung up the phone and did as he said and deleted the call.
"Tsk tsk tsk," he said shaking his head. I turned around to see Edward in the doorway. He was slowly walking towards me. "Bella, you called my Dad?" I could feel the fear seeping out of my pores.