Here's a little something that Edward didn't share with us in chapter 29.

Outtake – Chapter 29

I'll never tire of kissing Edward. Even the first time our lips touched in his dressing room the night we met, sparks flew through my body and set me on fire.

Of course, I didn't think much of it back then. I knew he was a player, and I was taking what I wanted from him just as he was taking from me. I figured he was just good at what he did. But many conversations with Alice have led me to believe that it's not always like that. The connection that Edward and I share is something special, something not to be taken for granted.

So when Alice interrupts our kissing by telling me that I'm going to ruin my lipstick, I really want to flip her off. I don't let Edward's lips go until we have no choice, and he doesn't seem to want to stop kissing me either.

After saying goodbye to Esme and our baby girl, Edward drives us to the Tacoma Dome for Breaking Dawn's second to last show of the tour. I can tell that Alice is just about to burst with excitement that not only are we going to see them live, but we'll be watching from the side of the stage. Thankfully she got over her fangirling of Edward right about the time he made headlines for having sex in public, although she still admires his talent.

I'm glad that the two of them are able to get along now, for my sake and for Charlie's.

Hopefully Alice will get all of her excitement out now and not be crazy around Rose and Emmett. I tried to explain to her that, just like Edward, they're normal people who just happen to be musically talented.

As soon as we walk into the dressing room, Edward introduces Jasper and Alice.

"Emmett, Rosalie, this is Bella's best friend Alice and her boyfriend Jasper."

I can see the stars in Alice's eyes, but thankfully she reins herself in. "It's so nice to meet you both," she says. "I feel like I know you from how much Bella's told me about you."

"It's awesome to meet you, too, tiny one," Emmett says jovially before patting her on the head. He's such a big teddy bear. I can't imagine there's anyone he doesn't get along with.

I make my way over to Rose and give her a hug. "You look great," I tell her quietly. "Has your energy kicked back in yet?"

"I'm not nearly as tired as I was early on," she tells me. "But I'm really looking forward to some time off. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to hide this kid behind my bass!" She laughs and rubs her slightly rounded belly.

"May I?" I ask, gesturing to her stomach.

She smiles and nods, so I give it a little rub, almost missing the days of being pregnant. I'm so happy for her and Emmett, although I can admit to also being a little jealous of what they have that I missed out on. It's wonderful that Edward and I are trying to work on a relationship now, but nothing will give us back the time that we missed together when I was pregnant with Charlie.

I know things were meant to happen this way, though. I have frequently thought about what would have happened if Edward had been around when I was pregnant. It wouldn't have been the right time. He wasn't ready back then. Maybe he would have done what needed to be done for his daughter, but I'm sure that we wouldn't have grown as close as we have over the last several months.

And I'm absolutely sure he would never have fallen in love with me.

That's something I still have difficulty believing. I know how much Edward loves Charlie. He shows it every day with all the little things he says and does. I know how difficult this tour has been on him. I also know that I've pushed him away more times than I can count.

It's not that I didn't want to develop feelings for Edward, but more that I didn't ever think he could return them. I was protecting myself from getting hurt and trying to put Charlie first. But he's changed so much from the aloof playboy that I met over a year ago.

He started showing his caring side little by little, first with Charlie and later with me. As much as I hated his attitude early on, I could tell there was a scared but caring heart underneath it all.

As Alice, Jasper and I sit and watch Breaking Dawn's sound check my heart opens up a little more to the wonderful man on stage before me.

"Encore, encore!" Alice yells, causing all three members of the band to laugh. Jasper lets loose with a loud whistle through his teeth.

Edward smiles and winks at me from the stage.

"All right, guys. I think we're good," the guy says from behind us in the sound booth.

Edward leans into the mic and says, "I've got one more I wanna play. I think you two know it." He looks over to Rose and Em before strumming his guitar a few times.

The only sound in the entire arena is the sound of Edward's guitar. His eyes lock on mine as he starts singing.

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

"Oh my God, Bella," Alice whispers as she nudges me with her elbow.

I'm lost in Edward's eyes and words, and barely mutter an "uh huh" back to her.

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Jasper leans across Alice. "He's all right, Bells. I don't think he's jerking you around."

And I know that's Jasper's way of giving his approval. Whatever Edward said to him earlier must have made some kind of impression.

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

Emmett and Rose join in, but I'm completely focused on Edward.

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

And right there is the crux of the last seven months of Edward's life. We've both had a lot to learn about being parents and working together, but Edward needed to learn who he was. Sure, a part of him will always be the famous musician that people see in the rags. But underneath all of that is a real person who has a heart of gold when it comes to his parents, his daughter, and somehow, to me.

