Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me, the belong to the creator of BtVS.

*A/N: Hey! This is my first fanfic ever. Ummm.. It is a complete Spuffy. I would really like some feed bad bad and good. I will take ideas for the story , like suggestions for plots or ya know.. Well please enjoy and don't forget to ReViEw!

I Just Couldn't Let You.. By: Undefined

As he walks down the road, the same road that he has been walking on for the past week, he thinks about where everything went wrong. Was it when Captain Cardboard came back and he still pushed it? Or was it the night.... He just couldn't think about or he'd have a break down like the last time. He tried to think about something else.

As he looked up he noticed that it was one of those nights where you could see every star in the night sky. He felt as if he were back in Africa. But then reality hit him and he realized where he really was.

As he continues to walk he notices where he is and comes to a complete stop. It the Summer's home. He notices that the light in Buffy's room turns on, and she steps in front of the window. He noticed something in her hand. He suddenly realizes what it is, so he runs up to the house, slams the door open and bolts up the stairs and bursts into Buffy's room.

"What are you trying to do?!?!" he says looking like he's about to die..again. "SPIKE!!!" she said startledly "what do you mean.?" " I saw you in the window, holding the knife. And I don't care how much you hate me, I just couldn't let you do it. I couldn't let you kill yourself" he said trying to catch his breath. "First of all I don't hate you at all, just a little disappointed in you" she said, letting the fact the he was finally home sink in " and it's not a knife it's the remote to my stereo. It might feel like my heart is breaking and that apart of me is missing because you left, but I could never take my own life. Not now that you're back. Which, by the way, I've known for the last week that you were home. I just couldn't get up enough nerve to walk out to your crypt."

Mean while Spike is just standing there with this awkward look on his face. He looks happy and sad and terrified at the same time. Terrified that he could loose her again.

"Oh" was all that he could master out.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Down stairs in the kitchen Spike and Buffy are sitting across from each other on the island. They're not really talking just sorta that uncomfortable silence and just looking at each other.

"So, where's the rest of the gang?" Spikes voice broke the silence between the old enemies. "Oh, well Xander, Anya and Dawn went on vacation for a week, they left this morning. I don't really remember the name of the beach that they went to. And Willow went back to England with Giles and she is in a Coven trying to get rid of her powers." " Well that's neat. I have heard about Willow going all 'Big Bad' on you guys. Trying to end the word was nothing, but trying to turn lil'bit into a great big ball of energy doesn't go over with me well, but I know she didn't mean it." He said sorta regretting bringing up what was probably a sore subject for her. " Sorry luv, should have send it. But, ummm. it's getting kinda early and the sun's gonna be up soon, so..."

"Of course, but Spike, we still have some stuff to talk about. A lot of stuff."

"Alright. How's tomorrow night, I'll be here for 8?"

"That's great"

As he turned to leave..


As he turned around to face her, she walked up to him and just hugged him. She had never really hugged him before. He wasn't sure of what to do at first but the he relaxed and started to hug back. He never that such a little thing, such as a hug, could feel so good.

"I'm glad you came back Spike, I really am." She whispered in his ear. "Me too, Luv, me too" and with that he kissed he on the top of the head and left.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * After Spike had left, Buffy's mind was buzzing with all kinds of things. Spike seemed different somehow, although, she couldn't place exactly what. But she would just have to wait until tomorrow to find out.


No it's not the end of the story I just haven't written the rest yet, it should be up in the next 3 - 4 days. If you have ideas that you might like to see in the story just write it in the review or email me at jjc1330@joshhartnett.com. Please review and keep reading!!!!