So, here's what happened: School and writer's block.
These are the reasons why I have not been able to update this story. Whenever I found time to write it, I just couldn't think of any ideas. I have everything written out and planned for the ending parts, but the story reached this awkward middle part where I have no idea what to say. So, I decided for some major Percabeth development. Alright, enough about this rant, please enjoy! Oh and thank you all for being so patient during my leave of absence.
Disclaimer: I do not own Perseus Jackson. All rights to Rick!
I can't fucking believe it.
They actually replaced me! I'm so surprised right now I can barely speak. Honest to God I never would have imagined them having any more children after me. I mean sure, I was a lot to deal with, but they weren't exactly parents of the year either. And yet here they are with twin boys! Looking like a perfect, little, happy fucking family.
"Are you okay?"
I don't respond to his question. How can I be okay with any of this? It pisses me off and depresses me all at the same time. Why couldn't I be there? Why couldn't I be the one they smiled at and gave loving hugs to? Why couldn't I be the one with a family?
Stop it Annabeth. You're being whiny. Who needs them anyways?
I then feel a thumb softly touch my cheek, but my stare doesn't break away from the family in front of me.
"Annabeth," Percy whispers "please don't cry."
Was I crying? Gods I'm such a wuss. It seems I've been doing that a lot today. What with seeing the parents that abandoned me and having Percy getting stabbed with Luke's sword.
Godsdammit Percy's such an idiot! He shouldn't have stepped in the fucking way! It should have been me getting hurt, not him! The scream that left his mouth when he fell to the ground tore my heart apart more than it should have. He lost so much blood that I was scared he wouldn't make it. And when I was patching up his cut, I couldn't help but think that it was all my fault.
I wiped the remaining tears that were threatening to fall with the back of my hand. "I'm not crying."
Percy grabbed my shoulders and tore my gaze away from the window. "You can't dwell on the past Annabeth. Those people in there, they aren't your family. Family are the people that make you feel safe. That love you. That make you feel like home. Who makes you feel that way?"
He releases my shoulders and blushes a deep red.
Oh shit did I just day that out loud?!
"I-I mean, you and Thalia, and Nico, and Chiron" I stutter. "'Cause, you know... You guys are all awesome and nice and stuff."
Awesome and nice?... What the hell is wrong with you?! What happened to the girl who doesn't give a shit about anyone or anything? Where's the girl who has been able to look people in the eye and scare them out of their pants?
I can't even look at Percy's face right now. Slowly, but surely he's been able to wash away that uncaring girl. He's changed me. He's squirmed his way through the cracks in my walls. I want to hug him (which is a strange urge for me), but also punch him for being an annoying little shit. Emotions are confusing.
"Right" he says and I can hear the hint of a smirk in his voice. "Come on, we don't want the others wondering where we are."
I only nod, since I don't trust my voice, and take one last look at the family inside. Just as I'm turning my head, I notice the water jug they had on the table spill all over their dinner. I look at Percy and raise an eyebrow. He just smiles and puts an arm around my waist. And this time, I don't hesitate or pull away.
There's no denying it now. As much as I tried to avoid and stop this from ever happening... I knew somewhere deep inside me that this was inevitable. So I erased the thoughts of my ex-family, the mission, and my impending death out of my mind. Right now, at this moment, it's just Percy and I. Seaweed Brain and Wise Girl.
I can't run away from it any longer. Percy Jackson has taken my heart.
Once Percy and I made it back to the park, we realized Thalia and Nico weren't there.
"Where the hell are they?" Percy asked. "They wouldn't just leave for no reason."
A sense of worry washed over me as I looked over our campsite. The place has been ransacked. The fire was gone, our supplies were all over the place, and there was no sign of life to be found. As I looked over at Percy, I could tell he was having the same thoughts as I was.
"You don't think Luke found them do you?" I could hear the desperation in his voice. Thalia and Nico were his family by blood now, and he obviously cared about them a lot.