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

He breaks eye contact with me for the first time to look over at Rose, who nods at him as she begins to sing backup.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

I'm pretty much stunned silent when the song ends. I watch Edward's chest heaving up and down as he catches his breath, and it's not until Emmett makes some comment I don't catch that Edward's eyes leave mine.

Alice grabs my hand and pulls me up. "Come on. They said to come backstage." She smiles at me when my eyes finally leave the now empty stage and focus on her.

As soon as I find Edward, I step up to him and nearly knock him over as I kiss him with everything I have. His hands grasp my waist to hold me steady as he responds with just as much passion, just as much force. I can only hope this kiss tells him everything I'm not able to say to him yet.

When we finally break apart to catch our breath, Edward continues to hold me close. "So, you liked it?" he asks quietly, almost nervously.

"Yeah, I liked it," I tell him with a light laugh.

We spend some time backstage with pizza and beer before the show starts. As promised, Alice, Jasper and I get to watch from the side of the stage. We sing along, laugh and have a good time. Every time Edward looks over at me, I can't help but smile at him. I can see women in the audience screaming for him on the monitors and a few even holding up signs with marriage proposals. Yet somehow, his attention isn't focused on them anymore. It blows my mind that he has an entire audience out there and could have his pick of any woman, and yet he's looking at me, giving me that crooked smile or a sly wink. It's me he looks at with love in his eyes. It's me he calls beautiful. And it's me he'll be taking home tonight. I don't know how I got so lucky to have such an amazing man fall in love with me, but it just makes me want to be with him even more.

At the end of the night, Edward and I find ourselves alone in the media room in his house. It's only a matter of minutes before we're kissing heatedly again, this time on the couch. I never really thought of myself as a sexual person, but when I'm with Edward, it doesn't take long for my lust to be unleashed. He can make my stomach quiver with a simple touch, so it's no wonder I'm a panting mess as soon as his hands begin to roam my body.

When he removes my shirt I feel the need to cover up my body, but one look at his face gives me the courage to remain open to him. He's looking at me like I'm the most beautiful person in the world, and he's touching my body just as reverently. When he tells me I'm beautiful, I actually believe him.

And then he uses his hands on my body to make me feel beautiful.

I want to return the favor even though I'm horribly inexperienced, but Edward insists that it's not necessary. He told me before that he didn't want to take things too far until I was ready, and this is his way of stopping us from getting out of control.

We cuddle on the couch with my fingers in Edward's hair for a few minutes before I start to blurt out a question I really shouldn't ask.

"What is it?" he asks as his fingers trace up and down my spine.

"Nothing … Forget it."

"Bella, don't you know by now that I'd give you anything you ask for?" He kisses me sweetly, holding my face in his hand.

It takes me a minute, but I finally get up the nerve to ask him if we can continue cuddling while we sleep, and Edward has to go and embarrass me more.

"Isabella Swan, are you asking me to sleep with you?"

I know my cheeks are on fire but I laugh anyway. "You know what I mean."

He agrees but insists I put my shirt on, even going so far as to put it on for me.

"Edward Cullen," I say with a mock gasp. "Are you telling me to put clothes on?"

"Look, smartass, I promised you we were going to take this relationship slow, and this is me keeping that promise."

When we get to his bedroom, he looks incredibly nervous for some reason. "Is this okay?" he asks me, as if I'm going to tell him no after I was the one who suggested it.


He climbs into bed after I do and immediately pulls my body close. I sigh into his embrace and run my fingers up and down the arm he has draped over my waist, making a stupid comment about how comfortable his bed is when I'm really talking about being in his arms.

"It's even better now," he responds, tightening his grip on me.

"Are you gonna try to tell me you haven't done this before?" I ask, turning around as much as I can and trying to keep up the joking atmosphere.

"Never done this before," he says, kissing me lightly. "You're the first woman I've had in my bed, Bella … Ever."

I snuggle back into his arms and hope no other woman ever gets this privilege. As difficult as it is for me to admit, I want what Edward wants—him in my life, permanently.

A/N: This outtake was requested by beachcomberlc while the story was still being written. I hope I did it justice! Even though she beta'd it, all mistakes are still mine.

I don't own the lyrics to Jason Mraz's "I Won't Give Up." If you don't know the song, you can find it on YouTube.

Thank you all once again for your support of this story. Hopefully I'll be back soon with another one!