Title: Misplaced Trust

Author: Bella Katelyn

Rating: M

Summary: When Edward left after Bella's birthday party, her world fell apart. Little did she know just how much her life would change. Whilst grieving for her lost love, she's also betrayed by her best friend Jacob Black. Follow me through this story as Bella experiences loss, peace and finally acceptance when reunited with her Edward.

Disclaimer: Twilight and its characters belong to author Stephanie Meyer, and are brought to the fandom by Summit Entertainment. I'm just borrowing the characters for my own enjoyment and hopefully yours. With that said I hope you enjoy this story as much as I'm going to enjoy writing it.


Chapter One

When Everything Falls Apart

BPOV

Twelve weeks ago everything was perfect. I had the perfect boyfriend, the best family a girl could ask for, a father who loved me. And I was finally turning eighteen even though I wasn't looking forward to it. I'd warned Alice I didn't want a party but yet again Alice was Alice and my wishes were ignored. As for Jasper, he doesn't like seeing his mate upset therefore he used his ability to persuade me to agree to the birthday party she had arranged.

Everything was going perfectly, even Rosalie was enjoying herself. Of course they'd spent money on me but I wasn't as upset about it as I thought I'd be. Then in a split second of clumsiness on my part everything changed. I'd started to open my gift from Alice and Edward when I sliced my finger open causing blood to drip down my finger. Everything became a blur after that, one minute I was standing next to Edward, the next I was flying toward the glass table which held the plates and cake.

Everything changed in that moment. Edward became distant with me again. Just like he had after Tyler Crowley's van almost crushed me. Alice and Jasper never turned up for school, that in itself was strange, however at the time I just put it down to what happened, Jasper needed Alice and that's why they weren't in school. Of course nothing could prepare me for what was about to come. Three days after Edward had become distant with me, he asked if he could over. This was the first time he'd asked since my birthday and I jumped at the chance to talk to him. Little did I know that he would leave.

After all, what had happened that night was nothing. Nothing had happened. So I fell down – that was the story of my life. Compared to last spring, it seemed especially unimportant. James had left me broken and nearly dead from loss of blood – and yet Edward had handled those interminable weeks in the hospital much better than this. Was it because this time, it wasn't an enemy he'd had to protect me from? Because it was his brother? Whatever the reason, it seemed pointless now. As much as I missed him, wanted his arms around me, he wouldn't want me after Jacob had violated me. His final words still rang in my ears constantly on a loop.

Flashback

"Bella we're leaving."

"Why now? Another year –"

"Bella it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

"When you say we?"

"I mean my family and myself."

"Okay I'll come with you."

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going… It's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"You're not good for me, Bella."

"Don't be ridiculous. You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you."

"What happened with Jasper – that was nothing. Edward! Nothing!"

"You're right," he agreed. "It was exactly what was to be expected."

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised you would stay-"

"As long as that was best for you."

"No! This is about my soul isn't it? Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward, I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you – it's yours already!"

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me."

"You…don't…want…me."

"No."

"Well that changes things."

"Of course, I'll always love you… in a way. But what happened the other night made me realise that it's time for a change. But what happened the other night made me realise that it's time for a change. Because I'm… tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I'm not human. I've let this go on much too long and I'm sorry for that."

"Don't. Don't do this."

"You're not good for me Bella."

"If… that's what you want."

He nodded.

"I would like for one favour though if that's not too much."

"Anything."

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid. Do you understand what I'm saying."

I nodded.

"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you. Take care of yourself – for him."

"I will."

"And I'll make you a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I never existed.

End Flashback

What a stupid thing to say. He could take back his gifts and remove my photographs, but he couldn't change how I felt. There was no moving on with my life. He was my life. After he left I couldn't stay at Charlie's anymore, there were too many reminders. That's when I found myself standing outside his house. Being surrounded by his belongings gave me comfort. However I didn't know how much longer I'd be able to stay here and not go looking for him. I needed him now more than I'd ever needed him before.

