AN: I know it's been a while since I've updated this and it may have seem like i gave up on this story but i haven't it just took me a while because i had a bad case of writer's block and I didn't know what direction this chapter would take as well as the future chapters. But i got my muse back so i hope i didn't completely lose my readers. I also want to thank Fanwoman21 for creating and letting me borrow Sophia, who you catch a glimpse of in this chapter. With that said i Hope you enjoy the chapter.
Nora touched her lips with the pad of her fingers as she stared ahead of her. She had kissed Jax and even though he was still technically married. She didn't feel regret or shame over it.
The only thing she felt was uncertainty at what happened next. She was pregnant and had her baby to think about. While Jax had his two sons to think about. There was no way either of them could rush into something. They both had to think not only think about how getting into something would affect the people around them but most importantly how it would affect their kids.
Sighing Nora went back to studying for her finals, only to stop a moment later. Her mind wondering back to the kiss and how instead of getting answers things had gotten even more complicated.
Get yourself together and focus on studying. This whole situation with Jax can wait. Her subconscious reprimanded her.
Nora had just picked up the pen to take some notes when her cell phone started to ring.
"Hello?" she asked uncertainly and somewhat breathless.
"I hope I wasn't interrupting something. Like hot wild monkey sex," her best friend, Sophia, teased.
"There's no wild hot monkey sex going on. Nor will there ever be anytime soon and for your information I was studying for my finals."
"Studying doesn't leave you breathless," Sophia pointed out.
"It just ended up sounding like that when I answered the phone," Nora exasperatedly said.
"I know. I'm just teasing you," Sophia said softly laughing.
"Of course you are," Nora muttered as a small smile spread across her features.
"How have you been feeling?"
"I've been feeling better. Morning sickness is starting to subside, although it's mostly thanks to the good ol' doctor," Nora said jokingly.
"How's my little monkey doing?"
"I don't why you keep calling the baby that but he or she is fine. I should know the sex of the baby by the next appointment."
"Are you excited to find out?"
"Yeah I am. I just don't know if it's because of the shopping or picking out a name," Nora said softly laughing.
"Both are good perks," Sophia pointed out.
"Except for the slight pressure on picking a good name,"
"Just don't pick out anything too weird and you'll be fine. Listen the reason I'm calling is because I'm heading your way tomorrow and I wanted to give you a heads up."
"Temporarily or permanently?"
"We'll see but for now it's only temporary. Besides I'm done with school for now."
"So you decided to come and see little ol' me," Nora teased.
"You wish. I'm going to see whether my little monkey is a boy or girl,"
Nora continued talking to Sophia for a little longer before hanging up. Now she had something else to think about. Other than what was going to happen between her and Jax.
"So what time is Sophia getting here?"
Nora put her fork down before looking at Colette, "I don't she said sometime in the afternoon but the way she drives I wouldn't be surprised if she got here at noon."
"More like crazy driver. I'm surprised she hasn't gotten her license suspended," Nora said shaking her head.
Colette couldn't help but laugh at Nora's expression, no doubt remembering Sophia's driving.
"It's not funny. I feared for my life," Nora stated.
"Then why would you get in the car with her?"
"I had no means of transportation and this was before I learned anything about time management," Nora explained shrugging as if it should have been obvious.
Colette shook her head and was about to say something when one of the girls walked into the kitchen.
"Nero and Jax are looking for you," Lacey, one of the girls, informed her. "What do I tell them?"
"You going to be okay?" Colette questioned Nora.
"Yeah I just finished anyways. I'll be right behind you, I have to get going to class."
Colette nodded before following after Lacey.
Nora watched her mother leave before she put her plate in the sink. Quickly washing it before leaving the kitchen.
She walked passed the living room but stopped as she reached the stairs. Turning around she saw Jax already staring at her. Not knowing where they stood after the day before, Nora quickly turned around and took the stairs as quickly as possible. Without trying to seem like she was running away. Even though she kind of was.