"I'm not sure Percy, but I'm not going to lie to you. It could be a possibility, but they're strong. They could have escaped and-"
My sentence was cut off by a small beeping sound. Near the fire pit, was a small device that looked similar to a watch. It had a circular screen that was blinking a bright red in time with the beeps. Percy's eyebrows shot up once he realized what it was.
"Chiron gave this to us so we can communicate with each other when we're apart" he explained. "Thalia or Nico must have left it behind." He pressed a button on the side of the screen and the faces of two familiar people appeared. I almost cried in relief.
"Annabeth! Percy!" Thalia exclaimed "Are you guys okay?"
"We're fine" Percy responded. "Where are you guys? What happened?"
"Luke happened" Nico answered. "While you guys were off to God knows where, we heard them coming and bolted. They followed us though, but don't worry, we found refuge in a mall close by."
"Do you want us to meet you there?" I asked.
Thalia shook her head. "No, it will just waste time. Meet us at the warehouse at midnight. We'll wait for you there."
"I suggest you don't take the bus though" Nico warned. "Luke has his henchmen at every stop."
"Okay" Percy agreed. "We'll see you there. Call us if anything happens."
"Don't worry Kelp Head" Thalia said with a sly grin. "We'll be careful. Don't miss us too much!" She then winked and the screen went black.
Percy sighed. "How are we supposed to get there if we can't take the bus? Walking will take way too long."
A mischievous smile spread across my face. "Well, I might know someone who can lend us their wheels."
"I can't believe you stole another car."
Percy was shaking his head disapprovingly at me while he drove the Camaro towards the warehouse. "I wouldn't call it 'stealing'" I argued. "I'd look at it more as 'borrowing without really caring'."
I knew he didn't want to show it, but his lips quirked up a bit. "It's still stealing."
"The guy's a jerk anyways. He needs a little kick in the ass every now and then."
"You said you got the car from your neighbor?"
I nodded. "He's an asshole. He's rude to everyone and I swear I've never seen him sober. He probably won't even realize the car's gone."
We still had some time before we had to meet Nico and Thalia at the warehouse, so we stopped by a local burger place and ate along the way. Once we finally reached our destination, it was so dark you could barely see anything. It was hard for Percy to drive through the dirt trail and not crash into any trees, but we were able to make it safe and sound.
We were careful to park a good distance away so that our position wouldn't be discovered, but that we could still see the warehouse in the distance. It was hard to make out, but there were little lights around the building to make it noticeable enough. We continued to eat our late dinner as I checked the time on the dashboard.
"It's 11:42, we're earlier than expected, but Thalia and Nico should be arriving soon."
"So we've got some free time" Percy said as he munched on a handful of fries. "Wanna play our question game?"
"Sure, I'll go first."
We played the game for a few minutes. Laughing at each other's embarrassing stories and smiling at the good memories. It felt relaxing. Like I was hanging out with a friend on a Friday night or something. Everything with Percy seems so easy. Well, except for the fact of liking him way more than I should. He's different than other people. And I just wish that maybe my vision will be wrong. Maybe I won't die, and then Percy and I could have an actual future together. As friends or... Hopefully, something beyond that. Gods, I'm sounding like those girls you see in those corny television programs.
"Okay, I have one" he states, but doesn't look at me in the eye. "So, I know you've never been in a relationship before... But would you like to be in one?"
Where's he getting at? He couldn't actually be asking to be- No. Don't get ahead of yourself Annabeth.
"Umm... I guess. I mean, it would be nice, but it would be sort of difficult."
"How come?" he asked, his eyebrows furrowing in the way that makes him look so cute that my tongue gets twisted.
I lean on my side against the seat. "Because I'd have to tell whoever I liked about my powers. I've learned that relationships are all about trust, and if I didn't trust him enough to tell him about my abilities, then I couldn't be with them. I can't be in a relationship based on lies."
"I know about your abilities" he mumbled softly. He said it so quietly I almost didn't hear him.
I smirked. "Are you suggesting that we date?" I raised an eyebrow at him as his face turned so red, Clifford the dog would be jealous.
