I spread my legs and let her control my body then, though it always seemed our bodies had their own rhythm and even if I didn't make much effort I'd end up touching her center back with my upper thigh until Alex had the strength to hold my wrists on my back, in place so I was reminded of who was in charge. Our bodies were sweating against the cold walls of her apartment for days when we arrived from the Paris trip, her hands were insistent and my own seemed to grow greedier with each new thing I'd learn about her.
Alex was the kind of person who didn't mean to be mysterious, she was open to me, but there was something about her. Each time we'd talk about a different time of our lives, I would discover she had tried so many things in life I never had the interest to pursue. It was kind of like she had opened my eyes not just to the world out there, but to inside myself as well. When I met Alex, I realized studying wasn't all that important because there were so many exciting things to do. I would do anything for her.
"Jesus, stop teasing me." Piper was pressed against the kitchen counter, both legs entwining Alex's legs. The dark haired woman had her fingers on Piper's stomach, sliding them down at times while they kissed feverishly until reaching her thigh, craving it there hard enough to make Piper moan loudly. Then her fingers would go up, touch Piper's clitoris lightly, but Alex wasn't in a rush. She did it repeatedly, smirking to her girlfriend.
"Shush." Alex lowered her head and kissed the gap between Piper's breasts, turning her head to suck on her right nipple right after. Piper curved her toes and spread her legs a little wider, intending to lie down on the counter. She couldn't take it anymore. Alex bit on her nipple multiple times, made it wet enough and let her fall down, supporting the blonde with a hand on her back. Piper didn't take her eyes off her.
Alex put her hands on Piper's both thighs, bringing her to the edge of the counter. She stared at her girlfriend's pussy amazed. "In a moment, sweetie." She kissed Piper's thigh in different spots, going crazy herself. "You're so wet."
Piper looked down and smiled, reaching for Alex's dark locks. "I love the look on your face right now."
Alex continued to kiss her intimately, sucking lightly on a few spots, hard enough for Piper to feel, but not to mark her. She drew her fingers up where they could touch the blonde's hip and got herself up on the counter, instantly being pulled by Piper for the most heated kiss they had shared that day. Piper closed her eyes tightly when she felt Alex's two fingers finally entering her and brought her own hands up to caress her, using one to pull Alex's neck closer so their lips would remain the closest possible even if she couldn't close her own due to the unstoppable moaning she was up to, and the other grabbed Alex's breast.
Alex fucked her fast, mercilessly, like Piper had asked her to right on their first encounter. The blonde bit her bottom lip and forced her head up to kiss Alex's neck then, ready to let go. "I'm almost – oh-"
The older woman curved her fingers a last time before suddenly getting up and off the counter, grabbing Piper's arm.
"What? No!" Piper panted looking horrified, she couldn't move. She got up and supported herself with her elbows right there. "What are you doing?!"
"We're not gonna do every corner if we stay each time in an only place." Alex got closer and, seeing Piper wouldn't move no matter what she said, took her in her arms, running to the bedroom. Piper complained like an old lady and Alex laughed.
Inside there, the blonde shook herself off Alex's arms and jumped on the bed, pulling her girlfriend by her shoulders.
"Now you're screwed." She gave away an evil smile.
This time, Piper threw Alex onto the bed, getting on top. She put one of her legs directly on Alex's center and the other aside, making Alex's right leg be between her own. She pressed her own and lay down forcing her whole body upon her girlfriend's, making her moan instantly.
"Oh my god, Piper" Alex arched her pelvis, making her pussy meet right with Piper's thigh and moaned more. They kept going like that, Piper feeling a little of that power of being on top, and when she noticed Alex was going to lose it, she took her hand down to add more pressure to the mix of feelings Alex was having. Her own center was throbbing and her arm that was supporting her upon the brunette trembled hard, and it took a few more seconds for the two women to climax hard together, both bodies shaking hard against one another as if they were only one.
Piper fell down beside Alex, taking her hand when she was able to regain her breath.
"That was… oh." She sighed aloud. "wow."
Alex laughed. "That was fucking amazing." She rolled again and kissed Piper slowly. "I think I'm hungry now," she laughed again. "We've been having sex for the entire afternoon."
Piper smiled, kissing Alex's nose. "I can cook something for us after we shower."
Alex arched an eyebrow. "Together?"
