Chapter 2: Please Forgive Me
I was standing outside the Host Club. I was considering going in. I'd spent the whole day lying in Honey's bed crying so I felt that I should at least come to the Host Club. But... I... can't... I can't face them. I can't act happy when I'm dying inside. I can't face my own brother. I gathered my courage and placed my hand on the handle. As I did the memory of what happened engulfed me.
We were sitting at the table with the princesses. It was time for our act so I started cutting a strawberry. I cut off the green then went to cut it in half but I let the knife slip and cut my finger slightly. I whimpered and held my finger.
"Kaoru!" My brother called to me. He pulled me close to him.
"Oh Kaoru, you need to be more careful," he spoke seductively. He took my hand and licked the small amount of blood off my wounded finger. I stared into his closed eyes. It may have just been an act but it did affect me. He released my hand slowly as he opened his eyes.
"Hikaru, you're embarrassing me," I whispered loud enough for the ladies to hear, a blush crossing my face. He held me closer.
"I'm sorry, Kaoru, but you just look so cute," he teased me by tucking my hair behind my ear. He slowly let go of me. We looked back at the ladies who were squealing.
"Are you okay Kaoru?" One asked. I smiled sheepishly.
"It's ok, Hikaru took care of me," I replied. I looked over at Hikaru only to see him looking over the client's heads at Haruhi. He was smiling too.
"Hikaru, what are you looking at?" Another one of the girls asked. I was eager to know the answer too.
"Oh, just looking at Haruhi. He's amazing, isn't he?" Hikaru answered. It wasn't the answer I was expecting. I continued to just look at him with a hurt expression on my face. The ladies were shocked too. He continued to talk about Haruhi and how awesome she is. I sat there for a few seconds, letting Hikaru break my heart. After a moment or two I couldn't take it anymore.
"What about me Hikaru?" I cut him off. He looked at me with a confused look on his face.
"What do you mean 'what about you'?" He asked rudely. I couldn't help the tears that ran down my face. I ran away from Hikaru.
I took my hand off the handle. Tears ran down my face again. At that moment the door opened.
"I'm just gonna go get some more cake... Kao-chan? I thought that you stayed back at my house?" I heard Honey-Sempai's voice ask. In the distance, I thought I heard Hikaru say my name but I didn't care to look. I knew the entire room was looking at me save some super fan girls who were still entranced by their host. I heard a chair shift then I hear the boss speak.
"Alright, everyone, back to business," Tamaki ordered. I heard the door close and hands landed on my shoulders.
"Kaoru, will you tell daddy what happened? Daddy can't help of he doesn't know what happened," Tamaki-Sempai asked. I glowered at him.
"Why don't you go be Haruhi's 'daddy'?" He growled. He had a shocked expression on his face as he slunk back into the music room. I turned away from the room and began my long trek home.
"KAORU!" I heard the familiar voice of my brother call to me. I started to run and he did too. I was crying still.
"GO AWAY HIKARU! THERE'S NO POINT CHASING ME! WE RUN THE SAME SPEED!" I tried to get him to go away. He kept running though and he was gaining on me. Next thing I knew, hands wrapped around my waist and pulled me into a hug from behind.
"Not when you're crying," Hikaru whispered in my ear. I tried to break free but to no avail. Hikaru held me tighter as I stopped struggling.
"I'm sorry," he said. I believed him but I was still mad at him.
"What are you sorry for?" I asked quietly. At that moment he did something I didn't expect. He kissed my neck then answered, "For making you cry and making you sad." I knew he would say that.
"Do you know why I was upset?" He was silent for a while. I didn't dare move. The tension in the air was so thick you could feel it. I knew Hikaru didn't know what he'd done, he could be so thick sometimes especially when it came to love or him doing something wrong.
"No but it was my fault so I'm sorry," he broke the silence.
"Think of what happened, think of what you said," I aided him in trying to figure it out. He shook his head and finally let me go, taking a step back as he did.
"I did. I don't know what it is that I did. I said stuff but I'm not sure what stuff upset you," he started to raise his voice. I turned to face him.
"Just think about it, Hikaru," I encouraged him. He glared at me.
"I ALREADY DID KAORU! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TELL ME?" He was yelling now. I figured he would. When I would resort to sorrow, he resorts to anger.
"DON'T 'HIKARU' ME! I'M TIRED OF THIS! JUST TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG! I'VE BEEN WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU! BUT IT'S NOT JUST ME! MUM AND DAD! THEY'RE WORRIED TOO! SO JUST TELL ME, DAMN I-" I stopped his yelling by doing something that even surprised myself. I kissed him on the lips. When it finally processed through my mind what was going on I instantly pulled away. Hikaru stood still and rigged, utter shock etched into his features. I stared at the ground.
"Hikaru, I-I," I tried to speak but the words just wouldn't come out of my mouth. Instead, Hikaru hugged me. I hugged him back. No words needed to be said; we understood what the other was trying to say.
"I love you too," Hikaru confessed.
An: Um, this is somewhat longer than the last one and not posted on time. I'm sorry about that. I've had too much homework and for a day or two I had slight writer's block. This is the last chapter (if you don't include the epilogue). I take requests if I like the pairing or the person you want as the main character (I have a list of acceptable pairings and people and shows on my profile). I'm getting so much love for this story that it isn't funny. I know that it isn't that many reviews, favourites and follows as other people's fanfics get but to me this is the most I've ever gotten so it feels like a lot. I think I'll be posting the epilogue in about 2 weeks (sorry if that's too long) but if I get it done before hand then I will post it. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. :D Stay Jiggy my friends.