"I-I, well, umm" he stuttered. He looked so adorable when he was flustered. "Just ask another question please."
I laughed lightly. I started to ponder on what I could ask him, and a thought came into my head. I already knew the answer, but I honestly couldn't resist. It was a selfish question to ask, and yet I wanted to hear him say it. I really shouldn't do this. I mean, the whole resisting him plan was so that this wouldn't happen, but we all know how great that turned out. I ended up falling for him anyways and I'm pretty darn sure that he likes me too... But I just had to ask.
"Have you ever loved anyone?"
His face paled instantly and there was a long pause before he answered "Yeah. I love my mom."
I laughed. "No, I mean as in a girl. Not family. Have you ever fallen in love with a girl before?"
He didn't look me in the eye. Instead, he stared at the warehouse, looking deep in thought. It seemed as if he were contemplating on telling me or not. Finally, after what felt like hours, he said "You win."
"Huh?" I asked, completely confused.
He stared at his lap. "I can't answer the question. So you win the game." Wow. I didn't see that coming. He refused to answer and now, for the first time in years, I didn't know what to do.
After a long pause he spoke again. "So... What prize did you choose?" I gave him a questioning look and he elaborated. "We agreed that whoever won would get a prize. What prize did you pick."
I contemplated. Maybe a month's worth of pizza? Oh, or maybe some new books, I've been meaning to update my library. I was going to tell Percy that I had made my decision when my breath caught in my throat.
The moonlight was shining on his face and his bright green eyes glowed in the darkness. His cheeks were a slight tint of pink (probably from all the blushing) and his lips, Gods, have they always looked so tempting? It felt like I was looking at a painting. This boy in front of me couldn't be real. He couldn't just sit there with his casual lopsided grin on his face and a ketchup stain on his shirt and still look so undeniably incredible.
My heart pounded in my chest. I was afraid he would hear it from how hard it was beating. I wasn't thinking anymore. I was acting on impulse. I didn't care about the consequences or that I might be dying in the next twenty-four hours. I didn't care. All I cared about was him. Percy. My Seaweed Brain. The boy who has been there for me from the start. And who will be there for me in the end.
His eyes were as wide as saucers. "W-What?"
"That's what I've chosen. I want you to kiss me."
He started wringing his hands together while taking ragged breaths. His nervousness was coming off of him in waves. I put my hands on his when I noticed that they were slightly trembling. We locked eyes. We were so close I could feel his hot breath on my face. His eyes, that I had always thought were so mesmerizing from afar, are even more hypnotizing up close.
"You don't have to do it, you know" I whispered. "I can choose something else."
He took a deep breath and shook his head. "No, I want to." I could feel my face heating up and my blood pressure skyrocketing as he leaned his forehead against mine. He then searched my eyes and said softly "Are you sure?"
"More than anything."
And with that, he leaned in the rest of the way and I was very much kissing Percy Jackson.
It was slow, and cautious, and perfect. His lips were so warm, and soft and slightly salty, but I loved it. Our lips moved in a way that just left me dizzy and I could feel the butterflies swirling in my stomach. He pulled back slightly and his eyes fluttered open. He looked at me questioningly as if asking Was that okay?. But Gods, it was better than okay! Percy was my first kiss and he made the experience better than I would have imagined.
I then put my arms around his neck as he put one hand on my cheek and the other on my waist to pull me closer. And then, we were kissing again. It was different this time though. It was hungry and passionate, and as his hands moved to my hair, the fireworks burst behind my eyelids.
We didn't stop. We couldn't stop. His kisses were an addictive drug and damn it, I never want the supply to end. How had I gone this long without it? It was ridiculous how amazing he was making me feel. He was kissing me with so much caring, sweetness, and love, it overwhelmed my entire being. I wanted him. I needed him. And Gods, I could barely breathe from how roughly we were kissing.
We broke apart for air, but we weren't close to finishing just yet. He pulled me onto his lap so that I was straddling his waist and kissed me again. And again. And again. There was so much longing and desperation. Like he has been wanting to kiss me for so long and I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't kissing him back the same way.