They laughed. "Of course."
I wish I could explain what happened to me that I'm no longer able to love like that anymore. My sex life with Larry was never close to that. I liked to think it was because when I met Alex I was much younger, inexperienced; as I said before, I wanted things. With Larry, things were normal. Like they were supposed to be, I supposed. But not really. Because then I found Alex again and I want her like that again, wasn't I so terrified.
I wish I could explain how the hell I was able to leave her when she needed me the most, even though she had hurt me the way she had. She had given me too much for me to do that. Now that I don't have anything to do in here, I'm sure that I'd have given out my name as well after so much betrayal, after so much time without seeing me. If I was her, I mean. Do I make any sense? Sometimes I think that I'm starting to get crazy.
Everything I touch turns cold. Before I was sent to this Psych area, I would try to make my feet and hands warm, but strangely they were always cold, like there wasn't any blood running inside my veins. I can't remember if outside prison I used to feel like this, but Larry never complained or even seemed to notice.
Alex though… Alex did.
"Jesus, your hands are freezing. You're giving it to me."
"Sorry." Piper took her hands from Alex's, turning away and biting her bottom lip.
In that same day, Alex cried on my shoulders, but I felt like I couldn't make anything better, like I was infected. We were simply stuck in this place and I saw no way I could give her the love she deserved. I felt cold on the inside too, and all of my organs started to hurt, one by one, growing belief on the idea I was not enough. It's hard to explain, really, but I felt scared of myself and that affected the way I felt about Alex. Our connection was breaking, day after day, until I chose Larry. But I understand it was my entire fault. If I had asked her to warm up my hands, she would have, just like she had warmed up my sheets all those years ago. The problem would be solved.
The thing is, my hands are always so cold, but so is my heart. How do you fix that?
A tear rolled down my face and sudden steps came closer my room until someone unlocked the door and pushed it strongly, opening it wide open. It revealed Mrs. Healy, using those stupid clothes, like he does much for his job anyway to deserve the police uniform. Before Litchfield, I was always on these guys' side.
"You look like hell." The bastard took out a pen from his pockets and looked down at some piece of paper he was grabbing. I frowned and tried my hardest not to stare at him, sure I would not be able to contain myself. I wanted to jump right on the asshole's neck.
Right behind him walked in a nurse, the usual petite clumsy girl that never answers my questions or jokes about how the weather is always the same in this room. She carried a coffee cup that contained my pills, followed by a cup of water that I knew would keep me going until my next meal. I waited for her to hand me both cups in my bed, on my sitting position, not planning to act alike anything while that man was inside my cage. I nodded and curved my lips on a thin line when I was done, and she left, not before stumbling right in front Mrs. Healy on the way out. I kept my head down.
He laughed and looked at me, closing the door behind the girl. "Those pills must be doing something real serious to your brain. Sure you're alive?"
I wasn't going to lose my control. I couldn't kill another.
Hearing the sound of a giggle, I looked up, bored. "What do you want?"
"You see, Chapman, your life out there isn't gonna be easy."
"When am I ever going…"
"Shhh." Mrs. Healy frowned and waved his hands down, making motion for me to stay quiet. I could feel the anger rising up inside of me. I bit my lip. "Now you let me finish. You see, Chapman, since the day you first chose to become a lesbian in here, things became a little hard on you. I warned you to stay away from the dykes. Things would have been so much easier…" he took two steps closer, until his hand could reach my hair. Mrs. Healy pulled on my blonde strands and pressed my head against the cold wall, running his fingers on my cheeks. I felt humiliated. "You're so pretty, Piper."
I tried to put some strength and push him away, but I knew the more I did, the worst things would get. From the message I had gotten from detective Graham, Mrs. Healy was telling lies about what had actually happened. And that was obvious he would do, unless he had regretted his actions that night… which was also obvious he had not. He was a monster.
"I wish I could use you some of these times."
I groaned, repulsed by the thought, as he finally let go of me. I looked at him straight in the eyes for the first time and yelled.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!" Tears rolled down from my eyes and I could now escape them any longer.
Mrs. Healy got up and smirked, opening the door to leave. He turned to me to announce: "I just came in to say they're taking you back with the girls in the morning. Congratulations, you've been declared sane. I can't wait to know how much more time you're gonna get on your new trial."