Rachel's Reasons

Summary: Based off the brilliant book 13 Reasons Why-Jay Asher, if you haven't read it then you should. Rachel Berry killed herself two weeks ago. But she didn't vanish without a trace. No, she left behind the gift of 13 tapes. Each one a reason why she killed herself.

Disclaimer: I don't own the book 13 Reasons Why or Glee. All rights go to Jay Asher and RIB.

A/N: I'm still writing my other 3 stories but I wanted to work on another Finchel one because it seems like ages since I've written a Finchel-centric story so I decided to write this because I really loved the book and I've read several glee fanfics based on it so I thought I'd give it a try. I want this to be your story too so if you have any ideas about reasons then leave them in the reviews. Hope you enjoy the story! This is set during Season 4 when Rachel was at NYADA but won't always be in canon from the show. When this symbol appears / it means the tape has been paused, when this symbol appears [] it means the tape has been stopped and when this symbol appears ◊ it means the tape is playing.

Chapter 1: Prologue

"Finn honey there's a box for you down here!" my mom calls from downstairs. I am confused, I barely ever get packages. "Who's it from?" I ask when I get downstairs. "Rachel Berry" she says handing the package over wordlessly. Rachel? My Rachel? That was impossible. Rachel Berry killed herself 2 weeks ago, there's no way iit can be from her.

"Finn honey are you ok?" my mom asks. I realise that I haven't said anything since she passed me the box. "Yeah I'm fine" I say. "Okay well if you want some dinner, I'm making your favourite chicken pot pie" she says. As much as chicken pot pie tempts me I can't eat right now. I have to see what's in the box from my dead ex girlfriend. I shake my head and take the box up to my room.

I open the box and out falls 13 tapes. Each one with a number on it in nail polish and one of Rachel's signature gold stars in the corner. Okay so they're definitely from Rachel but why tapes? No one has tapes any more, barely anyone even uses CD's, everything's digital. I'm not even sure if I have a tape player to play these on. "Hey Mom, do you have a tape player?" I call downstairs. "In the closet in my room honey. Why do you need a tape player?" she asks. "Oh a friend gave me some new music to try out. I guess they'd run out of CD's" I say. "Okay well the tape player's in the closet" she says.

I go into my mom's room and take out the tape player. I bring it back to my room and slide in the first tape. I press play on the cassette and begin to listen.

Hello everyone. Bet you're surprised to hear from me. It's your old friend Rachel Berry, back from the dead.

There's absolutely no way. Rachel killed herself two weeks ago- I remember getting the sobbing phone call from Kurt telling me all about it- him and Santana found her dead on her bed when they came back from class.

Not literally back from the dead but I am making my final return performance. There's no going back this time, this show is a one night only thing. These tapes tell the story of my life or rather why I ended it. And if you're listening to these tapes, that means you are one of my reasons. Lucky you!

No way! I can't possibly be one of the reasons that the love of my life is dead. I didn't do anything that would make Rachel want to kill herself. Or did I? I honestly don't know anymore.

I'm not going to tell you when your tape is coming up until the tape before it. But don't think that your tape isn't coming because if you got this box then you are on my tapes.

So this isn't just some crazy nightmare I'm having. The girl that I thought was my future wife, really does think that I am one of the reasons why she had to kill herself. And I have no idea what I did or why it made her do what she did. I loved her and she broke my heart. I want to stop listening but I don't. These are my dead love's last words and I want to listen to every one.

So this is what you have to do. Listen to the tapes, every single one. Don't just skip to the one that involves you because you won't know which one it is. I went to the trouble of making these tapes, the least you can do is listen.

I will Rach. I promise. No matter how much it hurts me, I want to understand why you did this. Why you ripped out my heart by taking your life. It's not going to be easy but I have to understand. I want to know what I did wrong.

And number two, you pass the tapes on to whoever's tape is after yours. Hopefully neither of these things will be easy for you- it wasn't easy living these stories so they certainly won't be easy for you to listen to. When you've finished listening to all thirteen tapes then rewind them and put them back in the box and send them on to whoever's tape follows yours. And lucky number thirteen, you can take the tapes straight to hell.

Was I lucky number thirteen? I sure hope not. This doesn't sound like the Rachel I knew, so bitter and hate filled. But then again I never thought she'd kill herself so maybe I didn't know her as well as I thought I did.

In case you think you can break the rules and not listen to my story and not pass the tapes on because you don't want anyone else to know the hateful things you did to me then don't. Because there's another set of tapes. And if someone breaks the rules then they will be released to everyone in school. So for your own sake, listen and pass them on. Some of you will not want your stories to be known. You are being watched. Remember that.

This can't be right. What could I have done to Rach to make her put me on her list? This must be some kind of prank from people at school. Still if the contents of the tapes are so terrible I have to listen. Just to make sure no one else ever has to go through this pain.

So let's get started. The first tape. Are you ready? Well it doesn't matter because I'm starting anyway. This first story belongs to someone close to me. Biologically speaking I mean. Yeah that's right Mom. This one's for you, Shelby Corcoran.

A/N: I hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Next chapter will be Shelby's. Like I said before if there's anything you want to see on these tapes or any particular person you think they should go to then leave them in the reviews (I do have a rough list but I want you guys to be involved).

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