Once safely in her room, she grabbed her bag and took a deep breath before leaving her room. This time taking the stairs at a slower and more normal pace than before.
Looking into the living room she noticed that no one was in there. She released the breath she hadn't realized she had been holding before turning around and making her way out the door.
"If I didn't know any better I would think you were avoiding me," someone called out as soon as she cleared the front steps.
Quickly turning around, Nora didn't know how it was possible for him to get any better looking but having him leaning against the house made it possible.
"If I didn't know any better I would think you were stalking me," Nora answered as soon as she had gotten her voice back.
Not waiting for him to answer she turned around and started making her way towards the gate.
"Did I do something wrong?" he questioned as he took a hold of her arm.
"No. I just have to get to the bus stop before I miss it or else I'll be late for school," Nora said while moving out of his hold.
"I can give you a ride."
"I can't ride," Nora answered motioning towards her small noticeable bump.
"I brought the truck," Jax stated not giving her any room to argue.
Sighing, Nora followed behind him. Stopping and climbing into the passenger seat as he held the door open. All the while looking down in order to escape making eye contact with him. Not wanting to let herself get lost in his blue eyes without knowing exactly where they stood with each other.
Besides giving him the directions, the car ride was kept in a semi awkward silence. Both wanting answers but not knowing how to go about receiving them. At least Nora didn't.
"Listen about the kiss," Jax said breaking the silence between them.
"Its fine," Nora answered waving him off as she felt her heart drop. "Don't worry about it. It shouldn't have happened. I get it."
"Can you just let me finish before jumping to conclusions," Jax stated staring at her as they came to a stop at a red light.
She nodded not trusting her voice because of the small hope that was starting to form once again.
"I shouldn't have kissed you," Jax responded after the light turned green and the truck surged forward once again. "At least not until I was finally divorced. I don't want you to feel ashamed or guilty about it because it wasn't your fault. I should have been able to hold back instead of just going full speed ahead."
"It's okay Jax," Nora softly answered placing her hand on top of his where it was resting on the center console. "I could have stopped you if I wanted to. I guess I let my emotions get the best of me but I don't regret it."
"Whoa, I didn't say I regret it," Jax explained glancing at her. knowing how she must have taken his words. "I should have just waited until I was divorced. Remember what you told me that day we met."
Nora looked at him before nodding, "Yeah, that I don't do married men."
"Exactly that's why I shouldn't have kissed you because I remembered what you said and I didn't want you to feel guilty or ashamed."
"Well I don't but you're right we can't do this," Nora answered. "At least not while you're unsure of what it is you want."
"My marriage is over."
"That's what you say now Jax," Nora informed him. "But what if you decide that she's worth fighting for. I'm not going to be the reason why you jump into anything. Its better if we take some time to decide and come to terms with what we really want instead of letting whatever this is cloud our judgement."
"What if I know what I want?"
"Then the time apart will solidify it but I won't blame you for trying to make things work with your wife if you change your mind," Nora answered grabbing her book bag. "She's the mother of your kids and you've been through a lot together. Just don't make any decisions without completely thinking it through."
Nora paused looking back at him as she opened the door, "Whatever happens just know that you'll always have a friend in me. Thanks for the ride and take care of yourself."
She knew this was what they both needed in order to make sense of what they wanted. Their emotions were too jumbled up to let them see clearly. Before they could go any further into whatever they were they needed to figure out exactly what they wanted and how they felt. Having some time apart would help them clearly figure it out.
Turning back she saw him pull away from the curb and she knew that this was what they both needed. No matter how much it seemed to hurt.
I know it might not be what you were hoping for and i apologize but a little time apart will serve them some good to figure out exactly what they need. But just because they're on a break that doesn't mean it's the last you've seen of Jax or the club. After all they are Colette's partners when it comes to business. Also next chapter is when Sophia fully comes into the story so stay tuned for that. I'll try to update soon but i can't make any promises since classes start up again on Monday. But it wont be years or months before you get another update.