Flashback)

LaPush

Edward had been gone over a week; Charlie was getting fed up of tiptoeing around me. I knew I was being unreasonable to him; I was hurting him more than I was hurting myself. He watched me go from a happy girl to someone who was a walking Zombie. I decided that I needed to at least try to act normal, I owed Charlie that much, I owed Edward it. He might have given up on me but I needed to at least be normal for the ones I loved even if it meant being half a person.

Jake had been my best friend since we were babies. I'd always trusted him. He was the sun in my gloomy existence. However there was one thing I never expected him to do and that was do the unthinkable and betray our friendship in the worst way imaginable. I'd gone down to LaPush on the spur of the moment I needed to get away from Charlie and his constant nagging at me to pull myself together and get over Edward, easier said than done when he's the one who your meant to be with. I thought at least at LaPush I'd have some fun with Jake. How wrong I was.

I thought something was off the minute that I walked through the door and Billy wheeled himself outside straight away without even looking up at me. Jake sat me down as we started to watch a movie on TV, he knew all of my favourite movies especially Romeo and Juliet, I thought it was strange how he'd choose the one movie that reminded me of Edward, it' felt like he was trying to rub the fact that Edward walked away from me in my face, despite the pain that was threatening to overtake me again I sat through the movie, noticing how Jake's arm started to get further and further around me, as I tensed "Jake please stop I don't like you that way." The tears had started to overflow as my best friend suddenly turned. "You never should have trusted your little bloodsucker, I knew he'd leave you like this. He wasn't good for you, you belong to me and you always will."

I started to pull away, my heart was pounding hard in my chest I'd recently heard from Emmett how Rosalie had been raped and beaten by her former fiancé leaving her to die. As I looked into Jacob's eyes I saw the danger that radiated off him. I grabbed my cell, my hands shaking as I started to dial Alice's number, of course Jake was quicker taking the cell out of my hands and crushing it. My lifeline was gone; I was going to die here. I'd never get the chance to see Edward's face again, my mate. I closed my eyes biting hard on my lip wanting it all to be over. I could feel Jacob's warm breath on my face knowing he was now leaning on top of me. As I glanced down I automatically shuddered as I realised that I was now totally naked, the sickening feeling in my stomach dawned on me what he had planned as I noticed he was also naked. The evil glare apparent on his face "You're never going to see your precious Cullen's again Bella or your precious Edward. No one will want you after I've made you mine. I cowered away. My first time was meant to be special, I was meant to give myself to Edward. I couldn't watch what I knew he was going to do.

Turning my head I felt the disgusting mutt enter me roughly. I fought and punched trying to get myself free, the more I fought the harder he thrust in and out of me. I could feel the pressure and the pain as he gyrated into me. All I could do was think of Edward and whether he would even want me after he knew what Jacob had done to me. My body was sore all over by the time he had ejaculated inside me. Once it was over and I could feel him out of me I grabbed my clothes putting them back on even though all I wanted to do was get washed. I looked at Jake and I seriously couldn't believe what he'd just done I wouldn't of believed it if I hadn't been on the receiving end of it. I couldn't stay here a minute longer. I ran and I ran until I reached Charlie's I didn't care that I'd left the truck at LaPush it could stay there for all I cared when I found Alice I'd buy a new one I didn't want any reminders of Jacob Black. Charlie had seemed shocked to see me home so soon. I just ignored him and stormed upstairs pulling at my clothes as I did grabbing the nearest bag I could find and dumped them into it taping it up before I took swabs off my nails and down below. I felt violated all over again.

