Okay guys! This is my new fanfic, and I'm super excited for it. NO, IT IS NOT AUSTIN AND ALLY. But, I've tagged it so because I wanted all my readers to check this out. Please let me know what you think!
Everything is being consumed. Darkness envelops me. I feel myself thrashing each and every way, trying to maintain my footing. But I fall. My heart is in my throat, I can't even make out a scream.
That's all I hear. Silence.
I sense everything around me vanishing. Left. Forgotten. Only I remain.
I am still falling. When will it stop?
I am sucked even deeper in. I can't see, I can't move. My body is numb. If only I could have a light. A light within this darkness. Maybe I could see where I am.
Who I am.
And there it is. Immediately to my front I see a blazing light. A light so magnificent, so great, that I was drawn towards its beauty. My floating body tried to make its way toward the light, but it felt as if I was tethered down.
No. I must find a way to that great light.
I put all my strength into this, moving my arms and legs, and I inch myself over to the blinding light. I can barely move, each inch forward feels like the weight of the sky on my shoulders. But, I must move forward. I must make it to the light.
My arms reach out, wanting to hold the light, when suddenly I'm free. I'm free from the pull on my body.
I move freely to the light. When I am finally under its protection, I turn around to face my enemy.
The force that had been holding me back was gone.
All that was left, was darkness.
Turning back towards the light, I realized that I had found the one star within a deadly black hole.
Rubbing my eyes, I find the courage to open my eyes. The sunlight pours through my window, putting a squint on my face. The time on the clock reminds me that nothing is infinite. Nothing can stay forever. Nothing gold can stay.
I roll out of bed, wanting nothing more than to live within my dreams. Dreams are a place to escape reality. However, you cannot dream something that doesn't exist. Your brain literally takes your reality, and twists it into what you truly desire.
Now, what does that say for me? I dream of being sucked into black holes. Let me tell you, that is definitely not something I desire. However, the only true peace I have ever felt in life is when I reach that light, that star.
I guess you could say it is a recurring dream. In fact, I have never had another dream, besides that one.
Whatever this light represents, well, it is the best thing in my existence.
I know what you're thinking. This girl must have a crappy life if a star, in a dream, is what makes her the happiest. Well, yeah I guess you could say that. My life isn't all rainbows and butterflies.
In fact, I'll prove that.
My name is Stella, which I believe means star. I am 18 years old and I have never had a family. I guess you could say my parents ditched me. Apparently I was more than they could handle at 17 and 18 years old. As an infant, I was left in a park, with the sure intent that I would die.
Morbid, I know.
And that day...I died.
I'm totally kidding, I mean, obviously.
I was found that day by a girl named Ava Nova. Ava was obsessed with the night sky, which is how I received the name of Stella Nova. Ava raised me for 13 years. She would take me with her to deserted fields, and we would watch the night sky together for hours and hours.
However, nothing gold can stay. I woke up one morning after a long night looking through the telescope we had, and everything was normal. However, it was quiet. Too quiet.
I made my way around our little house, hoping to find some sign of Ava. I found nothing. She wasn't in the house, she hadn't left a note. We didn't have a phone, and there was no way Ava could have afforded a cell phone.
I waited for days, hoping she would just come back to the house. I waited in vain. No one ever came.
Alone at 13 years old, with no money and no family, I ventured out onto the streets of Doncaster.
I knew no one. Ava had never sent me to school, she thought it'd be better if I learned to read and write from her while learning of the stars. Everyone I passed was a stranger.
Where could I go?
I walked around aimlessly, knowing that soon it would get dark, I would become hungry, and it wouldn't be safe to be out in the streets.
I ended at a park, taking a seat on a swing. The sun was just beginning to set, lighting the sky with beautiful oranges, pinks, and purples.
Finally, everything hit me.
I had been abandoned. Again.
I had thought Ava loved me. She had said so. I guess in the long run, I was too much of a burden for her as well.
I began to let the tears roll down my cheeks as I slowly went back and forth on the swing before coming to a complete stop. I couldn't help the tears from falling.
"Are you okay?"
I looked up to see a boy with messy brown hair looking down on me. He seemed to be a few years older than myself, and I was immediately frightened.
"Um. Uh. I-I, I have to go."
I hopped up from the swing, tears still falling down my cheeks. I had to get away from this boy. I knew it was dangerous to be out here, but I didn't know something would actually happen.
I backed away from the boy, and I guess he could tell I was scared.
"Hey, I'm not going to hurt you."
I stopped in my tracks, looking wide eyed at the boy. He said he won't hurt me. He sounded like he meant it. But, could I trust him?
"I promise I will not hurt you. Everything is okay. My name is Louis, what's yours?"
