Prompt: If I could tell you

Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Characters: Buffy Summers, Rupert Giles

Pairing: none

Summary: There are so many things that Giles would tell Buffy if he could. Set between season 5 and 6.

The sun was shining as the Englishman sat in the grass in front of the simple headstone. His breath smelled like brandy, and his glasses were discarded on the ground.

It was his fault. All of this was his fault. If he hadn't been so self involved Dawn wouldn't be completely without family. If he had protected them better, he wouldn't be Watching a robot.

If he had just told Buffy how proud he was of her, how he enjoyed being her Watcher, how she was an amazing young woman… she still would have done it. He knew it in his heart. It wouldn't have mattered if Buffy's life had been going perfectly sans Hell Bitch, she still would have jumped into that portal, if not to save the world than to save her little sister. Death was her gift. She always did what was right, no matter the cost to herself.

That was what he wanted to tell her the most; how selfless she was. That she wasn't just the Slayer. She was a beautiful young woman who did whatever it took to protect her family. She was a student and a girlfriend. She was a friend and a sister.

Also, she saved the world a lot.