(End of Flashback)

Reaching Out For Help

Grabbing my cell, I slowly searched through the numbers until I came to Alice's number. I couldn't stay in Forks anymore. I knew it would hurt Charlie, but I couldn't force myself to be happy any longer. As I waited for her to answer, I was suddenly hit with everything Edward had said to me once when we were having lunch in the cafeteria. He'd said if it was what was best for me, he could make himself leave me. How did I forget that? Suddenly everything began to slot into place. This was never about him not loving me, he took himself away from me to keep me safe. But it didn't work. I'd been hurt anyways. I was brought out of my thoughts by Alice's voice. My heart was pounding so hard in my chest, it felt like it was going to burst out of my chest.

"Bella? Are you there?"

"I'm here. I'm sorry, I know he doesn't want you to talk to me."

"It's not up to him who I speak to."

"Oh Alice. I need your help. He thought he was helping me, but he wasn't. All his leaving did was make everything worse."

"Slow down. What happened?"

"I… …I went to LaPush to see Jake. You can remember me talking about him right."

"Of course. His father is one of the Quileute Elders."

"Mm. Well it didn't turn out how I'd expected. He… ….he raped me."

"He did what? Where are you? I'm coming to get you?"

"Wait, Alice there's more."

"What else is there?"

"I'm three months pregnant. Alice I need you all. Please."

"Calm down Bella. Rosalie and I will come get you. Can you get away from Charlie."

"I'm not staying there anymore. I'm at your house."

"We'll be there as quickly as we can."

"Thank you Alice. Oh please don't tell Edward I want to talk to him myself."

"He's hunting with Carlisle I'll make sure he's there when we get back."

"Talk to you when you get here. You're the best."

"See you soon Bella."

"See you soon Alice. Bye."

"Bye."

By the time I hung up the phone, I'd given up trying to stop the tears from falling. I knew Sam would keep Jacob away from me long enough for me to make my escape. I just didn't know what he would do after he realised that I'd gotten away. Resting my hand on my now swollen stomach I felt the baby moving around inside me. I knew Edward would love this baby, because it was a part of me. Thankfully the morning sickness hadn't lasted very long, it was definitely a good thing, since I would be living with the Cullens again, and it was bad enough when Emmett made fun of me for my clumsiness without adding nausea to the mix. Packing for the move wouldn't be a problem, I'd never unpacked when I moved in here. In fact most of the clothes I wore were Edward's.

Half an hour after my phone call to Alice, I could hear a car pull up outside. Moving slowly off the bed, I looked out of the window relieved when I saw Rosalie's red convertible BMW. My suitcase and boxes were packed next to the door downstairs, suddenly I heard Alice's squeals as she barged into Edward's bedroom pulling me into a hug. As I looked over her shoulder I noticed Rosalie in the doorway looking awkward. Pulling away from Alice I walked over to Rosalie wrapping my arms around her waist leaning my head against her shoulder as I sobbed my heart out. As much as I could talk to Alice about what had happened, Rosalie understood more than anyone what I was feeling.

"Ssh. Everything will be okay. You're safe now."

"I've been so scared. I would have called sooner but I didn't think I'd be welcome."

"Why on earth would you think that?"

"Because Edward said he didn't want me to come with you. Can't say I blame him. Who'd want me now anyways."

"I know someone who would. Bella, I know we haven't always gotten along, but the past three months, watching Edward the way he is, I'd have given anything just to see him smile again. You're his mate. He needs you just as much as you need him. And he will love that baby like it is his own. Now let's get out of here."

"I pretty much gave up when he left, everything seemed pointless. And then when Jacob raped me. I just fell apart, it was only when I found out about the baby that I realised just how much I needed Edward. I remembered what he said that day to me in the cafeteria about leaving to protect me. And I just let him walk away. I should have fought harder."

"Bella, things happen for a reason. Edward realises now that he can't be without you. As much as it hurt him he needed to see what life was like without you to realise what an idiot he was ever trying to leave you."

Taking a deep breath, I realised in the time that we'd been talking Alice had gathered my belongings and had them secure in the trunk of Rosalie's car, the passenger side door was already open for me. Smiling slightly I got into the car buckling myself in before resting my head against the headrest. For the first time in nearly four months I felt hope. With Rosalie's assurance I no longer believed that Edward didn't love me. I was going home. Edward was my home and he always would be.