Should I tell him? He seems so nice, but then again, I've never talked to anyone besides Ava. Stella, its now or never. Leap of faith, or recede into darkness?
"It's nice to meet you Stella. Now, could you tell me what you're doing out here?"
What I'm doing out here? Doesn't he know not to talk to me? Ava always told me not to talk to the other children nearby, because they wouldn't want to talk to me. Why is he talking to me?
"Why do you care?"
"You look so sad. I hate when people are sad."
He seemed so genuine, that I just had to tell him.
"I have no where to go."
"What do you mean?"
"Ava left me. I have no where to go."
I looked up into Louis' eyes, seeing them widen and become sad. I didn't want to make this boy sad. He seemed so happy before.
"What are you apologizing for?" He seemed shocked that I would even dare to apologize.
"I made you sad."
He laughed and I looked back into his eyes.
"Stella, you did absolutely no such thing. How about you come with me?"
I knew I should be frightened, but he seemed so trustworthy that I automatically agreed.
He seemed to think, "How about we go back to my house?"
His house? "Are you sure?"
He smiled hugely and said, "Of course!"
He then grabbed my hand and dragged me along with him, making me laugh for the first time in years. He looked over at me at the sound, and my cheeks immediately blushed and I became embarrassed, knowing I had just made a fool of myself.
He seemed to notice and said, "No, no, no. Your laugh is adorable."
He led me down the street and it began to be very dark. He never once let go of my hand. I used to welcome the dark, spending all of my nights outside looking up into it. However, now it was unwelcoming, making me remember the abandonment.
I suppose the dark would never be the same again. It would always stand for being left behind.
Louis eventually led me up the steps to a cute, little house. He swung the door open, pulling my hesitant body inside.
"Mum!" He yelled to apparently no one.
He turned to me, "Stella, you can just sit right here," pointing to a couch, "I'll go talk to my mum real quick."
He walked away, and I started to panic. He left me alone. He's never coming back. Why would he take me here if he only planned on leaving me?
"Who are you?"
I turned towards the sound, and I noticed someone else had come through the front door. It was a girl, probably about my age.
"Um. I'm Stella."
She seemed to relax after that. "Oh, well hi Stella. I'm Lacey. Do you know where Louis is? We were supposed to hang out."
Hang out? So Louis and Lacey must be friends.
"Uhm, I think he went to talk to his mum."
"Oh, okay. I'll just wait in here with you then. Are you friends with Louis?"
Friends with Louis? Is she serious? "I don't have friends."
She gasped and I jumped back slightly. "What do you mean you don't have friends?"
I shrugged, scared to admit it again. "I've just never had any friends. You're actually one of the only people I've ever talked to."
She seemed stunned, but she recovered quickly. "Well, then Stella, -wait, can I call you Ella?"
Ella? I like that actually. I nodded.
"Okay, then Ella. You're officially my new best friend."
She smiled hugely and came in for a hug. I didn't know what to do, so I just sat there awkwardly.
"What about me?" I heard another voice add in.
I turned around and saw Louis standing in the doorway.
"I want to be best friends with Ella too!"
I was stunned. Why would they want to be friends with ME?
They both pulled me in for another hug, and this time, I let my arms fall loosely around their waists, and they pulled me in tighter.
"Ella, my mum would like to speak with you in the kitchen."
I looked at Louis with wide eyes. He laughed slightly at my discomfort. "It's okay, love. She won't hurt you either. Do you want me to come with you?"
I nodded quickly and he pulled me into the kitchen.
Now, I'll save you all of the dialogue from that day. Most of it I can't remember anyway. What I do remember though is that that day was a turning point. Louis' mum wanted to speak with me, get the full story out of me. When she heard that I had nowhere to go, she offered me to stay there. I graciously accepted her offer, and I've been living with the Tomlinson's ever since.
Louis became my very best friend, and like a brother to me. Lacey has also been my best friend.
I felt like finally something was going right in my life. I had found the light I had been searching so hard for.
I'm sure you are all aware of my best friend. I mean, who nowadays hasn't heard of Louis Tomlinson? The swagmasta from Doncaster?
Yeah, that's right. Louis auditioned for the X Factor, and became a part of One Direction. I haven't seen him for a while and I haven't met the band. He calls a lot, but he's been too busy to come visit.
Sometimes its hard, and I know that I'll soon give up. Sometimes the darkness takes me. When Louis or Lacey are around, I'm surrounded by the light, but not nearly as intense as in my dream. Something hasn't happened.
I receded further into darkness when Louis became a part of One Direction. However, on my darkest days, I think of something Louis said to me on the second day I ever knew him.
"Stella Nova, Ella, I will never, not in a million years, EVER leave you."