A/N: I was so stupid yesterday, I do not know what I was thinking. I was going to say tomorrow but I put tonight. So I apologise for the confusion. Here's chapter 14.
"Meet Mello." Nate says in a calm tone as he gestures to the boy by his side, what was he playing at? L did the exact same thing, and he lost so why would you purposely seek to choose the same path as him. How can someone be a genius and yet be stupid at the same time?
"Mello? Nate, what-"
"From now on, Touta Matsuda, I'm reffered to as N. For obvious reasons, of course. This Kira might just need a face to kill but every criminal that 'Kira' has killed has been broadcasted on TV."
"But we can't stop broadcasting criminals on TV, he's holding the world hostage." I protest.
"They would just kill innocents." M spits out in disgust, looking over at Nate with a small shrug. Nate made his way to the front desk, where we were monitoring Misa and Sayu. Please, stop. Just stop with everything, with the childish toys and dice. Sayu isn't the Kira we're up against, I'd know. I live with her! As she said, all I can do now is help her clear her name. That's the only thing you can do, Touta.
"God damn, N. L already died because of doing what we're doing, this shouldn't be our move." M argues, looking at the screens. "He should of killed that-"
"M," Nate puts his hand on Mello's shoulder awkwardly, trying to comfort him. "We both know it was a lot more complex than that. All we can do now is honor him."
"By what?!" Mello shouts, looking at Nate with a deep fury in his eyes. Nate is more like L, he is calm, he speaks like L and you can see him in deep thought as he thinks things over. It made me miss L, like you would do with an old friend. "Killing ourselves!? That's not how you honor someone."
"Mello, please calm down." Nate says in a disinterested tone, looking at the dice in his hand before dropping them on the floor. M takes a seat in the back, no one dares to watch him as he does. He's the other L, really?
I didn't want to think, I didn't want to feel anymore. I felt like my brain kept switching from Kira to the old Sayu, the broken one. Why? I'm not the victim anymore, my brother has given me the greatest gift of all. Justice.
My eyes close eventually and my reality is slowly taken over by a dream...
"Be careful what you do, because God is watching your every move..." I hear Misa singing and I open my eyes, only to see Light standing in front of me.
"Stop haunting me!" I scream, but I dive into him nonetheless. I snake my arms around him, searching for a response or something. Searching for Light Yagami, not Kira.
"Hold my hand in the dark street, for if you do I'll know that I'll be safe.." Stop! Does this mean something or is this my subconscious teasing me? I eventually feel Light hugging me back, I wish this was real but it's only the material of my mind.
"Sayu..." Light says, pulling away to look at me. "There was L, M and N." L stands for the first detective, N was the detective I had read in those emails so now there's an M too? Why are they all focusing on Misa and I? No. Other. Suspects.
"Even if I'm far away and alone, I can be sure you'll find me there... This I know..."
"There's another detective." I mutter and Light confirms this with a small nod. "Light, why? Why were you Kira?"
"Because justice, no matter what, needs to be served. I was the only one and now it's you... Don't make me wrong, Sayu..." Eventually he fades out and it's just darkness, why is this happening? Is this real?
Something or someone taps my shoulder and I spin quickly to face them, who is this person? I've never seen them before, they've got black hair and rather dark bags under their eyes. They're almost hunched over as well, probably due to the technology we have these days or an unusal sitting habit?
"I'm L." He says, taking the red lollipop out of his mouth for just a moment.
"You draw me close for a while, so quiet. You tell me everything." I'm speechless, why would someone I have never seen before make an appearance in my dream? I can't speak, I just stare.
"It's not too late, don't be like your brother." He mutters, looking directly at me but it seems like he's looking through me. "Deny the Death Note, and don't be Light. As I figured him out, N will figure both of you out as well. It's not too late."
Darkness again, and then there's just me and the constant music in the background. "If I forget what you say, then you come to me and tell me again. Yes, you tell me once again."
What if I was supposed to be Kira? And what if L is right?
I'm not sure who I side with anymore, do I take L's advice? No, no, no. I can take on N and M, bring it on. This is a game, my life is a game, and I shall win. Justice needs to be served, like Light said. Light is my brother, Light is mine.
"I deny your advice, L! I deny you." I screech.
"But what happens when, I know it all then. What should I do after that? What then?" This time the singing is from directly behind me, I spin and face the decaying corpse of Misa. Oh, God! This is horrfic, she turns into bones.
Please, no! She falls on me, she's crushing me!
A scream pierces the room and I jolt upright in my bed, sweat masking my forehead. Was it a test? I pull my knees to my chest and sob as Misa's song fills my mind. Be careful what you do, because God is watching your every move. God.
I've failed everyone, and the person who I've failed the most is Light. I can't do anything, can I? Light, you've chose the wrong person all over again. Light needs you, Sayu. Pull yourself together.
Immediately arms embrace me and I move backwards, falling off the bed.
"Get away!" I yell, my mind crumbling. Is this what it feels like to be broken? I forgot. "Light, stop haunting me!"
"Sayu? It's me, Matsuda."
Having justice in my hands, the power all in my hands made me take this frenzy. I began killing straight away, I had killed ten people in the first week and in the second week fourteen.
"It would be a lot easier killing people with the eyes." Ryuk grumbles, looking at me sharply. We didn't get along much.
"No, the second Kira has the eyes. It said in the broadcast remember? It's only the first Kira who didn't have them and they're gone now. My guess is the second Kira has taken over Light Yagami's work." I say, writing four names in the death note.
A man who killed his family.
A woman who beat her husband to death.
A serial killer.
These kinds of people are rotten, and when they're gone the world will be a better place for everyone. I am just eliminating those who cause a menace to society. I am doing what's right in this world.
I'm doing it for you, Kira.
I'm doing it for everyone...
But most importantly, I'm doing it for myself.
A/N: That song is not mine, it featured in the anime of Death Note and I'm not sure if it was in any other of the Death Note chain thing. 3 Here is the link if you would like to view it on YouTube:
I'm really sorry about that, I had already planned ahead and wrote that for when I was going to be discharged. It was like 2 AM, I'm super sorry! I WILL be uploading more today as I meant for that to be shown today.
-Lawliet's female version.