The Reunion

I always knew the Cullens were fast drivers, I'd spent enough time as a passenger in Edward's car to realise that. However I didn't expect Rosalie to drive quite so fast. By the time we arrived in Denali I found it hard to gain control over my body. As the car came to a stop, suddenly all my nerves came rushing back to me. It was only when Alice began to unclip my seatbelt I realised I'd frozen in place. Despite Rosalie's assurances now we were actually here, I was frightened that I'd be turned away.

Suddenly I felt familiar arms wrapping around my waist, I knew these arms. These arms were my home. Taking deep breaths, I somehow managed to get my emotions under control, or maybe it was Jasper's influence. Gazing upward I looked straight into Edward's eyes, my breath hitching as I rediscovered his features. Reaching up I traced my hand down his face, stopping at his cheek, smiling as he leaned into it. Leaning forward I kissed his cheek feeling my heart pounding against my chest.

"I missed you."

"I missed you too, love. Can you ever forgive me?"

"There's nothing to forgive."

"How can you forgive me so easily?"

"Because I know why you did it. I remembered what you said that first day we sat together in the cafeteria. You said that if you had to you'd leave. You should have trusted my feelings Edward, I'm not a normal human, and I love you just as much as you love me. I'm yours always. That's if you still want me."

"Why wouldn't I want you?"

"I'm not me anymore, Jacob took that from me."

"Bella you will always be mine. And this baby; is a blessing. He or she is a part of you."

"I was so scared. I love you Edward Cullen."

"I love you too my love."

"Take me inside, please."

"Your wish, my command my love."

Before I could register what was happening I found myself in Edward's new bedroom. Everything looked exactly like it did in his bedroom in Forks. As we neared the bed, I clung onto him for dear life. I didn't want to be away from him. His hand gently caressed my arm, which instantly calmed me. I looked into his eyes before resting my head against his chest, finally letting my emotions out. I could feel us being lowered onto the bed, as I buried my head into Edward's chest more, I could feel the tears beginning to soak into the material.

"I… …I want to tell you what happened."

"Love, you don't have to if you're not ready."

"I'm ready. Although I don't want everyone else to hear the details. I found out the reason why you're unable to hear my thoughts."

"Oh and how did you come across that?"

"Earlier on, when Alice and Rosalie pulled up, I froze because I was scared of how you would react to the baby. They couldn't get to me until you came toward the car and I felt safe again. I'm a shield. I can bring down my shield to allow you into my mind. So if you don't mind I'd like to show you what he did through my thoughts so it doesn't upset the rest of the family."

"Bella. Oh angel, this is the best gift you could ever have given me after yourself and the baby. Of course I want to hear your thoughts even though they are not pleasant."

You'd been gone over a week; Charlie was getting fed up of tiptoeing around me. I knew I was being unreasonable to him; I was hurting him more than I was hurting myself. He watched me go from a happy girl to someone who was a walking Zombie. I decided that I needed to at least try to act normal, I owed Charlie that much, I owed it to you also. At the time I thought you'd given up on me but I needed to at least be normal for the ones I loved even if it meant being half a person.

Jake had been my best friend since we were babies. I'd always trusted him. He was the sun in my gloomy existence. However there was one thing I never expected him to do and that was do the unthinkable and betray our friendship in the worst way imaginable. I'd gone down to LaPush on the spur of the moment I needed to get away from Charlie and his constant nagging at me to pull myself together and get over Edward, easier said than done when he's the one who your meant to be with. I thought at least at LaPush I'd have some fun with Jake. How wrong I was.