Before I knew what was happening, his shirt was off and he was kissing my neck. I ran my fingers through his hair and moaned softly. Suddenly, I realized the position we were in. We were moving way too fast. The heat of the car was becoming unbearable. What was I doing? What if I didn't come back from this mission alive? What if my vision had been right all along? I can't be playing with Percy's feelings like this. I needed to stop this.
But then he pulled back from my neck and whispered near my lips "You're so beautiful Annabeth. I like you so much. You're everything I ever asked for. You're brave, confident, smart, funny and I think I..."
The tears started prickling in my eyes. Please don't say it. Please don't ... Yet I knew he would.
"I love you."
He kissed me again, but it wasn't the same. I had failed. I let my emotions get the better of me. I didn't think of what would happen to Percy if I die tonight. I was selfish. I wanted him all to myself, at least for a few minutes and look what I've done. I wanted to say it back. I wanted to so bad, but it would hurt him even more once I'm gone. He deserves someone who will always be there for him like he was to me. I can't keep hurting him like this. Not like this.
I love you Percy. I love you so much.
I give him one last kiss and pull away. I open the car door and step out as quickly as I could. The tears are burning in my eyes, but I won't let them fall. I refuse to let him see me cry any longer. He can't love me. He can't.
His face looks hurt. So fucking hurt and it rips my heart to shreds that I'm doing this to him. But it's better this way. It's better if that when I die, he ends up hating me than loving me. That way, he can move on. The thought of me won't linger in his mind. He can just continue living his life and find another girl who will be there to love and support him. Who will have the certainty of being alive rather than dead.
My Gods I love him. And that's why it crushes my soul when I say "I'm sorry. That was a mistake."
He flinches, like I had just slapped him in the face with my words. "A mistake? How could you say that?"
I turn away from him so that I don't have to see the hurt in his eyes. "I shouldn't have done that Percy. I didn't know you felt that way about me and I'm sorry but I just don't..."
I can't say it. Even liars have their limits and I have just reached mine. I hear him step out of the car and I can feel his presence behind me.
"That's bullshit" he growls. "And we both know it." I've never heard Percy this angry before. A wave of guilt washes over me since I was the one to make him feel this way.
"It's the truth."
He grabs my shoulders and spins me around. His face is in a furious scowl and his eyes have darkened from their usual colour. "Stop lying Annabeth. I know you have some sort of feelings for me. You couldn't have just kissed me like you did without feeling something."
I looked away from his face. "I didn't feel-"
"Don't fucking say that" he interrupts. "We both know you're not saying the truth." He then puts his hands on my cheeks and kisses me with so much passion that my knees feel weak.
He pulls away after a few seconds and looks at my face intently. "Look me in the eye and tell me that you don't care about me. That you have absolutely no feelings for me. That you don't love me the way I love you."
There was a long pause. I couldn't do it. As much as I wanted to, so that I could save him from the hurt that was soon to come, I just couldn't. He wiped a tear that had traitorously leaked out and said in a soft voice "That's what I thought."
I ripped myself away from his grasp and said "I do care for you, you idiot. You're my friend, so of course I'd be lying if I said otherwise. But we will never, ever, be anything more than that."
He was about to interject when I heard Thalia's familiar voice. "Annabeth? Percy? Is that you?"
I turned away from him and started trudging towards the sound of Thalia's calls. "Come on. We've got a mission to complete."
So... yeah. That happened.
Ok, so I loved that I was finally able to incorporate their first kiss and I just loved every second of writing it, but I'm kinda depressed they didn't get together and that Annabeth's being stubborn. At least she admits she loves him now, so that has to justify for something right?
So, I'm going to be honest with you guys because I'm not sure when I'll have a chance to update again. This semester is the hardest yet and it's my senior year so I have to keep my grades up. Hopefully I will find time to get on the site again.
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the chapter you have all been patiently waiting for (even though it pretty much ended on a bad note). Please remember to review/comment on what you think!
I love you all and thanks again for being so patient! Until next time fellow demigods! :)