I thought something was off the minute that I walked through the door and Billy wheeled himself outside straight away without even looking up at me. Jake sat me down as we started to watch a movie on TV, he knew all of my favourite movies especially Romeo and Juliet, I thought it was strange how he'd choose the one movie that reminded me of Edward, it' felt like he was trying to rub the fact that Edward walked away from me in my face, despite the pain that was threatening to overtake me again I sat through the movie, noticing how Jake's arm started to get further and further around me, as I tensed.

"Jake please stop I don't like you that way."

The tears had started to overflow as my best friend suddenly turned. "You never should have trusted your little bloodsucker; I knew he'd leave you like this. He wasn't good for you, you belong to me and you always will."

I started to pull away, my heart was pounding hard in my chest I'd recently heard from Emmett how Rosalie had been raped and beaten by her former fiancé leaving her to die. As I looked into Jacob's eyes I saw the danger that radiated off him. I grabbed my cell, my hands shaking as I started to dial Alice's number, of course Jake was quicker taking the cell out of my hands and crushing it. My lifeline was gone; I was going to die here. I'd never get the chance to see your face again, my mate. I closed my eyes biting hard on my lip wanting it all to be over. I could feel Jacob's warm breath on my face knowing he was now leaning on top of me. As I glanced down I automatically shuddered as I realised that I was now totally naked, the sickening feeling in my stomach dawned on me what he had planned as I noticed he was also naked. The evil glare apparent on his face.

"You're never going to see your precious Cullen's again Bella or your precious Edward. No one will want you after I've made you mine."

I cowered away. My first time was meant to be special, I was meant to give myself to you. I couldn't watch what I knew he was going to do.

Turning my head I felt the disgusting mutt enter me roughly. I fought and punched trying to get myself free, the more I fought the harder he thrust in and out of me. I could feel the pressure and the pain as he gyrated into me. All I could do was think of you and whether you would even want me after your knew what Jacob had done to me. My body was sore all over by the time he had ejaculated inside me. Once it was over and I could feel him out of me I grabbed my clothes putting them back on even though all I wanted to do was get washed. I looked at Jake and I seriously couldn't believe what he'd just done I wouldn't of believed it if I hadn't been on the receiving end of it. I couldn't stay here a minute longer. I ran and I ran until I reached Charlie's I didn't care that I'd left the truck at LaPush it could stay there for all I cared when I found Alice I'd buy a new one I didn't want any reminders of Jacob Black. Charlie had seemed shocked to see me home so soon. I just ignored him and stormed upstairs pulling at my clothes as I did grabbing the nearest bag I could find and dumped them into it taping it up before I took swabs off my nails and down below. I felt violated all over again.

Once I'd finished recalling the rape in my thoughts, I glanced up at Edward slowly, a little frightened of the emotion I would see in his eyes. However when I saw his eyes, all I saw was pain and sadness. Taking deep breaths, I took hold of his hand gently placing it onto my swollen stomach settling my head against his chest, looking into his eyes, smiling when I saw all the love and devotion in his eyes. In that one look, I knew everything would be okay.

"Where are the rest of the family?"

"Subtly giving us space. They're hunting."

"When they get home, I need to talk to Jasper."

"I think he'd appreciate that. I don't need his ability to know he's been feeling guilty."

"There is nothing to feel guilty about. What else is new I cut myself again; it wasn't his fault he was affected by everyone else's thirst. He must have been in so much pain."

"Say that again."

"Jasper was affected by everyone's thirst that day, most likely yours more than anyone else's since my blood calls to you the most. Now we're together again it's a fresh start. Just promise me to tell me when something is one your mind, instead of deciding for me."

"I promise. And I think your theory is right."

"I'll talk to him in the morning. Right now all I want is for you to hold me and hum my lullaby as I sleep. I always sleep better when I'm in your arms. Maybe you can introduce me to your cousins tomorrow as well."

"I believe that can be arranged."

Snuggling closer to Edward I moved my head so I was resting against his stomach closing my eyes. The minute I heard him start to hum my lullaby I started to drift off into a deep sleep. For the first time in weeks I slept without any nightmares. I finally felt whole again.